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39 00:02:48,202 --> 00:02:49,635 (man coughing) 40 00:02:49,637 --> 00:02:50,502 Ralph? 41 00:02:50,504 --> 00:02:51,503 - Shelby! 42 00:02:51,505 --> 00:02:52,938 Thank you. 43 00:02:52,940 --> 00:02:54,873 This traffic report is brought to you by 44 00:02:54,875 --> 00:02:57,643 Cosima at Mill Number One. 45 00:02:57,645 --> 00:02:59,211 You're looking at a free and easy ride 46 00:02:59,213 --> 00:03:01,213 on the topside of the beltway 47 00:03:01,214 --> 00:03:03,214 in a fairly incident-free stretch from Perring Parkway 48 00:03:03,217 --> 00:03:05,617 all the way to the 795 split. 49 00:03:05,619 --> 00:03:09,321 Southbound Harbor Tunnel, this is a mess. 50 00:03:09,323 --> 00:03:11,823 You are jammed with both lanes closed 51 00:03:11,825 --> 00:03:14,593 due to an overturned tractor trailer. 52 00:03:14,595 --> 00:03:16,728 Fire and police are on the scene 53 00:03:16,730 --> 00:03:20,399 and you've got rubbernecking every which way. 54 00:03:20,401 --> 00:03:23,635 I'm Ralph Kirk for Catonsville Public Radio. 55 00:03:23,637 --> 00:03:25,170 - Thanks, Ralph. 56 00:03:25,171 --> 00:03:26,704 Support for this morning's selection 57 00:03:26,705 --> 00:03:28,238 of classical music favorites is brought to you by 58 00:03:28,242 --> 00:03:30,909 Lily Schlump with Yerman and Conklin Realty. 59 00:03:30,911 --> 00:03:32,978 Don't trust the purchase of your new home 60 00:03:32,980 --> 00:03:35,447 or the sale of your existing one to just anybody. 61 00:03:35,449 --> 00:03:36,815 "Think Schlump," 62 00:03:36,817 --> 00:03:39,785 Lily Schlump, Yerman and Conklin Realty. 63 00:03:39,787 --> 00:03:41,587 So many more classical music favorites 64 00:03:41,589 --> 00:03:44,273 coming up at the top of the hour, 65 00:03:44,274 --> 00:03:46,958 so keep your dial tuned to Catonsville Public Radio. 66 00:03:46,961 --> 00:03:49,428 (clicking) 67 00:03:51,265 --> 00:03:52,531 - Looks like you still have a soft spot 68 00:03:52,533 --> 00:03:54,533 for the novelty of yesteryear. 69 00:03:54,535 --> 00:03:56,702 - Thank you for taking time out of your 70 00:03:56,703 --> 00:03:58,870 presumably very busy day to share a moment with us. 71 00:03:58,872 --> 00:04:00,472 - The pleasure is all mine. 72 00:04:00,474 --> 00:04:01,907 I couldn't be happier to have this dialogue 73 00:04:01,909 --> 00:04:05,544 with the good folks over at Baltimore Commerce Journal. 74 00:04:05,546 --> 00:04:06,411 - Very good. 75 00:04:06,413 --> 00:04:07,646 Now, Mr. Prattleton-- 76 00:04:07,648 --> 00:04:09,548 - Please, call me Joel. 77 00:04:09,550 --> 00:04:12,251 - You're something of a rising star 78 00:04:12,253 --> 00:04:15,687 here at Rosen, Prattleton, Nagel & Suffield. 79 00:04:15,689 --> 00:04:18,257 In just a few short years, you've graduated 80 00:04:18,259 --> 00:04:20,492 from business school and established yourself 81 00:04:20,494 --> 00:04:23,495 as this firm's preeminent brand marketing manager. 82 00:04:23,497 --> 00:04:26,765 How did you pull off such a lofty feat? 83 00:04:26,767 --> 00:04:28,033 - Well, Ashley, 84 00:04:28,869 --> 00:04:30,636 with modesty 85 00:04:30,638 --> 00:04:32,838 and in all candor, 86 00:04:32,840 --> 00:04:34,873 I like to think of myself as something of 87 00:04:34,875 --> 00:04:37,843 a modern day Horatio Alger success story. 88 00:04:37,845 --> 00:04:40,045 The embodiment and personification 89 00:04:40,047 --> 00:04:42,481 of capitalist opportunity for all, 90 00:04:42,483 --> 00:04:45,284 a triumph of American exceptionalism. 91 00:04:45,286 --> 00:04:47,052 - On the subject of opportunity, 92 00:04:47,054 --> 00:04:50,389 as Tyler Prattleton's only scion and the only heir 93 00:04:50,391 --> 00:04:52,791 to his enormous publishing empire, 94 00:04:52,793 --> 00:04:55,327 some might posit that you're being groomed 95 00:04:55,329 --> 00:04:57,496 as his eventual successor. 96 00:04:57,498 --> 00:05:00,032 - Right now, the primary focus in my life 97 00:05:00,034 --> 00:05:02,401 is devoting my abilities to our valued clients 98 00:05:02,403 --> 00:05:06,038 here at Rosen, Prattleton, Nagel & Suffield. 99 00:05:06,040 --> 00:05:08,473 - Would you deny that you're in line 100 00:05:08,475 --> 00:05:09,941 to succeed your father at the reins 101 00:05:09,943 --> 00:05:11,476 of Prattleton Publishing? 102 00:05:11,478 --> 00:05:13,979 - I would argue that my available energies 103 00:05:13,981 --> 00:05:17,416 are more wisely utilized by listening to the needs 104 00:05:17,418 --> 00:05:19,818 of our current clients and serving them 105 00:05:19,820 --> 00:05:22,354 as capably as I possibly can. 106 00:05:22,356 --> 00:05:23,689 - I would counter 107 00:05:23,691 --> 00:05:26,658 that you're merely biding your time 108 00:05:26,660 --> 00:05:29,428 with a honey of a deal that landed you 109 00:05:29,430 --> 00:05:32,097 a vanity partnership at the very firm 110 00:05:32,099 --> 00:05:34,966 that manages your father's brand. 111 00:05:34,968 --> 00:05:38,937 - That would seem to be a misguided and ill-advised use 112 00:05:38,939 --> 00:05:42,841 of my intellect and personal skill set. 113 00:05:42,843 --> 00:05:43,875 - In short, 114 00:05:43,877 --> 00:05:46,111 where would you find yourself 115 00:05:46,113 --> 00:05:48,613 if it weren't for the good graces 116 00:05:48,615 --> 00:05:51,116 of your family's storied lineage? 117 00:05:51,118 --> 00:05:53,085 - If not for the love and support of our parents, 118 00:05:53,087 --> 00:05:56,421 where would any of us find ourselves? 119 00:05:57,458 --> 00:05:59,658 It just doesn't seem to be an issue 120 00:05:59,660 --> 00:06:03,095 that is particularly exclusive to me or my family. 121 00:06:03,097 --> 00:06:05,630 - Very few people in the Baltimore business community 122 00:06:05,632 --> 00:06:09,034 cast a shadow as outsized as your father's. 123 00:06:09,036 --> 00:06:12,104 - I certainly can't deny that. 124 00:06:12,106 --> 00:06:14,606 But no one can say that they have the luxury 125 00:06:14,608 --> 00:06:17,376 of choosing the sort of life that we're born into. 126 00:06:17,378 --> 00:06:19,811 - Is there any room in the already 127 00:06:19,813 --> 00:06:23,081 crowded personal narrative of Joel Prattleton 128 00:06:23,083 --> 00:06:26,084 to consider the crushing socioeconomic and 129 00:06:26,086 --> 00:06:29,588 racial divide that is cannibalizing our city 130 00:06:29,590 --> 00:06:31,089 from the inside out? 131 00:06:31,091 --> 00:06:32,424 - Well, sure. 132 00:06:34,561 --> 00:06:36,595 It's something that we think about and reflect upon 133 00:06:36,597 --> 00:06:37,763 all of the time. 134 00:06:37,765 --> 00:06:38,764 - Who's we? 135 00:06:39,867 --> 00:06:40,866 - You know. 136 00:06:40,868 --> 00:06:42,401 The proverbial "we." 137 00:06:42,403 --> 00:06:45,437 - Our collective lack of moral conscience? 138 00:06:45,439 --> 00:06:47,172 - I just think 139 00:06:47,174 --> 00:06:49,808 that sometimes we all find ourselves 140 00:06:49,810 --> 00:06:52,878 lost in the weeds of the theoretical 141 00:06:52,880 --> 00:06:56,915 and everybody deserves the occasional reprieve 142 00:06:56,917 --> 00:06:59,751 from wearing the weight of the world upon one's shoulders. 143 00:06:59,753 --> 00:07:01,720 (chuckling) 144 00:07:01,722 --> 00:07:04,923 - What a luxury of incalculable worth. 145 00:07:08,662 --> 00:07:11,129 (somber music) 146 00:07:11,131 --> 00:07:13,965 (train bell ringing) 147 00:07:13,967 --> 00:07:17,702 (woman speaking Bulgarian) 148 00:07:19,640 --> 00:07:22,774 (speaking Bulgarian) 149 00:07:27,614 --> 00:07:30,148 (somber music) 150 00:08:00,581 --> 00:08:02,881 - We have an appointment. 151 00:08:02,883 --> 00:08:04,015 - Aneta? 152 00:08:04,017 --> 00:08:05,750 - Kostadinova. 153 00:08:05,752 --> 00:08:07,486 - And Natalya-- 154 00:08:07,488 --> 00:08:08,753 - Aleksandrova. 155 00:08:09,723 --> 00:08:11,556 - Since you're both new patients, 156 00:08:11,558 --> 00:08:14,226 I'm just need to collect some more information from you. 157 00:08:14,228 --> 00:08:16,895 So fill this out if you would. 158 00:08:17,865 --> 00:08:18,997 - Blogodaria. 159 00:08:19,900 --> 00:08:23,502 (somber Christmas music) 160 00:08:28,075 --> 00:08:30,809 - Is all of this really necessary? 161 00:08:30,811 --> 00:08:32,143 - I'm sorry? 162 00:08:32,145 --> 00:08:35,180 - The unrelenting cacophony 163 00:08:35,182 --> 00:08:38,116 of traditional seasonal favorites? 164 00:08:40,954 --> 00:08:42,754 - Be sure to stick with us after the top of the hour 165 00:08:42,756 --> 00:08:44,689 and join me on a seafaring search 166 00:08:44,691 --> 00:08:49,194 for reclusive Eastern Shore culinary wizard Roy Gussy 167 00:08:49,196 --> 00:08:50,795 and his much-sought-after recipe 168 00:08:50,797 --> 00:08:53,598 for crab and shrimp au gratin. 169 00:08:53,600 --> 00:08:55,634 Doesn't that sound delicious, folks? 170 00:08:55,636 --> 00:08:58,103 If you're only just now joining us here on Charm TV, 171 00:08:58,105 --> 00:09:00,305 our guest is Priscilla Hollingsworth. 172 00:09:00,307 --> 00:09:02,707 She's here to talk about her new book, 173 00:09:02,709 --> 00:09:05,977 "I Thought I Had Cancer, But I Didn't." 174 00:09:05,979 --> 00:09:10,315 A memoir, if you will, chronicling her whirlwind experience 175 00:09:10,317 --> 00:09:13,118 coming perilously close to death, 176 00:09:13,120 --> 00:09:14,753 except she didn't, 177 00:09:14,755 --> 00:09:16,788 everything's okay, 178 00:09:16,789 --> 00:09:18,822 and she's here to talk with us on the program today. 179 00:09:18,825 --> 00:09:21,726 Please join me in welcoming Miss Hollingsworth. 180 00:09:21,728 --> 00:09:22,794 - Thanks. 181 00:09:22,796 --> 00:09:24,663 Thanks for having me. 182 00:09:24,665 --> 00:09:27,265 - So you thought you had cancer. 183 00:09:28,201 --> 00:09:29,100 - Yep. 184 00:09:33,907 --> 00:09:35,307 - But you didn't. 185 00:09:36,643 --> 00:09:37,976 - I know, right? 186 00:09:40,814 --> 00:09:44,616 - Maybe delve into the swirling mix of emotions 187 00:09:44,618 --> 00:09:47,686 I'm sure you must have experienced during this whole 188 00:09:47,688 --> 00:09:49,688 excruciating affair. 189 00:09:49,690 --> 00:09:53,758 Take us inside the "story behind the story." 190 00:09:53,760 --> 00:09:54,893 - Right, yeah. 191 00:09:54,895 --> 00:09:55,827 Well, um. 192 00:09:57,631 --> 00:10:00,165 I thought I had cancer. 193 00:10:00,167 --> 00:10:01,099 - Right. 