1 00:00:02,457 --> 00:00:07,457 YoubetCash.vip Agen Judi Online Aman & Terpercaya 2 00:00:07,848 --> 00:00:10,265 Welcome Bonus Rp 25.000 Extra Bonus Tambahan Withdraw Rp 2.000.000 3 00:00:25,720 --> 00:00:30,218 Emerson once said, "Life is a journey, not a destination." 4 00:00:30,220 --> 00:00:31,838 When I was young, I understood that 5 00:00:31,840 --> 00:00:33,363 differently than I do now. 6 00:00:35,020 --> 00:00:37,378 Life has a way of putting bumps in the road 7 00:00:37,380 --> 00:00:39,678 just when you least expect them. 8 00:00:39,680 --> 00:00:42,178 I guess it's through these trials that we grow, 9 00:00:42,180 --> 00:00:44,043 so long as we can push through them. 10 00:00:45,810 --> 00:00:47,078 My name is Kelly. 11 00:00:47,080 --> 00:00:50,827 I'm a wife, a mother, an adventurer, 12 00:00:50,829 --> 00:00:53,603 though life hasn't felt so adventurous these days. 13 00:00:55,530 --> 00:00:57,808 I spend most of my time folding laundry 14 00:00:57,810 --> 00:00:59,523 and scrubbing food off the floor. 15 00:01:00,400 --> 00:01:04,118 The world feels no larger than the four walls around me. 16 00:01:04,120 --> 00:01:06,608 It hasn't always been this way, though. 17 00:01:06,610 --> 00:01:08,508 Before we met each other, my husband 18 00:01:08,510 --> 00:01:11,538 was an extreme whitewater kayaker, and was working 19 00:01:11,540 --> 00:01:15,018 for a ski movie company filming extreme sports. 20 00:01:15,020 --> 00:01:18,358 Meanwhile, I was guiding wilderness trips in Colorado, 21 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:20,298 doing volunteer work in Africa, 22 00:01:20,300 --> 00:01:22,528 where I summited Mount Kilimanjaro 23 00:01:22,530 --> 00:01:26,093 and did safaris in the Serengeti and in Ngorongoro Crater. 24 00:01:27,510 --> 00:01:30,758 I backpacked through southeast Asia, Australia, 25 00:01:30,760 --> 00:01:33,808 and New Zealand, then studied for my EMT 26 00:01:33,810 --> 00:01:36,973 and started as a NOLS wilderness medicine instructor. 27 00:01:37,830 --> 00:01:40,208 Right after we got married, Eli and I drove 28 00:01:40,210 --> 00:01:44,488 a 15-passenger van 3,000 miles to southern Mexico 29 00:01:44,490 --> 00:01:46,748 to do volunteer work in Oaxaca. 30 00:01:46,750 --> 00:01:48,868 We traveled three times to Uganda 31 00:01:48,870 --> 00:01:51,458 in service of organizations bringing hope, 32 00:01:51,460 --> 00:01:55,118 fresh water, and education to remote villagers. 33 00:01:55,120 --> 00:01:58,648 We did a safari together, visited my ranger friend 34 00:01:58,650 --> 00:02:01,758 in Australia, tromped through Tasmania, 35 00:02:01,760 --> 00:02:05,418 backpacked New Zealand, hiked to Machu Picchu, 36 00:02:05,420 --> 00:02:08,193 and spent many days in America's back country. 37 00:02:10,190 --> 00:02:12,403 Then our world began to crumble. 38 00:02:14,320 --> 00:02:18,318 In a three-month period, we miscarried at 11 weeks, 39 00:02:18,320 --> 00:02:22,188 had an accident that forced us to amputate our puppy's leg, 40 00:02:22,190 --> 00:02:23,943 and then moved across states. 41 00:02:25,280 --> 00:02:28,358 A year later, the joy of giving birth to our first child 42 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:31,925 was overshadowed by a traumatic 56-hour labor 43 00:02:31,927 --> 00:02:34,598 ending with a fourth-degree episiotomy, 44 00:02:34,600 --> 00:02:38,498 a vacuum extraction, and a torn umbilical cord. 45 00:02:38,500 --> 00:02:42,348 Along with physical wounds, I was left with PTSD 46 00:02:42,350 --> 00:02:45,018 that manifested itself in night terrors 47 00:02:45,020 --> 00:02:47,828 and inescapable, obsessive anxiety 48 00:02:47,830 --> 00:02:50,988 that required EMDR therapy. 49 00:02:50,990 --> 00:02:53,458 Then came 12 months of health issues 50 00:02:53,460 --> 00:02:56,648 with our baby boy that added massive stress. 51 00:02:56,650 --> 00:02:58,128 And on top of all that, 52 00:02:58,130 --> 00:03:00,898 our marriage was seriously struggling. 53 00:03:00,900 --> 00:03:03,268 Life at home was full of loneliness, 54 00:03:03,270 --> 00:03:06,588 isolation, and exhaustion. 55 00:03:06,590 --> 00:03:08,943 I barely recognized myself anymore. 56 00:03:10,110 --> 00:03:12,718 And I did not want to have any more children. 57 00:03:12,720 --> 00:03:16,548 I needed a change, a chance to explore again 58 00:03:16,550 --> 00:03:20,188 and reclaim the joy and hope that my husband and I 59 00:03:20,190 --> 00:03:22,318 had shared in our early days. 60 00:03:22,320 --> 00:03:24,033 I wanted to share it with my son. 61 00:03:25,530 --> 00:03:26,708 So we did it. 62 00:03:27,350 --> 00:03:29,148 We scrounged up all we could 63 00:03:29,150 --> 00:03:34,098 and paid $15,000 for a 1995 Fleetwood Bounder, 64 00:03:34,100 --> 00:03:36,563 our 32-foot Class A motorhome. 65 00:03:37,570 --> 00:03:41,148 We packed up our house, handed the keys over to the renters, 66 00:03:41,150 --> 00:03:43,808 and drove out the driveway, not knowing 67 00:03:43,810 --> 00:03:46,202 if or when we would return. 68 00:03:46,204 --> 00:03:49,037 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 69 00:04:36,350 --> 00:04:40,288 This story's about us, but it's told from my perspective, 70 00:04:40,290 --> 00:04:43,253 because I was the catalyst for the trip, 71 00:04:44,600 --> 00:04:45,864 in a good way and bad way. 72 00:04:45,866 --> 00:04:47,700 (CHUCKLING) 73 00:04:47,702 --> 00:04:48,708 - Right? - Yeah. 74 00:04:48,710 --> 00:04:51,218 - I was the one who... - You can have credit for it. 75 00:04:51,220 --> 00:04:55,673 I needed to escape my reality. 76 00:04:56,860 --> 00:05:00,195 Howard Thurman said, "Don't ask what the world needs. 77 00:05:00,197 --> 00:05:02,805 "Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it, 78 00:05:02,807 --> 00:05:04,315 "because what the world needs 79 00:05:04,317 --> 00:05:07,168 "is people who have come alive." 80 00:05:07,170 --> 00:05:08,208 What can I say? 81 00:05:08,210 --> 00:05:11,505 I come alive on the road, and in beautiful places. 82 00:05:11,507 --> 00:05:13,818 And at this point in my journey, 83 00:05:13,820 --> 00:05:15,828 I needed to come back to life. 84 00:05:17,104 --> 00:05:19,521 (SOFT MUSIC) 85 00:05:30,070 --> 00:05:32,468 Life on the road is not all it's cracked up to be, 86 00:05:32,470 --> 00:05:34,028 and I learned that very quickly, 87 00:05:34,030 --> 00:05:37,383 living in such tight quarters with a two-year-old and a dog. 88 00:05:38,670 --> 00:05:40,098 We have a really small kitchen, 89 00:05:40,100 --> 00:05:42,478 so we kind of bump into each other a little bit, you know? 90 00:05:42,480 --> 00:05:45,378 Our table is right next to our stove and our sink, 91 00:05:45,380 --> 00:05:48,048 and that's the hallway that connects the back to the front, 92 00:05:48,050 --> 00:05:49,868 the bathroom to the front door, 93 00:05:49,870 --> 00:05:52,498 and so it's tight quarters. 94 00:05:52,500 --> 00:05:54,058 KELLY: Eating healthy is important for us, 95 00:05:54,060 --> 00:05:56,413 and not many gas stations sell organic food. 96 00:05:58,010 --> 00:06:01,428 So we stopped at every Costco we could find along the way, 97 00:06:01,430 --> 00:06:04,383 and tried to buy enough stuff to make it to our next stop. 98 00:06:05,470 --> 00:06:08,297 The challenge was finding a place for it. 99 00:06:13,721 --> 00:06:14,652 How is it? 100 00:06:14,654 --> 00:06:15,628 Good. 101 00:06:15,630 --> 00:06:16,561 (LAUGHTER) 102 00:06:16,563 --> 00:06:18,609 Oh my God, is that a tiger in the car area? 103 00:06:18,611 --> 00:06:19,818 I need to hide! 104 00:06:19,820 --> 00:06:23,088 Oh my goodness, that's so scary, a black leopard! 105 00:06:23,090 --> 00:06:25,948 For sleeping, we gave Dakota the back bedroom. 106 00:06:25,950 --> 00:06:27,498 It was a sacrifice for us, 107 00:06:27,500 --> 00:06:29,693 but it did make a great play area for him. 108 00:06:32,794 --> 00:06:34,998 (GIGGLING) 109 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:36,558 And the bed popped up to create 110 00:06:36,560 --> 00:06:38,310 a little nest for him on the floor. 111 00:06:39,210 --> 00:06:41,403 He sure loved snuggling in at night. 112 00:06:44,120 --> 00:06:48,164 Our sleeping situation, however, was a little less ideal. 113 00:06:48,166 --> 00:06:50,068 (PLAYFUL MUSIC) 114 00:06:50,070 --> 00:06:52,028 Eli and I shared the foldout couch, 115 00:06:52,030 --> 00:06:55,168 which lost its comfort with every passing night 116 00:06:55,170 --> 00:06:56,988 and had to be converted back and forth 117 00:06:56,990 --> 00:06:59,558 between bed and sofa every day. 118 00:06:59,560 --> 00:07:03,178 Our amazing and shedding dog Tassie got the floor 119 00:07:03,180 --> 00:07:05,778 right underneath our couch. 120 00:07:05,780 --> 00:07:08,359 Everyone could hear everything, all the time. 121 00:07:08,361 --> 00:07:09,328 (TOY MUSIC) 122 00:07:09,330 --> 00:07:11,838 The smoke alarm went off almost every time we cooked, 123 00:07:11,840 --> 00:07:13,958 despite having the windows open. 124 00:07:13,960 --> 00:07:16,028 And we had to pull in a foldout chair 125 00:07:16,030 --> 00:07:17,958 to fit the three of us, which we stashed 126 00:07:17,960 --> 00:07:20,568 behind the driver's seat when we weren't using it. 127 00:07:20,570 --> 00:07:23,758 Living in a small space means keeping it simple. 128 00:07:23,760 --> 00:07:26,578 That means paper plates, and sometimes 129 00:07:26,580 --> 00:07:29,618 washing and reusing paper plates. 130 00:07:29,620 --> 00:07:32,278 Low on storage space, we kept a number of pans 131 00:07:32,280 --> 00:07:33,738 and Tupperware in the oven. 132 00:07:33,740 --> 00:07:36,168 We found it worked better as a cabinet. 133 00:07:36,170 --> 00:07:37,678 At least we had a bathroom, 134 00:07:37,680 --> 00:07:40,408 and that's about all I can say about that. 135 00:07:40,410 --> 00:07:43,558 I'm thankful that Eli took ownership of the systems. 136 00:07:43,560 --> 00:07:45,168 When it comes to technical stuff, 137 00:07:45,170 --> 00:07:47,078 I had rather just not think about it. 138 00:07:47,080 --> 00:07:50,638 Over here I have nothing. 139 00:07:50,640 --> 00:07:53,998 Learning the systems is kind of the big hurdle, 140 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:56,008 you know, learning how to empty your tanks, 141 00:07:56,010 --> 00:07:57,748 where you can fill them up and dump them, 142 00:07:57,750 --> 00:07:59,018 learning how to keep them clean 143 00:07:59,020 --> 00:08:01,828 so your sensors work so you can have an accurate reading 144 00:08:01,830 --> 00:08:05,398 on how full your gray tank is or your black tank. 145 00:08:05,400 --> 00:08:06,588 KELLY: I put a high priority 146 00:08:06,590 --> 00:08:08,918 on clean, safe drinking water. 147 00:08:08,920 --> 00:08:11,348 Drinking water out of an old plastic tank, 148 00:08:11,350 --> 00:08:15,038 filling up at random gas stations and roadside spigots, 149 00:08:15,040 --> 00:08:16,340 it was a challenge for me. 150 00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:20,258 An additional challenge we faced 151 00:08:20,260 --> 00:08:22,118 was moving our film and video business 152 00:08:22,120 --> 00:08:24,883 from the studio and equipment trailer into the Bounder. 153 00:08:26,070 --> 00:08:28,058 Eli stashed his gear down below, 154 00:08:28,060 --> 00:08:31,238 in a compartment right next to Dakota's toys, 155 00:08:31,240 --> 00:08:33,818 and then bought a laptop and used the side table 156 00:08:33,820 --> 00:08:35,848 and front seat as his workstation, 157 00:08:35,850 --> 00:08:38,400 converting it back and forth each time we traveled. 158 00:08:39,430 --> 00:08:41,518 Being a video production company, 159 00:08:41,520 --> 00:08:43,598 I can take my work on the road. 160 00:08:43,600 --> 00:08:44,948 It's not easy, let me tell you. 161 00:08:44,950 --> 00:08:48,048 I left the comfort of a beautiful home studio. 