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( indistinct chatter )

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Woman:
Careful with all the pillows
and all the art.

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Man:
Once we approve frame,
folks, we're all clear.

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Once again,
check your cell phones.

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Thank you.

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Frame looks beautiful.

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Woman:
You look great.

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Everybody needs to clear.

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Every single person. You too.

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Okay. How are you feeling?

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Demi Lovato:<i>
 I actually had anxiety</i>

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around this... interview.

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Why is that?

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Because the last time I did
an interview this long,

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I was on cocaine.

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It was called "Staying Strong."

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( bulbs flashing quickly )

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<i> I am Demi Lovato.</i>

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<i> ( music playing )</i>

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<i> I'm 25.</i>

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<i> The last decade has taught me
 a lifetime of lessons.</i>

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<i> I've learned that
 secrets make you sick.</i>

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<i> I'm learning how to be
 a voice and not a victim.</i>

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<i> I've learned that
 sex is natural.</i>

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<i> I've learned that
 love is necessary.</i>

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<i> Heartbreak is unavoidable.</i>

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<i> And loneliness is brutal.</i>

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<i> I've learned that
 the key to being happy</i>

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<i> is to tell your truth</i>

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<i> and be okay
 without all the answers.</i>

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<i> This is my story.</i>

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<i> This... is
 "Simply Complicated."</i>

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<i> (music ends)</i>

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Producer:
I want you to hear the first
three lines you just did.

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They were great.

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Okay.

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<i> ♪ I see the future ♪</i>

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♪ Without you ♪

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♪ The hell was I doing ♪

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<i> ♪ In the past? ♪</i>

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<i> ♪ Now that I've learned
 all about you ♪</i>

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♪ A love ♪

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<i> ♪ Just like ours
 wouldn't last. ♪</i>

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I think the first, um, line,

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the "you" on it isn't good.

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Producer:
Okay, did you like
line number three?

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- Did you like this one?
- ( mouse click )

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<i> ♪ Now that I've learned
 all about you ♪</i>

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- Yeah, the "you" is great.
- Yeah.

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And the "now," I think I can
do a better "learned."

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♪ I won't ♪

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♪ Fall ♪

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♪ For your games ♪

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♪ So don't ♪

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♪ Hate me ♪

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♪ When I say ♪

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Okay, there's words that I like,

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but, overall, I don't like
the whole take.

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Producer:
Ah! Okay.

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Those first two lines made me
feel something great,

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so whatever you're doing...

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I'll just keep doing it.

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♪ That you... ♪

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♪ Don't do it for me ♪

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♪ Anymore ♪

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♪ No, you... ♪

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( taps keyboard, song ends )

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I really like this take.

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Just that last "ooh"
needs to be smoothed out.

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- ( taps keyboard )
- Yeah.

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I mean, in a perfect world,
absolutely.

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Well, this should be
a perfect world, it's my album.

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( chuckles )

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 Let's go again.

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♪ I won't ♪

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♪ Fall ♪

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♪ For your game. ♪

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Oops. ( bleep ).

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♪ Fall. ♪

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- ♪ Fall. ♪
- ( producer talking
indistinctly )

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♪ Fall. ♪

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<i> ♪ Stop feeling bad ♪</i>

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<i> ♪ For yourself ♪</i>

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♪ I won't ♪

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♪ Fall ♪

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♪ For your games ♪

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♪ So don't ♪

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♪ Hate me when I say ♪

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I like that "me when I say."

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Producer:
Yeah, I think, too.

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It's only the third take.

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Yeah, I don't know what to do.

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( chuckles )

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Well, I got to get
the other stuff first.

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( laughs )
Here we go.

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♪ That you... ♪

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♪ Don't do it for me ♪

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♪ Anymore ♪

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♪ I'm sorry ♪

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♪ For honesty ♪

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♪ I'm well aware ♪

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♪ I lie to you ♪

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♪ When I lie with you ♪

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♪ You... ♪

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♪ Don't do it for me ♪

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♪ Don't do it ♪

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♪ For me ♪

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♪ You... ♪

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♪ Don't do it ♪

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♪ For me ♪

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♪ Anymore. ♪

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( taps keyboard )

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- That last line was great.
- Yeah.

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- ( mouse clicks )
- Hang on one sec.

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I mean thank you.

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( laughter )

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Yeah, I know I'm the ( bleep ).

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( chuckles )

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<i> ( music playing )</i>

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<i> Growing up,</i>

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<i> I had been bullied in school.</i>

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<i> And...</i>

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I felt like an outsider,

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I felt like an outcast.

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<i> At that time,
 I became friends with</i>

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a girl who was popular.

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<i> And, one day, I asked her,</i>

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"How do you have
all these friends?"

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And she was like,
"Well, do you party?"

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I was like, "What do you mean?"

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<i> And she asked me,</i>

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<i> "Do you drink?"</i>

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We experienced
a lot of stuff together,

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drinking, and using,
and... growing up.

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Marissa Callahan:<i>
 We started drinking
 fairly early.</i>

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To me, it was like,
"We're just having fun.

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<i> We're kids.</i>

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<i> Everyone's doing it,
 so we're going to, too."</i>

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Little did we know that

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there's was gonna be, like,
this downward spiral.

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<i> My first time</i>

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doing coke,

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<i> I was 17,</i>

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<i> working on Disney Channel,
 and...</i>

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I was with
a couple of friends.

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<i> And they introduced me to it.</i>

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I was scared because
my mom always told me

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that your heart could
just burst if you do it.

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But I did it anyways,

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and I loved it.

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<i> I felt out of control
 with the coke</i>

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the first time that I did it.

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<i> My dad</i>

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was an addict and an alcoholic.

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<i> And...</i>

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I guess I always searched
for what he found in
drugs and alcohol

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because it fulfilled him
and he chose that over a family.

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Dianna De La Garza:<i>
 Early on,</i>

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Demi was very, very sad

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<i> because of her issues
 with her dad.</i>

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<i> ( music playing )</i>

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We had been through
a lot of the same things,

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<i> kind of at the same time.</i>

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Our parents were both divorced
at a young age.

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<i> She dealt a lot with her dad.</i>

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<i> And the times where
 he was brought up</i>

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wasn't ever good.

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<i> Like, he would tell them</i>

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he had cancer when he didn't.

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<i> Or he would tell them
 he's dying tomorrow</i>

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<i> when he wasn't.</i>

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Dallas Lovato:<i>
 Growing up, I was always
 really protective of Demi.</i>

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<i> I remember my dad</i>

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<i> was such a loving person,</i>

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<i> But,</i>

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when he started drinking,

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<i> he was very different.</i>

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Dianna:<i>
 Scary things</i>

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began to happen.