194 00:10:02,369 --> 00:10:03,835 - But I didn't. 195 00:10:07,307 --> 00:10:11,710 - Perhaps with the broadest strokes of an orator's brush, 196 00:10:11,712 --> 00:10:15,246 paint a picture of your mind set at the time. 197 00:10:15,248 --> 00:10:18,283 Outline some of the very trying challenges 198 00:10:18,285 --> 00:10:20,185 I'm sure you had to face. 199 00:10:20,187 --> 00:10:22,787 - Then you wouldn't have a reason to buy the book, 200 00:10:22,789 --> 00:10:23,688 now would you? 201 00:10:23,690 --> 00:10:25,874 (laughing) 202 00:10:25,875 --> 00:10:28,059 Wait, which camera am I looking at here? 203 00:10:29,730 --> 00:10:30,662 This one? 204 00:10:31,698 --> 00:10:33,331 Purchase my book at all your 205 00:10:33,333 --> 00:10:36,001 fine local booksellers everywhere. 206 00:10:36,003 --> 00:10:37,802 You won't regret it. 207 00:10:43,877 --> 00:10:45,744 Well, I mean 208 00:10:45,746 --> 00:10:48,213 if a young person had cancer, 209 00:10:49,249 --> 00:10:51,216 that'd be really scary. So... 210 00:10:51,218 --> 00:10:54,019 it's almost like a horror genre. 211 00:10:56,189 --> 00:10:57,422 - [TV Host] Except that it's real 212 00:10:57,424 --> 00:10:58,723 and it really happened. 213 00:10:58,725 --> 00:10:59,858 - I know! To me! 214 00:10:59,860 --> 00:11:02,994 (Priscilla laughing) 215 00:11:03,864 --> 00:11:06,231 I didn't say that it went well. 216 00:11:06,233 --> 00:11:08,099 On the plus side, 217 00:11:08,101 --> 00:11:10,835 I do think that you can really see my passion 218 00:11:10,837 --> 00:11:13,872 to sell the book shining through. 219 00:11:13,874 --> 00:11:15,740 - Miss Hollingsworth, 220 00:11:15,742 --> 00:11:18,910 part of your responsibility as a member of 221 00:11:18,912 --> 00:11:22,113 the Prattleton Publishing family 222 00:11:22,115 --> 00:11:26,451 is to make a healthy effort to promote your title 223 00:11:26,453 --> 00:11:30,121 and thus your brand as an emerging author. 224 00:11:30,123 --> 00:11:35,460 And you are not holding up your end of the bargain. 225 00:11:38,365 --> 00:11:41,933 - I don't know what you expect me to... 226 00:11:41,935 --> 00:11:43,334 I don't know, what? 227 00:11:43,336 --> 00:11:46,971 - Feign an interest in being engaged. 228 00:11:46,973 --> 00:11:48,039 Very simple. 229 00:11:49,710 --> 00:11:53,912 - I really feel like the work should just speak for itself. 230 00:11:53,914 --> 00:11:57,048 It has become a farcical spectacle 231 00:11:57,050 --> 00:12:00,452 for me to keep hashing this out over and over again 232 00:12:00,454 --> 00:12:02,721 when the whole point of this exercise 233 00:12:02,723 --> 00:12:06,357 was for me to sit down and come up with the most concise 234 00:12:06,359 --> 00:12:09,294 and effective way of communicating an idea 235 00:12:09,296 --> 00:12:12,297 in the most enjoyable way possible. 236 00:12:13,734 --> 00:12:15,133 - I see. 237 00:12:15,135 --> 00:12:17,102 - So I did that. 238 00:12:17,104 --> 00:12:20,305 So why now must I be obligated to go out there 239 00:12:20,307 --> 00:12:24,342 and jibber-jabber through the whole whoever-what 240 00:12:24,344 --> 00:12:27,479 on a daily basis with a bunch of Nancy Nobodies 241 00:12:27,481 --> 00:12:28,947 and Jerry Come Latelies? 242 00:12:28,949 --> 00:12:31,149 - You will do it 243 00:12:31,150 --> 00:12:33,350 because the terms of your advance oblige you 244 00:12:33,353 --> 00:12:37,055 to make a reasonable effort to promote your title 245 00:12:37,057 --> 00:12:39,390 and your brand as an author. 246 00:12:43,530 --> 00:12:45,997 - Let me see what I can do. 247 00:12:51,271 --> 00:12:54,472 - [Joel] It's been a tough year for ideas. 248 00:12:54,474 --> 00:12:56,141 - I would actually argue that it's been 249 00:12:56,143 --> 00:12:58,209 a banner year for ideas. 250 00:12:58,211 --> 00:13:01,346 But, unfortunately, in terms of their execution 251 00:13:01,348 --> 00:13:03,515 and to the question of how much energy 252 00:13:03,517 --> 00:13:05,350 and how many resources have been allocated 253 00:13:05,352 --> 00:13:07,352 in pursuit of those ideas, 254 00:13:07,354 --> 00:13:10,889 it's been a much more lackluster stretch. 255 00:13:10,891 --> 00:13:11,856 - Joel? 256 00:13:11,858 --> 00:13:13,291 Is that you? 257 00:13:13,293 --> 00:13:14,893 - Sure, why not? 258 00:13:14,895 --> 00:13:16,027 - Thought so. 259 00:13:17,063 --> 00:13:19,330 - Guilty as charged. 260 00:13:19,332 --> 00:13:20,799 - You guys here to see Alan? 261 00:13:20,801 --> 00:13:22,200 - No, I'm just... 262 00:13:25,071 --> 00:13:26,871 just here for my morning coffee. 263 00:13:26,873 --> 00:13:31,075 - Morning buzz with a half-shot of raspberry? 264 00:13:31,077 --> 00:13:33,011 - You know me so well. 265 00:13:34,247 --> 00:13:37,916 - Care to introduce me to your friend? 266 00:13:37,918 --> 00:13:39,050 - I'm Jonathan. 267 00:13:39,052 --> 00:13:41,352 - Jonathan, nice to meet you. 268 00:13:41,354 --> 00:13:44,155 Joel never was one for introductions. 269 00:13:44,157 --> 00:13:45,490 - Nice to meet you too... 270 00:13:45,492 --> 00:13:46,357 - Shawnee. 271 00:13:46,359 --> 00:13:47,292 - Shawnee. 272 00:13:50,096 --> 00:13:51,362 - How'd you find yourself keeping 273 00:13:51,364 --> 00:13:53,898 such exquisite company, Jonathan? 274 00:13:53,900 --> 00:13:56,968 - I am the senior in-house brand marketing consultant 275 00:13:56,970 --> 00:14:00,171 at Rosen, Prattleton, Nagel & Suffield. 276 00:14:00,173 --> 00:14:01,906 So, of course, we all know Joel here. 277 00:14:01,908 --> 00:14:02,974 - Of course. 278 00:14:06,913 --> 00:14:10,014 - I guess I should be leaving you two to your devices. 279 00:14:10,016 --> 00:14:11,633 Coffee's on me. 280 00:14:11,634 --> 00:14:13,251 Just consider it complements of the house. 281 00:14:13,253 --> 00:14:14,185 Excuse me. 282 00:14:15,222 --> 00:14:16,154 - Shawnee? 283 00:14:18,225 --> 00:14:21,392 I just wanted to thank you for the complimentary coffee. 284 00:14:21,394 --> 00:14:23,962 It was a truly unnecessary gesture, 285 00:14:23,964 --> 00:14:28,399 which is why I suppose I appreciated it all that much more. 286 00:14:28,401 --> 00:14:30,068 - Yeah, no worries. 287 00:14:30,070 --> 00:14:31,870 Make it a great day. 288 00:14:35,308 --> 00:14:37,976 - So, what was that all about? 289 00:14:41,281 --> 00:14:44,883 (quiet "We Three Kings") 290 00:14:47,053 --> 00:14:47,919 - I'm sorry. 291 00:14:47,921 --> 00:14:49,921 Is the music too soft? 292 00:14:49,923 --> 00:14:50,655 - Uh uh. 293 00:14:52,559 --> 00:14:54,492 (volume raising) 294 00:14:54,494 --> 00:14:57,195 - I just love the holidays. 295 00:14:57,197 --> 00:15:00,198 ("We Three Kings") 296 00:15:04,304 --> 00:15:07,171 - So what's going on in the world? 297 00:15:07,173 --> 00:15:08,306 - Izvinyavai? 298 00:15:09,509 --> 00:15:13,077 - I said, "what's going on in the world?" 299 00:15:18,685 --> 00:15:21,085 (sighing) 300 00:15:22,122 --> 00:15:24,222 How long is it going to be 301 00:15:24,224 --> 00:15:26,491 before I see Doctor Grappa? 302 00:15:28,361 --> 00:15:29,327 - Ma'am. 303 00:15:29,329 --> 00:15:30,595 I can assure you 304 00:15:30,597 --> 00:15:32,530 that once Doctor Grappa has attended to his 305 00:15:32,532 --> 00:15:35,066 previously scheduled appointments, 306 00:15:35,068 --> 00:15:36,968 we'll be able to fit you right in. 307 00:15:36,970 --> 00:15:39,337 - But this is a dental emergency. 308 00:15:39,339 --> 00:15:40,371 - Ma'am. 309 00:15:40,373 --> 00:15:42,173 Doctor Grappa will address 310 00:15:42,175 --> 00:15:44,676 your dental emergency in due course. 311 00:15:44,678 --> 00:15:49,080 Thank you in advance for your patience and understanding. 312 00:15:52,352 --> 00:15:54,485 - What a load of malarkey. 313 00:16:06,566 --> 00:16:07,565 - You know, 314 00:16:09,336 --> 00:16:11,536 I am just not feeling it today. 315 00:16:11,538 --> 00:16:12,470 - Hmm. 316 00:16:14,074 --> 00:16:16,007 - Do you think there are people out there 317 00:16:16,009 --> 00:16:19,711 who do what we do and take genuine pleasure in what they do? 318 00:16:19,713 --> 00:16:23,614 - Are you saying that you're lacking in job satisfaction? 319 00:16:23,616 --> 00:16:25,984 - That's not exactly it. 320 00:16:25,986 --> 00:16:27,251 But then, 321 00:16:27,253 --> 00:16:28,586 I rarely wear a smile on my face 322 00:16:28,588 --> 00:16:31,289 when I walk into work everyday. 323 00:16:31,291 --> 00:16:33,291 - Everybody takes joy in different things 324 00:16:33,293 --> 00:16:36,127 in their own unique way. 325 00:16:36,129 --> 00:16:37,061 - I wonder 326 00:16:37,063 --> 00:16:42,133 if I am surreptitiously sabotaging my best efforts 327 00:16:42,135 --> 00:16:45,370 because of an underlying dislike of myself 328 00:16:45,372 --> 00:16:49,374 and an ingrained distrust of an established process. 329 00:16:49,376 --> 00:16:52,377 - I think that you're once again over-analyzing 330 00:16:52,379 --> 00:16:54,345 and intellectualizing something that 331 00:16:54,347 --> 00:16:57,115 is supposed to be a fun, effortless 332 00:16:57,117 --> 00:17:00,785 and sometimes even enjoyable experience. 333 00:17:00,787 --> 00:17:03,588 - Well? What's the alternative? 334 00:17:03,590 --> 00:17:05,056 - It could start with something as simple 335 00:17:05,058 --> 00:17:07,191 as how you greet the day. 336 00:17:07,193 --> 00:17:11,596 It's about interrupting repetitive and detrimental thoughts 337 00:17:11,598 --> 00:17:15,600 and seeing what impact that has on your everyday behavior. 338 00:17:15,602 --> 00:17:19,470 - That sounds like an awfully lofty feat. 339 00:17:19,472 --> 00:17:21,372 - Why isn't today the day 340 00:17:21,374 --> 00:17:23,775 that you sever your addiction to all of the 341 00:17:23,777 --> 00:17:26,244 compulsive habits that contribute to your inability 342 00:17:26,246 --> 00:17:29,447 to follow through on achieving established goals? 343 00:17:29,449 --> 00:17:31,582 - Maybe I just don't want to. 344 00:17:31,584 --> 00:17:34,185 I like the way that I live. 345 00:17:34,187 --> 00:17:37,388 I have very loosely defined medium term goals 346 00:17:37,390 --> 00:17:39,257 that rarely consume a burdensome amount of 347 00:17:39,259 --> 00:17:40,625 my time and energy. 348 00:17:40,627 --> 00:17:43,361 It's a comfortable place for me to be 349 00:17:43,363 --> 00:17:45,763 and I happen to think that's all perfectly peachy, 350 00:17:45,765 --> 00:17:47,988 for now. 351 00:17:47,989 --> 00:17:50,212 - Maybe that's because you haven't fully realized 352 00:17:50,213 --> 00:17:52,436 the negative repercussions of your actions and decisions. 353 00:17:52,439 --> 00:17:55,139 You're frittering away your most precious resource 354 00:17:55,141 --> 00:17:57,408 and undervalued asset: 355 00:17:57,410 --> 00:17:58,609 your vital years, 356 00:17:58,611 --> 00:18:01,546 rich with promise and good health. 357 00:18:04,350 --> 00:18:07,218 - Then I guess them's the breaks. 358 00:18:07,220 --> 00:18:08,352 - I guess so. 359 00:18:10,256 --> 00:18:13,391 (upbeat flute music) 360 00:18:21,134 --> 00:18:22,733 - Thanks for joining us. 361 00:18:22,735 --> 00:18:25,203 I'm Petunia Floringbrickle. 362 00:18:26,406 --> 00:18:27,872 Sickness. 