3 00:01:29,172 --> 00:01:36,929 ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪ 4 00:01:37,055 --> 00:01:41,683 ♪ Happy Birthday, dear Helen ♪ 5 00:01:41,893 --> 00:01:46,855 ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪ 6 00:01:47,065 --> 00:01:49,233 Happy Birthday! 7 00:01:50,235 --> 00:01:52,444 What do you think? Do you like it? 8 00:01:52,654 --> 00:01:54,738 Oh, my God! -Happy Birthday! 9 00:01:54,864 --> 00:01:56,615 Happy Birthday, Helen. 10 00:01:56,741 --> 00:01:57,950 Happy Birthday. 11 00:01:58,118 --> 00:02:00,661 Isn't it gorgeous? 12 00:02:05,625 --> 00:02:06,917 Did you make this yourself? 13 00:02:07,043 --> 00:02:08,043 Yes. 14 00:02:08,211 --> 00:02:11,130 Darling, it's gorgeous. 15 00:02:11,297 --> 00:02:13,090 Make a wish, Mom. 16 00:02:15,593 --> 00:02:16,885 Help! 17 00:02:18,179 --> 00:02:19,429 Thank you, sweetheart. 18 00:02:22,267 --> 00:02:24,476 Just one. 19 00:02:24,602 --> 00:02:25,811 A short one. 20 00:03:35,506 --> 00:03:36,423 Let's eat! 21 00:03:51,105 --> 00:03:55,692 ♪ Everything l have is yours ♪ 22 00:03:55,902 --> 00:03:59,696 ♪ You're part of me ♪ 23 00:04:03,034 --> 00:04:07,871 ♪ Everything l have is yours ♪ 24 00:04:07,997 --> 00:04:12,209 ♪ My destiny ♪ 25 00:04:14,837 --> 00:04:20,259 ♪ l would gladly give the sun to you ♪ 26 00:04:21,344 --> 00:04:26,640 ♪ lf the sun were only mine ♪ 27 00:04:27,642 --> 00:04:33,021 ♪ l would gladly give this earth to you ♪ 28 00:04:33,147 --> 00:04:38,277 ♪ And the stars that shine ♪ 29 00:04:39,904 --> 00:04:48,537 ♪ Everything that l possess l offer you ♪ 30 00:05:49,599 --> 00:05:52,476 If I shoot those guys out there 31 00:05:52,602 --> 00:05:54,436 and plead temporary insanity, 32 00:05:54,562 --> 00:05:59,858 would you corroborate my story, huh? 33 00:06:02,362 --> 00:06:04,488 Oh, shit. 34 00:06:04,614 --> 00:06:05,113 Hmm? 35 00:06:06,115 --> 00:06:08,909 The alarm didn't go off. 36 00:06:09,035 --> 00:06:09,993 -Come on. -Hmm? 37 00:06:10,119 --> 00:06:13,246 -It's almost 8:00. -M m-hmm. 38 00:06:14,916 --> 00:06:17,667 Julie has a test in her first period. 39 00:06:17,877 --> 00:06:20,545 -Where's your tie? -l don't know. 40 00:06:20,671 --> 00:06:21,588 And I can't take her. 41 00:06:22,632 --> 00:06:25,425 I have this stupid early faculty meeting. 42 00:06:29,013 --> 00:06:30,639 -David! -I'm up! I'm up! 43 00:06:30,765 --> 00:06:32,015 Wake up! 44 00:06:32,141 --> 00:06:34,267 Wake up. Wake up. 45 00:06:34,394 --> 00:06:36,019 M m-hmm. 46 00:06:36,145 --> 00:06:37,771 We gotta go, darling. 47 00:06:37,897 --> 00:06:39,481 Everyone is gonna be there. 48 00:06:39,690 --> 00:06:40,941 I already told Brian I could go, 49 00:06:41,067 --> 00:06:43,276 and if I back out now, he's gonna think I'm a chicken. 50 00:06:43,403 --> 00:06:44,236 Good morning. 51 00:06:44,362 --> 00:06:45,320 You know how hard it is 52 00:06:45,446 --> 00:06:47,572 to get a reservation at Claire's this time of year. 53 00:06:47,782 --> 00:06:49,950 -Hey! I slept just fine. -I thought you'd be thrilled. 54 00:06:50,076 --> 00:06:51,410 Thank you, thank you. 55 00:06:51,577 --> 00:06:54,204 But you never said you made plans. 56 00:06:54,330 --> 00:06:56,456 It was supposed to be a surprise. 57 00:06:56,582 --> 00:06:58,417 -Hey, who cleaned up? -But. . . . 58 00:06:58,584 --> 00:07:00,502 -I did. But that is not the point. -When? 59 00:07:00,628 --> 00:07:01,503 The point is, I never said 60 00:07:01,712 --> 00:07:03,338 that you could go away for the weekend either. 61 00:07:03,464 --> 00:07:05,424 -You're crazy. I would have helped. -Dave did. 62 00:07:09,178 --> 00:07:11,138 Is that true? 63 00:07:12,056 --> 00:07:13,473 Somebody was supposed to tell you. 64 00:07:14,475 --> 00:07:15,934 Well, I forgot! 65 00:07:17,895 --> 00:07:20,313 Well, you're not going, and that's that. 66 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:22,232 Great! Thanks a lot! 67 00:07:22,358 --> 00:07:24,776 But if you think I'm going to Claire's with you instead, 68 00:07:24,902 --> 00:07:25,819 think again! 69 00:07:28,239 --> 00:07:31,241 She has to be in school in seven seconds. You gotta go. 70 00:08:11,908 --> 00:08:13,783 Hello? 71 00:09:07,880 --> 00:09:09,965 Can I help you? 72 00:09:10,091 --> 00:09:11,132 I was just. . . . 73 00:09:11,926 --> 00:09:13,009 What are you doing here? 74 00:09:14,053 --> 00:09:16,429 Well, I can. . . ask you that question. 75 00:09:16,556 --> 00:09:20,392 Nobody's supposed to be here this time of night. 76 00:09:20,518 --> 00:09:22,852 So what are you still doing here? 77 00:09:24,564 --> 00:09:27,148 Aren't you in my music theory class? 78 00:09:29,068 --> 00:09:33,363 I just. . . I can't. . . get it right. 79 00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:37,158 Nothing I play sounds adequate, not a single note I play. 80 00:09:38,119 --> 00:09:41,121 Well, it's not your notes that are wrong. 81 00:09:42,123 --> 00:09:44,583 But you need to slow down. 82 00:09:44,750 --> 00:09:47,294 Try to. . . pay more attention 83 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:49,504 to what happens in between the notes. 84 00:09:50,923 --> 00:09:53,425 Try to hold on to time. 85 00:09:54,760 --> 00:09:57,178 What do you mean? 86 00:09:58,889 --> 00:10:03,935 Suspension. Silence. 87 00:10:05,771 --> 00:10:10,191 That's where you'II find what you're looking for. 88 00:10:10,901 --> 00:10:14,070 In the distance between things. 89 00:10:20,202 --> 00:10:23,747 And you really shouldn't be smoking in here. 90 00:10:23,873 --> 00:10:26,833 Let me know when you want to go. 91 00:10:30,880 --> 00:10:32,714 I'll let you out. 92 00:10:32,840 --> 00:10:34,758 No need to climb out the window. 93 00:11:13,255 --> 00:11:16,091 l don't see it coming. 94 00:11:22,014 --> 00:11:24,557 But l can feel it. 95 00:11:30,106 --> 00:11:32,565 lt's there. 96 00:12:03,305 --> 00:12:05,181 Hey, Helen. 97 00:12:05,307 --> 00:12:06,683 Hi, Donna. 98 00:12:06,809 --> 00:12:09,269 So you think they'll read your brief, withdraw the suit, 99 00:12:09,395 --> 00:12:10,979 and send us a written apology? 100 00:12:11,105 --> 00:12:12,731 Or a fruit basket. 101 00:12:15,109 --> 00:12:18,153 Oh! Helen's here. 102 00:12:18,362 --> 00:12:20,029 Hey, love. 103 00:12:20,239 --> 00:12:21,489 Thank God you're here. 104 00:12:21,615 --> 00:12:24,200 You gotta save me from this man. He thinks he's invincibIe. 105 00:12:24,326 --> 00:12:27,078 What are you doing here? Huh? 106 00:12:32,168 --> 00:12:36,254 Well. . . actually, I was nowhere near this neighborhood, 107 00:12:36,380 --> 00:12:38,298 and l just thought I'd stop by and say hi. 108 00:12:38,424 --> 00:12:39,716 But you are so busy. 109 00:12:39,842 --> 00:12:41,593 I'm sorry, I should have called first. 110 00:12:41,719 --> 00:12:43,928 No, no, no, it's perfect. We're gonna go to Iunch in a few minutes. 111 00:12:44,054 --> 00:12:46,347 -Why don't you come with us? -Yeah. 112 00:12:47,266 --> 00:12:48,933 No, thanks. I'm not hungry. 113 00:12:49,059 --> 00:12:50,769 You don't have to eat. Just join us. 114 00:12:50,978 --> 00:12:52,103 You know, I -- 115 00:12:52,229 --> 00:12:55,565 l reaIIy shouId go home and get out of these clothes. 116 00:12:56,192 --> 00:12:57,358 You sure? 117 00:12:57,568 --> 00:13:01,988 Yeah. AbsoIuteIy. I just wanted to stop by and say hi. 118 00:13:02,114 --> 00:13:04,365 -I'll see you later. -AII right. 