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Dallas:<i>
 He would rage, and yell,</i>

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<i> and throw things.</i>

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<i> And...</i>

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<i> Demi saw that.</i>

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Dianna:<i>
 At the time,
 I didn't understand it.</i>

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<i> I didn't know
 how to handle things.</i>

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<i> But I knew that</i>

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he had a good heart.

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<i> I never would've married him
 in the first place</i>

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<i> if he didn't.</i>

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But sometimes,
if you don't get help

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for what you're struggling with,

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<i> a good heart
 sometimes isn't enough.</i>

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It just became too much
and I had to leave.

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<i> ( music playing )</i>

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Dallas:<i>
 From a young age,
 Demi, my mom, and I</i>

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had this incredible bond.

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<i>We called ourselves "The 3 Ds."</i>

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<i> It felt kind of like it was
 us against the world.</i>

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Eddie's my dad.

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<i> When I say my dad
 and I mean my birth father,</i>

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I mention that
it's my birth father.

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Dallas:<i>
 Even though the dynamic
 in our family</i>

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<i> was always very loving
 and very open,</i>

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<i> on the other hand,
 we were also very closed off</i>

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<i> and secretive as well.</i>

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We all had our own things

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<i> hidden behind
 our own closed doors.</i>

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<i> There were some things that</i>

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nobody knew.

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Demi:<i>
 I was depressed</i>

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<i> at a very, very young age.</i>

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<i> Fascinated with death.</i>

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<i>Wondering what it would be like</i>

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to have a funeral.

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I never knew why I would think

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<i> so darkly.</i>

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And it took me a long time
to figure out

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what was actually going on.

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( birds chirping )

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( indistinct chatter )

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Look at how serious I am
in this picture.

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I've got the head tilt
and the "smize."

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<i> We started modeling
 a little bit</i>

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<i> when I was, like, five.</i>

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And by modeling,
we didn't have an agent,

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we just took pictures.

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We didn't do anything...

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like, any actual jobs.

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<i> Then we started doing
 beauty pageants</i>

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<i> and that's what
 got me into singing.</i>

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Hi.

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My name is Demi.

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Dallas:
Hi. I'm...

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I'm gonna be on "Jackass."

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( laughter )

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Dianna:<i>
 We started off doing pageants</i>

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<i> and I started to realize
 that Demi, I guess, was...</i>

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- gifted.
- Was talented.

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Not human
when it came to her voice.

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Dianna:<i>
 When she was five years old,</i>

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she... had the nerve to go up
in front of the entire school

1
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<i> to sing Celine Dion's</i>

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"My Heart Will Go On."

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( cheering and applause )

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<i> And it was beautiful.</i>

1
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That was the first time
I thought, "Okay,

1
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this is probably what
she's gonna want to do

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the rest of her life."

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Demi:<i>
 We tried really hard
 to get an agent</i>

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We couldn't get an agent.

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It was auditions,
like, all the time.

1
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Madison De La Garza:<i>
 I just remember
 a lot of auditions</i>

1
00:10:35,067 --> 00:10:36,435
and a lot of car rides.

1
00:10:36,467 --> 00:10:38,269
I have so many memories of

1
00:10:38,302 --> 00:10:39,437
Demi getting a phone call,

1
00:10:39,471 --> 00:10:41,874
<i> and then not getting the job.</i>

1
00:10:41,907 --> 00:10:43,208
We would be really upset

1
00:10:43,240 --> 00:10:45,811
<i> for a few days,
 and then one day...</i>

1
00:10:45,844 --> 00:10:46,945
Is the band here?

1
00:10:46,977 --> 00:10:48,046
Not yet.

1
00:10:48,080 --> 00:10:49,782
Dianna:<i>
 She got "Barney."</i>

1
00:10:49,815 --> 00:10:52,051
Demi:<i>
 After I booked "Barney",</i>

1
00:10:52,083 --> 00:10:54,219
<i> I was constantly working
 on music and acting.</i>

1
00:10:58,123 --> 00:10:59,291
I was taking lessons

1
00:10:59,323 --> 00:11:01,092
any chance that I could.

1
00:11:01,125 --> 00:11:02,927
Dianna:
Demi, good luck! I love you!

1
00:11:02,961 --> 00:11:04,363
Have fun!

1
00:11:04,395 --> 00:11:06,164
<i> We had been working
 really hard at it</i>

1
00:11:06,197 --> 00:11:10,269
<i> since the pageant days,
 and all of the headshots,</i>

1
00:11:10,302 --> 00:11:11,704
<i> and lessons.</i>

1
00:11:11,736 --> 00:11:13,171
When Demi walked in the room,

1
00:11:13,205 --> 00:11:17,009
<i> I knew that she was
 a flat-out entertainer.</i>

1
00:11:17,042 --> 00:11:20,112
<i> She was standing by my piano,</i>

1
00:11:20,144 --> 00:11:21,212
and she said,
"Can I sing for you?"

1
00:11:21,245 --> 00:11:23,115
And I said, "You bet you can."

1
00:11:23,148 --> 00:11:27,886
♪ Hark the herald angels sing ♪

1
00:11:27,918 --> 00:11:30,221
She started this song...

1
00:11:30,254 --> 00:11:32,957
♪ The newborn king ♪

1
00:11:32,990 --> 00:11:34,759
♪ Peace on Earth ♪

1
00:11:34,793 --> 00:11:35,994
♪ And mercy mild ♪

1
00:11:36,027 --> 00:11:38,129
I... I just said, "Oh, my gosh.

1
00:11:38,163 --> 00:11:39,431
where did she get this voice?"

1
00:11:39,464 --> 00:11:41,266
♪ Glory to ♪

1
00:11:41,298 --> 00:11:43,034
When I was very young,

1
00:11:43,067 --> 00:11:44,502
I wanted to be like
Shirley Temple.

1
00:11:44,535 --> 00:11:48,005
<i> Somebody that could
 sing and act</i>

1
00:11:48,038 --> 00:11:49,073
<i> at such a young age.</i>

1
00:11:49,106 --> 00:11:50,775
♪ Glory to ♪

1
00:11:50,808 --> 00:11:52,310
I don't know how
I knew I had it in me,

1
00:11:52,344 --> 00:11:54,113
but I knew that it was
what I was supposed to do.

1
00:11:54,145 --> 00:11:55,146
♪ King. ♪

1
00:11:55,179 --> 00:11:56,147
( static )

1
00:11:56,181 --> 00:11:58,817
♪ Looking out... ♪

1
00:11:58,850 --> 00:11:59,985
<i> I started playing guitar</i>

1
00:12:00,018 --> 00:12:02,187
at around eight
or nine years old.

1
00:12:02,220 --> 00:12:04,089
I was always playing music.

1
00:12:04,121 --> 00:12:05,957
She would be up
all hours of the night...

1
00:12:05,990 --> 00:12:07,326
Singing my heart out.