363 00:18:27,874 --> 00:18:29,574 Health. 364 00:18:29,576 --> 00:18:30,508 Despair. 365 00:18:31,544 --> 00:18:32,477 Solace. 366 00:18:33,413 --> 00:18:34,479 Uncertainty. 367 00:18:35,448 --> 00:18:36,447 Revelation. 368 00:18:37,584 --> 00:18:40,418 This is the story of our guest, 369 00:18:40,420 --> 00:18:43,521 author Priscilla Hollingsworth. 370 00:18:43,523 --> 00:18:46,391 Her debut memoir, 371 00:18:46,392 --> 00:18:49,260 "Evocation of a Lost American Dream: One Woman's Journey," 372 00:18:49,262 --> 00:18:51,796 was the recipient of an honorable mention 373 00:18:51,798 --> 00:18:56,300 at the 2012 Mid-Atlantic Regional Book Festival. 374 00:18:56,302 --> 00:18:59,370 Now, she finds herself here in our studio 375 00:18:59,372 --> 00:19:01,405 to discuss her latest book, 376 00:19:01,407 --> 00:19:03,341 the unambiguously titled, 377 00:19:03,343 --> 00:19:07,178 "I Thought I Had Cancer, But I Didn't." 378 00:19:07,180 --> 00:19:09,364 Ms. Hollingsworth, 379 00:19:09,365 --> 00:19:11,549 thank you for taking the time to share with us today. 380 00:19:11,551 --> 00:19:13,217 - Thank you for... 381 00:19:15,455 --> 00:19:16,387 Yep. 382 00:19:16,389 --> 00:19:19,590 - Do you believe the memoir as a narrative tradition 383 00:19:19,592 --> 00:19:20,725 is in crisis? 384 00:19:21,895 --> 00:19:24,462 - I think that it is wonderful 385 00:19:24,464 --> 00:19:28,399 that so many people are sharing their personal 386 00:19:30,503 --> 00:19:34,739 experiences and perspectives with the world. 387 00:19:34,741 --> 00:19:36,607 - Can you point to a recent memoir 388 00:19:36,609 --> 00:19:39,410 that you've personally enjoyed? 389 00:19:39,412 --> 00:19:42,647 - Well, I've been busy writing my own, so... 390 00:19:42,649 --> 00:19:45,516 come on, who's got time for that? 391 00:19:47,387 --> 00:19:49,654 - Let's talk about the title of your new book. 392 00:19:49,656 --> 00:19:51,389 - Oh yes, let's do. 393 00:19:52,592 --> 00:19:54,792 - Was there ever a moment in which 394 00:19:54,794 --> 00:19:58,930 you considered another title to be more appropriate? 395 00:19:58,932 --> 00:20:01,465 - I don't see what you mean. 396 00:20:02,402 --> 00:20:03,334 - Well, 397 00:20:03,336 --> 00:20:07,471 in your title you boldly propose your central conflict. 398 00:20:07,473 --> 00:20:08,906 You thought you had cancer. 399 00:20:08,908 --> 00:20:10,942 - Oh yeah, I sure did. 400 00:20:10,944 --> 00:20:12,877 - And yet, in the same breath, 401 00:20:12,879 --> 00:20:15,479 you reveal the resolution of that conflict. 402 00:20:15,481 --> 00:20:16,480 You didn't. 403 00:20:17,383 --> 00:20:18,849 - Yeah. 404 00:20:18,851 --> 00:20:22,887 My publisher wasn't crazy about the original title, 405 00:20:22,889 --> 00:20:24,689 I can tell you that much. 406 00:20:24,691 --> 00:20:25,823 - Which was? 407 00:20:25,825 --> 00:20:28,242 - I'm sorry? 408 00:20:28,243 --> 00:20:30,660 - What was the original title of your book? 409 00:20:30,663 --> 00:20:33,698 - [Priscilla] I don't have to say, do I? 410 00:20:33,700 --> 00:20:37,868 - [Petunia] The original title of the book was what? 411 00:20:39,405 --> 00:20:41,939 - "Terminally Ill For Awhile." 412 00:20:43,643 --> 00:20:45,776 - "Terminally Ill" ... 413 00:20:45,778 --> 00:20:46,911 - "For Awhile." 414 00:20:47,981 --> 00:20:50,248 Because my thinking was, 415 00:20:51,284 --> 00:20:55,319 aren't we all terminally ill for awhile? 416 00:20:55,321 --> 00:20:58,756 Although, sometimes it's just a little while. 417 00:20:58,758 --> 00:21:01,392 - Your critics say that this book trivializes 418 00:21:01,394 --> 00:21:04,362 the very real heartbreak and tragedy 419 00:21:04,364 --> 00:21:06,264 that someone unfortunate enough 420 00:21:06,266 --> 00:21:09,800 to be in the throes of an incurable illness would feel. 421 00:21:09,802 --> 00:21:14,005 - Well, I say that's just a big of bunch of hooey. 422 00:21:14,741 --> 00:21:15,606 - Really? 423 00:21:15,608 --> 00:21:17,091 - Yes! 424 00:21:17,092 --> 00:21:18,575 Because that's not what this book is about. 425 00:21:18,578 --> 00:21:19,844 Them or my critics. 426 00:21:19,846 --> 00:21:21,779 This book is about me! 427 00:21:23,283 --> 00:21:25,283 That's what it's about. 428 00:21:27,787 --> 00:21:29,453 - The memoir in crisis, 429 00:21:29,455 --> 00:21:33,624 this hour of the Petunia Floringbrickle Show. 430 00:21:33,626 --> 00:21:36,110 If you're just now tuning in, 431 00:21:36,111 --> 00:21:38,595 our guest is esteemed author Priscilla Hollingsworth, 432 00:21:38,598 --> 00:21:42,433 who will be with us for ... the remainder of the hour. 433 00:21:42,435 --> 00:21:44,635 So please, dear listeners, 434 00:21:44,637 --> 00:21:46,470 don't touch that dial. 435 00:21:46,472 --> 00:21:48,706 (upbeat music) 436 00:21:48,708 --> 00:21:52,043 (suction tube gurgling) 437 00:21:54,347 --> 00:21:56,681 - So how are you liking it here in the States? 438 00:21:56,683 --> 00:21:57,848 - I love America. 439 00:21:57,850 --> 00:21:59,684 I love the 21st century. 440 00:21:59,686 --> 00:22:00,918 - Aw, that's swell. 441 00:22:00,920 --> 00:22:03,054 - I like American movies very much. 442 00:22:03,056 --> 00:22:03,921 - Really? 443 00:22:03,923 --> 00:22:04,822 - Yes! Matt Damon. 444 00:22:04,824 --> 00:22:07,825 I like Matt Damon very much. 445 00:22:07,827 --> 00:22:09,660 (laughing) 446 00:22:09,661 --> 00:22:11,494 - So what's your favorite movie? 447 00:22:12,432 --> 00:22:14,098 - I think "Spaceballs." 448 00:22:14,100 --> 00:22:15,533 (laughing) 449 00:22:15,535 --> 00:22:17,118 - Really? 450 00:22:17,119 --> 00:22:18,702 - Yes, "Spaceballs" is really the best. 451 00:22:18,705 --> 00:22:20,705 - That's a good one. 452 00:22:20,707 --> 00:22:22,106 I like movies. 453 00:22:22,108 --> 00:22:23,974 You know, with a couple of laughs. 454 00:22:23,976 --> 00:22:25,543 The lighter stuff. 455 00:22:25,545 --> 00:22:26,477 - Mhm. 456 00:22:33,586 --> 00:22:34,518 - So? 457 00:22:35,655 --> 00:22:38,055 - Did you see the news? 458 00:22:38,057 --> 00:22:38,989 - Yeah. 459 00:22:40,660 --> 00:22:42,560 - I probably should have called you 460 00:22:42,562 --> 00:22:46,130 before word started getting around. 461 00:22:46,132 --> 00:22:47,665 - That guy. 462 00:22:47,667 --> 00:22:51,836 - His family is understandably devastated. 463 00:22:51,838 --> 00:22:53,671 - It certainly doesn't look good. 464 00:22:53,673 --> 00:22:55,373 - I didn't say that it looked good. 465 00:22:55,375 --> 00:22:57,675 - I didn't say that you did. 466 00:22:57,677 --> 00:23:02,012 - He swore up and down it was that Jerry guy who set him up. 467 00:23:02,014 --> 00:23:04,782 It's just sad that his family probably won't ever know 468 00:23:04,784 --> 00:23:06,817 what really happened. 469 00:23:06,819 --> 00:23:10,588 - Except what was he doing with Jerry in the first place? 470 00:23:10,590 --> 00:23:12,123 Why else were they both there at the house 471 00:23:12,125 --> 00:23:13,958 if they weren't... 472 00:23:13,960 --> 00:23:17,962 - You know none of that proves anything anyway. 473 00:23:18,898 --> 00:23:20,798 - It just doesn't add up. 474 00:23:20,800 --> 00:23:22,633 And it doesn't look good. 475 00:23:22,635 --> 00:23:23,567 - Well. 476 00:23:24,837 --> 00:23:27,738 That's life in the big city, huh, kid? 477 00:23:27,740 --> 00:23:30,541 (clock ticking) 478 00:23:44,056 --> 00:23:46,023 - This is maybe 479 00:23:46,025 --> 00:23:50,161 the worst book tour event I've ever seen. 480 00:23:50,163 --> 00:23:51,462 - I know. 481 00:23:51,464 --> 00:23:53,164 It's so sad and pathetic 482 00:23:53,166 --> 00:23:57,568 that I actually feel morally guilty about goofing on it. 483 00:24:00,139 --> 00:24:01,639 - What are you doing? 484 00:24:01,641 --> 00:24:03,441 - What does it look like I'm doing? 485 00:24:03,443 --> 00:24:04,675 I'm autographing my book 486 00:24:04,677 --> 00:24:06,510 so that you'll have signed copies in stock. 487 00:24:06,512 --> 00:24:08,078 - You know that once you sign copies of those books 488 00:24:08,080 --> 00:24:09,513 we can't return them to the publisher 489 00:24:09,515 --> 00:24:11,148 and get our money back. 490 00:24:11,150 --> 00:24:12,667 - You know what? 491 00:24:12,668 --> 00:24:14,185 It's not my fault that you didn't make any effort 492 00:24:14,187 --> 00:24:16,687 to promote my in-store appearance! 493 00:24:16,689 --> 00:24:18,956 - We did everything we could to promote your appearance! 494 00:24:18,958 --> 00:24:23,160 It's not our fault no one cares about your pointless book. 495 00:24:24,664 --> 00:24:26,130 - Burn... 496 00:24:26,132 --> 00:24:27,965 - In publishing news this week, 497 00:24:27,967 --> 00:24:29,934 local author Priscilla Hollingsworth 498 00:24:29,936 --> 00:24:32,102 sets a new sales record. 499 00:24:32,104 --> 00:24:33,838 Although you'd have to wonder 500 00:24:33,840 --> 00:24:35,573 if it's the sort of record that her publisher 501 00:24:35,575 --> 00:24:36,740 would be proud to tout. 502 00:24:36,742 --> 00:24:37,708 (sobbing) 503 00:24:37,710 --> 00:24:39,577 Ms. Hollingsworth's new memoir, 504 00:24:39,579 --> 00:24:41,679 "I Thought I Had Cancer, But I Didn't," 505 00:24:41,681 --> 00:24:44,148 debuted to the worst opening week of sales 506 00:24:44,150 --> 00:24:46,817 of any book release in recent history. 507 00:24:46,819 --> 00:24:49,653 Selling a mere seven copies nationwide. 508 00:24:49,655 --> 00:24:50,988 (Priscilla sobbing) 509 00:24:50,990 --> 00:24:52,923 Anyway, we tracked down one of the few people 510 00:24:52,925 --> 00:24:55,926 who actually purchased this beleaguered tome. 511 00:24:55,928 --> 00:24:58,796 I think we have him on the phone with us right now. 512 00:24:58,798 --> 00:25:00,097 Hello there. 513 00:25:00,099 --> 00:25:01,599 - [Male Caller] Hello? 514 00:25:01,601 --> 00:25:03,033 - [TV Host] Okay, well let's get right to it. 515 00:25:03,035 --> 00:25:04,235 How was it? 516 00:25:04,237 --> 00:25:06,770 - [Male Caller] Oh, it was horrible! 517 00:25:06,772 --> 00:25:08,539 - Buck up, squirt. 518 00:25:08,541 --> 00:25:10,774 There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. 519 00:25:10,776 --> 00:25:12,076 (sobbing) 520 00:25:12,078 --> 00:25:14,879 - I know what everyone must be saying about me 521 00:25:14,881 --> 00:25:16,146 behind my back. 522 00:25:16,949 --> 00:25:19,283 That I'm a laughing stock! 523 00:25:19,285 --> 00:25:20,551 I'm a farce. 524 00:25:22,054 --> 00:25:23,521 A pitiful rube. 525 00:25:25,091 --> 00:25:27,157 - I personally think that your whole assessment 526 00:25:27,159 --> 00:25:29,960 of the situation more accurately reflects 527 00:25:29,962 --> 00:25:34,231 your narcissistic preoccupation with yourself. 528 00:25:34,233 --> 00:25:36,600 But who am I kidding? 529 00:25:36,602 --> 00:25:38,202 - I don't understand. 