162 00:08:48,050 --> 00:08:51,558 I'm basically able to do what I do because I have internet, 163 00:08:51,560 --> 00:08:55,278 but without a hard-line connection to broadband, 164 00:08:55,280 --> 00:08:57,818 sometimes it's terribly frustrating 165 00:08:57,820 --> 00:09:01,358 to try and download a song or even an email. 166 00:09:01,360 --> 00:09:02,691 KELLY: You transitioned well. 167 00:09:02,693 --> 00:09:03,649 Yeah? 168 00:09:03,651 --> 00:09:04,591 Yeah. 169 00:09:04,593 --> 00:09:05,541 Thanks. 170 00:09:05,543 --> 00:09:06,528 I think it was probably hard for you. 171 00:09:06,530 --> 00:09:09,185 I know, I think I hid most of my transitioning. 172 00:09:09,187 --> 00:09:11,038 (LAUGHING) 173 00:09:11,040 --> 00:09:12,368 KELLY: Then, while he was working, 174 00:09:12,370 --> 00:09:15,778 Dakota and I would drive the campgrounds on his quad, 175 00:09:15,780 --> 00:09:17,828 explore the trails and creeks, 176 00:09:17,830 --> 00:09:20,180 or sometimes we'd just hang out in the Bounder. 177 00:09:25,360 --> 00:09:28,278 Eli's first job was a 10-day shoot in Colorado, 178 00:09:28,280 --> 00:09:30,008 so over the next couple months, 179 00:09:30,010 --> 00:09:31,738 we journeyed east from Oregon, 180 00:09:31,740 --> 00:09:33,768 through northern Idaho and Montana. 181 00:09:33,770 --> 00:09:36,268 We explored Yellowstone National Park, 182 00:09:36,270 --> 00:09:38,848 then headed south and visited countless friends 183 00:09:38,850 --> 00:09:40,608 and beautiful places in Colorado 184 00:09:40,610 --> 00:09:42,838 before turning back up north again 185 00:09:42,840 --> 00:09:45,480 to Grand Teton National Park and Yellowstone. 186 00:09:45,482 --> 00:09:48,315 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 187 00:10:01,622 --> 00:10:02,948 How are you doing, Dakota? 188 00:10:02,950 --> 00:10:05,158 Oh, are you using your binoculars? 189 00:10:05,160 --> 00:10:06,649 What do you see? 190 00:10:06,651 --> 00:10:09,318 I see a big head and big eyes. 191 00:10:10,810 --> 00:10:13,290 KELLY: Cool, I love your binoculars! 192 00:10:23,300 --> 00:10:25,318 We've seen herds of pronghorn 193 00:10:25,320 --> 00:10:28,788 just cruising out across the Wyoming plains. 194 00:10:28,790 --> 00:10:32,508 And we've seen bull moose pretty up close 195 00:10:32,510 --> 00:10:35,823 in the marshes east of the Tetons. 196 00:10:36,820 --> 00:10:38,448 We've seen grizzly bear twice. 197 00:10:38,450 --> 00:10:39,728 The first time we saw the grizzly, 198 00:10:39,730 --> 00:10:42,488 he was eating an elk carcass, literally 199 00:10:42,490 --> 00:10:44,748 pulling chunks of meat off the elk carcass, 200 00:10:44,750 --> 00:10:49,088 defending it against a wolf who was waiting for his turn. 201 00:10:49,090 --> 00:10:52,528 And after the grizzly left, we sat and watched the wolf 202 00:10:52,530 --> 00:10:54,788 chew away at this elk carcass for hours. 203 00:10:54,790 --> 00:10:58,265 And everywhere we went, Dakota, his signature story was, 204 00:10:58,267 --> 00:11:02,018 "A grizzly bear eating an elk carcass and a wolf." 205 00:11:02,020 --> 00:11:05,258 And people would look at him like, "You saw what?" 206 00:11:05,260 --> 00:11:08,618 Dakota's at this age where everything is new, 207 00:11:08,620 --> 00:11:11,468 and he's experiencing things for the first time, 208 00:11:11,470 --> 00:11:13,368 like seeing a grizzly bear in the wild 209 00:11:13,370 --> 00:11:16,198 or seeing a bald eagle or catching a fish. 210 00:11:16,200 --> 00:11:18,968 And to be able to introduce him to wild places 211 00:11:18,970 --> 00:11:21,948 and just watch his eyes get so big. 212 00:11:21,950 --> 00:11:25,848 And the overwhelming joy of being able to experience 213 00:11:25,850 --> 00:11:30,323 these things with him for the first time was so, so sweet. 214 00:11:32,480 --> 00:11:34,958 I hadn't foreseen how lonely it could be at times 215 00:11:34,960 --> 00:11:37,648 on the road, away from the people we love. 216 00:11:37,650 --> 00:11:40,818 I think the biggest loss of going on the road 217 00:11:40,820 --> 00:11:45,508 was taking Dakota away from home, 'cause he gets weekly 218 00:11:45,510 --> 00:11:49,418 if not daily interaction with his grandparents. 219 00:11:49,420 --> 00:11:52,175 Dakota had his share of homesickness. 220 00:11:52,177 --> 00:11:54,254 ELI: Do you want to go to Yellowstone? 221 00:11:54,256 --> 00:11:55,240 No! 222 00:11:55,242 --> 00:11:56,419 ELI: Why? 223 00:11:56,421 --> 00:11:59,429 Because I wanna go back to the Prairie Nest. 224 00:11:59,431 --> 00:12:00,672 ELI: What do you want to do at the Prairie Nest? 225 00:12:00,674 --> 00:12:03,941 I wanna ride my mini John Deere. 226 00:12:03,943 --> 00:12:07,868 I bet Papa is gonna let me ride in Honey Bee. 227 00:12:07,870 --> 00:12:09,968 KELLY: Honey Bee is my dad's vintage Model A, 228 00:12:09,970 --> 00:12:13,218 and our son has spent many hours with his grandpa, 229 00:12:13,220 --> 00:12:15,020 trying to get that old car to start. 230 00:12:16,030 --> 00:12:17,550 Dad, it started up, huh? 231 00:12:18,530 --> 00:12:20,813 GRANDPA: Yeah, I got a little air problem. 232 00:12:21,910 --> 00:12:24,108 KELLY: The Prairie Nest is my parents' farm, 233 00:12:24,110 --> 00:12:27,073 which served as our base camp when we'd visit our hometown. 234 00:12:28,100 --> 00:12:30,088 There was enough room there to park the Bounder 235 00:12:30,090 --> 00:12:31,290 and spread out a little. 236 00:12:32,170 --> 00:12:34,843 And Dakota loved riding all my dad's tractors. 237 00:12:37,960 --> 00:12:42,182 ELI: We'll go back there in October or November, okay? 238 00:12:42,391 --> 00:12:47,382 I want to go back to the Prairie Nest right now! 239 00:12:47,810 --> 00:12:50,798 It's just us, Kelly, Dakota and myself. 240 00:12:50,800 --> 00:12:54,138 That is why it is sweet to have friends out there. 241 00:12:54,140 --> 00:12:58,778 It was always wonderful to roll up into our friends' homes 242 00:12:58,780 --> 00:13:01,638 and be able to reconnect, tell them about our journeys 243 00:13:01,640 --> 00:13:04,788 and our adventures, and that was just special. 244 00:13:04,790 --> 00:13:08,178 Just getting that meal time and some late night time, 245 00:13:08,180 --> 00:13:09,728 evenings after the kids go to sleep. 246 00:13:09,730 --> 00:13:10,988 KELLY: When can you do sleepovers? 247 00:13:10,990 --> 00:13:13,978 I mean, it was so fun to just be living with people. 248 00:13:13,980 --> 00:13:16,668 I hadn't ridden a horse bareback for years, 249 00:13:16,670 --> 00:13:19,468 so when our friends in Oregon's Wallowa Mountains 250 00:13:19,470 --> 00:13:21,298 offered for me to ride their gelding, 251 00:13:21,300 --> 00:13:23,358 it was a special opportunity to share 252 00:13:23,360 --> 00:13:24,963 in their life and passions. 253 00:13:26,174 --> 00:13:28,757 (BRIGHT MUSIC) 254 00:13:34,990 --> 00:13:37,458 Kelly has gotten a lot of time with her girlfriends. 255 00:13:37,460 --> 00:13:38,848 She has a lot of friends in Colorado, 256 00:13:38,850 --> 00:13:41,208 so we spent a month and a half in Colorado. 257 00:13:41,210 --> 00:13:42,348 I did a big job. 258 00:13:42,350 --> 00:13:45,668 While I was gone, Kelly stayed with her friend, Ashley. 259 00:13:45,670 --> 00:13:47,208 For her to be able to do that 260 00:13:47,210 --> 00:13:50,908 and live in community with a good friend, 261 00:13:50,910 --> 00:13:53,608 that was a huge gift, and we couldn't have had that 262 00:13:53,610 --> 00:13:56,526 without being in this motorhome lifestyle. 263 00:13:56,528 --> 00:13:59,361 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 264 00:14:03,490 --> 00:14:04,958 We stayed a week with some dear friends 265 00:14:04,960 --> 00:14:07,428 and helped with their daughter's wedding, 266 00:14:07,430 --> 00:14:10,578 and that was sweet time, both being at the wedding 267 00:14:10,580 --> 00:14:14,858 and also just being with them for that time, for that week. 268 00:14:14,860 --> 00:14:17,178 Our friends are our destinations. 269 00:14:17,180 --> 00:14:19,248 We shoot for where our friends are at 270 00:14:19,250 --> 00:14:20,788 and create community there. 271 00:14:20,790 --> 00:14:21,958 With the motorhome we're able 272 00:14:21,960 --> 00:14:24,838 to not impose too much in their home. 273 00:14:24,840 --> 00:14:26,998 Dakota has his own space, he can take a nap, 274 00:14:27,000 --> 00:14:28,718 he can sleep well, we're not concerned 275 00:14:28,720 --> 00:14:30,948 about changing his environment, 276 00:14:30,950 --> 00:14:33,082 and that just seems to work really well. 277 00:14:33,084 --> 00:14:35,334 (GIGGLING) 278 00:14:36,280 --> 00:14:40,328 In the twilight 279 00:14:40,330 --> 00:14:43,909 I reach for the stars 280 00:14:43,911 --> 00:14:48,911 If they'll tell me what happens now 281 00:14:51,491 --> 00:14:56,491 When dark cloud spreads cross my sky 282 00:14:58,709 --> 00:15:03,709 Can you make it so I can see 283 00:15:05,699 --> 00:15:08,870 If I've fallen down 284 00:15:08,872 --> 00:15:11,496 Would you pull me up 285 00:15:11,498 --> 00:15:15,081 KELLY: Good job hiking the mountain, Dakota! 286 00:15:15,083 --> 00:15:16,983 Look at you, you're such a big hiker! 287 00:15:20,379 --> 00:15:23,791 Will your arms reach round 288 00:15:23,793 --> 00:15:28,353 Can you hold me now 289 00:15:28,355 --> 00:15:31,855 Then maybe I won't fall 290 00:15:34,730 --> 00:15:36,878 As the weather changed, I could almost taste 291 00:15:36,880 --> 00:15:38,425 the bitter chill of winter, 292 00:15:38,427 --> 00:15:40,603 and the struggles of years past. 293 00:15:43,277 --> 00:15:46,873 Seasons change 294 00:15:46,875 --> 00:15:50,699 The leaves of your spirit 295 00:15:50,701 --> 00:15:55,701 Have colors like I've never seen 296 00:15:57,898 --> 00:16:01,917 If I live today 297 00:16:01,919 --> 00:16:05,739 Will time change the secrets 298 00:16:05,741 --> 00:16:09,208 Of loving so I will know 299 00:16:09,210 --> 00:16:10,598 When I married my husband 300 00:16:10,600 --> 00:16:13,788 and exchanged vows in the setting of celebration, 301 00:16:13,790 --> 00:16:16,498 I could never have known the struggle and fortitude 302 00:16:16,500 --> 00:16:18,968 it would take to uphold those vows. 303 00:16:18,970 --> 00:16:20,798 Over nearly 10 years of marriage, 304 00:16:20,800 --> 00:16:25,800 Eli and I experienced incredible highs and devastating lows. 305 00:16:26,090 --> 00:16:28,748 I remember our pastor telling us during the wedding 306 00:16:28,750 --> 00:16:31,954 that marriage would be harder than any peak I'd climbed. 307 00:16:31,956 --> 00:16:33,548 And I appreciated his metaphor, 308 00:16:33,550 --> 00:16:36,648 as I'd suffered through some tough days in the mountains. 309 00:16:36,650 --> 00:16:39,068 But now those days pale in comparison 310 00:16:39,070 --> 00:16:40,878 to the suffering I'd experienced 311 00:16:40,880 --> 00:16:44,558 during seasons of pain and betrayal in marriage, 312 00:16:44,560 --> 00:16:46,938 seasons that were so absent of love, 313 00:16:46,940 --> 00:16:48,658 belonging and connection. 314 00:16:48,660 --> 00:16:50,778 It's staggering that in a relationship 315 00:16:50,780 --> 00:16:54,738 as intimate as marriage, that I could feel so alone. 316 00:16:54,740 --> 00:16:58,648 We've both been at that point of saying we're done, 317 00:16:58,650 --> 00:17:01,603 we want to walk out, and that's intense. 318 00:17:04,120 --> 00:17:07,418 I never ever thought I'd be at that point. 319 00:17:07,420 --> 00:17:09,828 That's the fickle thing about relationship. 320 00:17:09,830 --> 00:17:14,815 It can feel so doomed, and then she says something loving, 321 00:17:14,817 --> 00:17:17,118 I do the same, and all of a sudden 322 00:17:17,120 --> 00:17:18,298 we're in a different place. 323 00:17:18,300 --> 00:17:20,458 So, with all that to say, one of the reasons 324 00:17:20,460 --> 00:17:22,773 we left our house is to help our marriage. 325 00:17:26,530 --> 00:17:27,678 KELLY: While still in our house, 326 00:17:27,680 --> 00:17:30,128 Eli started writing me notes with these pictures 327 00:17:30,130 --> 00:17:33,098 of a motorhome in various mountain settings. 