119 00:13:04,575 --> 00:13:07,911 -See you, Suz. -Take care, honey. 120 00:13:25,095 --> 00:13:27,472 Hello, everyone. 121 00:13:27,681 --> 00:13:30,642 After I've returned your essays, we'II discu-- 122 00:13:34,563 --> 00:13:37,273 We will. . . . 123 00:13:39,276 --> 00:13:41,778 Excuse me. 124 00:14:02,758 --> 00:14:03,675 I'm going to bed. 125 00:14:04,593 --> 00:14:06,886 Sleep tight, sweetheart. 126 00:14:07,638 --> 00:14:08,930 Okay. 127 00:14:12,810 --> 00:14:17,188 Straight answer -- did you like dinner? 128 00:14:17,314 --> 00:14:19,941 It was. . . incredible. 129 00:14:20,776 --> 00:14:22,527 Yeah, okay. Whatever that means. 130 00:14:24,864 --> 00:14:26,447 Good night. 131 00:15:13,871 --> 00:15:15,371 Helen? 132 00:15:36,143 --> 00:15:38,728 I love this car. 133 00:15:39,939 --> 00:15:42,649 I know you do. 134 00:15:57,873 --> 00:16:01,334 Are you going to let me in on your secret? 135 00:16:02,753 --> 00:16:06,297 What makes you think l have a secret? 136 00:16:06,423 --> 00:16:08,383 Don't you? 137 00:16:13,222 --> 00:16:14,430 Not with you. 138 00:16:19,186 --> 00:16:20,436 What is it, honey? 139 00:16:26,193 --> 00:16:27,360 It's nothing. 140 00:16:29,989 --> 00:16:31,864 I'm just tired. 141 00:16:31,991 --> 00:16:34,867 I'm just really tired. That's all. It's nothing. 142 00:16:36,787 --> 00:16:40,206 I always hate the beginning of the semester. 143 00:16:49,174 --> 00:16:52,927 Come on, let's go inside. 144 00:17:01,061 --> 00:17:02,145 Have you eaten? 145 00:17:02,271 --> 00:17:03,354 Yeah. 146 00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:06,649 Julie tried her very first carbonara sauce. 147 00:17:06,775 --> 00:17:08,735 It was scary. 148 00:17:19,538 --> 00:17:21,289 Are you okay? 149 00:18:44,414 --> 00:18:48,417 What are you doing here, honey? Why aren't you at schooI? 150 00:18:48,544 --> 00:18:50,002 I was at school. 151 00:18:55,551 --> 00:18:57,760 What time is it? 152 00:18:59,012 --> 00:19:01,556 1 5. 153 00:19:03,433 --> 00:19:08,855 Jesus. . . I must have slept like a rock. 154 00:19:13,527 --> 00:19:15,903 Can you -- can you please help me with this math? 155 00:19:16,113 --> 00:19:18,739 I really need to get this done before I leave. 156 00:19:18,866 --> 00:19:20,241 Yeah. 157 00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:22,493 Just give me a minute. 158 00:19:34,173 --> 00:19:36,549 Do you want me to call Dad to come and pick me up? 159 00:19:45,976 --> 00:19:48,019 No. 160 00:19:49,646 --> 00:19:53,441 Of course not. I'm taking you. 161 00:20:15,631 --> 00:20:19,634 I'm not going on a world trip, Mom. 162 00:20:21,386 --> 00:20:23,888 I'll be back in three weeks. 163 00:20:24,014 --> 00:20:25,097 I know. 164 00:20:25,807 --> 00:20:27,475 Okay. 165 00:20:42,616 --> 00:20:43,991 Go, Mom! 166 00:20:47,663 --> 00:20:49,205 -Hey, Dad! -Hey, gorgeous! 167 00:20:49,331 --> 00:20:50,998 How'd it go? -Good. 168 00:20:51,124 --> 00:20:51,958 Come here. 169 00:20:53,585 --> 00:20:56,629 -All right, get in there. -Okay. 170 00:20:56,838 --> 00:21:00,883 Dad, come here! I want to show you something! 171 00:21:02,052 --> 00:21:03,970 Dad! 172 00:21:04,096 --> 00:21:05,554 All right. 173 00:21:05,764 --> 00:21:08,015 No, I don't think that she should try and work things out with him. 174 00:21:08,141 --> 00:21:09,517 I think that she should pack her bags, 175 00:21:09,643 --> 00:21:11,936 take the kids, move back to California, 176 00:21:12,062 --> 00:21:13,062 and sue the hell out of him 177 00:21:13,188 --> 00:21:14,981 until he doesn't have a pot to piss in anymore. 178 00:21:15,107 --> 00:21:15,815 M m-hmm. 179 00:21:15,941 --> 00:21:17,275 You sure you want to go out with this woman? 180 00:21:18,235 --> 00:21:19,527 Oh, no. Excuse me. 181 00:21:19,653 --> 00:21:22,238 He is like the biggest fucking cIiché on the bIock, okay? 182 00:21:22,364 --> 00:21:25,032 First of all, he sleeps with every assistant he's ever had, 183 00:21:25,158 --> 00:21:28,160 Iies to Louise about it for three and half years, 184 00:21:28,287 --> 00:21:31,956 and then he makes her feel guilty for not being there for him. 185 00:21:32,082 --> 00:21:34,000 Like now it's her fauIt that he sleeps around 186 00:21:34,126 --> 00:21:36,711 like some fucking. . . dog in heat. 187 00:21:37,879 --> 00:21:40,256 I thought only female dogs go into heat? Don't they? 188 00:21:40,382 --> 00:21:41,507 What do male dogs do? 189 00:21:41,633 --> 00:21:44,719 It's a permanent condition for them that doesn't require a name. 190 00:21:44,845 --> 00:21:47,596 Susanna, remind me -- when exactly did we lose 191 00:21:47,723 --> 00:21:50,099 the ability to have a civilized conversation? 192 00:21:50,225 --> 00:21:52,351 -Excuse me. -I didn't bring this up. 193 00:21:52,477 --> 00:21:55,896 -Yes, you did. -I did? No, I didn't. 194 00:21:56,023 --> 00:21:58,482 Yeah, you made a reference to. . . . 195 00:22:50,619 --> 00:22:52,745 We believe that life can be perfect. 196 00:22:52,871 --> 00:22:56,165 So we are always miserable because it never is. 197 00:22:56,291 --> 00:22:59,960 Whereas they beIieve that even under the best of circumstances, 198 00:23:00,087 --> 00:23:01,545 life could maybe be improved. 199 00:23:01,671 --> 00:23:02,588 So what are you saying? 200 00:23:02,714 --> 00:23:04,382 That we should lower our expectations 201 00:23:04,508 --> 00:23:05,966 to a point that they're already met? 202 00:23:06,093 --> 00:23:08,260 No, I think she's saying we should go to Europe more often. 203 00:23:08,387 --> 00:23:08,969 Yeah! 204 00:23:09,096 --> 00:23:10,846 But you don't need to go back, David. 205 00:23:10,972 --> 00:23:13,182 There's no room for improvement in his life. 206 00:23:13,308 --> 00:23:14,642 He loves his life. 207 00:23:14,768 --> 00:23:16,685 -Isn't that disgusting? -M m-hmm. 208 00:23:16,812 --> 00:23:18,979 Somebody should sue me. 209 00:23:19,856 --> 00:23:21,065 -l wiII. -Now there's a job. 210 00:23:21,191 --> 00:23:22,024 That might be a dare. 211 00:23:23,902 --> 00:23:26,278 Helen, are you still in there? 212 00:23:31,368 --> 00:23:32,660 Helen? 213 00:23:34,913 --> 00:23:38,999 Excuse me. Um, have you seen my wife? 214 00:23:40,585 --> 00:23:42,503 Helen?! 215 00:23:43,755 --> 00:23:46,507 Helen! 216 00:23:49,511 --> 00:23:50,803 What the fuck is going on? 217 00:23:50,929 --> 00:23:54,682 What are you doing here? Huh? 218 00:23:56,017 --> 00:23:58,352 Sorry, I didn't feel well. 219 00:23:58,478 --> 00:24:00,479 What's wrong? Are you okay? 220 00:24:00,605 --> 00:24:02,565 Yeah. It's nothing. 221 00:24:02,691 --> 00:24:07,611 Nothing? You disappeared without saying a word to us. 222 00:24:14,703 --> 00:24:17,329 I'm sorry. 223 00:24:17,456 --> 00:24:20,499 I should have said something. 224 00:24:29,092 --> 00:24:33,512 Listen, David, it doesn't have anything to do with you. 225 00:24:42,856 --> 00:24:45,316 Is there someone else? 226 00:24:48,111 --> 00:24:50,154 Is there? 227 00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:54,658 Wait a minute. Is that what this is all about? 228 00:24:54,784 --> 00:24:56,619 You're suspecting me of fucking around? 229 00:25:00,207 --> 00:25:03,083 No. Of course not. 230 00:25:03,210 --> 00:25:07,296 Then what is it? What's so awful that you won't tell me? 231 00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:09,006 I'm sorry. 