530 00:25:38,204 --> 00:25:40,738 - The entire supposition of your argument 531 00:25:40,740 --> 00:25:44,041 is that everyone is so absorbed 532 00:25:44,043 --> 00:25:46,577 in your perceived cult of personality 533 00:25:46,579 --> 00:25:50,080 that they're constantly speculating on your failures 534 00:25:50,082 --> 00:25:52,883 and shortcomings as a human being. 535 00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:54,218 - They're not? 536 00:25:54,220 --> 00:25:55,653 - Nevermind. 537 00:25:55,655 --> 00:25:58,022 Forget I said anything. 538 00:25:58,024 --> 00:25:59,857 Can I buy you a drink? 539 00:25:59,859 --> 00:26:02,726 (dramatic music) 540 00:26:06,966 --> 00:26:08,332 - It's utterly useless! 541 00:26:08,334 --> 00:26:09,767 I accept defeat. 542 00:26:09,769 --> 00:26:11,352 - Priscilla. 543 00:26:11,353 --> 00:26:12,936 We're all frauds and we're all failures. 544 00:26:12,939 --> 00:26:14,338 It's really okay. 545 00:26:14,340 --> 00:26:16,240 You just have to have a sort of 546 00:26:16,242 --> 00:26:18,342 light-hearted spirit about the whole thing. 547 00:26:18,344 --> 00:26:20,277 Otherwise, you will make yourself mental. 548 00:26:20,279 --> 00:26:22,112 - I never should have written that book. 549 00:26:22,114 --> 00:26:24,181 What was I thinking? 550 00:26:24,183 --> 00:26:27,751 - It's important to confront your failures. 551 00:26:27,753 --> 00:26:30,921 If you can look at it with a detached eye, 552 00:26:30,923 --> 00:26:33,157 maybe you can detach yourself from 553 00:26:33,159 --> 00:26:36,994 some of the disappointment you're feeling. 554 00:26:36,996 --> 00:26:41,198 - I yearn to conjure the wild imagination of my inner soul. 555 00:26:42,735 --> 00:26:46,170 - Maybe you should try your hand at poetry. 556 00:26:46,172 --> 00:26:47,905 - Is this your idea at a solution? 557 00:26:47,907 --> 00:26:50,941 - You seem to have a knack for it. 558 00:26:50,943 --> 00:26:53,611 You should take it as a compliment. 559 00:26:53,613 --> 00:26:56,680 Beaudelaire was a real rascal. 560 00:26:56,682 --> 00:27:00,217 - People spend so much of their lives judging other people. 561 00:27:00,219 --> 00:27:02,252 And yes, I think that to some extent 562 00:27:02,254 --> 00:27:05,122 we all make choices in our lives. 563 00:27:06,025 --> 00:27:07,725 But, in a lot of ways, 564 00:27:07,727 --> 00:27:12,029 we have no choice to be anyone other than who we are. 565 00:27:12,031 --> 00:27:13,764 We are who we are, 566 00:27:13,766 --> 00:27:16,767 and we can work to improve certain aspects 567 00:27:16,769 --> 00:27:18,135 of our chosen behavior, 568 00:27:18,137 --> 00:27:22,673 but it's really difficult to be anyone other 569 00:27:22,675 --> 00:27:24,008 than who we are. 570 00:27:24,977 --> 00:27:25,909 Ugh. 571 00:27:28,914 --> 00:27:31,715 It's an endless cycle of loathing. 572 00:27:31,717 --> 00:27:35,219 We wish that other people would change for us, 573 00:27:35,221 --> 00:27:39,089 we get upset at them for being so inflexible, 574 00:27:39,091 --> 00:27:42,960 they get upset at us for being disappointed, 575 00:27:42,962 --> 00:27:47,031 we get upset at ourselves for being so controlling, 576 00:27:47,033 --> 00:27:48,298 and so it goes. 577 00:27:49,435 --> 00:27:52,269 - That's an awfully dire leap 578 00:27:52,270 --> 00:27:55,104 from the uplifting pleasantries I was attempting to muster. 579 00:27:55,107 --> 00:27:57,207 - I guess that's because there's bluster 580 00:27:57,209 --> 00:27:59,343 and then there's honesty. 581 00:28:00,980 --> 00:28:03,180 (sighing) 582 00:28:05,685 --> 00:28:07,317 - I must bid you adieu. 583 00:28:07,319 --> 00:28:10,387 There is a taxi stand two blocks up. 584 00:28:10,389 --> 00:28:13,057 You play it safe out there. 585 00:28:13,059 --> 00:28:15,926 (dramatic music) 586 00:28:21,400 --> 00:28:24,234 - [Priscilla] I have something to get off my chest. 587 00:28:24,236 --> 00:28:26,003 - I'm listening. 588 00:28:26,005 --> 00:28:29,773 - There are a lot of reasons not to be happy in this world. 589 00:28:29,775 --> 00:28:32,042 To wake up everyday and look out 590 00:28:32,044 --> 00:28:34,378 on a gray and overcast sky 591 00:28:35,481 --> 00:28:37,915 and just dread the thought of hobnobbing 592 00:28:37,917 --> 00:28:41,985 with your contemporaries and acquaintances. 593 00:28:41,987 --> 00:28:45,789 But locking me away in a room with just my own thoughts 594 00:28:45,791 --> 00:28:48,192 and a pen and notebook paper. 595 00:28:49,962 --> 00:28:53,831 I'm just saying that's not such a great idea. 596 00:28:56,769 --> 00:29:00,504 Sometimes it brings out the worst in me. 597 00:29:00,506 --> 00:29:03,507 When I start writing, I get into a mood. But then... 598 00:29:05,778 --> 00:29:09,980 I've been in that mood for as long as I can remember. 599 00:29:11,917 --> 00:29:15,252 - I think you should have another drink. 600 00:29:17,289 --> 00:29:18,822 - You know what? 601 00:29:18,824 --> 00:29:20,524 You should buy a plane. 602 00:29:20,526 --> 00:29:23,127 (giggling) 603 00:29:23,129 --> 00:29:25,863 (somber music) 604 00:29:32,171 --> 00:29:33,103 - Hey. 605 00:29:34,106 --> 00:29:36,840 Aren't you Tyler's boy? 606 00:29:36,842 --> 00:29:38,242 - Miss Hollingsworth, 607 00:29:38,244 --> 00:29:39,376 in the flesh. 608 00:29:39,378 --> 00:29:44,515 - Prattleton Junior, in all of your repugnant glory. 609 00:29:44,517 --> 00:29:48,852 - I see that your new book had an exciting launch last week. 610 00:29:48,854 --> 00:29:51,188 - It's been a barrel of laughs. 611 00:29:51,190 --> 00:29:55,392 - Well, hey, that's life in the big city, huh, kid? 612 00:30:04,270 --> 00:30:07,104 - You know, Goldie Hawn's daughter? 613 00:30:07,106 --> 00:30:08,872 - No, I'm sorry. 614 00:30:08,874 --> 00:30:10,974 It just doesn't ring a bell. 615 00:30:10,976 --> 00:30:12,743 - Seriously? 616 00:30:12,744 --> 00:30:14,511 How do you not know who Kate Hudson is? 617 00:30:14,513 --> 00:30:16,580 People tell me I look like her all the time. 618 00:30:16,582 --> 00:30:17,514 Seriously? 619 00:30:21,954 --> 00:30:24,822 - So what do you do for a living? 620 00:30:26,325 --> 00:30:29,927 - I imagine you've heard me on the radio. 621 00:30:30,563 --> 00:30:32,029 104 The Jammer? 622 00:30:33,199 --> 00:30:35,532 Baltimore's Best Rock Radio? 623 00:30:37,436 --> 00:30:41,839 Crazy Sammy and the Morning Drive-Time Crack-Up Crew? 624 00:30:44,543 --> 00:30:46,510 Anyway, I do a lot of voiceover work 625 00:30:46,512 --> 00:30:48,612 for FM radio commercials. 626 00:30:48,614 --> 00:30:51,215 - Oh, that sounds intriguing. 627 00:30:52,518 --> 00:30:54,985 Anything I might recognize? 628 00:30:56,288 --> 00:30:58,088 - "If you haven't been to visit Ikaros 629 00:30:58,090 --> 00:30:59,957 "at our new location in Greektown, 630 00:30:59,959 --> 00:31:01,892 "it's like you've never been at all. 631 00:31:01,894 --> 00:31:03,393 "Enjoy the dishes you love 632 00:31:03,395 --> 00:31:05,095 "in an intimate new locale, 633 00:31:05,097 --> 00:31:08,098 "served with a fresh new spirit 634 00:31:08,100 --> 00:31:09,466 "Come back and see us. 635 00:31:09,468 --> 00:31:11,535 "Your table is waiting." 636 00:31:16,008 --> 00:31:17,341 - No, I'm sorry. 637 00:31:20,946 --> 00:31:24,448 - I can't believe you don't know who Kate Hudson is. 638 00:31:24,450 --> 00:31:26,149 (spry jazz music) 639 00:31:26,151 --> 00:31:28,252 - Good morning and welcome to another lovely day 640 00:31:28,254 --> 00:31:29,386 here in Maryland. 641 00:31:29,388 --> 00:31:31,121 And it couldn't be a more perfect day 642 00:31:31,123 --> 00:31:34,057 to kick off our spring fund-raising campaign. 643 00:31:34,059 --> 00:31:35,359 I'm sure that, right now, 644 00:31:35,361 --> 00:31:37,361 you're idling in weekday morning traffic 645 00:31:37,363 --> 00:31:40,464 with road rage and tempers flaring at every turn. 646 00:31:40,466 --> 00:31:43,066 Isn't it refreshing to know that you can find solace 647 00:31:43,068 --> 00:31:46,436 in our curated selection of light classical music favorites? 648 00:31:46,438 --> 00:31:49,673 But have you ever wondered how do we do it? 649 00:31:49,675 --> 00:31:53,543 Day after day, week after week, month after month. 650 00:31:53,545 --> 00:31:56,446 How is it that we're able to continue to offer our listeners 651 00:31:56,448 --> 00:31:59,683 such wonderful music and thoughtful programming? 652 00:31:59,685 --> 00:32:02,419 Well, the answer is you. 653 00:32:02,421 --> 00:32:04,054 That's right, 654 00:32:04,055 --> 00:32:05,688 none of this would be possible without the support 655 00:32:05,691 --> 00:32:07,991 of dedicated listeners like you, 656 00:32:07,993 --> 00:32:10,127 who can be relied upon to pledge their support 657 00:32:10,129 --> 00:32:13,530 time and time again for the content and programming 658 00:32:13,532 --> 00:32:16,633 that they enjoy on Catonsville Public Radio. 659 00:32:16,635 --> 00:32:18,936 If you haven't already, won't you take a moment 660 00:32:18,938 --> 00:32:21,338 to join our family of listener members? 661 00:32:21,340 --> 00:32:25,175 Volunteers are standing by to take your call. 662 00:32:25,177 --> 00:32:27,577 - [Priscilla Voiceover] Days like this are a bit of a tease. 663 00:32:27,579 --> 00:32:30,213 An open-ended invitation to put pen to paper 664 00:32:30,215 --> 00:32:32,983 and delight in one's imagination. 665 00:32:32,985 --> 00:32:35,419 But there is always an unease, 666 00:32:35,421 --> 00:32:38,288 a modicum of tension. (phone ringing) 667 00:32:38,290 --> 00:32:41,391 What, pray tell, will be the next shoe to drop? 668 00:32:41,393 --> 00:32:43,393 (phone ringing) 669 00:32:43,395 --> 00:32:45,062 - Hello? 670 00:32:45,064 --> 00:32:46,663 - Ms. Hollingsworth. 671 00:32:48,133 --> 00:32:50,233 - Mr. Prattleton. 672 00:32:50,235 --> 00:32:53,704 - I regret to inform you that our publishing concern 673 00:32:53,706 --> 00:32:58,108 has decided to sever its professional relationship with you. 674 00:32:59,611 --> 00:33:01,078 - I understand. 675 00:33:02,681 --> 00:33:06,650 - We will be honoring the terms of our original agreement 676 00:33:06,652 --> 00:33:10,487 and won't be requesting a return on your initial advance, 677 00:33:10,489 --> 00:33:13,724 as we've come to the conclusion that you have indeed 678 00:33:13,726 --> 00:33:15,592 made a good faith effort, 679 00:33:15,594 --> 00:33:17,661 however hapless, 680 00:33:17,663 --> 00:33:21,331 to promote your brand in the public realm. 681 00:33:21,333 --> 00:33:25,068 - I thought I was in the business of selling books. 682 00:33:25,070 --> 00:33:29,272 - And you were a colossal failure at that as well. 683 00:33:30,476 --> 00:33:33,310 I must now bid you a fond farewell, 684 00:33:33,312 --> 00:33:35,746 as we are anxiously awaiting the return 685 00:33:35,748 --> 00:33:39,483 of all unsold copies of your memoir 686 00:33:39,485 --> 00:33:43,053 so that we may promptly haul them to the landfill. 