1
00:12:07,359 --> 00:12:09,328
- ...writing.
- Some real tough ( bleep ).

1
00:12:20,938 --> 00:12:23,174
Demi:<i>
 Looking back, I think
 I realized that I had</i>

1
00:12:23,207 --> 00:12:27,379
this outlet to...
pour my emotions out

1
00:12:27,412 --> 00:12:29,514
and create something beautiful.

1
00:12:32,317 --> 00:12:34,485
<i> After I had finished
 "Barney and Friends,"</i>

1
00:12:34,519 --> 00:12:38,056
what I ended up finding out
is that there was actually
a lot of pressure

1
00:12:38,089 --> 00:12:40,926
to find jobs.

1
00:12:40,958 --> 00:12:44,462
And the pressure didn't come
from anybody but myself.

1
00:12:44,495 --> 00:12:47,098
<i> I just wanted to succeed.</i>

1
00:12:47,131 --> 00:12:48,900
( bell on door jingles )

1
00:12:48,933 --> 00:12:50,235
<i> We started coming
 out to California</i>

1
00:12:50,268 --> 00:12:52,104
<i> for pilot season.</i>

1
00:12:52,136 --> 00:12:54,839
I got guest-starring roles
on TV shows,

1
00:12:54,873 --> 00:12:56,341
commercials, things like that.

1
00:12:56,374 --> 00:12:59,211
My stuff? I never heard of them.

1
00:12:59,244 --> 00:13:00,946
And then I ended up booking

1
00:13:00,979 --> 00:13:03,115
<i> a TV show for Disney Channel</i>

1
00:13:03,148 --> 00:13:04,449
-<i> called "As the Bell Rings." </i>
- ( bell rings )

1
00:13:04,481 --> 00:13:06,250
Okay, I think we have something.

1
00:13:06,283 --> 00:13:07,485
Let's put this together.

1
00:13:07,519 --> 00:13:09,855
<i> And after "As the Bell Rings,"</i>

1
00:13:09,888 --> 00:13:11,590
I booked "Camp Rock."

1
00:13:11,623 --> 00:13:13,926
<i> I was 15.</i>

1
00:13:13,958 --> 00:13:14,926
Rock on.

1
00:13:14,960 --> 00:13:16,595
<i> When I met Phil,</i>

1
00:13:16,628 --> 00:13:18,363
he was managing
the Jonas Brothers.

1
00:13:18,395 --> 00:13:19,897
Joe Jonas:<i>
 We met Demi, I think,</i>

1
00:13:19,931 --> 00:13:20,899
<i> originally it was an audition</i>

1
00:13:20,932 --> 00:13:22,967
of our TV show.

1
00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:25,269
<i> We had a TV show
 called "Jonas."</i>

1
00:13:25,302 --> 00:13:27,038
She didn't get it, but...

1
00:13:27,072 --> 00:13:30,174
- ( laughter )
- we...

1
00:13:30,207 --> 00:13:34,212
<i> I think a year later, I think
 we met in rehearsals probably
 for "Camp Rock."</i>

1
00:13:34,245 --> 00:13:36,848
-<i> Demi was attached
 to the film already. </i>
-<i> And I remember</i>

1
00:13:36,881 --> 00:13:38,382
you went in 'cause you
had to sing the duet

1
00:13:38,416 --> 00:13:40,219
<i> with Demi's character.</i>

1
00:13:40,251 --> 00:13:41,452
You had already
laid down your part.

1
00:13:41,485 --> 00:13:43,388
- Mm-hmm.
- I went in with Joe,

1
00:13:43,421 --> 00:13:46,057
and I heard her voice,
I just had, like, goose bumps

1
00:13:46,091 --> 00:13:48,226
all over my arms.

1
00:13:48,259 --> 00:13:50,528
I was like-- I stepped out of
the studio and I called Disney,
I was like,

1
00:13:50,562 --> 00:13:51,996
<i> "Who is this girl?"</i>

1
00:13:54,231 --> 00:13:56,334
I saw what he did
for the Jonas Brothers,

1
00:13:56,368 --> 00:13:59,538
<i> and the fact that he wanted to
manage me was a huge deal to me</i>

1
00:13:59,571 --> 00:14:03,875
<i> because he was with them
 through it all.</i>

1
00:14:03,908 --> 00:14:06,912
Starring in "Camp Rock"
was Demi's big break.

1
00:14:06,945 --> 00:14:10,215
<i>It was just a massive franchise
 that Disney had put</i>

1
00:14:10,248 --> 00:14:12,350
<i> everything behind.</i>

1
00:14:12,384 --> 00:14:14,418
<i> And it just became
 a pop culture,</i>

1
00:14:14,451 --> 00:14:15,921
sort of, sensation.

1
00:14:15,953 --> 00:14:17,088
To be able to

1
00:14:17,121 --> 00:14:18,089
<i> get to do something</i>

1
00:14:18,123 --> 00:14:19,424
<i> as big as this,</i>

1
00:14:19,456 --> 00:14:20,893
<i> um, for my first project,</i>

1
00:14:20,926 --> 00:14:22,261
it feels good.

1
00:14:22,293 --> 00:14:23,995
We really believed
that "Camp Rock"

1
00:14:24,028 --> 00:14:27,099
<i> was the vehicle to become
 a superstar.</i>

1
00:14:27,131 --> 00:14:29,901
And it was like overnight,
she became a household name.

1
00:14:29,934 --> 00:14:32,570
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:14:42,647 --> 00:14:44,182
<i> I think Demi</i>

1
00:14:44,215 --> 00:14:47,152
was cast in so many different
Disney projects

1
00:14:47,184 --> 00:14:51,122
<i> because there was
 a natural edge to her</i>

1
00:14:51,155 --> 00:14:54,625
<i> that made her... authentic</i>

1
00:14:54,658 --> 00:14:55,660
<i> and believable</i>

1
00:14:55,693 --> 00:14:58,229
as an actress or as an artist.

1
00:14:58,263 --> 00:15:00,331
<i> I think they needed her</i>

1
00:15:00,365 --> 00:15:04,369
<i> to make their projects cooler.</i>

1
00:15:04,402 --> 00:15:05,937
Demi:<i>
 Everything happened</i>

1
00:15:05,971 --> 00:15:07,072
so fast.