232 00:25:09,132 --> 00:25:11,467 Sorry for what? 233 00:25:14,304 --> 00:25:18,224 Helen, I used to know everything about you. 234 00:25:18,350 --> 00:25:20,434 For better or for worse, remember? 235 00:25:25,982 --> 00:25:27,358 Come on, honey. Talk to me. What's going on? 236 00:25:27,484 --> 00:25:29,985 Stop it! Please! 237 00:25:32,030 --> 00:25:35,157 Please stop interrogating me. 238 00:28:19,781 --> 00:28:21,532 Helen? 239 00:28:24,285 --> 00:28:26,995 Jesus Christ. 240 00:28:37,006 --> 00:28:37,756 Helen! 241 00:28:42,095 --> 00:28:43,262 Hey. 242 00:28:48,059 --> 00:28:49,977 Oh, God! 243 00:28:50,103 --> 00:28:52,104 Helen! 244 00:28:54,524 --> 00:28:57,443 -David? -Hey, honey. Hey. 245 00:28:58,111 --> 00:28:59,361 M r. Leonard? 246 00:28:59,487 --> 00:29:00,404 How is she? 247 00:29:00,530 --> 00:29:02,573 WeII, there's nothing physically wrong with your wife. 248 00:29:02,741 --> 00:29:05,159 I've notified Dr. Barnes. He's the neurologist on call. 249 00:29:05,285 --> 00:29:07,244 I don't understand. You just said there's nothing -- 250 00:29:07,370 --> 00:29:09,997 there's nothing wrong with her. 251 00:29:10,123 --> 00:29:12,082 You'll have to wait for Dr. Barnes. 252 00:29:12,208 --> 00:29:14,042 Give me the goddamn time of day, wiII you? 253 00:29:14,169 --> 00:29:16,253 She was practically unconscious. 254 00:29:17,338 --> 00:29:21,258 It seems the problem is psychiatric. 255 00:29:21,384 --> 00:29:22,968 What the hell are you talking about? 256 00:29:23,094 --> 00:29:25,929 There's no physical cause for her symptoms. 257 00:29:26,139 --> 00:29:29,016 Look, this is. . . . 258 00:29:29,142 --> 00:29:31,935 You know what? I want a second opinion, all right? 259 00:29:32,061 --> 00:29:33,645 Well, I am the second opinion. 260 00:29:34,731 --> 00:29:37,107 Please wait for Dr. Barnes. 261 00:29:38,276 --> 00:29:40,986 Do you suffer from insomnia or hypersomnia? 262 00:29:41,112 --> 00:29:42,654 Less sleep or more than usual? 263 00:29:42,781 --> 00:29:45,115 She hasn't sIept through the night in a while, 264 00:29:45,241 --> 00:29:46,950 but she's always been a light sleeper. 265 00:29:49,329 --> 00:29:51,538 Have you been in a depressed mood almost all the time 266 00:29:51,664 --> 00:29:53,290 for more than two weeks? 267 00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:00,631 Helen? 268 00:30:06,971 --> 00:30:08,847 Almost. 269 00:30:11,935 --> 00:30:13,352 Do you have a marked diminished interest 270 00:30:13,478 --> 00:30:15,020 in nearly every aspect of your life? 271 00:30:19,943 --> 00:30:21,568 Have you had considerable weight loss or gain 272 00:30:21,694 --> 00:30:23,737 without a change in diet? 273 00:30:23,863 --> 00:30:26,865 She lost some weight, yes. 274 00:30:27,659 --> 00:30:31,286 Are you unable to concentrate or think cIearIy? 275 00:30:36,292 --> 00:30:39,711 M rs. Leonard, can you answer my questions? 276 00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:48,095 Have you been here before? 277 00:30:50,640 --> 00:30:52,266 No. 278 00:30:57,897 --> 00:30:59,648 Has anyone ever prescribed you--? 279 00:30:59,774 --> 00:31:01,400 Yes. 280 00:31:02,360 --> 00:31:04,194 Pardon? 281 00:31:13,121 --> 00:31:15,956 I've been here before. 282 00:31:17,709 --> 00:31:19,710 When? 283 00:31:30,680 --> 00:31:33,265 1 2 years ago. 284 00:31:36,895 --> 00:31:38,937 How long have you been married? 285 00:31:39,063 --> 00:31:42,399 Um, seven years. 286 00:31:46,112 --> 00:31:50,198 So I understand you had no knowledge of this prior episode. 287 00:31:56,247 --> 00:31:59,625 How come I didn't see this coming? 288 00:31:59,751 --> 00:32:03,128 It's not unusual. Some people can hide it well. 289 00:32:03,254 --> 00:32:07,341 You should meet some of the clowns we have on suicide watch. 290 00:32:07,467 --> 00:32:09,760 I'm going to prescribe her an antidepressant, 291 00:32:09,928 --> 00:32:13,096 and Ativan to control anxiety. 292 00:32:13,222 --> 00:32:15,933 But it'll take at least two weeks before she feeIs a response 293 00:32:16,059 --> 00:32:18,060 to the antidepressants. 294 00:32:18,186 --> 00:32:21,063 Now, in some cases, the side effects can be quite uncomfortabIe, 295 00:32:21,189 --> 00:32:23,523 but they tend to subside after about two to four weeks. 296 00:32:23,733 --> 00:32:25,025 What kind of side effects? 297 00:32:25,151 --> 00:32:26,151 Oh, it varies. 298 00:32:26,277 --> 00:32:31,073 Nausea, drowsiness, night sweats, constipation, diarrhea, 299 00:32:31,199 --> 00:32:33,825 blurred vision, thirst. 300 00:32:33,952 --> 00:32:35,327 Make sure she doesn't drink alcohol, 301 00:32:35,453 --> 00:32:37,371 and it's very important that she stays with the medication 302 00:32:37,497 --> 00:32:39,456 on a regular basis. 303 00:32:42,669 --> 00:32:44,962 Helen is a. . . 304 00:32:45,088 --> 00:32:48,465 a happy, successful woman. 305 00:32:49,801 --> 00:32:53,971 She loves her job. She loves her daughter. 306 00:32:55,098 --> 00:32:57,224 Your wife is not unhappy, M r. Leonard. 307 00:32:57,350 --> 00:32:59,518 Your wife is ill. 308 00:33:09,946 --> 00:33:12,781 Let's go home, love. 309 00:33:12,907 --> 00:33:14,282 Come on. 310 00:33:40,893 --> 00:33:43,061 Helen. 311 00:33:44,897 --> 00:33:46,815 Please. 312 00:33:46,941 --> 00:33:48,775 No. 313 00:33:50,862 --> 00:33:53,238 They don't help. 314 00:33:53,364 --> 00:33:56,867 It's too early to tell, you know that. 315 00:33:56,993 --> 00:33:59,661 They just make it worse. 316 00:33:59,787 --> 00:34:03,040 That's supposed to be temporary. 317 00:34:16,846 --> 00:34:18,638 Thank you. 318 00:34:27,398 --> 00:34:30,692 How come we never taIked about this? 319 00:34:33,613 --> 00:34:34,863 Hmm? 320 00:34:37,116 --> 00:34:39,326 You don't want to hear it. 321 00:34:42,997 --> 00:34:45,040 Try me. 322 00:34:54,509 --> 00:34:57,010 I can't. 323 00:35:03,351 --> 00:35:05,393 I'm sorry. 324 00:35:10,566 --> 00:35:12,859 I want you to get these books for me 325 00:35:13,069 --> 00:35:15,737 and cancel my lunch meeting with Lucas. 326 00:35:15,863 --> 00:35:18,365 And tell him also that I want to continue the triaI date. 327 00:35:18,491 --> 00:35:21,368 -He'll smell a rat. -Let him smell it. 328 00:35:21,494 --> 00:35:24,913 -What do you need these for? -Just do it, okay?! 329 00:35:26,582 --> 00:35:30,752 Uh, send them to my home address, please. 330 00:35:37,718 --> 00:35:39,928 What's going on, David? 331 00:35:40,054 --> 00:35:41,471 I'm gonna take a few days off. 332 00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:45,183 Oh, man. So will I when this is over. 333 00:35:45,393 --> 00:35:47,227 We'll deserve it. 334 00:35:48,688 --> 00:35:50,689 I mean now. 335 00:35:50,815 --> 00:35:53,066 Wait. . . 336 00:35:53,192 --> 00:35:54,276 Today? 337 00:35:54,402 --> 00:35:54,943 Yes. 338 00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:58,155 What, are you out of your mind?! We're on the eve of trial! 339 00:35:58,364 --> 00:36:00,490 We'll move for a continuance. 340 00:36:00,616 --> 00:36:03,827 On the trial date?! What if the judge denies it?! 341 00:36:03,953 --> 00:36:04,953 You can handle it! 342 00:36:05,079 --> 00:36:07,164 I'll call you tomorrow night. 343 00:36:48,372 --> 00:36:49,080 Helen. 344 00:36:49,207 --> 00:36:51,499 Stay away from me! Don't come--! 