687 00:33:43,055 --> 00:33:43,787 Good day. 688 00:33:52,598 --> 00:33:54,531 (sighing) 689 00:33:54,533 --> 00:33:55,599 - Well then. 690 00:34:03,475 --> 00:34:04,474 - You know, 691 00:34:07,212 --> 00:34:09,379 lately I've been thinking a lot about visiting Ikaros 692 00:34:09,381 --> 00:34:12,115 at their new location in Greektown. 693 00:34:12,117 --> 00:34:14,518 I hear that they're serving up the dishes we love 694 00:34:14,520 --> 00:34:18,622 in an inviting new locale with a fresh new spirit. 695 00:34:18,624 --> 00:34:22,359 - That campaign really seems to have fulfilled its purpose. 696 00:34:22,361 --> 00:34:23,693 - What do you mean? 697 00:34:23,695 --> 00:34:25,562 - The management at Ikaros has been saturating 698 00:34:25,564 --> 00:34:28,498 the local radio market with that new spot. 699 00:34:28,500 --> 00:34:29,433 - Huh. 700 00:34:30,369 --> 00:34:32,302 I must have missed it. 701 00:34:32,304 --> 00:34:36,673 I just feel like it's time to come back and see them. 702 00:34:36,675 --> 00:34:39,109 Like my table is waiting. 703 00:34:39,111 --> 00:34:40,110 That's all. 704 00:34:43,082 --> 00:34:45,816 (melancholic music) 705 00:34:45,818 --> 00:34:48,685 - [Priscilla Voiceover] It was six years ago. 706 00:34:48,687 --> 00:34:52,456 I remember feeling so full of youthful enthusiasm 707 00:34:52,458 --> 00:34:54,724 and headstrong optimism, 708 00:34:54,726 --> 00:34:58,328 so disciplined and committed to the enterprise, 709 00:34:58,330 --> 00:35:02,666 but I feel like I don't know that person anymore. 710 00:35:02,668 --> 00:35:06,703 I wouldn't be able to pick her out of a lineup. 711 00:35:06,705 --> 00:35:09,873 Sometimes I wonder if it's all in vain 712 00:35:09,875 --> 00:35:12,142 and it's all for naught. 713 00:35:13,479 --> 00:35:15,145 What is happiness? 714 00:35:16,582 --> 00:35:18,181 What's the point? 715 00:35:21,453 --> 00:35:24,721 - All day long with these nincompoops. 716 00:35:24,723 --> 00:35:26,456 Where's Jonathan? 717 00:35:26,458 --> 00:35:28,325 - He took a half day. 718 00:35:29,128 --> 00:35:30,560 - A half day? 719 00:35:30,562 --> 00:35:31,495 - Yeah. 720 00:35:34,600 --> 00:35:36,399 - Does anyone around here ever pause 721 00:35:36,401 --> 00:35:38,702 to consider my professional needs? 722 00:35:38,704 --> 00:35:40,904 - He left a half hour ago. 723 00:35:43,342 --> 00:35:45,876 - Do I have any meeting scheduled for this afternoon? 724 00:35:45,878 --> 00:35:47,811 - None that I know of. 725 00:35:48,614 --> 00:35:51,348 (melancholic music) 726 00:35:54,386 --> 00:35:55,585 - [Priscilla Voiceover] It's such a wonderful time 727 00:35:55,587 --> 00:35:56,620 to be alive. 728 00:35:56,622 --> 00:35:59,856 Such a fantastic moment to feel unburdened 729 00:35:59,858 --> 00:36:03,793 by anything and everything that holds us back. 730 00:36:05,297 --> 00:36:08,598 Perhaps I've simply been confusing nervous excitement 731 00:36:08,600 --> 00:36:10,400 with fear all along. 732 00:36:12,304 --> 00:36:14,938 They both have a familiar flavor, 733 00:36:14,940 --> 00:36:18,475 a similar burn in the pit of my stomach. 734 00:36:18,477 --> 00:36:20,911 How long have I subjugated myself 735 00:36:20,913 --> 00:36:23,280 to the inane tasks and duties that comprise 736 00:36:23,282 --> 00:36:24,948 every day of my life? 737 00:36:36,895 --> 00:36:37,928 - Wait a minute. 738 00:36:37,930 --> 00:36:39,262 Who are you? 739 00:36:39,264 --> 00:36:40,730 - Allow me to introduce myself. 740 00:36:40,732 --> 00:36:43,833 Shelby Breadwine, Catonsville Public Radio. 741 00:36:43,835 --> 00:36:45,235 - How'd you get in here? 742 00:36:45,237 --> 00:36:47,671 - Mr. Prattleton, Joel, if I may. 743 00:36:47,673 --> 00:36:50,640 We are in the full thrust of our spring fund-raising drive 744 00:36:50,642 --> 00:36:53,276 and I would love to talk to you about all the ways 745 00:36:53,278 --> 00:36:56,346 you might be able to support the local public radio 746 00:36:56,348 --> 00:37:00,217 that you and I both love and cherish so much. 747 00:37:00,219 --> 00:37:03,420 - I could do without those Saturday game shows. 748 00:37:03,422 --> 00:37:06,389 - You must be confusing us with another radio outfit. 749 00:37:06,391 --> 00:37:10,460 - You know, that one fellow who's always cracking jokes. 750 00:37:10,462 --> 00:37:11,861 You know the one. 751 00:37:12,898 --> 00:37:14,297 - Mr. Prattleton, 752 00:37:14,299 --> 00:37:16,466 as an independent local media concern, 753 00:37:16,468 --> 00:37:19,002 we rely upon the kind patronage 754 00:37:19,004 --> 00:37:22,372 of such pillars of the community as yourself. 755 00:37:22,374 --> 00:37:26,810 Think of all the potential media outreach opportunities 756 00:37:26,812 --> 00:37:30,347 for Rosen, Prattleton, Nagel & Suffield. 757 00:37:30,349 --> 00:37:34,251 - Well, you certainly do an excellent job 758 00:37:34,253 --> 00:37:36,019 of restating the obvious with a maximum 759 00:37:36,021 --> 00:37:38,888 of unnecessary hyperbole. 760 00:37:38,890 --> 00:37:40,890 What would you suggest? 761 00:37:40,892 --> 00:37:44,527 - You could perhaps underwrite our morning drive-time block 762 00:37:44,529 --> 00:37:47,530 of light classical music favorites. 763 00:37:48,567 --> 00:37:51,301 Or perhaps the second hour of 764 00:37:51,303 --> 00:37:53,670 The Petunia Floringbrickle Show. 765 00:37:53,672 --> 00:37:55,038 - That second hour of book tour interviews 766 00:37:55,040 --> 00:37:56,640 is always a snooze. 767 00:37:56,642 --> 00:37:57,574 - Right. 768 00:38:00,946 --> 00:38:02,712 - It's coming to me. 769 00:38:05,917 --> 00:38:07,851 "When your choice 770 00:38:07,853 --> 00:38:12,322 "of brand marketing manager matters the most, 771 00:38:12,324 --> 00:38:13,957 "place your trust 772 00:38:13,959 --> 00:38:15,725 "in Rosen, Prattleton, 773 00:38:15,727 --> 00:38:17,460 "Nagel & Suffield." 774 00:38:20,065 --> 00:38:22,565 - It has quite the ring to it. 775 00:38:22,567 --> 00:38:25,902 (upbeat music) 776 00:38:25,904 --> 00:38:27,837 - [Priscilla Voiceover] Every human being on this planet 777 00:38:27,839 --> 00:38:29,539 sees themselves as the centerpiece 778 00:38:29,541 --> 00:38:31,808 of their own heroic struggle, 779 00:38:31,810 --> 00:38:35,979 except our combined want exceeds our natural resources 780 00:38:35,981 --> 00:38:38,048 and our popular culture. 781 00:38:38,050 --> 00:38:41,584 We crave what we can't have and the people who have it 782 00:38:41,586 --> 00:38:45,055 don't appreciate their own good fortune. 783 00:38:45,057 --> 00:38:47,991 We should all be more thankful for simple everyday victories 784 00:38:47,993 --> 00:38:51,061 like sunshine, company and togetherness 785 00:38:51,063 --> 00:38:52,862 and that we're not being eaten alive 786 00:38:52,864 --> 00:38:54,998 by a hungry grizzly bear. 787 00:39:00,639 --> 00:39:03,506 (fire crackling) 788 00:39:33,739 --> 00:39:35,405 - Hello. Operator? 789 00:39:35,407 --> 00:39:38,007 Yes, I'd like the number for a Miss Hollingsworth 790 00:39:38,009 --> 00:39:40,477 in Baltimore, Maryland. 791 00:39:40,479 --> 00:39:42,545 First name of Priscilla. 792 00:39:43,415 --> 00:39:44,614 Edgevale Road. 793 00:39:46,551 --> 00:39:48,151 Of course I'll hold. 794 00:39:53,091 --> 00:39:54,591 I guess this is it. 795 00:39:54,593 --> 00:39:56,993 - [Priscilla] You guess this is what? 796 00:39:56,995 --> 00:39:59,662 - Our last fresh start. 797 00:39:59,664 --> 00:40:00,597 - Oh that. 798 00:40:01,867 --> 00:40:04,434 It's as if you expect me to be grateful 799 00:40:04,436 --> 00:40:06,536 which just leaves me feel all the more dubious 800 00:40:06,538 --> 00:40:08,638 about your intentions. 801 00:40:08,640 --> 00:40:10,840 - I'll have you know, I'm my own man 802 00:40:10,842 --> 00:40:12,909 and I'd like for you and anyone within earshot 803 00:40:12,911 --> 00:40:14,978 to truly understand that. 804 00:40:14,980 --> 00:40:16,746 - Which is why you dragged me out here 805 00:40:16,748 --> 00:40:19,983 on this perfectly lovely weekday morning. 806 00:40:19,985 --> 00:40:22,719 - My father is my father 807 00:40:22,721 --> 00:40:24,954 but his business is his business. 808 00:40:24,956 --> 00:40:26,756 - Which is all fine and dandy, 809 00:40:26,757 --> 00:40:28,557 but don't delude yourself for a second into thinking 810 00:40:28,560 --> 00:40:30,960 that you are where you are based solely on your own merits 811 00:40:30,962 --> 00:40:34,030 and available opportunities. 812 00:40:34,032 --> 00:40:35,432 - You hate me for it. 813 00:40:35,434 --> 00:40:37,534 - No, I hate you for a variety of otherwise 814 00:40:37,536 --> 00:40:38,935 completely valid reasons 815 00:40:38,937 --> 00:40:40,770 which I would be happy to discuss with you 816 00:40:40,772 --> 00:40:42,739 at a later date and time. 817 00:40:42,741 --> 00:40:46,643 But, for now, let's try to focus on the handful of things 818 00:40:46,645 --> 00:40:49,546 that distinguish you as the truly special person 819 00:40:49,548 --> 00:40:50,814 you really are. 820 00:40:53,051 --> 00:40:56,886 - Doing the right thing means making apologies. 821 00:40:56,888 --> 00:40:59,088 It's all about mending fences 822 00:40:59,090 --> 00:41:00,790 and listening to new ideas. 823 00:41:00,792 --> 00:41:02,826 - I always believed that doing the wrong thing 824 00:41:02,828 --> 00:41:07,197 was infinitely more interesting and unpredictable. 825 00:41:07,199 --> 00:41:10,099 Yet unpredictable endings rarely dovetail 826 00:41:10,101 --> 00:41:12,635 with desired outcomes. 827 00:41:12,637 --> 00:41:14,904 - Bad choices, wrong turns, 828 00:41:15,774 --> 00:41:17,707 boastful and arrogant pride, 829 00:41:17,709 --> 00:41:20,610 now that's the stuff of great drama. 830 00:41:20,612 --> 00:41:23,813 (exciting beat music) 831 00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:37,660 - The weekend is upon us, ladies! 832 00:41:37,662 --> 00:41:38,962 So you know what that means. 833 00:41:38,963 --> 00:41:40,263 It's time to come on down to Federal Hill 834 00:41:40,265 --> 00:41:42,899 and rock your socks off at The Groove Lounge! 835 00:41:42,901 --> 00:41:45,502 And gentlemen, VIP bottle service is back 836 00:41:45,504 --> 00:41:47,770 with $250 bottles of Knockov vodka. 837 00:41:47,772 --> 00:41:49,772 Think you'll find a cheaper bottle on a Friday night? 838 00:41:49,774 --> 00:41:51,207 You won't! 839 00:41:51,208 --> 00:41:52,641 So come on down to The Groove Lounge 840 00:41:52,644 --> 00:41:55,011 and join all your pals from Baltimore's Best Rock Radio 841 00:41:55,013 --> 00:41:56,946 for Ice Cream Social Night! 