1
00:15:07,105 --> 00:15:09,541
We officially signed,

1
00:15:09,573 --> 00:15:11,709
<i> and the next day,
 I booked her a plane ticket</i>

1
00:15:11,743 --> 00:15:13,512
<i> to go on tour
 with the Jonas Brothers.</i>

1
00:15:13,544 --> 00:15:15,313
( cheering and applause )

1
00:15:17,615 --> 00:15:18,616
<i> All of a sudden,</i>

1
00:15:18,649 --> 00:15:19,650
<i> I was on tour,</i>

1
00:15:19,683 --> 00:15:20,651
<i> writing songs for my album</i>

1
00:15:20,684 --> 00:15:23,020
<i> with the Jonas Brothers.</i>

1
00:15:23,053 --> 00:15:25,456
<i> And then I was on
 a tour of my own.</i>

1
00:15:27,759 --> 00:15:30,495
<i> Looking back,
 I think that it was a lot</i>

1
00:15:30,528 --> 00:15:32,965
for anyone, let alone,

1
00:15:32,998 --> 00:15:36,100
<i> a kid.</i>

1
00:15:36,134 --> 00:15:39,270
I think that Demi
being on the Disney Channel,

1
00:15:39,303 --> 00:15:41,305
now looking back at it,
I can connect the dots

1
00:15:41,339 --> 00:15:43,208
and say that there was an
immense amount of pressure.

1
00:15:44,775 --> 00:15:47,245
<i> I was now working on my music,</i>

1
00:15:47,278 --> 00:15:51,416
<i> and my TV show and movies</i>

1
00:15:51,448 --> 00:15:53,051
all at the same time.

1
00:15:54,619 --> 00:15:55,754
<i> That lifestyle's really crazy.</i>

1
00:15:55,787 --> 00:15:57,522
Not a lot of people understand,

1
00:15:57,554 --> 00:15:59,357
like, the pressures,
and the time,

1
00:15:59,390 --> 00:16:01,692
<i> and the amount of work
 that it actually takes</i>

1
00:16:01,725 --> 00:16:04,428
<i> to have such
 a successful career</i>

1
00:16:04,461 --> 00:16:05,563
in the entertainment industry.

1
00:16:07,532 --> 00:16:09,167
<i> So many more expectations</i>

1
00:16:09,200 --> 00:16:13,072
put on her than a normal
15, 16-year-old girl would have.

1
00:16:15,572 --> 00:16:17,375
Phil:<i>
 She was living two lives.</i>

1
00:16:17,408 --> 00:16:19,510
Here she was,
she had to be squeaky clean

1
00:16:19,543 --> 00:16:21,579
on the Disney Channel,

1
00:16:21,613 --> 00:16:23,482
<i> all types of moral clauses</i>

1
00:16:23,514 --> 00:16:25,384
<i> and just intensity around</i>

1
00:16:25,417 --> 00:16:28,687
behavior, and,
once the camera stops rolling,

1
00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:31,723
<i> she's living another life;
she couldn't really be herself.</i>

1
00:16:31,755 --> 00:16:33,692
She couldn't be
a normal teenager.

1
00:16:36,226 --> 00:16:37,361
<i> I definitely felt</i>

1
00:16:37,394 --> 00:16:41,600
the pressure increase when...

1
00:16:41,633 --> 00:16:44,636
<i> the fame started to
 creep into my life.</i>

1
00:16:44,668 --> 00:16:46,704
<i> I started feeling pressured to</i>

1
00:16:46,738 --> 00:16:49,241
<i> look a certain way, to...</i>

1
00:16:49,274 --> 00:16:51,243
<i> sing music that I felt</i>

1
00:16:51,275 --> 00:16:53,144
people would like,

1
00:16:53,177 --> 00:16:55,379
rather than sing music
that I would like.

1
00:16:55,413 --> 00:16:58,450
<i> There was more pressure
 to succeed, you know?</i>

1
00:16:58,482 --> 00:17:00,084
<i> Numbers and charts.</i>

1
00:17:00,118 --> 00:17:02,153
And I was a perfectionist,

1
00:17:02,187 --> 00:17:04,088
and I really wanted to be
the best of the best.

1
00:17:04,122 --> 00:17:06,591
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:17:06,624 --> 00:17:09,260
Phil:<i>
 When you are carrying
 a franchise,</i>

1
00:17:09,294 --> 00:17:13,165
there is a standard
that everybody expects
you to operate at.

1
00:17:13,198 --> 00:17:15,333
They were great to work with.

1
00:17:15,365 --> 00:17:16,567
Awful, awful.

1
00:17:16,601 --> 00:17:17,636
<i> I think it caused</i>

1
00:17:17,669 --> 00:17:20,472
a lot of, um, anxiety for her.

1
00:17:20,505 --> 00:17:23,642
Demi:<i>
 And it didn't let up
 at all, it just...</i>

1
00:17:23,674 --> 00:17:25,509
<i> mounted more and more.</i>

1
00:17:25,542 --> 00:17:27,344
<i> All of a sudden,
 she had to be</i>

1
00:17:27,377 --> 00:17:29,548
this role model, and I don't
think she was ready for that.

1
00:17:31,548 --> 00:17:32,850
<i> I think we started to notice,</i>

1
00:17:32,884 --> 00:17:34,586
and, really,
it was the Jonas Brothers

1
00:17:34,618 --> 00:17:36,320
kind of, like,
waving a flag that

1
00:17:36,354 --> 00:17:37,823
Demi may be veering

1
00:17:37,855 --> 00:17:40,659
<i> off the path.</i>

1
00:17:40,692 --> 00:17:41,859
<i> At that point,
 you could just feel</i>

1
00:17:41,893 --> 00:17:45,663
that... things were
getting wobbly.

1
00:17:45,696 --> 00:17:50,468
<i> It was almost like the wheels
 were starting to fall off.</i>

1
00:17:50,501 --> 00:17:53,771
<i> Prior to that, I think,
 anything that was going on,</i>

1
00:17:53,805 --> 00:17:55,340
<i> would've been chalked up to...</i>

1
00:17:55,373 --> 00:17:57,709
<i> she's a teenage girl.</i>

1
00:17:57,741 --> 00:18:00,111
<i> That was, like,
 the easy answer,</i>

1
00:18:00,144 --> 00:18:02,346
was just to say,
"Well, she's a teenage girl

1
00:18:02,380 --> 00:18:03,381
and she's going through stuff,

1
00:18:03,413 --> 00:18:05,750
<i> and she's being dramatic."</i>

1
00:18:05,782 --> 00:18:08,385
John:<i>
 She wasn't this sweet
 and lovely girl anymore,</i>

1
00:18:08,419 --> 00:18:10,122
<i>and it was kind of like a "Hey,</i>

1
00:18:10,154 --> 00:18:11,889
<i> ( bleep ) you."
 And, "I just want to be a kid</i>

1
00:18:11,923 --> 00:18:14,759
and do what everybody else does.
And, like, my friends in Texas

1
00:18:14,791 --> 00:18:17,628
<i>want to, like, drink and party,
 so why shouldn't I
 drink and party?"</i>

1
00:18:19,463 --> 00:18:21,700
Phil:<i>
 Demi had real anger issues.</i>

1
00:18:24,769 --> 00:18:27,271
John:<i>
Difficult, harder to be around.</i>

1
00:18:27,305 --> 00:18:29,541
No, no, no, just show me,
I have a photographic memory.