345 00:36:51,626 --> 00:36:54,336 Hey, l'm not going to touch you, okay? 346 00:36:56,088 --> 00:37:00,342 I'll just sit here, okay? 347 00:37:08,684 --> 00:37:09,643 David. 348 00:37:09,852 --> 00:37:14,147 I'm right here, baby. Right here. 349 00:37:14,982 --> 00:37:16,608 I can't--! 350 00:37:16,817 --> 00:37:18,693 I can't do this any more! 351 00:37:48,516 --> 00:37:51,101 l wiII prescribe her a different medication. 352 00:37:51,227 --> 00:37:53,228 But as long as she refuses to be hospitalized. . . . 353 00:37:53,354 --> 00:37:54,562 Don't you see how sick she is? 354 00:37:54,689 --> 00:37:56,273 I'm scared to let her out of my sight. 355 00:37:57,858 --> 00:38:00,193 At this point, I can only help your wife 356 00:38:00,319 --> 00:38:01,653 if she wants to be helped. 357 00:38:01,779 --> 00:38:03,738 -That's the Iaw. -I know the law! 358 00:38:03,864 --> 00:38:06,783 But my wife is sick, and you're teIIing me you can't heIp her. 359 00:38:06,909 --> 00:38:08,243 You're forgetting that these laws 360 00:38:08,369 --> 00:38:12,122 are designed to protect people Iike your wife, Mr. Leonard. 361 00:38:13,165 --> 00:38:15,834 I need you to sign this. 362 00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:20,380 It states that you're leaving against medical advice. 363 00:38:27,263 --> 00:38:28,972 Helen. 364 00:38:34,854 --> 00:38:37,147 Please. 365 00:38:53,914 --> 00:38:56,750 All right, so I'll take you to your room now. 366 00:38:59,879 --> 00:39:02,589 It's just right down this way. 367 00:39:22,401 --> 00:39:24,736 Hey. 368 00:39:24,862 --> 00:39:27,739 Um, can I talk to you for a minute? 369 00:39:27,865 --> 00:39:28,865 You want to come in? 370 00:39:28,991 --> 00:39:31,993 No, I don't want Julie to know l'm here. 371 00:39:33,120 --> 00:39:35,872 Can we go someplace else? 372 00:39:35,998 --> 00:39:37,457 She was ready and willing 373 00:39:37,583 --> 00:39:40,877 to abandon her one-year-old daughter, David. 374 00:39:41,003 --> 00:39:45,382 That's not exactly something a mother is happy to share. 375 00:39:45,508 --> 00:39:47,342 If Julie hadn't woken up crying that night, 376 00:39:47,468 --> 00:39:50,178 then Helen wouldn't be alive today. 377 00:39:50,304 --> 00:39:52,889 She never forgave herself for that. 378 00:39:53,015 --> 00:39:55,934 What about you? What'd you do? 379 00:39:56,060 --> 00:39:58,770 I never had a chance. She shut me out from the start. 380 00:39:58,896 --> 00:40:00,313 Wouldn't talk about it. 381 00:40:00,439 --> 00:40:03,274 I tried to fight it, but just ended up fighting her. 382 00:40:03,401 --> 00:40:05,568 And I lost. 383 00:40:05,694 --> 00:40:09,447 End of story. Never talked about it later. 384 00:40:09,573 --> 00:40:11,866 I tried, she wouldn't have it. 385 00:40:11,992 --> 00:40:14,994 Just pretended it never happened. 386 00:40:15,121 --> 00:40:18,706 And then she moved on without me. 387 00:40:20,126 --> 00:40:22,544 I'm not gonna let that happen. 388 00:40:25,714 --> 00:40:28,550 Don't be a jerk, David. 389 00:40:28,676 --> 00:40:30,885 You think this is about love? 390 00:40:31,011 --> 00:40:32,887 It isn't. 391 00:40:33,013 --> 00:40:35,640 There is nothing you can do. 392 00:40:38,727 --> 00:40:41,396 I don't believe that. 393 00:40:58,998 --> 00:41:02,834 Hey, it's okay. 394 00:41:05,087 --> 00:41:07,589 Don't be scared. 395 00:41:10,968 --> 00:41:12,760 It's okay. 396 00:41:16,390 --> 00:41:19,601 You're a great teacher, you know. 397 00:41:25,274 --> 00:41:28,109 I'll never teach again. 398 00:41:31,780 --> 00:41:33,156 You're not gone, Helen. 399 00:41:34,658 --> 00:41:37,160 You're just lost. 400 00:41:43,959 --> 00:41:45,752 Hey! 401 00:41:49,131 --> 00:41:51,508 Hello?! 402 00:41:51,634 --> 00:41:53,843 Hold on a second. 403 00:42:02,937 --> 00:42:05,104 Jesus, Mathilda. 404 00:42:05,231 --> 00:42:07,815 Come on, let's go. Let's get you cleaned up. 405 00:42:15,908 --> 00:42:16,991 Hey. 406 00:42:17,117 --> 00:42:18,451 Hi. 407 00:42:20,079 --> 00:42:22,539 What happened with her? 408 00:42:25,167 --> 00:42:27,627 She's in my class. 409 00:42:29,004 --> 00:42:31,589 She was in my class. 410 00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:34,050 I have class today. 411 00:42:34,176 --> 00:42:38,179 I took care of it. Don't worry. I called in sick for you. 412 00:42:38,305 --> 00:42:41,140 I should be in class. 413 00:42:41,267 --> 00:42:44,310 Helen, look at me. 414 00:42:44,436 --> 00:42:46,604 If you don't want to be here, teII me. 415 00:42:46,730 --> 00:42:49,732 I'll take you home right now. 416 00:42:58,075 --> 00:43:01,035 How's Julie? 417 00:43:01,161 --> 00:43:02,620 Have you talked to her? 418 00:43:02,746 --> 00:43:06,082 She's good. She's coming home on Saturday. 419 00:43:06,208 --> 00:43:08,626 She sends her love. 420 00:43:08,752 --> 00:43:10,795 I don't want her to know why l'm here. 421 00:43:10,921 --> 00:43:13,965 Tell her I have a virus or something. Nothing too serious. 422 00:43:14,091 --> 00:43:17,427 You can't keep it a secret from her. She's not a IittIe kid anymore. 423 00:43:17,553 --> 00:43:20,930 I don't want her to know why l'm here. 424 00:43:22,266 --> 00:43:24,976 Well, then you have to keep her away from you. 425 00:43:25,102 --> 00:43:28,062 I'll be fine. I'll handle it. 426 00:43:29,815 --> 00:43:33,192 Helen. . . I told her. 427 00:43:34,028 --> 00:43:37,488 She asked me, and I told her. 428 00:43:42,161 --> 00:43:44,912 You had no right to do that! 429 00:43:45,039 --> 00:43:47,248 -Do you understand?! -All right. That's enough, Helen. 430 00:43:47,374 --> 00:43:50,710 She's my daughter! She's not even your daughter! 431 00:43:50,919 --> 00:43:55,089 Oh, you had no right to do that! 432 00:43:58,344 --> 00:44:01,054 l don't want you to taIk to my husband about me. 433 00:44:01,180 --> 00:44:02,388 I'm sorry, Dr. Sherman. 434 00:44:02,598 --> 00:44:04,807 It's all right, Susan. 435 00:44:05,017 --> 00:44:07,852 If. . . I. . . . 436 00:44:07,978 --> 00:44:12,148 If -- if I don't allow it, you can't talk to him about me, right? 437 00:44:12,274 --> 00:44:13,608 That's right. 438 00:44:14,568 --> 00:44:16,569 If I don't want him. . . . 439 00:44:16,695 --> 00:44:18,613 If. . . . 440 00:44:20,532 --> 00:44:25,036 If I don't want you to talk to him, you won't? 441 00:44:25,245 --> 00:44:27,705 Why don't you sit down? 442 00:44:30,167 --> 00:44:32,126 Where are you going? 443 00:44:32,878 --> 00:44:34,921 Why do I have to tell you that? 444 00:44:35,130 --> 00:44:37,340 You don't have to tell me that. 445 00:44:38,050 --> 00:44:39,676 Good. 446 00:44:45,140 --> 00:44:47,558 Yes, yes, yes! 447 00:44:50,354 --> 00:44:52,313 Mom! 448 00:44:53,816 --> 00:44:55,775 I'm so glad you're here. 449 00:44:55,901 --> 00:44:57,902 Me too, darling. 450 00:45:02,950 --> 00:45:05,868 We kicked some serious butt on Saturday, yes. 451 00:45:05,994 --> 00:45:09,831 And David taped the whole thing, so we can watch it later. 452 00:45:09,957 --> 00:45:11,457 You should lay down and rest a bit. 453 00:45:14,670 --> 00:45:16,295 Yes! And I'll cook for us, 454 00:45:16,422 --> 00:45:18,965 and then we can watch the game, okay? 455 00:45:32,980 --> 00:45:34,188 I have an idea. 456 00:45:34,314 --> 00:45:36,649 How about the three of us go away next weekend? 