842 00:41:56,948 --> 00:41:59,749 Free mudslide shots for the ladies while supplies last! 843 00:41:59,751 --> 00:42:03,920 Valid only one per customer, unwind responsibly. 844 00:42:04,523 --> 00:42:05,889 Good? 845 00:42:05,891 --> 00:42:07,757 - [Joel] Are you working on a new book? 846 00:42:07,759 --> 00:42:08,691 - Good. 847 00:42:11,296 --> 00:42:14,230 - It is an expression of a certain 848 00:42:15,233 --> 00:42:17,233 "je ne sais quoi," 849 00:42:17,235 --> 00:42:21,638 a confrontation of all of the dark places inside of us. 850 00:42:22,574 --> 00:42:25,675 Our most indelicate obsessions, 851 00:42:25,677 --> 00:42:29,045 things that we hide even from our closest friends 852 00:42:29,047 --> 00:42:31,180 and reminisce upon only in 853 00:42:31,182 --> 00:42:34,183 the accommodating purr of solitude. 854 00:42:38,657 --> 00:42:42,325 - What are you trying to convey to your readers? 855 00:42:42,327 --> 00:42:44,027 - Be good. Be kind. 856 00:42:44,029 --> 00:42:46,829 Stay weird. Spread love. 857 00:42:46,831 --> 00:42:48,298 Because the world is full of people 858 00:42:48,300 --> 00:42:50,800 who will want to drag you down, 859 00:42:50,802 --> 00:42:52,235 down in the dumps, 860 00:42:52,237 --> 00:42:54,337 down where they are. 861 00:42:54,339 --> 00:42:56,306 And you've gotta be strong 862 00:42:56,308 --> 00:42:58,074 and you need to be bold 863 00:42:58,076 --> 00:43:00,910 and you ought to be better than all of it. 864 00:43:00,912 --> 00:43:05,281 If your heart's gonna remain on the right path. 865 00:43:05,283 --> 00:43:09,218 - Do you think your heart is on the right path? 866 00:43:09,220 --> 00:43:11,955 - No one has a perfect heart. 867 00:43:11,957 --> 00:43:13,222 And yes, 868 00:43:13,224 --> 00:43:16,125 I've lost some of the joyous enthusiasm 869 00:43:16,127 --> 00:43:19,262 in the face of blunders and betrayals 870 00:43:20,265 --> 00:43:21,598 and missteps. 871 00:43:22,634 --> 00:43:24,901 But you have to trudge forward 872 00:43:24,903 --> 00:43:26,235 and sally forth. 873 00:43:28,807 --> 00:43:30,940 - That's all well and good. 874 00:43:30,942 --> 00:43:33,910 And I recognize the potential here. 875 00:43:36,848 --> 00:43:37,780 But... 876 00:43:40,685 --> 00:43:43,353 it leaves me feeling unsure 877 00:43:43,355 --> 00:43:44,954 as to exactly how 878 00:43:45,957 --> 00:43:49,092 it's all going to pan out in the end. 879 00:43:49,094 --> 00:43:53,062 It sounds highly execution dependent. 880 00:43:54,833 --> 00:43:57,133 - Everything in life is execution dependent. 881 00:43:57,135 --> 00:43:59,102 And this is no exception! 882 00:43:59,104 --> 00:44:02,205 Our inability to express our tangled emotions 883 00:44:02,207 --> 00:44:04,040 that lurk inside of us 884 00:44:04,042 --> 00:44:06,709 and our flailing attempts to communicate that 885 00:44:06,711 --> 00:44:08,411 to our friends and acquaintances, 886 00:44:08,413 --> 00:44:12,815 that is the great tragedy of the human experience. 887 00:44:14,352 --> 00:44:16,953 - You can color me intrigued. 888 00:44:18,023 --> 00:44:19,756 In the meantime, 889 00:44:19,758 --> 00:44:21,858 I would like to offer you 890 00:44:21,860 --> 00:44:24,661 something of a radical proposal. 891 00:44:25,296 --> 00:44:27,347 (exciting music) 892 00:44:27,348 --> 00:44:29,399 - Ladies, you took the time to swing into spring fashion, 893 00:44:29,401 --> 00:44:31,668 but did you forget to swing into Edgevale Bank 894 00:44:31,670 --> 00:44:33,269 to speak to one of our financial advisers 895 00:44:33,271 --> 00:44:36,339 about opening a new high-yield money market account? 896 00:44:36,341 --> 00:44:38,808 Well, you better get that skinny latte to go 897 00:44:38,810 --> 00:44:40,843 and drop into one of our numerous locations 898 00:44:40,845 --> 00:44:42,378 right here in Baltimore City! 899 00:44:42,380 --> 00:44:44,313 Don't worry, you'll still have plenty of time 900 00:44:44,315 --> 00:44:46,132 to go shoe shopping 901 00:44:46,133 --> 00:44:47,950 because there just aren't enough hours in the day, 902 00:44:47,952 --> 00:44:49,419 am I right, ladies? 903 00:44:49,421 --> 00:44:50,920 We've got neighborhood branches 904 00:44:50,922 --> 00:44:52,822 in Rosebank, Evergreen, Better Waverly, Pigtown, 905 00:44:52,824 --> 00:44:54,957 Beverly Hills and Oakenshawe. 906 00:44:54,959 --> 00:44:56,159 See you there. 907 00:44:57,696 --> 00:44:58,428 Good? 908 00:45:01,966 --> 00:45:03,900 Are we good over here? 909 00:45:07,138 --> 00:45:08,337 - See? 910 00:45:08,339 --> 00:45:10,406 You're crying right now. 911 00:45:11,342 --> 00:45:13,910 What if we were with my family? 912 00:45:13,912 --> 00:45:16,179 Or at an important work party? 913 00:45:16,181 --> 00:45:18,247 And you're crying right now 914 00:45:18,249 --> 00:45:20,416 without any of that pressure. 915 00:45:20,418 --> 00:45:22,051 - Well I'm sorry. 916 00:45:22,053 --> 00:45:23,986 I'm sorry you can't come to terms with the fact 917 00:45:23,988 --> 00:45:25,421 that I am human and I have feelings 918 00:45:25,423 --> 00:45:27,957 and it is a component of humanity's goodness 919 00:45:27,959 --> 00:45:31,794 that we feel compassion and empathy! 920 00:45:31,796 --> 00:45:33,863 - You and your feelings. 921 00:45:43,742 --> 00:45:45,808 - Is this right? 922 00:45:45,810 --> 00:45:47,343 I'm not sure this is right. 923 00:45:47,345 --> 00:45:49,312 - Doesn't feel right. 924 00:45:49,314 --> 00:45:50,246 - Perhaps. 925 00:45:53,184 --> 00:45:54,517 But who ever said there wasn't such a thing 926 00:45:54,519 --> 00:45:57,754 as a free meal in this town? 927 00:45:57,756 --> 00:45:59,222 Because, you know? 928 00:46:01,426 --> 00:46:03,092 I'm so glad we're here. 929 00:46:03,094 --> 00:46:05,361 It's been too long. 930 00:46:05,363 --> 00:46:08,765 - You certainly seem quite fired up about it. 931 00:46:08,767 --> 00:46:10,500 - I have a lot of fond memories 932 00:46:10,502 --> 00:46:14,237 of coming here for Sunday brunch with Aunt Sandy. 933 00:46:14,239 --> 00:46:16,472 Those were the days. 934 00:46:16,474 --> 00:46:20,109 All the baby octopus you can eat. 935 00:46:20,111 --> 00:46:23,179 Isn't that every young man's dream? 936 00:46:23,181 --> 00:46:24,113 - Mhmm. 937 00:46:27,418 --> 00:46:30,887 - The last memory I can still cling to. 938 00:46:30,889 --> 00:46:35,358 - We're constantly creating new memories. 939 00:46:35,360 --> 00:46:37,393 Everything we do every day instantly becomes 940 00:46:37,395 --> 00:46:40,196 a permanent fixture of the past. 941 00:46:40,198 --> 00:46:42,098 - Except I feel 942 00:46:42,100 --> 00:46:44,867 like I can't let go of those moments. 943 00:46:44,869 --> 00:46:47,470 It's like I can't bear to see them relegated 944 00:46:47,472 --> 00:46:49,939 to the ephemera of yesteryear. 945 00:46:49,941 --> 00:46:53,342 - History is only an intellectual concept. 946 00:46:53,344 --> 00:46:57,213 What matters most is how we live on the memory of others. 947 00:46:57,215 --> 00:46:59,182 How we're received. 948 00:46:59,184 --> 00:47:03,186 Did we give of ourselves as generously as we could have? 949 00:47:03,188 --> 00:47:06,222 Did we allow ourselves to love? 950 00:47:06,224 --> 00:47:08,191 Did we pervert selfless love 951 00:47:08,193 --> 00:47:12,161 with our own lustful and selfish peculiarities? 952 00:47:15,533 --> 00:47:17,300 - The moussaka is to die for 953 00:47:17,302 --> 00:47:21,504 if you're are at all on the fence about the souvlaki. 954 00:47:23,141 --> 00:47:25,374 - Ladies and gentlemen! 955 00:47:25,376 --> 00:47:28,144 Bienvenue, bon appetit, etcetera. 956 00:47:28,146 --> 00:47:29,612 (giggling) 957 00:47:29,614 --> 00:47:32,248 It's my pleasure to introduce these two talented artists 958 00:47:32,250 --> 00:47:35,017 who will be performing and presumably 959 00:47:35,019 --> 00:47:37,353 delighting you here this evening. 960 00:47:37,355 --> 00:47:39,188 Won't you please join me in welcoming 961 00:47:39,190 --> 00:47:43,125 Lauren Aycock Anderson and Rachel Anne Warren? 962 00:47:43,928 --> 00:47:46,996 (sparse applauding) 963 00:47:50,468 --> 00:47:53,603 (somber piano music) 964 00:48:07,085 --> 00:48:08,951 The little things 965 00:48:08,953 --> 00:48:10,987 Discoveries 966 00:48:10,989 --> 00:48:14,457 Uncovering insides of things 967 00:48:14,459 --> 00:48:18,361 The tracing and tracking 968 00:48:18,363 --> 00:48:22,365 The packing and unpacking 969 00:48:22,367 --> 00:48:26,269 The waiting and move 970 00:48:26,271 --> 00:48:30,139 The little things you do 971 00:48:30,141 --> 00:48:32,608 But tell me 972 00:48:32,610 --> 00:48:34,577 Are you 973 00:48:34,579 --> 00:48:37,179 A good man 974 00:48:38,249 --> 00:48:40,449 But tell me 975 00:48:40,451 --> 00:48:42,385 Are you 976 00:48:42,387 --> 00:48:44,987 A good man 977 00:48:53,965 --> 00:48:55,531 He's the angle 978 00:48:55,533 --> 00:48:57,500 And you're the worm 979 00:48:57,502 --> 00:49:01,237 He got inside and you're lost for words 980 00:49:01,239 --> 00:49:03,172 The shoe didn't fit 981 00:49:03,174 --> 00:49:05,107 And what of the stick 982 00:49:05,109 --> 00:49:08,978 Well, I think that I got the short end of it 983 00:49:08,980 --> 00:49:12,415 There are nice people, to name a few, 984 00:49:12,417 --> 00:49:14,583 but there's nothing lasting 985 00:49:14,585 --> 00:49:16,419 Or lacking of you 986 00:49:16,421 --> 00:49:19,655 I am a loner, and I am alone 987 00:49:19,657 --> 00:49:23,326 I have a heart that's only halfway grown 988 00:49:23,328 --> 00:49:25,294 But tell me 989 00:49:25,296 --> 00:49:27,163 Are you 990 00:49:27,165 --> 00:49:29,565 A good man 991 00:49:30,601 --> 00:49:32,635 But tell me 992 00:49:32,637 --> 00:49:34,403 Are you 993 00:49:34,405 --> 00:49:37,006 A good man 994 00:49:42,213 --> 00:49:45,181 I am the Mississippi 995 00:49:45,183 --> 00:49:48,617 And you're running through it 996 00:49:48,619 --> 00:49:52,188 I'm a reoccurring dream 997 00:49:52,190 --> 00:49:55,591 But you never knew it 998 00:49:55,593 --> 00:49:59,428 I'm a decent human being 999 00:49:59,430 --> 00:50:02,698 But what do you care 1000 00:50:02,700 --> 00:50:06,569 I'm a moment in time 1001 00:50:06,571 --> 00:50:10,106 But you weren't there 1002 00:50:10,108 --> 00:50:12,208 So, tell me, 1003 00:50:12,210 --> 00:50:14,043 Are you 1004 00:50:14,045 --> 00:50:16,445 A good man 1005 00:50:17,448 --> 00:50:19,148 Tell me 1006 00:50:19,150 --> 00:50:20,716 Are you 1007 00:50:20,718 --> 00:50:23,719 A good man 1008 00:50:23,721 --> 00:50:26,055 So tell me 1009 00:50:26,057 --> 00:50:27,556 Are you 1010 00:50:27,558 --> 00:50:30,726 A good man 1011 00:50:30,728 --> 00:50:32,661 But tell me 1012 00:50:32,663 --> 00:50:34,330 Are you 1013 00:50:34,332 --> 00:50:38,401 A good man 1014 00:50:55,586 --> 00:50:59,255 (doorbell ringing) 1015 00:50:59,257 --> 00:51:00,389 - Mrs. Woodbourne? 