328 00:17:33,100 --> 00:17:35,878 It was an invitation to dream together, 329 00:17:35,880 --> 00:17:39,918 to pursue my longing to be united on a shared adventure, 330 00:17:39,920 --> 00:17:42,927 to road trip like we did in our early days. 331 00:17:42,929 --> 00:17:46,429 (UPBEAT ELECTRONIC MUSIC) 332 00:17:58,053 --> 00:18:01,792 Where do you go when it glows 333 00:18:01,794 --> 00:18:05,830 When the night is coming to a close 334 00:18:05,832 --> 00:18:08,729 The sky is painted red 335 00:18:08,731 --> 00:18:13,314 But the darkness it can't settle yet 336 00:18:21,663 --> 00:18:25,348 Leaving Colorado and Wyoming, we headed north during autumn 337 00:18:25,350 --> 00:18:27,718 to explore Glacier National Park 338 00:18:27,720 --> 00:18:30,078 and the parks of the Canadian Rockies: 339 00:18:30,080 --> 00:18:33,130 Kootenay, Banff, Jasper, and Yoho. 340 00:18:33,132 --> 00:18:35,799 (ROUSING MUSIC) 341 00:18:41,720 --> 00:18:44,608 I love getting out into beauty and wilderness, 342 00:18:44,610 --> 00:18:47,528 whether backpacking or traveling overseas. 343 00:18:47,530 --> 00:18:50,928 These remote settings force me out of my daily routine 344 00:18:50,930 --> 00:18:54,598 and provide a respite from this fast-paced culture 345 00:18:54,600 --> 00:18:56,263 that causes so much stress. 346 00:18:57,420 --> 00:18:59,788 These places allow me to pause, 347 00:18:59,790 --> 00:19:02,758 to be present to each moment as it passes, 348 00:19:02,760 --> 00:19:04,728 to make room in my life to attend 349 00:19:04,730 --> 00:19:07,318 to the vulnerable places inside me. 350 00:19:07,320 --> 00:19:10,478 It seems the best environment to cultivate change. 351 00:19:10,480 --> 00:19:12,998 I think a lot of people get stuck in the same spot, 352 00:19:13,000 --> 00:19:15,408 the same job, the same routine. 353 00:19:15,410 --> 00:19:18,678 It's funny to think that that's actually what I crave, 354 00:19:18,680 --> 00:19:21,838 yet here I am saying that I've changed on this journey, 355 00:19:21,840 --> 00:19:26,018 and I probably wouldn't have made the same changes at home. 356 00:19:26,020 --> 00:19:28,068 It also really forced us to unplug, 357 00:19:28,070 --> 00:19:31,448 as we were often far from cell towers and internet. 358 00:19:31,450 --> 00:19:34,218 It was like a detox from technology, 359 00:19:34,220 --> 00:19:37,833 and allowed us to enjoy a slower, more simple pace of life. 360 00:19:39,960 --> 00:19:42,128 I was pretty lonely, pretty isolated. 361 00:19:42,130 --> 00:19:45,248 I think I was dealing with some post-partum depression. 362 00:19:45,250 --> 00:19:48,538 And so, being able to be on the road was amazing, 363 00:19:48,540 --> 00:19:50,668 because we were all in one place, 364 00:19:50,670 --> 00:19:55,098 and it just allowed Eli and I to be reunited together 365 00:19:55,100 --> 00:19:58,608 on an adventure, which was very, very, I think, 366 00:19:58,610 --> 00:20:01,823 a huge rescue for our marriage and for our life. 367 00:20:04,010 --> 00:20:06,368 The simple pace also allowed us to connect 368 00:20:06,370 --> 00:20:08,878 with other travelers in the campgrounds. 369 00:20:08,880 --> 00:20:12,418 That's how we met this Australian couple, John and Linda. 370 00:20:12,420 --> 00:20:14,388 They reminded me that I can never be 371 00:20:14,390 --> 00:20:16,353 too old to live adventurously. 372 00:20:17,380 --> 00:20:19,083 Well originally we sold our business, 373 00:20:19,085 --> 00:20:21,088 and we were just gonna do what most Australians do 374 00:20:21,090 --> 00:20:22,688 and grab a caravan and drive around Australia. 375 00:20:22,690 --> 00:20:25,838 And then we saw an ad for a guy who wanted to travel 376 00:20:25,840 --> 00:20:27,908 across to Europe, going through China. 377 00:20:27,910 --> 00:20:29,278 So we thought, well that sounds like fun. 378 00:20:29,280 --> 00:20:30,618 We'll go onboard with that, 379 00:20:30,620 --> 00:20:33,618 so that's how it all started, 11 years ago. 380 00:20:33,620 --> 00:20:36,598 We shipped to Singapore, drove through Malaysia, Thailand, 381 00:20:36,600 --> 00:20:40,688 Cambodia, Laos, rode across China, through the Stans, 382 00:20:40,690 --> 00:20:42,598 and then basically across the Caspian Sea 383 00:20:42,600 --> 00:20:43,588 and we were in Europe. 384 00:20:43,590 --> 00:20:45,438 Probably China was a real surprise. 385 00:20:45,440 --> 00:20:46,658 We had kind of a bit of trepidation 386 00:20:46,660 --> 00:20:48,078 about going into a communist country, 387 00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:51,818 but the Chinese were so friendly, so interested. 388 00:20:51,820 --> 00:20:55,228 Our first motorhome was just a front wheel drive Fiat, 389 00:20:55,230 --> 00:20:58,608 so it lasted up okay, but we were limited where we could go. 390 00:20:58,610 --> 00:21:02,318 You couldn't go down by a riverbed or up a dirt track, 391 00:21:02,320 --> 00:21:04,068 so we decided we wanted a four wheel drive one, 392 00:21:04,070 --> 00:21:06,648 and we bought an Isuzu cab chassis 393 00:21:06,650 --> 00:21:10,473 and had 'em build the back on and modified it to our needs. 394 00:21:11,870 --> 00:21:14,298 KELLY: I love the Australian mindset. 395 00:21:14,300 --> 00:21:17,098 I learned it in college when I did a semester abroad there, 396 00:21:17,100 --> 00:21:21,398 working as a park ranger: to invest more in experience 397 00:21:21,400 --> 00:21:22,963 than material things. 398 00:21:24,340 --> 00:21:26,508 So then we shifted over to Lima. 399 00:21:26,510 --> 00:21:28,448 Took us three weeks to get it out of customs. 400 00:21:28,450 --> 00:21:30,628 We have confidence that, if something happens, 401 00:21:30,630 --> 00:21:33,563 we can fix it, or we can talk our way out of it. 402 00:21:35,470 --> 00:21:36,988 We ended up in a situation in Bolivia. 403 00:21:36,990 --> 00:21:39,418 There was a big strike, and we kind of drove 404 00:21:39,420 --> 00:21:41,458 into the middle of it, and the guys were throwing dynamite 405 00:21:41,460 --> 00:21:43,583 and all this, and my wife's like packing it, you know? 406 00:21:43,585 --> 00:21:45,048 I said, "Ah, it'll be all right." 407 00:21:45,050 --> 00:21:46,958 We spent a day there, mixed with the locals, 408 00:21:46,960 --> 00:21:49,888 and played their games, and drunk their rocket fuel, 409 00:21:49,890 --> 00:21:53,893 and then they showed us a way we can get past and carry on. 410 00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:56,618 Nah, we just have confidence in ourselves 411 00:21:56,620 --> 00:22:00,433 and trust that everything will work out right, you know? 412 00:22:01,270 --> 00:22:03,115 My accountant said once, "If you have a passport 413 00:22:03,117 --> 00:22:06,857 "and a credit card, you can go anywhere." (LAUGHING) 414 00:22:10,330 --> 00:22:12,708 KELLY: With fresh inspiration from our new friends, 415 00:22:12,710 --> 00:22:15,728 we continued north to the Canadian border, 416 00:22:15,730 --> 00:22:18,358 passports in hand, 'cause, hey, 417 00:22:18,360 --> 00:22:21,343 with a passport and a credit card, you can go anywhere. 418 00:22:22,723 --> 00:22:25,390 (ROUSING MUSIC) 419 00:22:34,090 --> 00:22:36,565 Mark Twain said, "20 years from now, 420 00:22:36,567 --> 00:22:39,735 "you'll be more disappointed by the things you didn't do 421 00:22:39,737 --> 00:22:41,257 "than by the ones you did." 422 00:22:45,110 --> 00:22:47,248 Eli is a bit crazy. 423 00:22:47,250 --> 00:22:49,578 He literally swims in any body of water, 424 00:22:49,580 --> 00:22:50,903 no matter how cold it is. 425 00:22:52,780 --> 00:22:54,818 I think he just wants my attention, 426 00:22:54,820 --> 00:22:57,038 even though he says he truly loves it, 427 00:22:57,040 --> 00:22:59,753 floating down ice-cold glacial snow melt. 428 00:23:09,820 --> 00:23:12,338 There are glacial lakes up there 429 00:23:12,340 --> 00:23:16,088 that are as turquoise blue as you could ever imagine, 430 00:23:16,090 --> 00:23:20,678 surrounded by towering, beautiful granite peaks. 431 00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:23,753 One of the lakes is up in the Valley of the Ten Peaks. 432 00:23:24,950 --> 00:23:26,950 Both Kelly and I got some time up there, 433 00:23:27,990 --> 00:23:30,218 just to be and to look around 434 00:23:30,220 --> 00:23:35,220 and breathe in the beauty there, the majesty of it all. 435 00:23:35,560 --> 00:23:38,935 She came back to me after her walk and said, "I'm going in." 436 00:23:38,937 --> 00:23:41,438 And that is so unlike anyone, really, 437 00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:43,898 because people just don't swim in these lakes. 438 00:23:43,900 --> 00:23:45,288 They're frigid. 439 00:23:45,290 --> 00:23:49,528 But the thing about them is they're so beautiful, 440 00:23:49,530 --> 00:23:54,328 and they look so inviting, that to really experience it 441 00:23:54,330 --> 00:23:57,979 there's that allure of you've gotta just dive in. 442 00:23:57,981 --> 00:23:59,382 Really, really, really cold! (LAUGHING) 443 00:23:59,384 --> 00:24:00,734 ELI: Can believe you did it! 444 00:24:00,736 --> 00:24:03,335 No! 'Cus it's really cold! (LAUGHING) 445 00:24:07,580 --> 00:24:09,893 I had to just go for it, and I'm glad I did. 446 00:24:11,780 --> 00:24:13,563 It's like many things in life: 447 00:24:14,510 --> 00:24:15,778 This trip wouldn't have happened 448 00:24:15,780 --> 00:24:17,933 had we not taken the risk and dove in. 449 00:24:18,890 --> 00:24:21,678 Both marriage and parenting require jumping in 450 00:24:21,680 --> 00:24:24,298 to our own frigid and dark places. 451 00:24:24,300 --> 00:24:26,138 One might say that anything worth doing 452 00:24:26,140 --> 00:24:27,493 in this life is like that. 453 00:24:29,430 --> 00:24:32,465 Theodore Roosevelt states it so eloquently: 454 00:24:32,467 --> 00:24:34,325 "It is not the critic who counts, 455 00:24:34,327 --> 00:24:38,305 "not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles 456 00:24:38,307 --> 00:24:41,745 "or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. 457 00:24:41,747 --> 00:24:45,443 "The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, 458 00:24:46,477 --> 00:24:50,335 "whose face is marred by dust, and sweat, and blood, 459 00:24:50,337 --> 00:24:53,535 "who spends himself in a worthy cause, 460 00:24:53,537 --> 00:24:55,405 "who at the best knows in the end 461 00:24:55,407 --> 00:24:57,625 "the triumph of high achievement, 462 00:24:57,627 --> 00:24:59,945 "and who at the worst, if he fails, 463 00:24:59,947 --> 00:25:02,595 "at least fails while daring greatly, 464 00:25:02,597 --> 00:25:04,465 "so that his place shall never be 465 00:25:04,467 --> 00:25:06,845 "with those cold and timid souls 466 00:25:06,847 --> 00:25:09,797 "who neither know victory nor defeat." 467 00:25:14,863 --> 00:25:19,863 Here we are coming down the switchbacks from Takakkaw Falls. 468 00:25:21,230 --> 00:25:23,518 You can see it's pretty tight here. 469 00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:26,618 I guess the tour buses actually back up and down. 470 00:25:26,620 --> 00:25:29,323 There's the switchbacks right there. 471 00:25:30,308 --> 00:25:32,208 One, two, three. 472 00:25:32,210 --> 00:25:34,290 Yay! We did it! 473 00:25:34,292 --> 00:25:36,620 That was intense. 474 00:25:37,900 --> 00:25:40,538 We thought we had failed on numerous occasions 475 00:25:40,540 --> 00:25:43,728 and feel like we escaped disaster on every one of them. 476 00:25:43,730 --> 00:25:46,388 We had to dump our black tank. 477 00:25:46,390 --> 00:25:48,278 A little bit chilly out, but you know, 478 00:25:48,280 --> 00:25:49,908 didn't really think a whole lot about it. 479 00:25:49,910 --> 00:25:52,928 Cold air had gotten in there and frozen water 480 00:25:52,930 --> 00:25:55,768 in that sewer intake and clogged it up. 481 00:25:55,770 --> 00:25:58,528 It hit a certain point, and it just started coming back up. 482 00:25:58,530 --> 00:26:00,668 I went straight to the black tank and turned it off, 483 00:26:00,670 --> 00:26:02,458 but the whole tube was still full then, 484 00:26:02,460 --> 00:26:04,648 so the stench was horrible. 