457 00:45:38,777 --> 00:45:40,653 I'm sorry, sweetheart. I can't. 458 00:45:40,779 --> 00:45:43,156 Come on, Mom. Why not? 459 00:45:45,284 --> 00:45:47,452 I have a better idea. 460 00:45:48,412 --> 00:45:50,872 Why don't the two of you go? 461 00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:54,667 Huh? That'd be fun. 462 00:45:58,005 --> 00:46:02,175 No, I want us all to go. We'II aII stay here. 463 00:46:07,723 --> 00:46:10,057 I have homework. 464 00:46:13,437 --> 00:46:15,563 Come on, Sugar. 465 00:46:27,451 --> 00:46:34,332 So if you consider these principles, Schubert's sonata. . . . 466 00:46:45,177 --> 00:46:48,846 It would have amounted to something Iike. . . . 467 00:47:01,401 --> 00:47:02,819 This is bullshit! 468 00:47:26,009 --> 00:47:28,427 That will be all for today. 469 00:47:40,858 --> 00:47:42,859 I don't want to talk. 470 00:47:45,153 --> 00:47:46,904 Okay. 471 00:47:53,912 --> 00:47:56,080 You're doing better. 472 00:47:58,208 --> 00:48:02,044 Yeah, well, I decided to be a good girl for a while. 473 00:48:13,098 --> 00:48:16,100 Top five worst pieces of advice 474 00:48:16,226 --> 00:48:19,937 from people who don't know what they're taIking about. 475 00:48:26,236 --> 00:48:28,863 Take a vacation. 476 00:48:31,116 --> 00:48:32,533 Read a book. 477 00:48:33,744 --> 00:48:36,579 Get a haircut. 478 00:48:36,705 --> 00:48:39,040 Redecorate. 479 00:48:39,958 --> 00:48:42,501 Try yoga. 480 00:48:50,636 --> 00:48:53,971 Top five ways of killing yourself. 481 00:49:12,866 --> 00:49:16,702 Top five reasons to live anyway. 482 00:49:32,010 --> 00:49:34,929 I can't go back. 483 00:49:50,529 --> 00:49:53,030 I can still see it all around me, 484 00:49:53,156 --> 00:49:57,326 but it's Iike l don't belong there anymore. 485 00:49:59,579 --> 00:50:02,123 And I see. . . . 486 00:50:07,254 --> 00:50:10,631 I see how sad it makes David. 487 00:50:10,757 --> 00:50:16,053 And I see. . . how sad it makes Julie, 488 00:50:16,179 --> 00:50:18,973 and that makes it that much harder, but l can't go back. 489 00:50:19,099 --> 00:50:23,477 And l am reaIIy sick of apologizing for it. 490 00:50:25,480 --> 00:50:27,523 Then don't. 491 00:50:34,448 --> 00:50:36,907 Do you have any idea how worried I was?! I called everyone! 492 00:50:37,034 --> 00:50:38,826 -l'm sorry, David. -I called the hospitals! 493 00:50:38,952 --> 00:50:41,579 Can you even begin to imagine what I thought happened to you?! 494 00:50:41,705 --> 00:50:43,039 I didn't realize how late it got! 495 00:50:43,165 --> 00:50:47,334 Hey, you're not the only one suffering here! 496 00:50:47,461 --> 00:50:50,254 Do you understand?! 497 00:50:52,674 --> 00:50:54,592 I know. 498 00:50:54,718 --> 00:50:55,968 You know? 499 00:50:56,094 --> 00:50:57,511 I don't think so. 500 00:50:57,721 --> 00:50:59,555 I don't think you know what it's Iike to Iive 501 00:50:59,681 --> 00:51:01,974 with the shadow of the woman you love! 502 00:51:06,938 --> 00:51:08,647 Fuck! 503 00:52:23,348 --> 00:52:25,349 -Don't ever do that again. -David. 504 00:52:25,475 --> 00:52:27,059 No! 505 00:52:27,185 --> 00:52:30,354 -David, l'm sorry. -Not ever, you hear me? 506 00:53:00,635 --> 00:53:03,053 Hey, 1 3. 507 00:53:03,180 --> 00:53:04,930 Hey. 508 00:53:05,765 --> 00:53:06,682 I just wanted to tell you 509 00:53:06,892 --> 00:53:10,186 that I'm going to spend the night at Dad's. 510 00:53:13,773 --> 00:53:15,566 Why? 511 00:53:17,110 --> 00:53:18,903 It's only Thursday, isn't it? 512 00:53:19,029 --> 00:53:21,030 Yes, it's Thursday. 513 00:53:21,198 --> 00:53:25,326 I just wanted to give you and Dave some space. 514 00:53:27,579 --> 00:53:32,082 You don't need to do that. You know that, don't you? 515 00:53:34,461 --> 00:53:37,171 I'm gonna go. I'll see you Monday. 516 00:54:33,270 --> 00:54:35,854 I don't know. 517 00:54:36,064 --> 00:54:38,357 That fucking son of a bitch! 518 00:54:38,483 --> 00:54:41,360 Oh, no, David, don't bother. 519 00:54:42,654 --> 00:54:43,904 What happened? 520 00:54:44,030 --> 00:54:47,074 Why didn't you file my suppression motion with the judge?! 521 00:54:47,200 --> 00:54:49,618 Look, man, I'm sorry, but I've got enough shit on my plate, all right? 522 00:54:49,744 --> 00:54:51,912 Last thing I need is having to do all your bullshit pro bono work. 523 00:54:52,038 --> 00:54:53,831 l just asked you to do this one thing for me, and you-- 524 00:54:54,040 --> 00:54:55,249 No, it's not one thing! 525 00:54:55,375 --> 00:54:57,293 It's one thing after another, and I'm sick of it! 526 00:54:57,419 --> 00:54:59,044 Clean up your own shit, and leave me out of it. 527 00:54:59,170 --> 00:55:00,921 You've been nothing but a fuckup lately, David. 528 00:55:01,047 --> 00:55:02,881 -Hey, watch it! -She didn't have to go to jail, Dan. 529 00:55:03,008 --> 00:55:05,009 -Who gives a fuck?! -You know what? Let's just go. 530 00:55:05,135 --> 00:55:07,344 Hey, don't you care at all about this? 531 00:55:07,470 --> 00:55:10,139 What? About your little junkie piece of ass? 532 00:55:10,265 --> 00:55:12,182 No, I don't. 533 00:55:12,309 --> 00:55:14,059 Let her do her time. Maybe she'll get-- 534 00:55:15,145 --> 00:55:17,855 David! Stop it! David, no! Stop it! 535 00:55:17,981 --> 00:55:20,316 Stop it! David! No! 536 00:55:35,165 --> 00:55:37,333 Thanks for the ride. 537 00:55:37,542 --> 00:55:39,710 You're welcome. 538 00:55:52,974 --> 00:55:57,019 I wish that there was something that l couId do for you, David. 539 00:55:59,230 --> 00:56:01,231 I know. 540 00:56:38,770 --> 00:56:40,145 Good night, Susanna. 541 00:56:41,898 --> 00:56:43,607 Good night. 542 00:57:03,294 --> 00:57:05,587 What are you doing here? 543 00:57:10,677 --> 00:57:11,718 Helen called me. 544 00:57:15,765 --> 00:57:18,016 What happened? 545 00:57:18,810 --> 00:57:22,104 Don't worry. She'll be all right. 546 00:57:28,736 --> 00:57:30,904 I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't smoke in here. 547 00:57:45,086 --> 00:57:48,547 Hey. I'm gonna go now. 548 00:57:48,673 --> 00:57:51,842 No, please don't go. 549 00:57:51,968 --> 00:57:56,472 It's okay. We'll talk tomorrow. 550 00:58:06,107 --> 00:58:10,110 I, um. . . I've given her three valiums. 551 00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:13,322 She's had enough for tonight. 552 00:58:13,490 --> 00:58:16,325 Make sure she doesn't take any more. 553 00:58:19,204 --> 00:58:21,580 I'll let myself out. 554 00:58:34,552 --> 00:58:37,679 I need to take another sick leave. 555 00:58:42,852 --> 00:58:44,895 No. 556 00:58:45,021 --> 00:58:47,147 Of course. 557 00:58:48,066 --> 00:58:52,110 I understand. Yes. 558 00:58:53,613 --> 00:58:55,781 I will. 559 00:58:55,907 --> 00:58:58,242 Thanks. 560 00:59:38,366 --> 00:59:40,242 Mom! 561 00:59:42,495 --> 00:59:44,454 I'm so sorry, darling. 562 00:59:47,292 --> 00:59:48,917 Frank. 563 00:59:53,047 --> 00:59:56,550 Julie, I want to, uh, 564 00:59:56,676 --> 00:59:59,886 speak to your mother alone for a moment, please. 565 01:00:16,446 --> 01:00:18,739 You want me to call someone? 566 01:00:26,456 --> 01:00:27,998 Where's David? 567 01:00:38,217 --> 01:00:41,386 I want Julie to come and live with me. 568 01:00:43,348 --> 01:00:44,681 What? 569 01:00:44,807 --> 01:00:47,726 She should stay with me for a whiIe. 570 01:00:54,359 --> 01:00:57,653 Please don't do this, Frank. 