1
00:18:29,574 --> 00:18:31,543
<i> Demi's pulling anyone
 that she could, like,</i>

1
00:18:31,576 --> 00:18:34,278
<i> manipulate and change.</i>

1
00:18:34,311 --> 00:18:38,182
Phil:<i>
 She was depressed,
 she would sleep all the time.</i>

1
00:18:38,215 --> 00:18:42,286
I think she just--
it became obvious that
she was struggling with...

1
00:18:42,319 --> 00:18:44,855
<i> herself.</i>

1
00:18:44,888 --> 00:18:47,391
And I didn't realize that it was
actually signaling

1
00:18:47,424 --> 00:18:49,394
<i> a larger issue.</i>

1
00:18:51,563 --> 00:18:53,365
Nick Jonas:<i>
 While we were on tour,</i>

1
00:18:53,397 --> 00:18:56,400
Joe and Demi's relationship
had become really complicated.

1
00:18:56,433 --> 00:18:58,603
<i> So I was playing the bridge.</i>

1
00:18:58,635 --> 00:18:59,637
<i> And it became really good,</i>

1
00:18:59,671 --> 00:19:02,474
you know, between she and I

1
00:19:02,507 --> 00:19:06,644
<i>for a while, and growing closer
 than we'd ever been.</i>

1
00:19:06,678 --> 00:19:08,380
And I remember thinking
in my head,

1
00:19:08,413 --> 00:19:10,448
I felt, like,
a bit of pride about it,

1
00:19:10,480 --> 00:19:13,684
like... selfishly, maybe.
I was like,

1
00:19:13,718 --> 00:19:15,653
"I'm helping her back into,
you know, 

1
00:19:15,686 --> 00:19:18,222
<i> coming back to being the Demi
 that we all know and love,</i>

1
00:19:18,256 --> 00:19:19,891
<i>and she's not gonna do anything
 crazy, it's gonna be fine."</i>

1
00:19:19,923 --> 00:19:21,759
And then this episode happened.

1
00:19:21,792 --> 00:19:24,395
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:19:28,932 --> 00:19:30,835
Demi:<i>
 I was in Colombia.</i>

1
00:19:30,867 --> 00:19:33,270
I was on
the "Camp Rock 2" Tour.

1
00:19:33,304 --> 00:19:37,375
<i> And I invited a bunch of
 people to dinner,</i>

1
00:19:37,407 --> 00:19:39,310
<i> my band,</i>

1
00:19:39,344 --> 00:19:42,581
and my background dancers.

1
00:19:42,614 --> 00:19:44,481
I paid for all the alcohol.

1
00:19:44,515 --> 00:19:45,884
<i> Somebody ended up</i>

1
00:19:45,916 --> 00:19:48,220
getting weed.

1
00:19:48,252 --> 00:19:49,486
I was on Adderall.

1
00:19:49,519 --> 00:19:51,623
<i> And...</i>

1
00:19:51,655 --> 00:19:52,957
we had trashed the hotel.

1
00:19:52,990 --> 00:19:56,228
<i> The hotel was,
 like, threatening us.</i>

1
00:19:56,260 --> 00:19:58,495
They went to some of the dancers
and asked what had happened.

1
00:19:58,528 --> 00:20:00,598
<i> And I think they told</i>

1
00:20:00,632 --> 00:20:02,901
on me for using Adderall.

1
00:20:05,369 --> 00:20:07,871
Somebody told Kevin Jonas, Sr.,

1
00:20:07,904 --> 00:20:10,341
<i> and... Phil.</i>

1
00:20:10,375 --> 00:20:13,612
and my dad.

1
00:20:13,644 --> 00:20:16,013
I was very upset.

1
00:20:16,047 --> 00:20:18,717
<i> I couldn't believe
 what had happened.</i>

1
00:20:18,750 --> 00:20:19,951
<i> Now it was out</i>

1
00:20:19,983 --> 00:20:21,653
that I was on Adderall.

1
00:20:23,654 --> 00:20:24,990
The next day,

1
00:20:25,022 --> 00:20:28,459
<i> I was in a lot of trouble.</i>

1
00:20:28,492 --> 00:20:31,829
I remember...

1
00:20:31,863 --> 00:20:33,431
going to Kevin, Sr.
and saying,

1
00:20:33,463 --> 00:20:35,532
<i> "Listen...</i>

1
00:20:35,566 --> 00:20:38,502
I want to thank whoever
told on me because

1
00:20:38,536 --> 00:20:41,972
<i> I know they were
 just worried about me.</i>

1
00:20:42,006 --> 00:20:44,875
<i> And, you know, I just really
 want to know who told you."</i>

1
00:20:44,909 --> 00:20:48,513
And I manipulated him
into telling me who it was.

1
00:20:48,546 --> 00:20:50,715
And he said it was Shorty.

1
00:20:50,748 --> 00:20:53,884
<i> Shorty and I
 had been really close</i>

1
00:20:53,917 --> 00:20:56,787
<i> through "Camp Rock"
 and "Camp Rock 2."</i>

1
00:20:56,820 --> 00:20:57,955
<i> So...</i>

1
00:20:57,989 --> 00:20:59,923
<i> when he said Shorty,</i>

1
00:20:59,957 --> 00:21:01,893
I remember thinking...

1
00:21:01,925 --> 00:21:05,062
"I'm about to
beat this bitch up."

1
00:21:05,096 --> 00:21:08,333
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:21:08,365 --> 00:21:09,968
John:<i>
 I remember I was up in
 the front of the plane.</i>

1
00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:11,735
She had already
boarded the plane.

1
00:21:11,769 --> 00:21:14,005
John:<i>
 Demi walks up
 onto the plane and</i>

1
00:21:14,038 --> 00:21:15,006
I heard some commotion.

1
00:21:15,038 --> 00:21:16,540
I just went up to her.

1
00:21:18,576 --> 00:21:20,644
- And it was like a blur.
- I turned around and Demi had

1
00:21:20,678 --> 00:21:23,048
punched her backup dancer
in the face.

1
00:21:23,080 --> 00:21:24,782
Everyone was freaking out.

1
00:21:24,816 --> 00:21:27,318
She walked right past me
without acknowledging me.

1
00:21:27,352 --> 00:21:29,387
I just remember
going and sitting down.

1
00:21:29,420 --> 00:21:31,389
Just this angry
look on her face.

1
00:21:31,422 --> 00:21:32,824
Texting my mom "I'm sorry."

1
00:21:32,856 --> 00:21:34,459
Put her head on her pillow

1
00:21:34,491 --> 00:21:36,327
and shut out the world.

1
00:21:36,361 --> 00:21:40,065
And I slept the whole day.