485 00:26:04,650 --> 00:26:06,258 It was bad. 486 00:26:06,260 --> 00:26:07,838 It was really bad. 487 00:26:07,840 --> 00:26:09,145 The worst part is it just felt horrible. 488 00:26:09,147 --> 00:26:11,346 I mean, there was just poop everywhere. 489 00:26:11,348 --> 00:26:12,928 It's one of the most disgusting things 490 00:26:12,930 --> 00:26:14,688 about living in a motorhome 491 00:26:14,690 --> 00:26:18,253 is that you literally have to handle your own poop. 492 00:26:20,850 --> 00:26:22,378 KELLY: Like I said in the beginning, 493 00:26:22,380 --> 00:26:24,623 I'm glad Eli took care of the systems. 494 00:26:25,710 --> 00:26:27,348 ELI: Well I'm about to saw into the toilet. 495 00:26:27,350 --> 00:26:30,328 It's all moldy 'cause it had a leak in the back. 496 00:26:30,330 --> 00:26:34,198 The valve was leaking for months, I guess. 497 00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:35,723 I got my tools here. 498 00:26:36,610 --> 00:26:39,210 Black tank is plugged up with a trash bag right now. 499 00:26:40,265 --> 00:26:42,838 And you can see this completely moldy, 500 00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:46,278 nasty piece of wood here, in the back especially. 501 00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:47,878 Seven o'clock p.m. 502 00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:50,438 Kelly is sleeping at our friend's house with Dakota. 503 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:53,918 And I'm gonna go for it and try to get this thing replaced. 504 00:26:53,920 --> 00:26:56,292 Slide it in like so. 505 00:26:56,294 --> 00:27:01,143 Bring in this piece, drop it in like that. 506 00:27:02,127 --> 00:27:06,063 Now this piece like this. 507 00:27:07,001 --> 00:27:09,297 There it is, a new toilet base. 508 00:27:10,964 --> 00:27:13,714 (WIND WHISTLING) 509 00:27:17,140 --> 00:27:19,158 KELLY: The weather didn't always cooperate, 510 00:27:19,160 --> 00:27:21,773 so we made most of our decisions at the last minute. 511 00:27:23,001 --> 00:27:24,418 There's Waterton! 512 00:27:25,316 --> 00:27:27,038 (SHOUTING) 513 00:27:27,040 --> 00:27:28,558 Once we were caught in a snowstorm 514 00:27:28,560 --> 00:27:31,018 coming down a Canadian pass 300 miles 515 00:27:31,020 --> 00:27:33,323 north of the border, with no cell service. 516 00:27:36,050 --> 00:27:38,293 We scraped our rear end numerous times. 517 00:27:40,150 --> 00:27:41,708 We've definitely had some conflict 518 00:27:41,710 --> 00:27:43,428 over driving the big motorhome. 519 00:27:43,430 --> 00:27:45,178 I mean, it's a 32-footer. 520 00:27:45,180 --> 00:27:49,258 With the bikes in the back, it's probably about 35, 36 feet. 521 00:27:49,260 --> 00:27:51,360 We've had some encounters in parking lots. 522 00:27:52,606 --> 00:27:54,348 There was a time when I ran into the gas pump 523 00:27:54,350 --> 00:27:57,688 and hooked the bumper of the Bounder around the gas pump, 524 00:27:57,690 --> 00:28:00,341 and that was slightly stressful. 525 00:28:00,343 --> 00:28:01,538 ELI: That was a rough day. 526 00:28:01,540 --> 00:28:02,940 Sorry for being hard on you. 527 00:28:03,789 --> 00:28:08,455 Yeah, you didn't deal with me too warmly on that moment. 528 00:28:08,457 --> 00:28:10,958 ELI: I've had my share of mistakes in fixing things 529 00:28:10,960 --> 00:28:12,558 or not doing things right as well. 530 00:28:12,560 --> 00:28:15,928 Eli and I have some pretty massive differences. 531 00:28:15,930 --> 00:28:18,388 I'm an extrovert, he's an introvert. 532 00:28:18,390 --> 00:28:19,778 I'm a thinker, you're a feeler. 533 00:28:19,780 --> 00:28:21,718 Yeah, oh yeah. 534 00:28:21,720 --> 00:28:24,388 I'm all about simplifying, getting rid of things, 535 00:28:24,390 --> 00:28:28,373 living in small spaces; my husband, not so much. 536 00:28:29,260 --> 00:28:32,378 Being in cramped quarters can be challenging at times. 537 00:28:32,380 --> 00:28:35,078 I like having some space, a little place of my own. 538 00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,693 I don't have that in this life. 539 00:28:38,920 --> 00:28:42,648 I have like a cubby of my own up in the upper cabinet. 540 00:28:42,650 --> 00:28:44,258 Give me a house anywhere. 541 00:28:44,260 --> 00:28:45,225 Just stay in the same house. 542 00:28:45,227 --> 00:28:47,178 20, 30 years, I'll be there. 543 00:28:47,180 --> 00:28:50,728 Kelly, she doesn't like that idea. 544 00:28:50,730 --> 00:28:54,803 She has a really hard time staying in one place. 545 00:28:57,140 --> 00:29:00,458 I really have a massive free spirit, 546 00:29:00,460 --> 00:29:04,218 like I wanna move, I wanna change, I wanna go places. 547 00:29:04,220 --> 00:29:06,838 And Eli would love to just stay in the same house 548 00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:08,638 for the rest of our life. 549 00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:10,678 Anyway, it presents challenges for us, 550 00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:14,108 'cause it's highly stressful for him to have to have change. 551 00:29:14,110 --> 00:29:15,698 It actually, to be totally honest, 552 00:29:15,700 --> 00:29:18,508 can cause some major stress and conflict 553 00:29:18,510 --> 00:29:19,568 that we've had to work through 554 00:29:19,570 --> 00:29:21,923 and continue to work through in our marriage. 555 00:29:24,900 --> 00:29:29,508 He checks out, I turn cold, get controlling, 556 00:29:29,510 --> 00:29:31,408 he lets his anger fly. 557 00:29:31,410 --> 00:29:33,118 We'd see that whether we were living 558 00:29:33,120 --> 00:29:34,168 in a motorhome or not. 559 00:29:34,170 --> 00:29:36,528 It happened plenty in our house. 560 00:29:36,530 --> 00:29:38,548 It's happened plenty on the road. 561 00:29:38,550 --> 00:29:41,458 We live in a 300-square-foot box. 562 00:29:41,460 --> 00:29:44,168 There's no room that I can go retreat to, 563 00:29:44,170 --> 00:29:46,013 no closet that I can go hide in. 564 00:29:47,030 --> 00:29:50,428 We have to face our issues head-to-head, 565 00:29:50,430 --> 00:29:52,777 and we just have to work it out. 566 00:29:54,863 --> 00:29:57,530 (ROUSING MUSIC) 567 00:30:03,210 --> 00:30:05,288 KELLY: Yeah, we work it out all right, 568 00:30:05,290 --> 00:30:06,733 right in front of our son. 569 00:30:08,020 --> 00:30:12,278 Dakota is very in tune with how Kelly and I are doing. 570 00:30:12,280 --> 00:30:14,848 We can see literally his anxiety level. 571 00:30:14,850 --> 00:30:16,768 We could see him being affected 572 00:30:16,770 --> 00:30:20,708 by our fighting or our anger. 573 00:30:20,710 --> 00:30:22,188 That's one of the hardest things 574 00:30:22,190 --> 00:30:24,658 that I've experienced in life, 575 00:30:24,660 --> 00:30:29,660 is seeing my issues affect him, or our issues affect him. 576 00:30:30,190 --> 00:30:32,208 But we'd see that whether we were living 577 00:30:32,210 --> 00:30:33,360 in a motorhome or not. 578 00:30:39,720 --> 00:30:41,548 KELLY: One of our marriage counselors told us 579 00:30:41,550 --> 00:30:43,698 that conflict is actually a gift, 580 00:30:43,700 --> 00:30:46,878 because it is required for a relationship to grow. 581 00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:49,958 Though not totally convinced, it was enough anyway 582 00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:53,853 to keep me moving toward connection despite the dysfunction. 583 00:30:59,370 --> 00:31:01,898 (SOFT MUSIC) 584 00:31:01,900 --> 00:31:05,678 After we left behind the towering mountains of Canada, 585 00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:08,668 Eli's work took us toward Seattle. 586 00:31:08,670 --> 00:31:11,268 We ferried the Bounder across the Puget Sound 587 00:31:11,270 --> 00:31:13,418 and explored Olympic National Park 588 00:31:13,420 --> 00:31:15,328 before returning to our hometown 589 00:31:15,330 --> 00:31:17,593 for the first time in over three months. 590 00:31:23,710 --> 00:31:26,663 The national parks were our amazing home away from home. 591 00:31:28,560 --> 00:31:32,008 The campgrounds are beautiful, peaceful, 592 00:31:32,010 --> 00:31:34,173 and the most affordable option out there. 593 00:31:35,830 --> 00:31:37,988 The children's programs and visitor centers 594 00:31:37,990 --> 00:31:39,968 were so interactive and helped us 595 00:31:39,970 --> 00:31:42,033 teach Dakota about the natural world. 596 00:31:44,120 --> 00:31:46,923 And the scenery and trails are breathtaking. 597 00:31:53,521 --> 00:31:56,826 Happy birthday to you 598 00:31:56,828 --> 00:32:01,540 Happy birthday dear Dakota 599 00:32:01,542 --> 00:32:05,481 Happy birthday to you 600 00:32:05,483 --> 00:32:06,926 Can you blow 'em out? 601 00:32:06,928 --> 00:32:08,454 ELI: Blow 'em out. 602 00:32:08,456 --> 00:32:10,101 KELLY: Keep blowing. 603 00:32:10,103 --> 00:32:11,353 - Yay! - Good job! 604 00:32:18,350 --> 00:32:21,100 Dadda, I want Monkey to see it. 605 00:32:24,340 --> 00:32:25,937 ELI: Where are we Dakota? 606 00:32:25,939 --> 00:32:28,128 We're at the Prairie Nest. 607 00:32:28,130 --> 00:32:30,018 ELI: Oh my gosh, it's been a long time, huh? 608 00:32:30,020 --> 00:32:31,338 DAKOTA: Uh-huh. 609 00:32:31,340 --> 00:32:33,028 KELLY: Dakota was quite the adventurer 610 00:32:33,030 --> 00:32:34,578 on that first leg of our journey, 611 00:32:34,580 --> 00:32:37,098 but we knew how much he missed his grandparents, 612 00:32:37,100 --> 00:32:39,698 so it was a sweet time for him to experience 613 00:32:39,700 --> 00:32:42,170 his third birthday in Central Oregon. 614 00:32:42,172 --> 00:32:45,589 Happy birthday to you. 615 00:32:48,250 --> 00:32:50,238 We planned to stay a week or two. 616 00:32:50,240 --> 00:32:51,578 We had to find new tenants 617 00:32:51,580 --> 00:32:53,608 and get the house ready for winter. 618 00:32:53,610 --> 00:32:56,464 Eli had a film shoot to take care of. 619 00:32:56,466 --> 00:32:58,766 And we had to dig a few things out of storage. 620 00:32:59,780 --> 00:33:02,013 But the day before we were to leave, 621 00:33:02,890 --> 00:33:04,603 the unexpected happened. 622 00:33:07,060 --> 00:33:09,477 (SOFT MUSIC) 623 00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:16,863 Temperatures plummeted to -10 degrees Fahrenheit overnight, 624 00:33:18,210 --> 00:33:19,913 dumping over a foot of snow. 625 00:33:21,160 --> 00:33:24,093 The temperature didn't get above freezing for two weeks. 626 00:33:26,600 --> 00:33:29,788 Despite the beauty and wonder of the ice and snow, 627 00:33:29,790 --> 00:33:31,368 it was a little too cold for us 628 00:33:31,370 --> 00:33:34,093 in that foam and metal box we called the Bounder. 629 00:33:41,828 --> 00:33:43,611 Dadda, what's that? 630 00:33:43,613 --> 00:33:45,983 It's funny ice, huh, Dadda? 631 00:33:45,985 --> 00:33:50,652 It's around and around and around and around and around. 632 00:33:55,897 --> 00:33:58,628 KELLY: But more troubling were the frozen pipes. 633 00:33:58,630 --> 00:34:01,498 No water, no sewer, and the concern that, 634 00:34:01,500 --> 00:34:03,628 if left unattended, our Bounder 635 00:34:03,630 --> 00:34:06,508 would be a sopping mess when they thawed. 636 00:34:06,510 --> 00:34:08,908 How do you thaw out pipes when it's 637 00:34:08,910 --> 00:34:12,418 five degrees high and negative five low? 638 00:34:12,420 --> 00:34:14,938 KELLY: Eli had to get creative. 639 00:34:14,940 --> 00:34:18,308 It was tense, it was stressful, it was an adventure. 640 00:34:18,310 --> 00:34:19,778 It actually gave me an opportunity 641 00:34:19,780 --> 00:34:23,488 to put my fix-it mind to work, and I rigged up something 642 00:34:23,490 --> 00:34:25,738 with a little six-inch space heater, 643 00:34:25,740 --> 00:34:29,348 and some heating conduit, and some insulation, 644 00:34:29,350 --> 00:34:31,418 and I blasted warm air into the subfloor 645 00:34:31,420 --> 00:34:34,868 of our Bounder for a week, 10 days straight. 