571 01:00:57,779 --> 01:01:00,030 You can't take care of her. 572 01:01:04,744 --> 01:01:08,664 And don't fight me on this. 573 01:01:08,790 --> 01:01:11,208 You'll lose. 574 01:02:20,528 --> 01:02:23,613 God, you're so lovely. 575 01:04:39,250 --> 01:04:41,167 Helen! 576 01:04:41,419 --> 01:04:44,045 HeIen! Wake up! Hey! Helen! Helen! 577 01:04:44,171 --> 01:04:45,130 Oh, goddamn it! 578 01:04:45,256 --> 01:04:47,507 Helen! Helen, come on! Come on, honey! Wake up! 579 01:04:47,633 --> 01:04:49,050 Hey, hey! Wake up! 580 01:04:49,176 --> 01:04:51,219 Helen! Helen! Helen! 581 01:04:51,345 --> 01:04:52,762 Come on! 582 01:05:42,563 --> 01:05:44,564 M rs. Leonard? 583 01:05:44,690 --> 01:05:47,442 Where are you going, M rs. Leonard? 584 01:05:49,236 --> 01:05:50,320 Where are you going? 585 01:05:50,446 --> 01:05:51,404 I want to go home. 586 01:05:52,365 --> 01:05:54,824 You can't just leave. 587 01:05:54,951 --> 01:05:55,742 Excuse me? 588 01:05:55,868 --> 01:05:57,535 You can't Ieave. You're on restriction. 589 01:06:01,999 --> 01:06:03,458 Excuse me? 590 01:06:04,168 --> 01:06:05,669 Why don't I take you back to your room, 591 01:06:05,795 --> 01:06:08,171 and I can get the doctor. 592 01:06:34,031 --> 01:06:36,366 Where are my clothes? 593 01:06:36,492 --> 01:06:40,078 You weren't wearing any when you were brought here. 594 01:06:43,791 --> 01:06:46,751 I want to go home. 595 01:06:46,961 --> 01:06:50,880 I'm sorry, but that's not possible. 596 01:06:54,051 --> 01:06:58,138 Your husband had you committed the day before yesterday. 597 01:07:04,020 --> 01:07:06,521 I want to go home. 598 01:07:08,024 --> 01:07:10,191 Helen. . . 599 01:07:12,653 --> 01:07:15,530 You almost died. 600 01:07:40,848 --> 01:07:43,183 I'm sorry. 601 01:07:45,352 --> 01:07:49,064 You don't need to apologize to me. 602 01:08:24,725 --> 01:08:28,186 I almost didn't go home that night. 603 01:08:31,524 --> 01:08:33,858 But you did. 604 01:08:38,739 --> 01:08:42,158 I didn't want to go home. 605 01:08:46,038 --> 01:08:48,915 You did go home, David. 606 01:09:08,185 --> 01:09:11,646 She can't hold on to you. 607 01:09:12,898 --> 01:09:15,275 It doesn't work like that. 608 01:09:15,401 --> 01:09:18,319 Can she hold on to you? 609 01:09:27,163 --> 01:09:29,122 No. 610 01:09:33,127 --> 01:09:37,213 You're not going to like what I have to say. 611 01:09:38,465 --> 01:09:41,634 I think you should consider ECT. 612 01:09:49,059 --> 01:09:51,811 Shock treatment? 613 01:09:51,937 --> 01:09:56,191 l know it's scary. And I know the stigma. 614 01:09:58,027 --> 01:10:02,197 But ECT could help you. 615 01:10:04,575 --> 01:10:07,493 And the side effects are most likely to be temporary. 616 01:10:07,620 --> 01:10:09,454 No. 617 01:10:11,457 --> 01:10:14,959 Never. I'd rather die. 618 01:10:15,169 --> 01:10:16,878 Helen. 619 01:10:17,796 --> 01:10:18,713 I said, no. 620 01:10:18,923 --> 01:10:20,423 Hey, nobody's forcing you to-- 621 01:10:20,633 --> 01:10:25,094 Get out! 622 01:10:25,221 --> 01:10:26,888 All right, enough. 623 01:10:28,349 --> 01:10:31,100 Enough. 624 01:10:33,479 --> 01:10:36,940 M r. Leonard. Please. 625 01:11:08,555 --> 01:11:09,722 M rs. Leonard. 626 01:11:09,932 --> 01:11:12,934 Do you understand these proceedings? 627 01:11:13,060 --> 01:11:14,978 Yes. 628 01:11:15,187 --> 01:11:18,481 WouId you care to explain them to me? 629 01:11:19,942 --> 01:11:21,651 I see a handful of strangers 630 01:11:21,777 --> 01:11:24,445 who think they know what's best for me. 631 01:11:24,571 --> 01:11:28,408 Do you believe they know what's best for you? 632 01:11:28,534 --> 01:11:32,036 I would like to decide for myself where and whose heIp l get. 633 01:11:32,246 --> 01:11:35,957 You decided to take your own life, Mrs. Leonard. lsn't that true? 634 01:11:36,083 --> 01:11:38,293 That was very stupid of me. 635 01:11:38,419 --> 01:11:40,586 But isn't it also true that this was, in fact, 636 01:11:40,796 --> 01:11:43,381 the second time you tried to kill yourself? 637 01:11:43,590 --> 01:11:46,759 Mrs. Leonard suffers from severe suicidal depression. 638 01:11:46,969 --> 01:11:49,971 Without continued treatment and supervision, 639 01:11:50,180 --> 01:11:52,974 there's a serious risk she'll attempt suicide again. 640 01:11:53,100 --> 01:11:55,435 Has M rs. Leonard indicated in any way 641 01:11:55,644 --> 01:11:58,813 that she pIans on discontinuing her medication if she leaves here? 642 01:11:59,898 --> 01:12:02,066 She doesn't beIieve the medication is helping. 643 01:12:02,192 --> 01:12:03,526 But she hasn't indicated 644 01:12:03,652 --> 01:12:05,236 that she plans on discontinuing it, has she? 645 01:12:05,362 --> 01:12:07,947 This isn't just about the medication. 646 01:12:08,157 --> 01:12:10,199 Dr. Sherman, has she indicated 647 01:12:10,326 --> 01:12:12,952 that she plans on discontinuing her medication? 648 01:12:13,162 --> 01:12:17,707 No. But M rs. Leonard needs help. 649 01:12:17,916 --> 01:12:19,417 Has M rs. Leonard indicated 650 01:12:19,543 --> 01:12:21,878 that she plans on trying to take her life again 651 01:12:22,004 --> 01:12:23,296 if she leaves here? 652 01:12:24,089 --> 01:12:27,008 No. But that doesn't mean that she's-- 653 01:12:27,134 --> 01:12:29,093 Nothing further, Your Honor. 654 01:12:31,388 --> 01:12:34,349 I find that the state has not met their burden 655 01:12:34,475 --> 01:12:37,060 of proving with cIear and convincing evidence 656 01:12:37,269 --> 01:12:41,898 that the patient is a danger to herself or to others. 657 01:12:42,649 --> 01:12:45,193 You're free to go, M rs. Leonard. 658 01:12:47,071 --> 01:12:48,738 Congratulations. 659 01:12:48,947 --> 01:12:52,450 Take care of yourself and good luck. 660 01:13:12,721 --> 01:13:13,721 Who is it? 661 01:13:20,479 --> 01:13:21,854 I want to see Helen. 662 01:13:21,980 --> 01:13:23,439 I don't think she wants to see you. 663 01:13:23,565 --> 01:13:26,150 Don't be ridiculous. I know she's here. 664 01:13:37,246 --> 01:13:39,539 So, that's it? 665 01:13:40,916 --> 01:13:45,420 You'll throw away the life you had, forget about us, about Julie, 666 01:13:46,130 --> 01:13:50,675 about everyone who loves you, 667 01:13:50,801 --> 01:13:53,136 and give up? 668 01:13:54,972 --> 01:13:56,806 Is that it? 669 01:14:01,395 --> 01:14:02,395 No, that's not it. 670 01:14:02,521 --> 01:14:05,106 Well, it looks like that to me. 671 01:14:05,232 --> 01:14:07,775 That's because you can't see it the way I see it. 672 01:14:07,985 --> 01:14:10,236 And I assume she does, huh? 673 01:14:10,362 --> 01:14:13,823 It's not your fault, David. 674 01:14:13,949 --> 01:14:15,992 When are you gonna understand that? 675 01:14:16,118 --> 01:14:19,370 You know, it's funny how I'm having trouble with that one 676 01:14:19,496 --> 01:14:23,916 because if it's not my fault, if it's not my fucking fauIt, 677 01:14:24,042 --> 01:14:26,461 then why the fuck do I get all the blame?! 678 01:14:26,587 --> 01:14:27,962 Why?! 679 01:14:42,936 --> 01:14:46,105 You remind me of who I used to be. 680 01:14:49,026 --> 01:14:52,403 Isn't that worth fighting for? 681 01:14:52,571 --> 01:14:56,824 Helen? Isn't it? 682 01:15:03,916 --> 01:15:05,833 Julie's better off without me. 683 01:15:12,090 --> 01:15:14,884 This is insane. 684 01:15:19,097 --> 01:15:21,933 I'm taking you home. 685 01:15:22,059 --> 01:15:24,227 I'm not going. 686 01:15:24,353 --> 01:15:26,687 You don't know what you're saying. 