1016 00:51:00,391 --> 00:51:02,358 - You must be Shelby Breadwine 1017 00:51:02,360 --> 00:51:04,226 from Catonsville Public Radio. 1018 00:51:04,228 --> 00:51:06,746 - I most certainly am. 1019 00:51:06,747 --> 00:51:09,265 - We would recognize that voice just about anywhere. 1020 00:51:09,267 --> 00:51:10,733 Where are my manors? 1021 00:51:10,735 --> 00:51:13,135 Please, won't you come in? 1022 00:51:13,805 --> 00:51:17,406 (pleasant classic music) 1023 00:51:24,715 --> 00:51:26,082 - You're too generous. 1024 00:51:26,084 --> 00:51:28,417 - It's nothing in the least. 1025 00:51:29,687 --> 00:51:31,003 - So then, 1026 00:51:31,004 --> 00:51:32,320 why don't we start by talking about 1027 00:51:32,323 --> 00:51:35,858 what Catonsville Public Radio means to you? 1028 00:51:37,628 --> 00:51:40,796 - I suppose that I like it just fine. 1029 00:51:40,798 --> 00:51:42,665 - Do you think that you could ever live 1030 00:51:42,667 --> 00:51:46,368 without your favorite programs on Catonsville Public Radio? 1031 00:51:46,370 --> 00:51:49,171 Or our exquisitely curated selection 1032 00:51:49,173 --> 00:51:52,241 of light classical music favorites? 1033 00:51:52,243 --> 00:51:54,510 - You know what people say. 1034 00:51:54,512 --> 00:51:59,281 Life goes on in spite of such things. 1035 00:51:59,283 --> 00:52:01,150 - But Mrs. Woodbourne-- 1036 00:52:01,152 --> 00:52:02,184 - Oh, Esther. 1037 00:52:02,186 --> 00:52:03,586 Please call me Esther. 1038 00:52:03,588 --> 00:52:07,523 - Are you saying that life would march merrily along 1039 00:52:07,525 --> 00:52:11,861 without your local public radio on your broadcast dial? 1040 00:52:11,863 --> 00:52:14,730 - Well, Braden would be sorely disappointed. 1041 00:52:14,732 --> 00:52:16,332 I can be sure of that. 1042 00:52:17,568 --> 00:52:18,434 - Braden? 1043 00:52:18,436 --> 00:52:19,668 Who's Braden? 1044 00:52:19,670 --> 00:52:20,903 - Oh, Braden. 1045 00:52:20,905 --> 00:52:22,371 My darling son. 1046 00:52:23,841 --> 00:52:28,344 He couldn't live without Catonsville Public Radio. 1047 00:52:28,346 --> 00:52:29,545 Truth be told, 1048 00:52:30,448 --> 00:52:32,448 you're his favorite. 1049 00:52:32,450 --> 00:52:34,316 (laughing) 1050 00:52:34,318 --> 00:52:37,920 He's listening in the living room right now. 1051 00:52:37,922 --> 00:52:43,159 Why don't you go and introduce yourself to him? 1052 00:52:45,229 --> 00:52:47,496 (giggling) 1053 00:52:48,432 --> 00:52:51,901 (intense classical music) 1054 00:52:55,406 --> 00:52:56,338 - Braden? 1055 00:53:05,850 --> 00:53:06,782 Braden? 1056 00:53:08,553 --> 00:53:09,952 Would you like to 1057 00:53:11,389 --> 00:53:12,922 share a moment and talk about 1058 00:53:12,924 --> 00:53:15,658 what local public radio means to you? 1059 00:53:15,660 --> 00:53:18,194 (screaming) 1060 00:53:24,969 --> 00:53:25,968 Sacre bleu. 1061 00:53:32,643 --> 00:53:33,642 God dammit. 1062 00:53:35,246 --> 00:53:39,215 - [Jonathan] So, what have we learned here? 1063 00:53:39,217 --> 00:53:40,849 - I would argue that the lesson is 1064 00:53:40,851 --> 00:53:44,486 that no good deed goes unpunished. 1065 00:53:44,488 --> 00:53:47,423 - I know that caution and reflection 1066 00:53:47,425 --> 00:53:50,326 are not the principal attributes most likely to come to mind 1067 00:53:50,328 --> 00:53:54,663 when reflecting upon your life and your accomplishments. 1068 00:53:54,665 --> 00:53:57,833 But it stands to reason these two traits might serve 1069 00:53:57,835 --> 00:53:59,902 to inform and guide you in the future 1070 00:53:59,904 --> 00:54:04,306 as you seek to chart a professional path for yourself. 1071 00:54:07,445 --> 00:54:09,445 - I do feel somewhat more heartened 1072 00:54:09,447 --> 00:54:12,281 about the viability of the process. 1073 00:54:12,283 --> 00:54:15,284 But I also certainly feel like my mastery 1074 00:54:15,286 --> 00:54:18,554 of that process is a whole lot more tenuous 1075 00:54:18,556 --> 00:54:20,823 than I previously imagined. 1076 00:54:22,760 --> 00:54:24,627 - I'm Shelby Breadwine 1077 00:54:24,628 --> 00:54:26,495 and you're tuned to Catonsville Public Radio. 1078 00:54:26,497 --> 00:54:28,430 Thanks to thoughtful listener members like you, 1079 00:54:28,432 --> 00:54:30,032 our latest fundraising campaign is coming 1080 00:54:30,034 --> 00:54:31,800 to a successful finish. 1081 00:54:31,802 --> 00:54:33,469 If you have yet to make a pledge yourself, 1082 00:54:33,471 --> 00:54:35,537 there's still plenty of time for you to decide 1083 00:54:35,539 --> 00:54:37,906 what level of support is right for you. 1084 00:54:37,908 --> 00:54:39,375 Five dollars a day? 1085 00:54:39,377 --> 00:54:40,776 25 dollars a month? 1086 00:54:40,778 --> 00:54:43,045 Well, at either of those membership levels, 1087 00:54:43,047 --> 00:54:46,282 you can look forward to a snazzy Catonsville Public Radio 1088 00:54:46,284 --> 00:54:48,017 luggage tag in your mailbox. 1089 00:54:48,019 --> 00:54:51,353 So please don't hesitate to call now and pledge your support 1090 00:54:51,355 --> 00:54:55,524 for the local public radio that you love. 1091 00:54:55,526 --> 00:54:56,725 Looks like it's time for your 1092 00:54:56,727 --> 00:54:58,827 final traffic report this morning. 1093 00:54:58,829 --> 00:55:00,696 Ralph, are you there? 1094 00:55:02,400 --> 00:55:03,499 Can you hear me? 1095 00:55:03,501 --> 00:55:04,800 - Shelby! 1096 00:55:04,802 --> 00:55:06,969 I read you loud and clear. 1097 00:55:06,971 --> 00:55:10,339 This morning's traffic report is brought to you by B, 1098 00:55:10,341 --> 00:55:12,641 A Bolton Hill Bistro. 1099 00:55:12,643 --> 00:55:14,343 Outer Loop, 1100 00:55:14,344 --> 00:55:16,044 you're gonna be coasting from Hammonds Ferry Road 1101 00:55:16,047 --> 00:55:19,581 on up to the Key Bridge with nary a delay in sight. 1102 00:55:19,583 --> 00:55:22,951 So it's lots of good news for all of you motorists out there 1103 00:55:22,953 --> 00:55:25,321 braving the Beltway this morning. 1104 00:55:25,323 --> 00:55:28,924 I'm Ralph Kirk for Catonsville Public Radio. 1105 00:55:30,094 --> 00:55:31,794 - I've been thinking. 1106 00:55:31,796 --> 00:55:32,961 - Do tell. 1107 00:55:32,963 --> 00:55:34,697 - We didn't do it right. 1108 00:55:34,699 --> 00:55:36,098 - Oh, woe is you. 1109 00:55:37,601 --> 00:55:39,051 - I just sort of made the blind assumption 1110 00:55:39,052 --> 00:55:40,502 that everything would end up working itself out 1111 00:55:40,504 --> 00:55:43,005 as long as I had a capable team in place. 1112 00:55:43,007 --> 00:55:45,574 - Well, who's crying now? 1113 00:55:45,576 --> 00:55:47,343 - I think I'm being held 1114 00:55:47,344 --> 00:55:49,111 to unrealistic standards for achievement. 1115 00:55:49,113 --> 00:55:52,514 - I think you're being too hard on yourself. 1116 00:55:52,516 --> 00:55:54,750 - We just didn't know any better. 1117 00:55:54,752 --> 00:55:58,987 - I think you did the best that you could have possibly done 1118 00:55:58,989 --> 00:56:02,624 under most if not all circumstances. 1119 00:56:02,626 --> 00:56:03,559 So there. 1120 00:56:15,139 --> 00:56:16,739 - Sorry I'm late. 1121 00:56:19,009 --> 00:56:21,377 Northbound traffic on Charles Street 1122 00:56:21,379 --> 00:56:24,079 was backed up all the way to Fayette Street. 1123 00:56:24,081 --> 00:56:25,948 - Take a seat, Ralph. 1124 00:56:27,084 --> 00:56:29,485 (sighing) 1125 00:56:31,622 --> 00:56:33,088 - This is fancy. 1126 00:56:33,090 --> 00:56:34,890 What's the occasion? 1127 00:56:36,527 --> 00:56:38,660 - Ralph, you've been a valuable part 1128 00:56:38,662 --> 00:56:42,030 of the Catonsville Public Radio family for so long 1129 00:56:42,032 --> 00:56:44,433 and we are all so grateful for your many years of service 1130 00:56:44,435 --> 00:56:46,068 to the operation. 1131 00:56:46,070 --> 00:56:49,004 But it is my sad duty to inform you 1132 00:56:49,006 --> 00:56:53,409 we've fallen short on our spring fundraising campaign goals. 1133 00:56:54,879 --> 00:56:57,479 As a result, everyone at the station 1134 00:56:57,481 --> 00:57:00,416 is now forced to reconsider how we can best allocate 1135 00:57:00,418 --> 00:57:02,618 our available resources. 1136 00:57:02,620 --> 00:57:04,186 - What are you getting at? 1137 00:57:04,188 --> 00:57:05,721 - Ralph, I mean, 1138 00:57:06,590 --> 00:57:08,190 let's face it, most of the time 1139 00:57:08,192 --> 00:57:10,592 you aren't even looking at a live traffic report 1140 00:57:10,594 --> 00:57:13,562 or even reading updates or bulletins 1141 00:57:13,564 --> 00:57:15,597 from state or local agencies! 1142 00:57:15,599 --> 00:57:19,902 - It's the same goddamned traffic every goddamned morning. 1143 00:57:19,904 --> 00:57:21,721 - And don't insult my intelligence 1144 00:57:21,722 --> 00:57:23,539 by pretending that I haven't caught the smell of rotgut 1145 00:57:23,541 --> 00:57:25,207 on your breath leaving the station 1146 00:57:25,209 --> 00:57:28,477 on more than a handful of occasions. 1147 00:57:28,479 --> 00:57:30,145 - Who the hell cares? 1148 00:57:32,216 --> 00:57:34,950 (bouncy music) 1149 00:57:36,020 --> 00:57:38,120 - I don't know what to tell you. 1150 00:57:38,122 --> 00:57:39,955 If you can't control the message, 1151 00:57:39,957 --> 00:57:42,224 you can't control anything. 1152 00:57:44,929 --> 00:57:46,995 That's exactly it. 1153 00:57:46,997 --> 00:57:49,531 I can't help you control the message 1154 00:57:49,533 --> 00:57:53,735 if you can't tell me what the message is in the first place. 1155 00:57:53,737 --> 00:57:57,940 And this is valuable time that we're idly wasting. 1156 00:58:01,078 --> 00:58:05,481 Their subjective judgment is not a proxy for your reality. 1157 00:58:07,852 --> 00:58:09,685 You want Better Homes and Gardens? 1158 00:58:09,687 --> 00:58:11,687 I'll get you Better Homes and Gardens! 1159 00:58:11,689 --> 00:58:13,522 But if you can't learn how to control the message 1160 00:58:13,524 --> 00:58:17,726 then you're never going to learn how to crush the deal. 1161 00:58:20,865 --> 00:58:24,166 This is getting us nowhere, Lily. 1162 00:58:24,168 --> 00:58:26,552 Give my secretary a ring 1163 00:58:26,553 --> 00:58:28,937 and we'll find a way to hash all of this out. 1164 00:58:28,939 --> 00:58:29,872 Kisses. 1165 00:58:31,242 --> 00:58:32,107 - Whoa! 1166 00:58:32,109 --> 00:58:33,742 (tire screeching) 1167 00:58:33,744 --> 00:58:35,010 Are you kidding me? 1168 00:58:35,012 --> 00:58:36,945 Are you fucking kidding me?! 1169 00:58:36,947 --> 00:58:37,980 Do you know what this is? 1170 00:58:37,982 --> 00:58:39,781 Do you care what this is? 1171 00:58:39,783 --> 00:58:41,183 This is a share row. 1172 00:58:41,185 --> 00:58:44,253 As in, share the fucking road! 1173 00:58:44,255 --> 00:58:45,787 Three feet! 1174 00:58:45,789 --> 00:58:48,056 You blind-ass motherfucker! 