1
00:21:40,097 --> 00:21:42,866
That was when
it dawned on me that

1
00:21:42,900 --> 00:21:44,869
this was probably a much bigger

1
00:21:44,902 --> 00:21:48,440
situation than just a kid
who wanted to party.

1
00:21:52,743 --> 00:21:53,845
I just came to a breaking point.

1
00:21:56,980 --> 00:22:00,518
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:22:00,550 --> 00:22:01,752
Phil:<i>
 The next 12 months</i>

1
00:22:01,786 --> 00:22:02,854
<i> were extremely difficult.</i>

1
00:22:07,458 --> 00:22:09,928
Demi:<i>
 I was 18 when I first
 went into treatment.</i>

1
00:22:09,961 --> 00:22:12,130
Demi was diagnosed bipolar

1
00:22:12,163 --> 00:22:14,066
when she checked into treatment
the first time.

1
00:22:15,732 --> 00:22:17,801
<i> When I got diagnosed
 with bipolar disorder,</i>

1
00:22:17,835 --> 00:22:20,005
it just made sense.

1
00:22:22,038 --> 00:22:24,541
<i> When I was younger,
 I didn't know why</i>

1
00:22:24,575 --> 00:22:26,978
I would stay up so late
writing and playing music.

1
00:22:27,010 --> 00:22:30,414
<i> And then I learned about
 episodes of mania.</i>

1
00:22:30,448 --> 00:22:32,717
And I realized that that's

1
00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:35,953
<i> probably what it was;
 I was manic.</i>

1
00:22:35,987 --> 00:22:38,056
<i> In a way I knew that</i>

1
00:22:38,088 --> 00:22:40,023
it wasn't my fault anymore.

1
00:22:40,057 --> 00:22:42,861
Something was actually off
with me.

1
00:22:42,894 --> 00:22:45,396
Phil:<i>
 She had such a glow to her</i>

1
00:22:45,430 --> 00:22:47,966
<i> the first time I saw her when
 she came out of treatment.</i>

1
00:22:47,999 --> 00:22:51,737
The glow started to fade
each day that passed.

1
00:22:53,503 --> 00:22:54,938
Demi:<i>
 I wasn't working my program,</i>

1
00:22:54,971 --> 00:22:56,607
<i> I wasn't ready to get sober.</i>

1
00:22:56,641 --> 00:23:00,111
<i> I was sneaking it on planes,</i>

1
00:23:00,144 --> 00:23:01,779
<i> sneaking it in bathrooms,</i>

1
00:23:01,813 --> 00:23:02,980
<i> sneaking it throughout
 the night.</i>

1
00:23:03,013 --> 00:23:04,748
Nobody knew.

1
00:23:04,781 --> 00:23:05,849
Phil:<i>
 This is an 18-year-old</i>

1
00:23:05,883 --> 00:23:07,684
<i> who's totally</i>

1
00:23:07,718 --> 00:23:09,120
out-maneuvering adults.

1
00:23:09,153 --> 00:23:11,789
Demi:<i> I went on, like,
 a bender of like</i>

1
00:23:11,823 --> 00:23:14,192
two months where
I was using daily.

1
00:23:14,224 --> 00:23:17,861
<i> And... there was
 one night where</i>

1
00:23:17,894 --> 00:23:20,064
<i> I used a bunch of coke</i>

1
00:23:20,096 --> 00:23:22,500
and I popped a few Xanax bars,

1
00:23:22,532 --> 00:23:25,536
and I started to...
choke a little bit.

1
00:23:25,569 --> 00:23:29,173
<i> And my heart started racing.</i>

1
00:23:29,207 --> 00:23:30,742
<i> And I remember thinking,</i>

1
00:23:30,775 --> 00:23:33,778
"Oh, my God, I might be
overdosing right now."

1
00:23:35,212 --> 00:23:37,147
I remember we were in New York,

1
00:23:37,181 --> 00:23:41,486
<i> and she clearly
 was on something.</i>

1
00:23:41,519 --> 00:23:43,188
<i> And she was on air...</i>

1
00:23:43,221 --> 00:23:45,222
promoting this new way of life.

1
00:23:45,256 --> 00:23:48,560
And I was like,
"You're so full of it."

1
00:23:48,593 --> 00:23:51,229
<i>I wasn't equipped to be able to</i>

1
00:23:51,261 --> 00:23:53,964
<i> handle that situation.</i>

1
00:23:53,998 --> 00:23:57,235
And so I got a list of
several recommendations

1
00:23:57,268 --> 00:23:59,203
of people that
specialize in this.

1
00:23:59,237 --> 00:24:02,673
And I ended up connecting
and speaking with Mike Bayer.

1
00:24:02,707 --> 00:24:04,976
Mike Bayer:<i>
 Demi was on a road to, like,</i>

1
00:24:05,009 --> 00:24:06,743
suicide.

1
00:24:06,777 --> 00:24:08,746
<i> She'd have, like,
 bags of pills,</i>

1
00:24:08,778 --> 00:24:10,080
<i> and an eight-ball of coke.</i>

1
00:24:10,114 --> 00:24:13,518
I was either craving drugs
or on drugs.

1
00:24:13,550 --> 00:24:15,052
She was nasty.

1
00:24:15,086 --> 00:24:17,855
I was not easy to work with.

1
00:24:17,888 --> 00:24:20,657
I was using while I had
a sober companion.

1
00:24:20,691 --> 00:24:23,027
And I went through about 20
different sober companions.

1
00:24:23,059 --> 00:24:25,864
<i> It was really like she was
 two different people.</i>

1
00:24:25,896 --> 00:24:27,965
Every day was like
going to war.

1
00:24:27,999 --> 00:24:30,868
Mike:<i>
 We were in Palm Springs,</i>

1
00:24:30,902 --> 00:24:32,804
<i> and she locked
 her bedroom door,</i>

1
00:24:32,836 --> 00:24:34,204
<i> she's just taken
 a bunch of pills,</i>

1
00:24:34,238 --> 00:24:35,507
<i> we kicked down the door,</i>

1
00:24:35,539 --> 00:24:37,174
<i>she gets taken to the hospital,</i>

1
00:24:37,208 --> 00:24:39,844
the nurse is checking her in,
the bottle of pills is there,

1
00:24:39,876 --> 00:24:43,514
she grabs the pills, she then
downs all the other pills and
says, "You ( bleep ) bitch.

1
00:24:43,548 --> 00:24:46,617
If I just tried to kill myself,
why would you give me
access to pills?"