687 01:15:30,025 --> 01:15:31,734 Okay, let's go. 688 01:15:31,860 --> 01:15:36,155 No! I'm not coming with you! 689 01:15:36,281 --> 01:15:37,240 Let go of her. 690 01:15:37,366 --> 01:15:38,407 Let go of her! 691 01:15:38,575 --> 01:15:39,617 -Get out of my way. -No! 692 01:15:39,826 --> 01:15:42,495 Who the fuck do you think you are, huh? 693 01:15:42,663 --> 01:15:44,413 You really think I'll let you get away with this?! 694 01:15:44,581 --> 01:15:45,998 You're fucking nuts! Huh? 695 01:15:48,669 --> 01:15:50,294 I want you to go! 696 01:15:53,840 --> 01:15:56,801 God, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. 697 01:15:59,346 --> 01:16:05,351 What makes her so special, hmm? 698 01:16:05,477 --> 01:16:08,354 She doesn't ask me how I feel. . . 699 01:16:10,774 --> 01:16:12,942 She knows. 700 01:16:36,883 --> 01:16:42,430 You know, you're right. I don't have a clue how you feel. 701 01:16:44,099 --> 01:16:47,101 I don't even dare to imagine. 702 01:16:47,227 --> 01:16:49,687 But I know how I feel. 703 01:16:52,107 --> 01:16:54,734 You're my life, Helen. 704 01:16:56,111 --> 01:16:59,071 Without you and JuIie, the world means nothing to me. 705 01:17:00,699 --> 01:17:05,328 And nothing is going to change that -- ever. 706 01:17:07,581 --> 01:17:10,583 I hope you'll remember that one day. 707 01:17:48,080 --> 01:17:54,085 ♪ lf l had no place to fall ♪ 708 01:17:55,796 --> 01:18:01,634 ♪ And l needed to ♪ 709 01:18:01,802 --> 01:18:06,472 ♪ Oh, could l count on you ♪ 710 01:18:10,936 --> 01:18:13,688 ♪ To lay me down? ♪ 711 01:18:13,814 --> 01:18:16,148 Let's get out of here. 712 01:18:17,609 --> 01:18:24,907 ♪ l'll never tell you no lies ♪ 713 01:18:25,033 --> 01:18:30,538 ♪ l don't believe it's wise ♪ 714 01:18:31,373 --> 01:18:36,544 ♪ You've got pretty eyes ♪ 715 01:18:39,923 --> 01:18:44,218 ♪ Oh, won't you spin me 'round? ♪ 716 01:18:46,221 --> 01:18:54,311 ♪ l ain't much of a lover, it's true ♪ 717 01:18:55,397 --> 01:18:59,358 ♪ l'm here, and l'm gone ♪ 718 01:18:59,484 --> 01:19:04,780 ♪ And l'm forever blue ♪ 719 01:19:06,116 --> 01:19:07,408 ♪ Oh, but l'm sure. . . ♪ 720 01:19:07,534 --> 01:19:10,161 Whose house is this? 721 01:19:12,914 --> 01:19:15,374 It's my house. 722 01:19:15,500 --> 01:19:21,922 ♪ The sky's full of silver and gold ♪ 723 01:19:23,258 --> 01:19:28,262 ♪ Try and hide the sun ♪ 724 01:19:29,514 --> 01:19:34,810 ♪ Oh, but it can't be done ♪ 725 01:19:37,981 --> 01:19:41,859 ♪ At least not for long ♪ 726 01:19:41,985 --> 01:19:43,986 Are you cold? 727 01:19:46,656 --> 01:19:47,239 No. 728 01:19:47,365 --> 01:19:51,619 Good. Let's go for a walk. 729 01:19:52,871 --> 01:19:57,792 ♪ While the light of day ♪ 730 01:19:59,336 --> 01:20:04,006 ♪ Shines down our way ♪ 731 01:20:04,591 --> 01:20:07,426 You're not going to make it go away, you know. 732 01:20:07,552 --> 01:20:12,515 ♪ Oh, then we can't go wrong ♪ 733 01:20:12,641 --> 01:20:14,058 I never said I would. 734 01:20:14,184 --> 01:20:21,106 ♪ Oh, but time, she's a fast old train ♪ 735 01:20:22,275 --> 01:20:26,612 ♪ She's here, and she's gone ♪ 736 01:20:26,738 --> 01:20:31,617 ♪ And she won't come again ♪ 737 01:20:32,869 --> 01:20:38,165 ♪ Oh, won't you take my hand? ♪ 738 01:20:41,878 --> 01:20:48,592 ♪ lf l had no place to fall ♪ 739 01:20:49,803 --> 01:20:54,223 ♪ And l needed to ♪ 740 01:20:55,851 --> 01:21:01,272 ♪ Oh, could l count on you ♪ 741 01:21:01,398 --> 01:21:04,775 She was sick for as long as l can remember. 742 01:21:04,901 --> 01:21:07,945 ♪ To lay me down? ♪ 743 01:21:08,071 --> 01:21:11,240 Then one morning she got up, and she made breakfast. 744 01:21:11,366 --> 01:21:15,160 And after she cleared the table and sent me to my room, 745 01:21:15,287 --> 01:21:17,496 she hung herself. 746 01:21:20,000 --> 01:21:24,920 And she left her eight-year-old daughter with that goddamn house. 747 01:21:31,344 --> 01:21:33,679 So what do you think? 748 01:21:34,723 --> 01:21:36,932 Should I keep it? 749 01:21:38,560 --> 01:21:43,272 Or should I insure it really well and pay someone to burn it down? 750 01:22:22,020 --> 01:22:25,606 I want you to know me, Helen. 751 01:22:28,234 --> 01:22:31,820 I've never wanted that from anybody. 752 01:23:22,330 --> 01:23:26,208 Helen! 753 01:23:27,127 --> 01:23:28,919 Helen? 754 01:23:47,105 --> 01:23:52,067 Death comes so close. 755 01:23:53,153 --> 01:23:55,946 And with such promise. 756 01:24:05,290 --> 01:24:07,166 Nice hit, Julie! 757 01:24:14,966 --> 01:24:16,925 Good job, Julie. 758 01:24:17,052 --> 01:24:18,677 Thanks. 759 01:24:39,074 --> 01:24:42,868 Hey, you. That was beautiful. 760 01:24:45,622 --> 01:24:46,955 How are you? 761 01:24:47,082 --> 01:24:48,707 Did something happen to Mom? 762 01:24:48,833 --> 01:24:50,584 No, no, no, sweetie. That's not -- 763 01:24:50,710 --> 01:24:54,338 That's not why I'm here. I'm sorry. 764 01:24:55,673 --> 01:24:57,966 Come here. Come here. 765 01:24:58,093 --> 01:25:00,886 Oh, God, I miss you. 766 01:25:06,101 --> 01:25:07,851 Oh! 767 01:25:10,021 --> 01:25:12,815 I wanted to visit her in the hospital. 768 01:25:13,775 --> 01:25:17,111 But Dad didn't think that was a good idea. 769 01:25:20,365 --> 01:25:22,241 He is such a wuss! 770 01:25:23,785 --> 01:25:26,161 Did you just call him a wuss? 771 01:25:27,247 --> 01:25:29,123 Yes, I did. 772 01:25:45,014 --> 01:25:47,599 You think we'll ever be together again? 773 01:25:48,893 --> 01:25:51,311 Like we used to be? 774 01:25:52,981 --> 01:25:54,481 Straight answer? 775 01:25:54,691 --> 01:25:56,817 Straight answer. 776 01:25:59,154 --> 01:26:01,572 I don't know. 777 01:26:02,323 --> 01:26:03,323 We may not. 778 01:26:05,702 --> 01:26:09,580 But I hope so, you know. l reaIIy do. 779 01:26:16,296 --> 01:26:18,797 Do you know where she is? 780 01:26:41,946 --> 01:26:43,572 Julie? 781 01:26:46,451 --> 01:26:49,077 Are you Mathilda? 782 01:26:49,913 --> 01:26:54,082 I was-- I'm looking for my Mom. 783 01:26:55,084 --> 01:26:57,294 Is she here? 784 01:27:00,715 --> 01:27:02,466 Helen? 785 01:27:03,468 --> 01:27:06,386 Leave me alone, please. 786 01:27:10,725 --> 01:27:12,226 Mom? 787 01:27:41,965 --> 01:27:44,675 My poor darling. 788 01:27:52,433 --> 01:27:56,144 I'm sorry I left, Mom. 789 01:27:58,189 --> 01:28:02,609 No. . . no. 790 01:28:05,154 --> 01:28:08,198 Don't say that. 791 01:28:09,284 --> 01:28:13,954 No, darling, I'm the one who's sorry. 792 01:28:17,166 --> 01:28:20,335 I am so sorry. 793 01:28:23,631 --> 01:28:26,133 My dear child. 794 01:29:33,576 --> 01:29:36,745 No matter how long the journey 795 01:29:36,871 --> 01:29:39,915 or how deep the descent. . . 796 01:29:42,835 --> 01:29:46,630 . . .in the end, all it takes is one last step. 797 01:29:48,925 --> 01:29:50,634 One step. . . 798 01:29:51,844 --> 01:29:56,306 Between me and madness. 799 01:29:57,767 --> 01:30:00,435 Between pain and nothing. 800 01:30:04,190 --> 01:30:07,484 One single small step. 801 01:31:29,108 --> 01:31:33,111 What I do remember is a sense that reaIity is thin. 802 01:31:34,322 --> 01:31:37,949 I think it is thin, you know. 803 01:31:38,075 --> 01:31:41,620 Thin as lake ice after a thaw. 804 01:31:41,746 --> 01:31:44,372 And we fill our lives with noise and light and motion 805 01:31:44,499 --> 01:31:48,335 to hide that thinness from ourselves. 806 01:32:15,863 --> 01:32:17,948 How's it going? 