1175 00:58:52,096 --> 00:58:55,097 - These cyclists are such a pain in the ass. 1176 00:58:55,099 --> 00:58:57,032 Who's going to come along 1177 00:58:57,033 --> 00:58:58,966 and give us motorists a fair shake? 1178 00:59:10,848 --> 00:59:11,747 - Hey Kelly. 1179 00:59:11,749 --> 00:59:12,614 - Hey. 1180 00:59:12,616 --> 00:59:13,816 - I'm just wondering. 1181 00:59:13,817 --> 00:59:15,017 Is the internet acting funny around here? 1182 00:59:15,019 --> 00:59:17,319 - Seems to be working fine for me. 1183 00:59:17,321 --> 00:59:18,987 - It won't let me check into my flight to Denver 1184 00:59:18,989 --> 00:59:20,756 tomorrow for whatever reason. 1185 00:59:20,758 --> 00:59:22,190 - Aw. 1186 00:59:22,192 --> 00:59:23,992 - It's the damnedest thing. 1187 00:59:23,994 --> 00:59:24,927 - I know. 1188 00:59:26,096 --> 00:59:28,697 - Well, I'll be sure to keep you posted on that. 1189 00:59:28,699 --> 00:59:30,933 - Sounds like a plan to me! 1190 00:59:32,303 --> 00:59:33,569 - All right. 1191 00:59:40,578 --> 00:59:41,944 - Dad. 1192 00:59:41,946 --> 00:59:44,680 - I appreciate you finding the time 1193 00:59:44,682 --> 00:59:48,884 to come and visit in person despite your myriad daily 1194 00:59:50,721 --> 00:59:53,989 personal and professional obligations. 1195 00:59:53,991 --> 00:59:55,123 - You know that I always cherish 1196 00:59:55,125 --> 00:59:57,759 the time we're afforded together. 1197 00:59:57,761 --> 00:59:58,694 - Son, 1198 01:00:00,331 --> 01:00:01,730 it's all over. 1199 01:00:02,766 --> 01:00:04,633 The dream has dimmed 1200 01:00:04,635 --> 01:00:06,168 and the sun has set 1201 01:00:06,170 --> 01:00:09,771 on our carefree world of luxury. 1202 01:00:10,774 --> 01:00:12,975 - What are you talking about? 1203 01:00:12,977 --> 01:00:15,010 - That awful woman and her horrible book 1204 01:00:15,012 --> 01:00:17,946 have destroyed my beloved publishing company. 1205 01:00:17,948 --> 01:00:20,182 Although you seem to be taking great joy 1206 01:00:20,184 --> 01:00:23,051 in her flimsy company as of late. 1207 01:00:24,321 --> 01:00:25,821 - I don't understand exactly what it is 1208 01:00:25,823 --> 01:00:27,923 that you're alluding to. 1209 01:00:27,925 --> 01:00:31,059 - I plan to resign as chairman effective immediately 1210 01:00:31,061 --> 01:00:34,229 as we file for bankruptcy and move forward 1211 01:00:34,231 --> 01:00:36,698 with auctioning off our catalog 1212 01:00:36,700 --> 01:00:39,101 and liquidating our assets. 1213 01:00:39,103 --> 01:00:41,770 That is what I am alluding to. 1214 01:00:44,241 --> 01:00:48,777 - But if you're resigning as chairman and the-- 1215 01:00:48,779 --> 01:00:52,014 - Allow me to dispel your romantic ideal 1216 01:00:52,016 --> 01:00:54,683 of the way things ought to be. 1217 01:00:55,653 --> 01:00:57,686 You've disappointed all of us 1218 01:00:57,688 --> 01:01:02,024 with your obstinate laissez-faire refusal to mature 1219 01:01:02,026 --> 01:01:04,092 and make the most of yourself. 1220 01:01:04,094 --> 01:01:05,694 You've had plenty of opportunities 1221 01:01:05,696 --> 01:01:07,429 to remedy this disappointment 1222 01:01:07,431 --> 01:01:09,831 and so far your only response has been 1223 01:01:09,833 --> 01:01:11,700 to thumb your nose at all of us 1224 01:01:11,702 --> 01:01:14,036 in contemptuous ambivalence. 1225 01:01:15,739 --> 01:01:16,738 Put simply, 1226 01:01:18,275 --> 01:01:20,242 you didn't do it right. 1227 01:01:21,679 --> 01:01:24,146 I'm sorry that I had to be the one 1228 01:01:24,148 --> 01:01:26,248 to break the news to you. 1229 01:01:26,250 --> 01:01:30,152 - I suppose it softens the sting a little bit. 1230 01:01:30,154 --> 01:01:33,822 - You received some supportive comments. 1231 01:01:33,824 --> 01:01:36,925 Some constructive criticism along the way. 1232 01:01:36,927 --> 01:01:38,944 - I tried my best. 1233 01:01:38,945 --> 01:01:40,962 - Except you failed to devote your utmost energy 1234 01:01:40,964 --> 01:01:43,298 and enthusiasm to the enterprise 1235 01:01:43,300 --> 01:01:46,401 - I possess the conviction and the will to succeed. 1236 01:01:46,403 --> 01:01:48,203 - Without personal sacrifice 1237 01:01:48,205 --> 01:01:51,406 and the commitment of all of your available resources 1238 01:01:51,408 --> 01:01:54,226 to the endeavor, 1239 01:01:54,227 --> 01:01:57,045 that simply registers as vain posturing on your behalf. 1240 01:01:57,047 --> 01:02:01,416 You have elevated yourself to an enviable position 1241 01:02:01,418 --> 01:02:03,452 of autonomy and authority 1242 01:02:03,454 --> 01:02:06,855 at Rosen, Prattleton, Nagel & Suffield. 1243 01:02:06,857 --> 01:02:11,126 Those are hardly the trappings of tragedy. 1244 01:02:11,128 --> 01:02:13,095 - I detest my job! 1245 01:02:13,097 --> 01:02:16,064 And I despise everyone who works there. 1246 01:02:16,066 --> 01:02:18,467 And I refuse to accept that I must be forced 1247 01:02:18,469 --> 01:02:20,902 to toil with such rabble on account 1248 01:02:20,904 --> 01:02:23,238 of your obtuse philosophical musings! 1249 01:02:23,240 --> 01:02:26,508 I deserve nothing less than the reins of our family dynasty! 1250 01:02:26,510 --> 01:02:29,177 - You have proven yourself incapable 1251 01:02:29,179 --> 01:02:32,347 of realizing any of your languid goals 1252 01:02:32,349 --> 01:02:34,015 or shepherding anything 1253 01:02:34,017 --> 01:02:36,952 to a successfully implemented conclusion, 1254 01:02:36,954 --> 01:02:39,488 therefore, you deserve nothing. 1255 01:02:44,027 --> 01:02:46,762 On the brighter side of things, 1256 01:02:48,265 --> 01:02:49,531 I would imagine 1257 01:02:51,201 --> 01:02:55,403 that you'll be all the more prepared for next time. 1258 01:02:55,405 --> 01:02:58,106 - Next time? There's a next time? 1259 01:02:58,108 --> 01:03:00,475 - There will always be a next time. 1260 01:03:00,477 --> 01:03:02,477 Did you honestly expect me to 1261 01:03:02,479 --> 01:03:05,213 leave you forever in the lurch? 1262 01:03:06,316 --> 01:03:08,850 You're far too fragile of a flower 1263 01:03:08,852 --> 01:03:13,054 for me to leave untended in this unforgiving world. 1264 01:03:14,324 --> 01:03:15,524 So, as I said, 1265 01:03:18,028 --> 01:03:21,163 I'm sure you'll do better next time 1266 01:03:21,165 --> 01:03:23,031 and perhaps next time 1267 01:03:24,168 --> 01:03:25,901 you'll do it right. 1268 01:03:37,548 --> 01:03:40,849 (speaking Bulgarian) 1269 01:03:47,257 --> 01:03:48,590 - Natalya! 1270 01:03:48,592 --> 01:03:51,326 (bouncy music) 1271 01:03:53,363 --> 01:03:54,296 Natalya. 1272 01:04:12,115 --> 01:04:13,315 (glass shattering) 1273 01:04:13,317 --> 01:04:16,351 (car alarm honking) 1274 01:04:21,525 --> 01:04:23,325 - [Priscilla] Do you remember when I told you 1275 01:04:23,326 --> 01:04:25,126 that there was bluster and then there was honesty? 1276 01:04:25,128 --> 01:04:26,862 - [Shelby] Vaguely. 1277 01:04:26,864 --> 01:04:30,866 - I'm thinking we're all capable of bluster 1278 01:04:30,868 --> 01:04:35,370 when it comes to pursuing a goal or advocating a position. 1279 01:04:35,372 --> 01:04:38,440 That necessarily make us terrible people 1280 01:04:38,442 --> 01:04:40,508 or inherently dishonest, 1281 01:04:41,979 --> 01:04:44,480 but it stands to reason that bluster 1282 01:04:44,481 --> 01:04:46,982 might not be such a terrible thing after all. 1283 01:04:46,984 --> 01:04:48,350 In fact, 1284 01:04:48,352 --> 01:04:50,518 bluster might be part and parcel 1285 01:04:50,520 --> 01:04:52,988 of ambition, initiative and success. 1286 01:04:52,990 --> 01:04:54,322 - Sure, why not? 1287 01:04:56,460 --> 01:04:58,560 - I'm saying this because 1288 01:04:58,562 --> 01:05:02,998 I'm thinking that this is the end. 1289 01:05:03,000 --> 01:05:05,467 That this is it, right here. 1290 01:05:05,469 --> 01:05:06,935 - The end of what? 1291 01:05:06,937 --> 01:05:08,303 - Of everything. 1292 01:05:08,305 --> 01:05:09,404 - Oh. 1293 01:05:09,406 --> 01:05:10,572 Right. 1294 01:05:10,574 --> 01:05:12,574 - How do you think it comes to pass? 1295 01:05:12,576 --> 01:05:14,109 - I'm sorry? 1296 01:05:14,111 --> 01:05:15,627 - The end? 1297 01:05:15,628 --> 01:05:17,144 Do you think it's just a quick flick of a switch 1298 01:05:17,147 --> 01:05:18,480 and then we're gone, 1299 01:05:18,482 --> 01:05:21,082 or is it some kind of gradual 1300 01:05:23,053 --> 01:05:24,519 deflation of ourselves 1301 01:05:24,521 --> 01:05:26,922 into an unknown emptiness? 1302 01:05:29,293 --> 01:05:32,027 - It would be presumptuous of me to even suggest 1303 01:05:32,029 --> 01:05:34,095 that any one scenario is more plausible 1304 01:05:34,097 --> 01:05:38,300 than an infinite amount of competing alternatives. 1305 01:05:38,302 --> 01:05:41,136 - I only wish that I'd learn to accept the fact 1306 01:05:41,138 --> 01:05:44,606 that I'm not going to be around once I'm gone. 1307 01:05:44,608 --> 01:05:49,010 Just when I was in the grip of a newfound togetherness! 1308 01:06:05,529 --> 01:06:08,663 (speaking Bulgarian) 1309 01:06:27,584 --> 01:06:31,453 (fire engine alarming) 1310 01:06:31,455 --> 01:06:33,989 - So I guess I did it again. 1311 01:06:36,493 --> 01:06:38,226 No surprises there. 1312 01:06:39,296 --> 01:06:41,763 I would appear to be incapable 1313 01:06:41,765 --> 01:06:45,000 of learning from past mistakes 1314 01:06:45,002 --> 01:06:47,535 because I have a habit of repeating them 1315 01:06:47,537 --> 01:06:48,737 over and over, 1316 01:06:50,173 --> 01:06:51,506 again and again. 1317 01:06:52,542 --> 01:06:54,242 - I happen to think 1318 01:06:54,244 --> 01:06:57,278 we had a lot of fun together last night. 1319 01:06:57,280 --> 01:06:59,047 I happen to enjoy your company 1320 01:06:59,049 --> 01:07:02,417 and I look forward to the time that we spend together. 1321 01:07:02,419 --> 01:07:04,219 - All male sexuality 1322 01:07:07,224 --> 01:07:08,256 is violence. 1323 01:07:12,696 --> 01:07:17,098 I truly wish I was one of those people who is tolerant 1324 01:07:18,101 --> 01:07:19,300 and reasonable 1325 01:07:21,138 --> 01:07:23,204 and accept things 1326 01:07:23,206 --> 01:07:26,574 even if they weren't the way they're supposed to be, 1327 01:07:26,576 --> 01:07:27,642 but I'm not. 1328 01:07:29,246 --> 01:07:30,578 I deserve better 1329 01:07:30,580 --> 01:07:34,682 and I refuse to compromise my standards. 1330 01:07:34,684 --> 01:07:37,052 - Every relationship we have in life 1331 01:07:37,054 --> 01:07:40,588 requires some degree of compromise. 1332 01:07:40,590 --> 01:07:42,824 - What do you want from me? 1333 01:07:44,161 --> 01:07:45,460 - Well, maybe you should just be left 1334 01:07:45,462 --> 01:07:48,363 to your own miserable lot in life. 1335 01:07:53,403 --> 01:07:55,804 - Wouldn't that be a delight. 1336 01:07:59,309 --> 01:08:02,510 (somber music)