646 00:34:34,870 --> 00:34:37,278 It thawed the pipes out within an hour. 647 00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:40,878 We endured about a week, 10 days of subzero temperatures 648 00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:43,388 at night, with temperatures not getting anywhere close 649 00:34:43,390 --> 00:34:45,863 to the non-freezing level for that whole time. 650 00:34:47,040 --> 00:34:48,488 Thankfully things thawed out, 651 00:34:48,490 --> 00:34:50,548 and we saw a window to get out. 652 00:34:50,550 --> 00:34:54,378 The storm was coming, but we prayed, we drove really slow, 653 00:34:54,380 --> 00:34:57,878 like 10 to 15 miles an hour, and we got out in time. 654 00:34:57,880 --> 00:34:59,208 KELLY: We didn't have a clear plan 655 00:34:59,210 --> 00:35:00,168 of where we were headed, 656 00:35:00,170 --> 00:35:02,898 but we knew we had to move south for the winter 657 00:35:02,900 --> 00:35:05,608 if our Bounder was going to make it. 658 00:35:05,610 --> 00:35:08,438 It felt so good to be escaping the chill of winter. 659 00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:09,598 But what's that saying? 660 00:35:09,600 --> 00:35:11,978 Out of the frying pan and into the fire? 661 00:35:11,980 --> 00:35:14,048 It is just pouring rain. 662 00:35:14,050 --> 00:35:15,708 We had to take Tassie out for walks, 663 00:35:15,710 --> 00:35:17,918 and then we had to get out of the house sometimes too, 664 00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:19,628 so we'd go out in the pouring rain. 665 00:35:19,630 --> 00:35:20,461 It was fun. 666 00:35:20,463 --> 00:35:22,499 We'd get completely drenched, come back, 667 00:35:22,501 --> 00:35:25,138 and have soaking wet clothes, hang 'em up, 668 00:35:25,140 --> 00:35:28,388 cook some food, steam, it's cold outside, 669 00:35:28,390 --> 00:35:30,498 older motorhome, not insulated so well, 670 00:35:30,500 --> 00:35:32,748 condensation, moisture on our windows. 671 00:35:32,750 --> 00:35:35,528 We've had some mold growing around the edges. 672 00:35:35,530 --> 00:35:38,598 We have to wipe that off with Clorox every day. 673 00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:40,263 This thing is soaking wet. 674 00:35:41,800 --> 00:35:42,631 It's terrible. 675 00:35:42,633 --> 00:35:44,304 Mmm, yum. 676 00:35:44,306 --> 00:35:47,156 It was kind of crazy there when it was raining so much. 677 00:35:50,500 --> 00:35:51,655 KELLY: Here we are! 678 00:35:51,657 --> 00:35:52,748 DAKOTA: Where we at? 679 00:35:52,750 --> 00:35:55,608 KELLY: The laundromat, woo! 680 00:35:55,610 --> 00:35:57,722 DAKOTA: What's this? What's this water. 681 00:35:57,724 --> 00:35:59,308 KELLY: Don't touch too much, bud, come on in. 682 00:35:59,310 --> 00:36:00,518 Laundromats. 683 00:36:00,520 --> 00:36:03,628 I have a love-hate relationship with laundromats. 684 00:36:03,630 --> 00:36:06,568 They're sort of a necessary evil while living on the road, 685 00:36:06,570 --> 00:36:08,018 but I tried to make the most of it, 686 00:36:08,020 --> 00:36:10,933 having fun with Dakota while doing our family chores. 687 00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:16,798 Aside from the muddy clothes and the moldy windows, 688 00:36:16,800 --> 00:36:19,273 we enjoyed exploring Redwood National Park, 689 00:36:20,310 --> 00:36:22,228 then continued south on Highway 1, 690 00:36:22,230 --> 00:36:25,118 past Mendocino and Monterey, settling down 691 00:36:25,120 --> 00:36:28,684 on California's Big Sur coastline for Christmas. 692 00:36:28,686 --> 00:36:30,250 DAKOTA: Look at that tree, Dadda! 693 00:36:30,252 --> 00:36:32,011 - Oh my God! - Look at the other one! 694 00:36:32,013 --> 00:36:34,368 KELLY: Wow, that one's huge! 695 00:36:34,370 --> 00:36:35,862 It's giant! 696 00:36:36,702 --> 00:36:38,231 Look at that one! 697 00:36:38,233 --> 00:36:39,803 Oh my gosh, look at that one! 698 00:36:39,805 --> 00:36:41,497 - Look! - Wow! 699 00:36:43,444 --> 00:36:45,861 (SOFT MUSIC) 700 00:36:47,813 --> 00:36:48,975 KELLY: "We have grown dull 701 00:36:48,977 --> 00:36:50,985 "toward this world in which we live. 702 00:36:50,987 --> 00:36:53,165 "We have forgotten that it is not normal 703 00:36:53,167 --> 00:36:55,885 "or scientific in any sense of the word. 704 00:36:55,887 --> 00:37:00,145 "It is fantastic, it is fairytale through and through. 705 00:37:00,147 --> 00:37:03,075 "At what point did we lose our wonder at it all? 706 00:37:03,077 --> 00:37:06,075 "Even so, once in a while something will come along 707 00:37:06,077 --> 00:37:09,705 "and shock us right out of our dullness and resignation. 708 00:37:09,707 --> 00:37:13,235 "We come around a corner, and there before us is a peacock, 709 00:37:13,237 --> 00:37:15,885 "a stag with horns as big as he. 710 00:37:15,887 --> 00:37:17,995 "Perhaps we come upon a waterfall, 711 00:37:17,997 --> 00:37:21,705 "the clouds have made a rainbow in a circle around the sun, 712 00:37:21,707 --> 00:37:25,415 "and for a moment we realize that we were born into a world 713 00:37:25,417 --> 00:37:28,447 "as astonishing as any fairytale." 714 00:37:30,880 --> 00:37:32,508 I love this John Eldredge quote 715 00:37:32,510 --> 00:37:35,658 that speaks of the wonder that I want to live with, 716 00:37:35,660 --> 00:37:39,228 that childlike amazement at nature and life. 717 00:37:39,230 --> 00:37:41,918 It's so easy to become complacent, 718 00:37:41,920 --> 00:37:46,268 numbed by the everyday ordinariness of mundane routine. 719 00:37:46,270 --> 00:37:49,748 Being a new parent, exhausted and in survival mode, 720 00:37:49,750 --> 00:37:52,300 I was just trying to get through one day at a time. 721 00:37:54,750 --> 00:37:57,898 As I watch my son explore the world around him, 722 00:37:57,900 --> 00:38:01,108 I begin to notice more and take time to remember 723 00:38:01,110 --> 00:38:04,123 the seasons of awe I had as a child. 724 00:38:15,454 --> 00:38:18,204 (SIRENS BLARING) 725 00:38:25,540 --> 00:38:29,198 Highway 1 along the Big Sur is a 100-mile stretch 726 00:38:29,200 --> 00:38:32,068 along rocky bluffs littered with hairpin turns 727 00:38:32,070 --> 00:38:33,558 and steep drop-offs. 728 00:38:33,560 --> 00:38:34,818 JOHN: Three-car accident. 729 00:38:34,820 --> 00:38:37,278 They just took the people of the crash back. 730 00:38:37,280 --> 00:38:39,268 It seems like it'll take like an hour. 731 00:38:39,270 --> 00:38:42,018 KELLY: There's still one more ambulance and a firetruck. 732 00:38:42,020 --> 00:38:45,978 As we hoped for the best for the rescue crews and victims, 733 00:38:45,980 --> 00:38:48,678 it seemed like a great time to cook up a little dinner 734 00:38:48,680 --> 00:38:51,913 for our family in our luxurious kitchen on wheels, 735 00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:55,988 and get in a little playtime before bed. 736 00:38:55,990 --> 00:38:58,740 My house, it's red. 737 00:38:58,742 --> 00:39:01,409 (RELAXED MUSIC) 738 00:39:13,615 --> 00:39:17,182 Take me to the breaking of a beautiful dawn 739 00:39:17,184 --> 00:39:20,869 Take me to the place where we came from 740 00:39:20,871 --> 00:39:24,464 Take me to the end so I can see the start 741 00:39:24,466 --> 00:39:29,466 There's only one way to mend a broken heart 742 00:39:43,296 --> 00:39:46,807 Take me to the place where I don't feel so small 743 00:39:46,809 --> 00:39:50,571 Take me where I don't need to stand so tall 744 00:39:50,573 --> 00:39:54,254 Take me to the edge so I can fall apart 745 00:39:54,256 --> 00:39:59,256 There's only one way to mend a broken heart 746 00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:06,218 ELI: Kelly loves whale watching. 747 00:40:06,220 --> 00:40:08,218 We'd be driving along and see a spout. 748 00:40:08,220 --> 00:40:09,758 We'd just pull over at a little turnout, 749 00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:11,708 and she'd hang out the window with her binoculars 750 00:40:11,710 --> 00:40:13,228 and watch the whales. 751 00:40:13,230 --> 00:40:16,549 Take me where love is not for sale 752 00:40:16,551 --> 00:40:20,284 Take me where our hearts are not so frail 753 00:40:20,286 --> 00:40:23,773 Take me where the fire still owns its spark 754 00:40:23,775 --> 00:40:27,850 And there's only one way to mend a broken heart 755 00:40:27,852 --> 00:40:30,740 Teach me how to see when I close my eyes 756 00:40:30,742 --> 00:40:31,573 KELLY: In the beginning I said 757 00:40:31,575 --> 00:40:33,428 I didn't ever want to have kids again, 758 00:40:33,430 --> 00:40:36,398 a combination of the trauma from Dakota's birth, 759 00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:38,913 along with the struggles we've faced in marriage. 760 00:40:39,900 --> 00:40:41,658 But the desire to have a second 761 00:40:41,660 --> 00:40:44,588 kept coming back to me in the recent days. 762 00:40:44,590 --> 00:40:47,008 Maybe it was the romance of the ocean, 763 00:40:47,010 --> 00:40:50,678 the sunsets with the hubby, or the desire to give Dakota 764 00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:52,463 the gift of being a big brother. 765 00:40:54,080 --> 00:40:55,778 Maybe with Christmas approaching 766 00:40:55,780 --> 00:40:58,403 I was hoping for my own Christmas miracle. 767 00:40:59,870 --> 00:41:02,168 Either way, it felt good to at least 768 00:41:02,170 --> 00:41:03,973 have the desire back again. 769 00:41:04,999 --> 00:41:08,647 Show me to the wisdom of the evening star 770 00:41:08,649 --> 00:41:12,567 And there's only one way to mend a broken heart 771 00:41:12,569 --> 00:41:16,202 Take me to the place where I feel no shame 772 00:41:16,204 --> 00:41:19,759 Take me where courage doesn't need a name 773 00:41:19,761 --> 00:41:23,586 Learning how to cry is the hardest part 774 00:41:23,588 --> 00:41:28,588 There's only one way to mend a broken heart 775 00:41:30,880 --> 00:41:34,598 Twas the night before Christmas when all through the Bounder 776 00:41:34,600 --> 00:41:39,238 not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse, thankfully. 777 00:41:39,240 --> 00:41:42,368 The stockings were hung by the cupboards with care, 778 00:41:42,370 --> 00:41:45,253 in hopes that Saint Nicholas soon would be there. 779 00:41:49,376 --> 00:41:50,957 Whoa! 780 00:41:50,959 --> 00:41:52,747 How does it feel? 781 00:41:52,749 --> 00:41:54,838 Can I walk outside? 782 00:41:54,840 --> 00:41:57,698 Of course, we can hike today in your new shoes. 783 00:41:57,700 --> 00:41:59,158 And little did we know, 784 00:41:59,160 --> 00:42:02,183 I had a Christmas gift growing inside of me. 785 00:42:08,362 --> 00:42:09,370 How are you doing today? 786 00:42:09,372 --> 00:42:11,049 MECHANIC: All right. How about yourself? 787 00:42:11,051 --> 00:42:12,892 We're good. Thanks for being here. 788 00:42:12,904 --> 00:42:14,051 No problem. 789 00:42:14,053 --> 00:42:16,128 This is what I was talking about here. 790 00:42:16,130 --> 00:42:17,348 KELLY: That's supposed to be flat? 791 00:42:17,350 --> 00:42:20,178 MECHANIC: It's supposed to be a little smooth, yeah. 792 00:42:20,180 --> 00:42:22,598 KELLY: Yeah, so this is definitely needed. 793 00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:23,848 MECHANIC: Metal to metal, yeah. 794 00:42:23,850 --> 00:42:25,748 There was grooves all around the rotor. 795 00:42:25,750 --> 00:42:27,868 You could see where the back of the brake pad 796 00:42:27,870 --> 00:42:29,838 was just grinding into that rotor. 