1
00:24:46,651 --> 00:24:48,620
Demi:<i>
 I didn't feel anything,
 I didn't feel guilty,</i>

1
00:24:48,653 --> 00:24:50,521
<i> I didn't feel embarrassed.</i>

1
00:24:50,555 --> 00:24:52,789
Mike:<i>
 Then she goes from there
 to a psych ward.</i>

1
00:24:52,823 --> 00:24:54,592
<i> None of that did anything.</i>

1
00:24:54,625 --> 00:24:57,161
<i> She still isn't going to
 get clean.</i>

1
00:24:57,193 --> 00:24:59,062
She's so black and white.

1
00:24:59,096 --> 00:25:00,731
She really, one day,
would want to get well,

1
00:25:00,765 --> 00:25:02,033
the next day,
not want to get well.

1
00:25:02,066 --> 00:25:03,567
And when she didn't
want to get well,

1
00:25:03,601 --> 00:25:05,003
she'd have to flip back--
it was just,

1
00:25:05,036 --> 00:25:06,638
for her, it was chaotic.

1
00:25:06,671 --> 00:25:08,640
It was completely exhausting,

1
00:25:08,673 --> 00:25:10,909
<i> physically and emotionally.</i>

1
00:25:10,942 --> 00:25:13,978
I would sneak out, get drugs...

1
00:25:14,010 --> 00:25:15,078
Manipulating.

1
00:25:15,112 --> 00:25:16,314
...I would fake my drugs tests

1
00:25:16,346 --> 00:25:18,215
with other people's pee.

1
00:25:18,249 --> 00:25:20,751
Mike:<i>
 She didn't care
 what the consequences were.</i>

1
00:25:20,785 --> 00:25:22,921
Phil:<i>
 A couple days sober
 and then she'd use.</i>

1
00:25:22,953 --> 00:25:25,123
And I'd lie
straight to their faces.

1
00:25:25,155 --> 00:25:26,957
Mike:<i>
 She didn't care
 about her career.</i>

1
00:25:26,990 --> 00:25:28,792
And we couldn't get
momentum on our side.

1
00:25:28,826 --> 00:25:30,728
Mike:<i>
 It was very difficult</i>

1
00:25:30,760 --> 00:25:32,696
<i> to work off that
 very small part of her</i>

1
00:25:32,730 --> 00:25:33,998
<i> that did want to get well.</i>

1
00:25:34,030 --> 00:25:35,265
It's embarrassing to look back

1
00:25:35,298 --> 00:25:37,134
at the person that I was.

1
00:25:40,037 --> 00:25:42,073
<i> The very last night
 that I drank,</i>

1
00:25:42,105 --> 00:25:43,674
<i> I was at a hotel,</i>

1
00:25:43,708 --> 00:25:46,044
and I invited two random people.

1
00:25:46,076 --> 00:25:49,647
<i> And, basically,
 just drank with them.</i>

1
00:25:51,082 --> 00:25:52,817
<i> I got really, really drunk,</i>

1
00:25:52,849 --> 00:25:56,353
<i> until it was time
 to get on a flight.</i>

1
00:25:56,386 --> 00:25:59,057
And I was so drunk that
I threw up in the back
of the car service

1
00:25:59,089 --> 00:26:01,259
<i> on the way to the airport
 to perform on "American Idol."</i>

1
00:26:01,291 --> 00:26:03,860
Ladies and gentlemen,
Demi Lovato.

1
00:26:03,894 --> 00:26:05,128
( cheering and applause )

1
00:26:05,162 --> 00:26:09,667
♪ When your lips
are on my lips ♪

1
00:26:09,700 --> 00:26:13,304
♪ And our hearts beat as one ♪

1
00:26:13,336 --> 00:26:15,239
Phil:<i>
 Here she is, she goes
 to "American Idol",</i>

1
00:26:15,271 --> 00:26:18,809
<i> she's hung-over, she has
 total disregard for it.</i>

1
00:26:18,843 --> 00:26:20,345
It was a horrible feeling.

1
00:26:20,377 --> 00:26:22,145
I felt like that was
a moment in my career

1
00:26:22,179 --> 00:26:23,848
where I, I didn't care.

1
00:26:23,881 --> 00:26:27,218
Phil:<i>
 Demi was clearly
 in a bad place.</i>

1
00:26:27,250 --> 00:26:29,119
Demi:<i>
 I just knew that
 I needed to be high</i>

1
00:26:29,153 --> 00:26:33,825
<i> to get through what I was
 going through at that point.</i>

1
00:26:33,857 --> 00:26:35,792
Phil:<i>
 I remember asking Mike,</i>

1
00:26:35,826 --> 00:26:37,662
"When is it time

1
00:26:37,694 --> 00:26:39,364
<i> to step away?"</i>

1
00:26:39,396 --> 00:26:41,765
<i> And Mike said to me,</i>

1
00:26:41,798 --> 00:26:43,000
"When she stops trying."

1
00:26:45,702 --> 00:26:47,238
<i> At that moment,</i>

1
00:26:47,270 --> 00:26:51,142
I was fully intending to...

1
00:26:51,174 --> 00:26:53,176
drop her.

1
00:26:53,210 --> 00:26:54,979
<i> You hear about interventions</i>

1
00:26:55,011 --> 00:26:57,414
or families laying ultimatums
and saying, like,

1
00:26:57,448 --> 00:26:59,984
"You either change
or you're out."

1
00:27:00,017 --> 00:27:01,786
<i> Change has to happen,</i>

1
00:27:01,818 --> 00:27:03,320
now.

1
00:27:03,354 --> 00:27:05,390
Mike:<i>
 The most important thing
 to Demi</i>

1
00:27:05,423 --> 00:27:06,923
<i> is losing people,</i>

1
00:27:06,957 --> 00:27:08,860
is losing people
that she cares about

1
00:27:08,893 --> 00:27:10,060
and that loves her.

1
00:27:10,094 --> 00:27:12,930
That's the most
important thing to Demi.

1
00:27:12,962 --> 00:27:15,899
<i> I had developed a plan
 where I got</i>

1
00:27:15,932 --> 00:27:18,368
everybody on the team,
business manager,

1
00:27:18,402 --> 00:27:20,904
attorneys, agents, everybody,

1
00:27:20,938 --> 00:27:23,841
to say, "If Phil walks,
we walk."

1
00:27:23,874 --> 00:27:27,010
<i> This was the showdown
 of all showdowns.</i>

1
00:27:27,044 --> 00:27:28,680
Demi:<i>
 It wasn't a matter of</i>

1
00:27:28,712 --> 00:27:30,815
if they were going to leave,
it was,

1
00:27:30,847 --> 00:27:32,783
"We are leaving.

1
00:27:32,817 --> 00:27:34,919
There's no more
that we can do for you."

1
00:27:34,951 --> 00:27:37,888
Mike:<i>
 I remember her crying,</i>

1
00:27:37,922 --> 00:27:39,390
<i> "Well, what the ( bleep )
 do I need to do?</i>

1
00:27:39,423 --> 00:27:41,259
<i> What do I need to do?"</i>

1
00:27:41,291 --> 00:27:43,026
- Phil:<i> And Mike said... </i>
- Mike:<i> Give us your cell phone.</i>

1
00:27:43,059 --> 00:27:45,395
And I think he said,
"Like, now."