807 01:32:19,116 --> 01:32:19,908 Good. 808 01:32:26,249 --> 01:32:27,165 I. . . . 809 01:32:27,375 --> 01:32:29,459 Do we know each other? 810 01:32:31,295 --> 01:32:33,880 Absolutely not. 811 01:32:36,259 --> 01:32:37,968 You'd like to change that? 812 01:32:38,177 --> 01:32:40,303 Helen. 813 01:33:06,455 --> 01:33:07,747 Stop! 814 01:33:07,873 --> 01:33:08,582 Ow! 815 01:33:09,333 --> 01:33:11,334 Stop! 816 01:34:18,069 --> 01:34:18,943 Mathilda? 817 01:34:19,153 --> 01:34:20,820 Jesus. 818 01:34:24,283 --> 01:34:27,160 What are you doing here? 819 01:34:28,120 --> 01:34:29,663 Well, you weren't at the hospital. 820 01:34:29,830 --> 01:34:31,706 No, no. Tomorrow. 821 01:34:31,832 --> 01:34:34,084 l thought you were getting out tomorrow, no? 822 01:34:34,293 --> 01:34:36,086 No, today. 823 01:34:36,295 --> 01:34:38,630 I was gonna pick you up. 824 01:34:39,298 --> 01:34:39,923 I know. 825 01:34:40,049 --> 01:34:42,676 I -- I thought -- I thought -- I thought it was -- 826 01:34:42,802 --> 01:34:45,303 I thought it was tomorrow. 827 01:34:45,513 --> 01:34:47,555 What am I doing? 828 01:34:47,723 --> 01:34:49,057 Hi. 829 01:34:50,142 --> 01:34:54,646 Oh, I'm so glad you're home. The day's all mixed up. 830 01:34:56,774 --> 01:34:58,441 I'm sorry about the mess. 831 01:34:58,567 --> 01:35:04,072 I was gonna get it all fixed up for you. 832 01:35:04,281 --> 01:35:08,284 It was a stupid idea, I guess. Fuck it. 833 01:35:08,411 --> 01:35:10,245 You want a drink? 834 01:35:13,582 --> 01:35:15,709 Let me get you a drink. 835 01:35:25,636 --> 01:35:28,888 Don't look at me like that. 836 01:35:38,065 --> 01:35:40,066 I see you met Macho. 837 01:35:40,192 --> 01:35:42,610 Yeah. Where did you get him? 838 01:35:42,778 --> 01:35:44,904 I found him. 839 01:35:53,456 --> 01:35:56,499 Look, Helen. I, um -- I'm really sorry. 840 01:35:56,625 --> 01:35:59,127 I thought it was tomorrow, I did. 841 01:36:32,495 --> 01:36:33,411 Did I wake you? 842 01:36:36,123 --> 01:36:37,999 Bad dreams. 843 01:36:41,045 --> 01:36:45,548 They say that's normaI. They'll go away after a while. 844 01:36:55,851 --> 01:37:00,522 So now that you have this new life, what are you going to do with it? 845 01:37:02,149 --> 01:37:04,442 I don't want a new life. 846 01:37:08,030 --> 01:37:11,324 I miss my old one too much. 847 01:37:20,084 --> 01:37:23,837 l don't know if there's anything left of it, though. 848 01:37:26,423 --> 01:37:28,633 You'll find out, I guess. 849 01:37:41,063 --> 01:37:43,106 Mathilda. 850 01:37:45,067 --> 01:37:47,694 What are you doing? 851 01:38:15,222 --> 01:38:17,515 I'm not like you, Helen. 852 01:38:20,019 --> 01:38:22,729 I get -- I get tired 853 01:38:22,855 --> 01:38:28,359 of turning down the volume all the time. 854 01:38:28,569 --> 01:38:31,446 Sometimes I just -- I want to hear the music loud and clear, 855 01:38:31,655 --> 01:38:33,740 do you know what I mean? 856 01:38:35,451 --> 01:38:38,036 I wish I did. 857 01:39:20,579 --> 01:39:22,246 David Leonard's office, please. 858 01:39:27,795 --> 01:39:29,796 Do you know where he works now? 859 01:39:32,591 --> 01:39:34,133 Thank you. 860 01:39:34,802 --> 01:39:36,552 Hey! How was your appointment? 861 01:39:36,679 --> 01:39:38,221 Fine. 862 01:39:54,905 --> 01:39:57,949 Listen, I'm gonna run out for some groceries. 863 01:39:58,117 --> 01:40:00,785 I'll be back soon. 864 01:40:21,056 --> 01:40:24,017 All right. Thank you very much. See you. 865 01:40:34,236 --> 01:40:36,154 You look good. 866 01:40:42,077 --> 01:40:45,663 You always were a lousy liar, David. 867 01:40:52,004 --> 01:40:53,504 You look terrible. 868 01:40:55,299 --> 01:40:59,302 But. . . you look good. 869 01:41:01,972 --> 01:41:04,140 Different. 870 01:41:09,480 --> 01:41:11,814 It was hell. 871 01:41:21,492 --> 01:41:22,825 I lost part of my memory, 872 01:41:22,951 --> 01:41:26,537 and l don't know if it's aII ever going to come back. 873 01:41:29,083 --> 01:41:30,291 I'm still on medication, 874 01:41:30,417 --> 01:41:34,128 but that's no guarantee that l won't reIapse. 875 01:41:39,134 --> 01:41:43,179 And I am constantly terrified of the idea. . . 876 01:41:46,642 --> 01:41:48,935 And I hate myself for it. 877 01:41:49,061 --> 01:41:53,272 I hate myself for what I've done to Julie and you. 878 01:41:58,028 --> 01:42:00,988 I hate this illness. 879 01:42:05,994 --> 01:42:09,372 Sometimes l stiII feeI like I can't take it anymore. 880 01:42:13,961 --> 01:42:17,421 But I am grateful to be alive. 881 01:42:26,348 --> 01:42:29,225 Come home, Helen. 882 01:42:48,662 --> 01:42:51,164 I'll never be the same. 883 01:42:55,043 --> 01:42:57,253 Maybe. . . 884 01:42:58,881 --> 01:43:01,591 But you'll always be the one. 885 01:43:18,066 --> 01:43:19,358 Hi, Macho. 886 01:43:19,484 --> 01:43:22,862 No, stay, stay. 887 01:43:22,988 --> 01:43:25,156 Oh, my God! 888 01:43:30,370 --> 01:43:31,871 Mathilda? 889 01:43:33,749 --> 01:43:38,502 There's no air. 890 01:43:44,176 --> 01:43:46,969 Oh! Come here! 891 01:43:47,095 --> 01:43:49,180 It's okay. 892 01:44:09,243 --> 01:44:12,036 You want to go back, don't you? 893 01:44:18,961 --> 01:44:22,338 I'm trying to remember who I was. 894 01:44:29,346 --> 01:44:31,847 I miss my family. 895 01:44:36,520 --> 01:44:39,230 I miss my daughter. 896 01:44:41,525 --> 01:44:43,234 Yeah. 897 01:44:44,278 --> 01:44:46,862 I understand that. 898 01:44:47,614 --> 01:44:51,242 We can't hide out here forever. 899 01:44:53,537 --> 01:44:55,496 I know. 900 01:44:57,374 --> 01:45:01,294 But I don't want to leave you, Mathilda. 901 01:45:01,420 --> 01:45:03,254 Never. 902 01:45:03,380 --> 01:45:05,298 You know that, don't you? 903 01:45:06,216 --> 01:45:08,259 I know. 904 01:45:11,388 --> 01:45:14,181 I'm sorry I scared you. 905 01:46:13,658 --> 01:46:16,077 Mathilda? 906 01:46:28,256 --> 01:46:39,558 Mathilda! 907 01:46:44,773 --> 01:46:45,731 Hey. 908 01:46:47,901 --> 01:46:50,236 What are you doing up here? 909 01:46:52,864 --> 01:46:54,782 Thinking. 910 01:47:00,330 --> 01:47:02,665 About what? 911 01:47:06,128 --> 01:47:10,256 Just. . . stuff. 912 01:47:21,726 --> 01:47:23,811 Oh, Jesus. 913 01:47:24,980 --> 01:47:29,066 Why's it so fucking cold? I'm fucking freezing. 914 01:47:39,786 --> 01:47:41,495 Come on, let's go back inside. 915 01:47:41,621 --> 01:47:42,997 No. 916 01:47:44,624 --> 01:47:48,252 Let's just sit here for a little while, okay? 917 01:47:49,754 --> 01:47:52,089 Just for a little while. 918 01:48:03,935 --> 01:48:07,188 How can I say good-bye to you? 919 01:48:15,197 --> 01:48:16,989 Huh? 920 01:48:17,115 --> 01:48:20,576 -It's cold. I'm really cold. -Let's go downstairs. 921 01:48:30,629 --> 01:48:34,381 I'm so relieved, you know? 922 01:48:35,509 --> 01:48:38,469 Everything's gonna be okay. 923 01:48:40,055 --> 01:48:41,805 Yes. 924 01:48:42,015 --> 01:48:44,433 I am right here. 925 01:48:46,645 --> 01:48:48,729 I know. 926 01:48:51,775 --> 01:48:55,069 But you don't belong here, Helen. 927 01:49:03,203 --> 01:49:07,498 Come on, let's go. You're cold. 928 01:49:22,347 --> 01:49:25,140 -I'll get him. -Okay. 929 01:49:25,267 --> 01:49:27,268 Macho! 930 01:51:20,215 --> 01:51:23,342 l was prepared to fight. 931 01:51:29,683 --> 01:51:32,351 l wasn't prepared to lose. 932 01:52:16,396 --> 01:52:18,439 Macho! 933 01:52:19,899 --> 01:52:22,651 Come here! Come here! 934 01:52:59,606 --> 01:53:01,774 Macho!