797 00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:32,038 Super dangerous, and I'm so thankful 798 00:42:32,040 --> 00:42:35,418 that we didn't have any accidents because of it. 799 00:42:35,420 --> 00:42:37,148 KELLY: And thankfully, we found a mechanic 800 00:42:37,150 --> 00:42:39,468 who was willing to work on such a big rig. 801 00:42:39,470 --> 00:42:41,938 But we had to stay overnight at the shop 802 00:42:41,940 --> 00:42:44,628 in an industrial aree in north LA. 803 00:42:44,630 --> 00:42:47,178 It makes it all the more wonderful 804 00:42:47,180 --> 00:42:48,948 to tell those stories in retrospect, 805 00:42:48,950 --> 00:42:50,890 - 'cause they're just... - Yeah, you can actually laugh 806 00:42:50,892 --> 00:42:51,918 - when it's over. - Funny. 807 00:42:51,920 --> 00:42:53,068 After it's over. 808 00:42:53,070 --> 00:42:54,963 It's not funny in the midst of it. 809 00:42:55,850 --> 00:42:59,058 We drove away after a full rear brake replacement, 810 00:42:59,060 --> 00:43:01,368 only to start hearing another screeching sound 811 00:43:01,370 --> 00:43:03,098 from the right rear wheels. 812 00:43:03,100 --> 00:43:05,118 Shortly after that, we spent another night 813 00:43:05,120 --> 00:43:07,258 in front of an RV mechanic shop 814 00:43:07,260 --> 00:43:09,638 while they diagnosed a generator issue. 815 00:43:09,640 --> 00:43:13,288 Needless to say, we spent a lot of time sitting on the curb, 816 00:43:13,290 --> 00:43:14,418 wondering what would become 817 00:43:14,420 --> 00:43:16,668 of our 20-year-old home on wheels, 818 00:43:16,670 --> 00:43:18,468 and how long we'd have to keep living 819 00:43:18,470 --> 00:43:20,353 in front of mechanics' garages. 820 00:43:21,940 --> 00:43:24,218 I'm driving, and suddenly I start hearing 821 00:43:24,220 --> 00:43:26,958 this high-pitched grinding noise somewhere 822 00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:29,897 underneath somewhere, and I was like, "Oh, no!" 823 00:43:31,163 --> 00:43:34,768 That was right before the vinegar fell, or the oil bottle. 824 00:43:34,770 --> 00:43:37,948 Oh, the olive oil bottle falls out, 825 00:43:37,950 --> 00:43:40,978 literally smashes my iPhone into bits 826 00:43:40,980 --> 00:43:42,823 and falls onto the floor. 827 00:43:42,825 --> 00:43:43,656 Were you laughing? 828 00:43:43,658 --> 00:43:44,848 Not at all. 829 00:43:44,850 --> 00:43:48,688 Like I said, in the moment it's not pretty. 830 00:43:48,690 --> 00:43:50,948 But afterwards it's funny, if we survive. 831 00:43:50,950 --> 00:43:52,718 I think I realized maybe the only difference 832 00:43:52,720 --> 00:43:55,778 between a road block and an adventure was my perspective, 833 00:43:55,780 --> 00:43:58,108 'cause if everything went exactly as planned, 834 00:43:58,110 --> 00:43:59,890 it wouldn't be much of an adventure. 835 00:43:59,892 --> 00:44:01,928 (SPIRITED MUSIC) 836 00:44:01,930 --> 00:44:04,538 Leaving the cities behind, it was time to spend 837 00:44:04,540 --> 00:44:07,043 the rest of the winter in the souther deserts. 838 00:44:08,170 --> 00:44:11,148 We had booked another job in Colorado for the springtime, 839 00:44:11,150 --> 00:44:13,913 so that gave us three months to work our way out there. 840 00:44:15,015 --> 00:44:17,682 (ROUSING MUSIC) 841 00:44:30,980 --> 00:44:33,798 We camped in Joshua Tree National Park, 842 00:44:33,800 --> 00:44:36,698 Mojave National Preserve and Death Valley, 843 00:44:36,700 --> 00:44:40,668 then continued east through Zion, Bryce Canyon, 844 00:44:40,670 --> 00:44:44,563 Capitol Reef, Canyonlands, and Arches National Parks. 845 00:44:47,495 --> 00:44:50,245 (SPIRITED MUSIC) 846 00:45:45,410 --> 00:45:47,677 Like this, raise your right hand. 847 00:45:48,232 --> 00:45:49,618 I promise... 848 00:45:49,620 --> 00:45:51,689 KELLY: To be the best Junior Ranger... 849 00:45:51,691 --> 00:45:52,678 Ever. 850 00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:53,880 KELLY: That I can be. 851 00:45:55,023 --> 00:45:56,498 That I can be. 852 00:45:56,500 --> 00:45:58,017 KELLY: And where are you going? 853 00:45:58,019 --> 00:46:00,721 To the Visitor Center to get my Junior Ranger badge! 854 00:46:00,723 --> 00:46:01,728 KELLY: Well I can't wait. 855 00:46:01,730 --> 00:46:04,094 Bye-bye, what's your name again? 856 00:46:04,096 --> 00:46:05,578 Ranger Dakota. 857 00:46:05,580 --> 00:46:06,818 KELLY: Dakota was really excited 858 00:46:06,820 --> 00:46:08,470 about the Junior Ranger programs. 859 00:46:11,580 --> 00:46:14,858 And I loved that he was so proud of his badges. 860 00:46:14,860 --> 00:46:17,688 It's been amazing to see Kelly in these national parks 861 00:46:17,690 --> 00:46:20,388 come alive with everything having to do with rangers 862 00:46:20,390 --> 00:46:22,308 and introducing that to Dakota. 863 00:46:22,310 --> 00:46:24,918 KELLY: What map are you looking at? 864 00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:26,248 Yellowstone. 865 00:46:26,250 --> 00:46:27,081 KELLY: Oh, cool! 866 00:46:27,083 --> 00:46:29,680 What are all the animals you see on there? 867 00:46:29,682 --> 00:46:31,339 I'll show you, Mamma. 868 00:46:31,341 --> 00:46:32,738 Bison calf. 869 00:46:32,740 --> 00:46:34,649 KELLY: What other animals to you see? 870 00:46:34,651 --> 00:46:35,482 DAKOTA: That. 871 00:46:35,484 --> 00:46:36,483 KELLY: What is it? 872 00:46:36,485 --> 00:46:37,348 DAKOTA: A big grizzly. 873 00:46:37,350 --> 00:46:40,478 ELI: Those badges mean so much to him. 874 00:46:40,480 --> 00:46:43,214 Junior Ranger, Joshua Tree National Park. 875 00:46:43,247 --> 00:46:45,531 Another raven statue. 876 00:46:46,345 --> 00:46:49,005 And another lizard statue. 877 00:46:49,007 --> 00:46:50,418 - Wow! - See that one? 878 00:46:50,420 --> 00:46:52,798 KELLY: Yeah, I didn't even notice that one. 879 00:46:52,800 --> 00:46:54,605 Wow, look at how long! 880 00:46:54,607 --> 00:46:56,940 And another bighorn sheep. 881 00:46:58,302 --> 00:47:00,358 KELLY: That one's a big one, isn't it? 882 00:47:00,360 --> 00:47:02,628 He learned so much on this trip. 883 00:47:02,630 --> 00:47:04,188 His brain is like a sponge 884 00:47:04,190 --> 00:47:06,783 soaking up information everywhere we go. 885 00:47:07,840 --> 00:47:10,758 As a parent, I want to teach him through experience, 886 00:47:10,760 --> 00:47:13,468 getting out there and really learning firsthand. 887 00:47:13,470 --> 00:47:15,229 DAKOTA: R. 888 00:47:15,231 --> 00:47:16,231 A. 889 00:47:17,290 --> 00:47:18,410 KELLY: I. 890 00:47:18,412 --> 00:47:19,543 I. L. 891 00:47:19,545 --> 00:47:20,601 It's a beautiful thing. 892 00:47:20,603 --> 00:47:22,948 You know, he's done almost every ranger program. 893 00:47:22,950 --> 00:47:25,229 So they give little booklets that have 894 00:47:25,231 --> 00:47:28,188 different quizzes and animal pictures, 895 00:47:28,190 --> 00:47:30,778 and you have to mix and match and color animals, 896 00:47:30,780 --> 00:47:32,398 and Kelly does a lot of it with him, 897 00:47:32,400 --> 00:47:33,788 and then when he fills it out, 898 00:47:33,790 --> 00:47:36,728 he goes down to the ranger station or the visitors center, 899 00:47:36,730 --> 00:47:39,668 and he hands over the booklet, and they give him a badge. 900 00:47:39,670 --> 00:47:41,008 RANGER: There's your badge right there. 901 00:47:41,010 --> 00:47:42,888 You're done, congratulations! 902 00:47:42,890 --> 00:47:46,778 There's a bighorn sheep, our son, and Scotty's Castle. 903 00:47:46,780 --> 00:47:48,567 - It's a one-of-a-kind. - Bighorn sheep! 904 00:47:48,569 --> 00:47:49,608 KELLY: Yeah! 905 00:47:49,610 --> 00:47:50,441 Thank you. 906 00:47:50,443 --> 00:47:51,888 RANGER: You're very welcome. 907 00:47:51,890 --> 00:47:52,923 Congratulations. 908 00:47:54,977 --> 00:47:56,172 Nice work. 909 00:47:56,730 --> 00:47:59,558 KELLY: All in all, Dakota did 17 ranger books 910 00:47:59,560 --> 00:48:02,343 and collected 17 ranger badges. 911 00:48:03,250 --> 00:48:06,568 And he's so proud when he says, "I'm Ranger Dakota!" 912 00:48:06,570 --> 00:48:09,206 Are you five, or are you three, or are you four? 913 00:48:09,208 --> 00:48:10,248 Am I three? 914 00:48:10,250 --> 00:48:11,187 KELLY: You're three. 915 00:48:11,189 --> 00:48:12,020 I'm five. 916 00:48:12,022 --> 00:48:13,220 KELLY: No, you're three! 917 00:48:13,222 --> 00:48:14,653 You're three. Three? 918 00:48:14,655 --> 00:48:15,652 DAKOTA: Uh-huh. 919 00:48:15,654 --> 00:48:16,652 Okay, well I gotta go climb. 920 00:48:16,654 --> 00:48:18,165 Nice to meet you, Ranger Dakota. 921 00:48:19,937 --> 00:48:20,770 Bye. 922 00:48:22,720 --> 00:48:25,218 KELLY: We met Laurie while camping at Joshua Tree. 923 00:48:25,220 --> 00:48:27,348 Dakota thought she and her climbing partner 924 00:48:27,350 --> 00:48:28,443 were pretty silly. 925 00:48:32,420 --> 00:48:34,598 She let Eli and I borrow some ropes 926 00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:35,998 and helped us set up a climb 927 00:48:36,000 --> 00:48:38,308 so we could get in some rock climbing together 928 00:48:38,310 --> 00:48:40,513 while Dakota entertained the other climbers. 929 00:48:41,770 --> 00:48:43,458 She shared her story about trying 930 00:48:43,460 --> 00:48:46,178 to pursue her passions while on the road. 931 00:48:46,180 --> 00:48:48,898 I love to climb, and I'm also a professional. 932 00:48:48,900 --> 00:48:52,388 I want to work only enough to enjoy life, 933 00:48:52,390 --> 00:48:55,628 not to live in a job where I'm constantly working. 934 00:48:55,630 --> 00:48:58,228 So what I did is I bought a Mercedes Sprinter 935 00:48:58,230 --> 00:49:00,648 four wheel drive van from Germany, 936 00:49:00,650 --> 00:49:02,468 and then I spent it to Sportsmobile, 937 00:49:02,470 --> 00:49:04,918 and they spent about four months designing it. 938 00:49:04,920 --> 00:49:06,828 I don't know whether I'll decide, 939 00:49:06,830 --> 00:49:09,108 wow, I still like coming into LA and teaching, 940 00:49:09,110 --> 00:49:10,968 I teach at Pepperdine, or I might say 941 00:49:10,970 --> 00:49:13,048 I want to do really mostly online. 942 00:49:13,050 --> 00:49:17,073 But I decided that the first step was getting in the van. 943 00:49:17,075 --> 00:49:19,282 If you ever see a yellow Mercedes Sprinter 944 00:49:19,284 --> 00:49:21,741 and a yellow Jeep, you kinda know it's me. 945 00:49:21,749 --> 00:49:23,382 Bye, Lori. 946 00:49:23,384 --> 00:49:24,559 Bye! 947 00:49:25,200 --> 00:49:26,818 KELLY: Inspired by his new friends, 948 00:49:26,820 --> 00:49:29,918 Dakota put on his climbing harness a couple days later 949 00:49:29,920 --> 00:49:32,473 and got up on some real rocks for the first time. 950 00:49:34,876 --> 00:49:35,899 Climbing. 951 00:49:35,901 --> 00:49:37,678 ELI: Climb on. 952 00:49:37,680 --> 00:49:38,683 KELLY: Okay, you're ready. 953 00:49:39,813 --> 00:49:41,396 Look, I'm coming! 954 00:49:42,913 --> 00:49:44,348 KELLY: Good move, remember to lean in, 955 00:49:44,350 --> 00:49:46,400 have your hand holds and your foot holds. 956 00:49:49,400 --> 00:49:50,231 Nice! 957 00:49:50,233 --> 00:49:51,137 Good job! 958 00:49:51,139 --> 00:49:52,193 Oh my gosh! 959 00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:54,388 You did it! 960 00:49:54,390 --> 00:49:55,656 KELLY: How was it? 961 00:49:55,658 --> 00:49:56,489 Great! 962 00:49:56,491 --> 00:49:57,336 KELLY: Did you have fun? 963 00:49:57,338 --> 00:49:59,145 ELI: Okay, I gotcha. 964 00:49:59,147 --> 00:50:00,730 Thank you, Dadda. 965 00:50:02,450 --> 00:50:03,818 KELLY: When we started this journey, 966 00:50:03,820 --> 00:50:05,768 we wondered how Dakota would handle 967 00:50:05,770 --> 00:50:08,218 being away from his friends and grandparents 968 00:50:08,220 --> 00:50:10,818 and if we'd made a really bad decision. 969 00:50:10,820 --> 00:50:11,888 But as it turned out, 970 00:50:11,890 --> 00:50:14,543 Dakota made new friends everywhere we went. 971 00:50:16,900 --> 00:50:19,738 Among the eclectic community of fellow nomads 972 00:50:19,740 --> 00:50:23,243 living in the national parks, we met Cornelia and Werner. 973 00:50:25,420 --> 00:50:27,863 They had another fascinating travel story. 974 00:50:29,690 --> 00:50:33,568 Two years before we started this tour, 975 00:50:33,570 --> 00:50:35,898 we bought this Big Grasshopper. 976 00:50:35,900 --> 00:50:39,728 We started in Germany and shipped our rig 977 00:50:39,730 --> 00:50:44,048 over to Halifax, Nova Scotia, down to the Smokey Mountains. 978 00:50:44,050 --> 00:50:48,498 We turned west to New Mexico. 979 00:50:48,500 --> 00:50:50,948 We followed the Rocky Mountains north, 980 00:50:50,950 --> 00:50:54,658 and we visited all the national parks, 981 00:50:54,660 --> 00:50:58,868 especially Yellowstone and Jasper, in Canada. 982 00:50:58,870 --> 00:51:01,838 Then we go further on north to Alaska. 983 00:51:01,840 --> 00:51:05,733 And now we go south to Central and South America. 984 00:51:07,460 --> 00:51:11,958 We have a mission to make a combination of travel and help, 985 00:51:11,960 --> 00:51:14,168 and therefore we have two projects, 986 00:51:14,170 --> 00:51:17,518 one in Mexico City and another one in Honduras, 987 00:51:17,520 --> 00:51:22,520 and both projects support children to get to school. 988 00:51:23,727 --> 00:51:27,238 "Be a Brick, Buy a Brick" is on our car. 989 00:51:27,240 --> 00:51:31,198 Buy one of these bricks, 990 00:51:31,200 --> 00:51:35,588 and then you can do something 991 00:51:35,590 --> 00:51:39,678 to support poor people in other countries. 992 00:51:39,680 --> 00:51:42,148 If someone says, "I give you some money," 993 00:51:42,150 --> 00:51:43,958 he get a brick like this. 994 00:51:43,960 --> 00:51:45,831 KELLY: Cool! That's great. 995 00:51:45,833 --> 00:51:48,220 WERNER: Yeah, this is the idea we have. 996 00:51:48,470 --> 00:51:51,808 KELLY: We were happy to be a brick and help their cause. 997 00:51:51,810 --> 00:51:53,668 After months of living on the road, 998 00:51:53,670 --> 00:51:57,038 we had experienced some sense of purposelessness. 999 00:51:57,040 --> 00:52:01,698 Adventure, travel, exploring, they're all great things, 1000 00:52:01,700 --> 00:52:04,268 but life can feel very self-centered at times 1001 00:52:04,270 --> 00:52:06,003 if there isn't a greater purpose. 1002 00:52:07,080 --> 00:52:09,108 Some of our richest times were spent 1003 00:52:09,110 --> 00:52:11,378 living in community with people, 1004 00:52:11,380 --> 00:52:14,173 offering our time and gifts to make a difference. 1005 00:52:15,110 --> 00:52:17,668 I had the opportunity to help out by playing djembe 1006 00:52:17,670 --> 00:52:20,418 during a camp for troubled teens. 1007 00:52:20,420 --> 00:52:22,488 Eli pitched in and helped build a cabin 1008 00:52:22,490 --> 00:52:24,488 at a Young Life youth camp. 1009 00:52:24,490 --> 00:52:26,338 And we had to keep reminding ourselves 1010 00:52:26,340 --> 00:52:28,288 that one of our greatest purposes 1011 00:52:28,290 --> 00:52:30,203 is showing abundant life to our son. 1012 00:52:31,238 --> 00:52:34,071 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 1013 00:52:42,860 --> 00:52:46,258 We're both very involved in our son's life right now, 1014 00:52:46,260 --> 00:52:48,838 and I am very present for him. 1015 00:52:48,840 --> 00:52:52,118 And I know at other times I haven't been so present. 1016 00:52:52,120 --> 00:52:54,638 I probably worked 50 hours a week average, 1017 00:52:54,640 --> 00:52:56,938 and now I probably work 20 hours a week. 1018 00:52:56,940 --> 00:52:59,971 Some of the best times with my boy are in the morning. 1019 00:52:59,973 --> 00:53:01,698 Whatcha doing there? 1020 00:53:01,700 --> 00:53:04,013 I'm warming up. 1021 00:53:04,990 --> 00:53:07,438 Dakota will wake up, I'll come over and go back 1022 00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:11,158 into his bedroom and just tell him stories for an hour. 1023 00:53:11,160 --> 00:53:12,368 And then we'll get up on the bed 1024 00:53:12,370 --> 00:53:14,588 and play around with him with his toys. 1025 00:53:14,590 --> 00:53:16,938 And that's time that I didn't get before. 1026 00:53:16,940 --> 00:53:18,958 I'm giving him a lot of myself right now 1027 00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:20,283 in this season of life. 1028 00:53:21,520 --> 00:53:24,935 C.S. Lewis said, "Children are not a distraction 1029 00:53:24,937 --> 00:53:26,565 "from more important work. 1030 00:53:26,567 --> 00:53:28,837 "They are the most important work." 1031 00:53:29,880 --> 00:53:32,598 I guess this renewed perspective was preparing me 1032 00:53:32,600 --> 00:53:34,318 for the changes ahead. 1033 00:53:34,320 --> 00:53:36,228 It had been a long, hard road 1034 00:53:36,230 --> 00:53:38,358 toward healing from my first birth. 1035 00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:41,625 But on this day I couldn't have been more overjoyed. 1036 00:53:41,627 --> 00:53:43,888 (SHOUTS OF JOY) 1037 00:53:43,890 --> 00:53:45,233 And our families were too. 1038 00:53:50,110 --> 00:53:52,705 Brené Brown says, "We run from grief 1039 00:53:52,707 --> 00:53:54,605 "because loss scares us. 1040 00:53:54,607 --> 00:53:56,635 "Yet our hearts reach toward grief, 1041 00:53:56,637 --> 00:53:59,347 "because the broken parts want to mend." 1042 00:54:01,520 --> 00:54:04,108 My desire finally overcame my fear 1043 00:54:04,110 --> 00:54:06,448 and set me on this irreversible course 1044 00:54:06,450 --> 00:54:08,478 towards another childbirth. 1045 00:54:08,480 --> 00:54:12,268 In my heart, I was so hopeful that this second time around 1046 00:54:12,270 --> 00:54:15,768 would redeem the trauma of Dakota's birth. 1047 00:54:15,770 --> 00:54:18,138 In my body I felt morning sickness 1048 00:54:18,140 --> 00:54:20,073 like I hadn't known the first time. 1049 00:54:21,250 --> 00:54:23,808 Then Dakota and I caught some sort of virus, 1050 00:54:23,810 --> 00:54:27,338 and I was not only pregnant, but sick as well. 1051 00:54:27,340 --> 00:54:28,998 The couch bed in the Bounder 1052 00:54:29,000 --> 00:54:31,628 was beginning to feel like a torture rack, 1053 00:54:31,630 --> 00:54:35,018 metal bars poking through the compressed foam. 1054 00:54:35,020 --> 00:54:39,168 The fowl smells from my dog on the floor became nauseating. 1055 00:54:39,170 --> 00:54:41,938 My food cravings would go unfulfilled for days 1056 00:54:41,940 --> 00:54:45,418 before our next grocery stop, which were few and far between 1057 00:54:45,420 --> 00:54:48,178 in the open deserts of Southern California. 1058 00:54:48,180 --> 00:54:50,228 So when I found my favorite ice cream 1059 00:54:50,230 --> 00:54:51,858 at a small health food store, 1060 00:54:51,860 --> 00:54:54,304 I was just a little bit excited. 1061 00:54:54,306 --> 00:54:55,496 DAKOTA: What's that one? 1062 00:54:55,498 --> 00:54:58,336 KELLY: Chocolate peanut butter swirl ice cream. 1063 00:54:58,338 --> 00:54:59,461 What's this one? 1064 00:54:59,463 --> 00:55:01,055 KELLY: That's cherry amaretto. 1065 00:55:01,057 --> 00:55:03,288 At least Dakota benefited from my cravings. 1066 00:55:03,290 --> 00:55:04,968 Which one do you want with your chocolate cookie, 1067 00:55:04,970 --> 00:55:07,077 coconut or cherry amaretto? 1068 00:55:09,408 --> 00:55:10,528 Amaretto. 1069 00:55:10,530 --> 00:55:12,836 Okay. Do you want a big cherry in it? 1070 00:55:12,838 --> 00:55:14,498 Uh-huh, a big one! 1071 00:55:15,340 --> 00:55:16,173 Yummy! 1072 00:55:17,234 --> 00:55:18,866 Delicious! 1073 00:55:18,868 --> 00:55:21,079 (CHUCKLING) 1074 00:55:21,081 --> 00:55:22,593 KELLY: Enjoy, my son. 1075 00:55:23,540 --> 00:55:24,937 Thank you, Mamma. 1076 00:55:24,939 --> 00:55:28,086 KELLY: You're welcome, bud. 1077 00:55:28,088 --> 00:55:29,438 Yummy! 1078 00:55:34,440 --> 00:55:36,988 Dakota also benefited from my exhaustion, 1079 00:55:36,990 --> 00:55:40,808 as my zero gravity chair became my new best friend. 1080 00:55:40,810 --> 00:55:42,663 Dakota and I took up birdwatching. 1081 00:55:43,530 --> 00:55:46,138 To be honest, anxiety was creeping in. 1082 00:55:46,140 --> 00:55:49,518 A tiny baby inside of me, hours from trusted doctors 1083 00:55:49,520 --> 00:55:53,068 or hospital care, spotty cell coverage. 1084 00:55:53,070 --> 00:55:56,818 There were days that I wanted to kind of bail. 1085 00:55:56,820 --> 00:55:59,428 I just was like, you know what, this has been awesome. 1086 00:55:59,430 --> 00:56:00,945 Let's just head home. 1087 00:56:00,947 --> 00:56:02,798 One of the things, too, that was playing into it 1088 00:56:02,800 --> 00:56:05,108 was fear, because I was early in my pregnancy, 1089 00:56:05,110 --> 00:56:07,098 I'd had a miscarriage prior. 1090 00:56:07,100 --> 00:56:10,833 We were pretty far out in the parks at that time. 1091 00:56:13,290 --> 00:56:15,248 The decision of whether to end our trip 1092 00:56:15,250 --> 00:56:16,683 weighed heavily on me. 1093 00:56:17,900 --> 00:56:21,268 In the end, the potential benefits outweighed the risks, 1094 00:56:21,270 --> 00:56:25,014 and we pressed on into the rugged Colorado plateau. 1095 00:56:25,016 --> 00:56:27,766 (DELICATE MUSIC) 1096 00:56:34,760 --> 00:56:36,321 I've heard the saying many times: 1097 00:56:36,323 --> 00:56:38,453 "you cannot give what you do not have." 1098 00:56:40,110 --> 00:56:43,438 I want to make sure I'm giving Eli and Dakota my best. 1099 00:56:43,440 --> 00:56:46,658 To do that, I first need to be filled up myself, 1100 00:56:46,660 --> 00:56:49,288 with life and beauty, wonder, 1101 00:56:49,290 --> 00:56:52,498 community, solitude and adventure. 1102 00:56:52,500 --> 00:56:56,148 I need healing for the vulnerable places within me. 1103 00:56:56,150 --> 00:56:58,208 And I just need more time. 1104 00:56:58,210 --> 00:57:00,143 There never seems to be enough of it. 1105 00:57:01,470 --> 00:57:03,728 In talking with a fellow traveler named Kyle, 1106 00:57:03,730 --> 00:57:05,838 from North Carolina, it was great 1107 00:57:05,840 --> 00:57:08,113 to share some similar experiences. 1108 00:57:09,050 --> 00:57:12,108 We were in the grind and planning this trip, 1109 00:57:12,110 --> 00:57:13,403 and we tried to carve out a month, 1110 00:57:13,412 --> 00:57:16,085 and a month seemed like this huge amount of time. 1111 00:57:16,087 --> 00:57:18,898 And then, now that we're out here, 1112 00:57:18,900 --> 00:57:22,208 a month's gone by in a flash, and it's kind of sad, 1113 00:57:22,210 --> 00:57:23,328 because I feel like right now, 1114 00:57:23,330 --> 00:57:26,548 we're just now kind of getting to a sustainable pace 1115 00:57:26,550 --> 00:57:28,388 and just slowing down enough 1116 00:57:28,390 --> 00:57:30,168 to really start enjoying things. 1117 00:57:30,170 --> 00:57:32,418 I try to be a good father and be at home as much as I can 1118 00:57:32,420 --> 00:57:34,278 and spend as much time with my kids as possible. 1119 00:57:34,280 --> 00:57:35,358 But being on the road with 'em, 1120 00:57:35,360 --> 00:57:38,378 I've gotten to know 'em a lot better and more intimately, 1121 00:57:38,380 --> 00:57:40,858 just the little things about their personalities 1122 00:57:40,860 --> 00:57:43,281 that I probably didn't take the time to notice 1123 00:57:43,283 --> 00:57:46,788 when we were at home and everybody's 1124 00:57:46,790 --> 00:57:47,988 going in their different directions 1125 00:57:47,990 --> 00:57:49,958 with school, and work, and that sort of thing. 1126 00:57:49,960 --> 00:57:51,968 It's been really cool, and it's gonna be hard to go back 1127 00:57:51,970 --> 00:57:54,558 and send them off to school for eight hours a day, 1128 00:57:54,560 --> 00:57:57,238 five days a week, after spending every moment 1129 00:57:57,240 --> 00:57:58,556 with them for the past three weeks. 1130 00:57:58,590 --> 00:58:00,665 DAKOTA: See, that's my home. 1131 00:58:00,667 --> 00:58:03,214 ELI: Oh, I like it. That's a nice home, woodpecker. 1132 00:58:03,216 --> 00:58:04,798 You have a nice view from up there. 1133 00:58:04,800 --> 00:58:05,801 What is that? 1134 00:58:05,803 --> 00:58:07,430 It's my nest. 1135 00:58:07,432 --> 00:58:10,328 I'm building a brand new house. 1136 00:58:10,330 --> 00:58:13,728 KELLY: Dakota's imagination really came to life out here. 1137 00:58:13,730 --> 00:58:15,538 He had just a few simple toys, 1138 00:58:15,540 --> 00:58:17,668 and he got creative with them. 1139 00:58:17,670 --> 00:58:20,278 One time he hiked six miles round trip, 1140 00:58:20,280 --> 00:58:22,288 up 2,000 feet in elevation. 1141 00:58:22,290 --> 00:58:24,558 We found if we brought his animal friends, 1142 00:58:24,560 --> 00:58:26,110 we could make a game out of it. 1143 00:58:27,330 --> 00:58:29,188 He really grew up on this journey, 1144 00:58:29,190 --> 00:58:32,083 and he has fond memories of his days in the Bounder. 1145 00:58:34,030 --> 00:58:36,948 I love Dakota, and I'd be happy if it was just him, 1146 00:58:36,950 --> 00:58:39,728 but I have always wanted a second child. 1147 00:58:39,730 --> 00:58:42,905 To think about the words that Kelly spoke a year ago, 1148 00:58:42,907 --> 00:58:46,688 "There's no way in hell I'll have a second child with you." 1149 00:58:46,690 --> 00:58:49,288 And now we're pregnant. 1150 00:58:49,290 --> 00:58:52,545 Last night, she came up to me and said, 1151 00:58:52,547 --> 00:58:54,315 "Eli, I just want to tell you, 1152 00:58:54,317 --> 00:58:55,975 "I don't think I've communicated it yet, 1153 00:58:55,977 --> 00:59:00,548 "but I am so excited that we're having a second child." 1154 00:59:00,550 --> 00:59:04,473 And it's very redeeming, very, very redeeming. 1155 00:59:07,480 --> 00:59:09,438 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 1156 00:59:09,440 --> 00:59:10,905 KELLY: Mother Teresa said, 1157 00:59:10,907 --> 00:59:13,285 "Not all of us can do great things, 1158 00:59:13,287 --> 00:59:16,198 "but we can do small things with great love." 1159 00:59:16,200 --> 00:59:19,428 I can so easily get caught up in wanting a big mission, 1160 00:59:19,430 --> 00:59:22,285 something epic to undertake, when right there 1161 00:59:22,287 --> 00:59:25,529 in front of me is the biggest endeavor of my life. 1162 00:59:25,579 --> 00:59:26,810 Dadda! 1163 00:59:26,812 --> 00:59:27,895 ELI: Whoa! 1164 00:59:29,908 --> 00:59:31,728 Heart apples! 1165 00:59:31,730 --> 00:59:34,308 Is it Valentine's Day today? 1166 00:59:34,310 --> 00:59:35,701 ELI: Yep! 1167 00:59:35,703 --> 00:59:37,007 Dadda, look! 1168 00:59:37,009 --> 00:59:38,284 ELI: Look at that! 1169 00:59:38,286 --> 00:59:39,833 - What is it? - I want this one. 1170 00:59:39,835 --> 00:59:40,855 ELI: Okay. 1171 00:59:40,857 --> 00:59:44,008 (CHUCKLING) 1172 00:59:44,010 --> 00:59:45,518 As much as we love our son, 1173 00:59:45,520 --> 00:59:48,663 we do have to remember to stay focused on each other too. 1174 00:59:49,580 --> 00:59:51,918 Really, it's a testament to not giving up, 1175 00:59:51,920 --> 00:59:54,998 'cause there are many days where I wanted to give up. 1176 00:59:55,000 --> 00:59:56,908 And again, everything's not perfect now, 1177 00:59:56,910 --> 00:59:58,938 but I think we're doing better than ever. 1178 00:59:58,940 --> 01:00:02,518 I think to be a wholehearted human 1179 01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:04,698 and to have a marriage that is beautiful 1180 01:00:04,700 --> 01:00:09,443 and full of life and love, you need help. 1181 01:00:09,445 --> 01:00:10,487 We need help. 1182 01:00:10,489 --> 01:00:11,453 We need help. 1183 01:00:11,455 --> 01:00:13,208 We still need help. (CHUCKLING) 1184 01:00:13,210 --> 01:00:15,528 How many counselors have we seen? 1185 01:00:15,530 --> 01:00:16,778 Like a half dozen? 1186 01:00:16,780 --> 01:00:20,517 I mean, we invest in counseling! 1187 01:00:20,519 --> 01:00:23,352 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 1188 01:00:47,123 --> 01:00:50,098 Along with this turn of events of now being pregnant, 1189 01:00:50,100 --> 01:00:52,708 we also are considering moving back to our house. 1190 01:00:52,710 --> 01:00:54,108 I could go either way right now. 1191 01:00:54,110 --> 01:00:56,018 I could stay on the road another couple years. 1192 01:00:56,020 --> 01:00:58,458 I've enjoyed having the adventures we've had, 1193 01:00:58,460 --> 01:01:00,198 but I've been looking forward to a day 1194 01:01:00,200 --> 01:01:03,633 when we might return to the house that we had. 1195 01:01:06,760 --> 01:01:08,418 KELLY: It was bittersweet. 1196 01:01:08,420 --> 01:01:11,988 I needed to set myself up well for this second delivery, 1197 01:01:11,990 --> 01:01:14,463 even though I didn't want this journey to end. 1198 01:01:15,510 --> 01:01:17,588 It wasn't easy, but we decided that 1199 01:01:17,590 --> 01:01:20,288 after our jobs in Colorado were over, 1200 01:01:20,290 --> 01:01:22,578 we would make a beeline for home. 1201 01:01:22,580 --> 01:01:25,458 And since our second tenants also fell through, 1202 01:01:25,460 --> 01:01:27,068 our house was just sitting there, 1203 01:01:27,070 --> 01:01:28,593 ready for us to move back in. 1204 01:01:30,110 --> 01:01:32,550 ELI: Do you wanna go back to the Tollgate house? 1205 01:01:32,552 --> 01:01:33,518 DAKOTA: Yeah. 1206 01:01:33,520 --> 01:01:34,753 ELI: Are you excited? 1207 01:01:35,716 --> 01:01:36,678 DAKOTA: Yeah. 1208 01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:38,228 How are we gonna get there? 1209 01:01:38,230 --> 01:01:39,834 It's really far. 1210 01:01:39,836 --> 01:01:40,809 You're right. 1211 01:01:40,811 --> 01:01:42,458 We're gonna have to drive a long way. 1212 01:01:42,460 --> 01:01:47,460 Tomorrow morning, we get up at seven o'clock and drive west. 1213 01:01:47,640 --> 01:01:49,818 I would say, as I look back on this trip, 1214 01:01:49,820 --> 01:01:54,028 it has been an epic collection of travel, 1215 01:01:54,030 --> 01:01:57,498 exploration, adventure with my three-year-old son 1216 01:01:57,500 --> 01:02:00,238 and my wife, and Tassie, the dog. 1217 01:02:00,240 --> 01:02:02,003 And I'm gonna miss it. 1218 01:02:05,230 --> 01:02:07,508 KELLY: We watched the sun set over the Snake River, 1219 01:02:07,510 --> 01:02:10,173 our last night on the road and in the Bounder. 1220 01:02:11,990 --> 01:02:14,628 When we got back home, we cleared everything out, 1221 01:02:14,630 --> 01:02:17,223 cleaned it all up, and got it ready to sell. 1222 01:02:18,810 --> 01:02:21,838 ELI: Being in here brings up so much nostalgia. 1223 01:02:21,840 --> 01:02:24,488 This Bounder has become my home. 1224 01:02:24,490 --> 01:02:25,488 I know it so well. 1225 01:02:25,490 --> 01:02:27,508 I know every in and out of it, 1226 01:02:27,510 --> 01:02:29,498 and I've fixed so many things, 1227 01:02:29,500 --> 01:02:33,638 and now it's just gonna sit here until we sell it. 1228 01:02:33,640 --> 01:02:36,525 It was our adventure vehicle, and the adventure's over, 1229 01:02:36,527 --> 01:02:38,838 and a new adventure begins. 1230 01:02:38,840 --> 01:02:40,648 KELLY: We signed the title and handed over 1231 01:02:40,650 --> 01:02:43,363 the Bounder keys, and then watched it drive away. 1232 01:02:44,130 --> 01:02:45,834 ELI: You wanna do another trip some time? 1233 01:02:45,836 --> 01:02:47,227 Yeah. 1234 01:02:47,229 --> 01:02:51,443 We'll do another trip on another Bounder today. 1235 01:02:54,710 --> 01:02:55,878 Take care. 1236 01:02:55,880 --> 01:02:57,122 Enjoy! 1237 01:02:57,124 --> 01:02:58,168 BUYER: All right. 1238 01:02:58,170 --> 01:03:00,080 Good luck on Isabelle. 1239 01:03:00,082 --> 01:03:01,210 Thank you. 1240 01:03:01,212 --> 01:03:02,043 Thank you, I know. 1241 01:03:02,045 --> 01:03:03,208 On to our next adventure. 1242 01:03:03,210 --> 01:03:05,488 But we will be thinking of you 1243 01:03:05,490 --> 01:03:07,218 as you're out on the roads. 1244 01:03:07,220 --> 01:03:09,198 We love you, Bounder. 1245 01:03:09,200 --> 01:03:10,822 We love you, Bounder. 1246 01:03:10,824 --> 01:03:12,698 Bye, Bounder. 1247 01:03:12,700 --> 01:03:14,050 KELLY: Bye-bye, Bounder! 1248 01:03:18,860 --> 01:03:20,222 There she goes! 1249 01:03:21,861 --> 01:03:22,880 Oh! 1250 01:03:22,882 --> 01:03:24,568 Say bye-bye Bounder, Mama. 1251 01:03:24,570 --> 01:03:26,063 KELLY: Bye-bye, Bounder! 1252 01:03:27,219 --> 01:03:29,043 Bye-bye, Bounder. 1253 01:03:29,045 --> 01:03:30,478 DAKOTA: Bye-bye! 1254 01:03:30,480 --> 01:03:32,480 KELLY: It was sad for a little while. 1255 01:03:33,780 --> 01:03:36,268 But soon the excitement of our new baby girl 1256 01:03:36,270 --> 01:03:37,840 took center stage. 1257 01:03:37,842 --> 01:03:38,991 DAKOTA: What's she saying? 1258 01:03:38,993 --> 01:03:40,552 KELLY: Hello, big brother. 1259 01:03:40,554 --> 01:03:41,620 Hello! 1260 01:03:42,533 --> 01:03:43,625 I love you. 1261 01:03:46,047 --> 01:03:48,880 (UPLIFTING MUSIC) 1262 01:03:53,930 --> 01:03:57,048 It was one of the best days of my life 1263 01:03:57,050 --> 01:03:59,428 when I finally pushed her out. 1264 01:03:59,430 --> 01:04:00,878 That I had the courage to believe 1265 01:04:00,880 --> 01:04:04,028 that it would go better this time, and it did, 1266 01:04:04,030 --> 01:04:08,208 and that was such a victory for me. 1267 01:04:08,210 --> 01:04:09,848 At the beginning, I said that life 1268 01:04:09,850 --> 01:04:12,428 is a journey, not a destination. 1269 01:04:12,430 --> 01:04:14,688 And I haven't arrived yet. 1270 01:04:14,690 --> 01:04:16,918 I'm still in process. 1271 01:04:16,920 --> 01:04:18,448 And it seems that every day 1272 01:04:18,450 --> 01:04:21,648 presents another opportunity to grow. 1273 01:04:21,650 --> 01:04:24,858 I wouldn't have chosen many things that happened in my life. 1274 01:04:24,860 --> 01:04:27,788 And I wouldn't wish pain and heartache on anyone. 1275 01:04:27,790 --> 01:04:30,428 In those moments of grief and suffering, 1276 01:04:30,430 --> 01:04:32,168 it's had to hold on to hope. 1277 01:04:32,170 --> 01:04:36,093 But somehow, through those struggles, I've become who I am. 1278 01:04:38,170 --> 01:04:41,108 Hope is risky, because to hope in something, 1279 01:04:41,110 --> 01:04:43,908 whether that's a marriage or a pregnancy, 1280 01:04:43,910 --> 01:04:45,188 you're putting it all out there. 1281 01:04:45,190 --> 01:04:48,278 And as we know, we can't control things, but 1282 01:04:48,280 --> 01:04:51,538 the only option for me 1283 01:04:51,540 --> 01:04:53,438 is to choose hope. 1284 01:04:53,440 --> 01:04:55,953 So I'm risking even though it's scary, 1285 01:04:56,790 --> 01:04:59,218 loving even though it hurts. 1286 01:04:59,220 --> 01:05:01,948 I'm choosing hope, because there are far, 1287 01:05:01,950 --> 01:05:05,283 far better things ahead than any we leave behind. 1288 01:05:08,518 --> 01:05:10,234 (CHEERFUL MUSIC) 1289 01:05:10,236 --> 01:05:11,250 It's the calling. 1290 01:05:11,252 --> 01:05:13,098 I think it's the same reason that anybody does it. 1291 01:05:13,100 --> 01:05:15,968 To me, it's about really engaging in life. 1292 01:05:15,970 --> 01:05:17,797 Just do stuff when you can, you know? 1293 01:05:17,799 --> 01:05:18,788 Get out there and do it. 1294 01:05:18,790 --> 01:05:22,054 Don't put off till tomorrow what you can do today. 1295 01:05:22,056 --> 01:05:24,640 There you go 1296 01:05:24,642 --> 01:05:28,874 Tapping at my window 1297 01:05:28,876 --> 01:05:31,387 There you go 1298 01:05:31,389 --> 01:05:35,780 Rattling my heart 1299 01:05:35,782 --> 01:05:38,169 Far away 1300 01:05:38,171 --> 01:05:42,608 I want to go with you 1301 01:05:42,610 --> 01:05:45,025 Every day 1302 01:05:45,027 --> 01:05:49,591 And never be apart 1303 01:05:49,593 --> 01:05:52,852 When you're feeling empty 1304 01:05:52,854 --> 01:05:56,320 When the skies are gray 1305 01:05:56,322 --> 01:05:59,675 I will be your honey 1306 01:05:59,677 --> 01:06:03,097 And chase the blues away 1307 01:06:03,099 --> 01:06:08,099 Let's go out for a drive 1308 01:06:08,180 --> 01:06:11,475 Need a little sunshine 1309 01:06:11,477 --> 01:06:16,106 Need a little sunshine 1310 01:06:16,108 --> 01:06:21,108 What a day for feeling alive 1311 01:06:21,904 --> 01:06:25,263 Want a little more time 1312 01:06:25,265 --> 01:06:30,265 Just a little more time with you 1313 01:06:36,514 --> 01:06:41,514 YoubetCash.vip Agen Judi Online Aman & Terpercaya