1
00:27:45,429 --> 00:27:47,131
<i> And she picked up the plate.</i>

1
00:27:47,163 --> 00:27:48,365
And she literally
was grabbing this thing

1
00:27:48,398 --> 00:27:51,034
and smashing it,
screaming crying,

1
00:27:51,067 --> 00:27:53,037
like-- and the ugly cry.

1
00:27:53,069 --> 00:27:54,471
Phil:<i>
 And I said,
 "That's not good enough."</i>

1
00:27:54,505 --> 00:27:57,041
Phil said,
"Put it in the water."

1
00:27:57,074 --> 00:28:00,845
Phil:<i> And so she dunked it in
 the vase of water that was
 on the table.</i>

1
00:28:02,813 --> 00:28:04,849
It's wild.

1
00:28:04,882 --> 00:28:06,049
This was the gateway
to everything.

1
00:28:06,083 --> 00:28:08,319
This was...

1
00:28:08,352 --> 00:28:10,221
the wrong people,
it was drug dealers,

1
00:28:10,253 --> 00:28:12,889
it was-- it was a lot of...

1
00:28:12,923 --> 00:28:14,925
the negative influences
in her life

1
00:28:14,959 --> 00:28:16,326
were coming through
the cell phone.

1
00:28:16,359 --> 00:28:19,096
I think that approach
worked for me because,

1
00:28:19,130 --> 00:28:22,734
it sounds silly,
but it was the beginning of

1
00:28:22,767 --> 00:28:24,201
the process of surrendering.

1
00:28:24,234 --> 00:28:27,104
<i> At the end of the day,
 it was my decision.</i>

1
00:28:27,137 --> 00:28:30,774
Meanwhile, she's a judge
on "X-Factor,"

1
00:28:30,807 --> 00:28:33,744
She's 19 years old,

1
00:28:33,778 --> 00:28:37,048
and she's in her first year
of sobriety.

1
00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:39,182
Phil:<i>
 What nobody knows is that,
 while she was a judge,</i>

1
00:28:39,215 --> 00:28:43,353
<i> she's living in
 a sober apartment,</i>

1
00:28:43,386 --> 00:28:47,090
<i> with roommates,
 she is having to do chores,</i>

1
00:28:47,124 --> 00:28:48,425
<i> she has no cell phone,</i>

1
00:28:48,459 --> 00:28:52,230
<i> she is completely
 and totally...</i>

1
00:28:52,262 --> 00:28:54,898
<i> submitted to
 the process of recovery.</i>

1
00:28:54,932 --> 00:28:56,267
<i> You really have to lean into</i>

1
00:28:56,299 --> 00:28:59,069
the people that are
trying to support you.

1
00:28:59,103 --> 00:29:01,038
Like my family,

1
00:29:01,070 --> 00:29:03,173
like Mike and Phil.

1
00:29:03,207 --> 00:29:05,109
You know, you really have to...

1
00:29:05,142 --> 00:29:08,046
surrender because that's when
the change is gonna happen.

1
00:29:10,513 --> 00:29:13,117
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:29:21,025 --> 00:29:23,094
<i> When you're in the studio,</i>

1
00:29:23,126 --> 00:29:25,028
<i> and you're recording...</i>

1
00:29:25,061 --> 00:29:27,365
"a hit song,"

1
00:29:27,397 --> 00:29:29,399
<i> there are times where
 the energy in the room</i>

1
00:29:29,432 --> 00:29:31,501
- is just insane.
- Go!

1
00:29:31,535 --> 00:29:34,038
-<i> ♪ Lucky for you ♪ </i>
- Man: Whoo! All right.

1
00:29:34,070 --> 00:29:36,840
<i> ♪ I got all these
 daddy issues ♪</i>

1
00:29:36,874 --> 00:29:38,910
<i> ♪ What can I do? ♪</i>

1
00:29:38,942 --> 00:29:41,311
<i> ♪ I'm going crazy
 when I'm with you ♪</i>

1
00:29:41,345 --> 00:29:43,881
<i> ♪ Forget all the therapy ♪</i>

1
00:29:43,913 --> 00:29:46,083
<i> ♪ That I've been through ♪</i>

1
00:29:46,115 --> 00:29:47,384
<i> ♪ Lucky for you ♪</i>

1
00:29:47,417 --> 00:29:49,286
- When that beat kicks in,
- Man: Yeah.

1
00:29:49,319 --> 00:29:51,321
like, no matter what
you're doing, you have to dance.

1
00:29:51,355 --> 00:29:52,957
( laughter )

1
00:29:58,162 --> 00:29:59,130
When can I sing?

1
00:29:59,163 --> 00:30:00,597
I'm ready to go.

1
00:30:00,631 --> 00:30:02,500
- Man: Here it comes.
- ( bleep ) yeah, you are.

1
00:30:02,532 --> 00:30:04,267
- Let's do it.
- You know who else
  is ready to go?

1
00:30:04,300 --> 00:30:06,604
- Let's do it. ( laughs )
- Me.

1
00:30:06,636 --> 00:30:08,338
- You set her up for me, bro?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1
00:30:13,076 --> 00:30:14,846
You standing or sitting, Demi?

1
00:30:14,878 --> 00:30:16,112
I think I'm gonna sit first.

1
00:30:16,145 --> 00:30:17,147
All right.

1
00:30:19,182 --> 00:30:20,317
All right, mic check?

1
00:30:20,351 --> 00:30:22,186
( echoing ):
Mic check.

1
00:30:22,219 --> 00:30:23,587
( sighs deeply )

1
00:30:23,621 --> 00:30:25,156
- You ready?
- Yeah.

1
00:30:25,189 --> 00:30:27,592
( music playing over speakers )

1
00:30:32,195 --> 00:30:35,098
♪ I've been thinking
'bout the future ♪

1
00:30:35,132 --> 00:30:38,169
♪ And I've been thinking
'bout the now ♪

1
00:30:38,201 --> 00:30:41,172
♪ I know we're
gonna be together ♪

1
00:30:41,204 --> 00:30:44,241
♪ But I just don't know how ♪

1
00:30:44,275 --> 00:30:46,410
♪ You know when we get close ♪

1
00:30:46,442 --> 00:30:49,247
♪ Can't deny the tension
between us both ♪

1
00:30:49,279 --> 00:30:51,883
♪ And I don't want to
pressure you ♪

1
00:30:51,915 --> 00:30:54,317
♪ But I think you need to
make a move ♪

1
00:30:54,351 --> 00:30:57,955
♪ I've been waiting ♪

1
00:30:57,988 --> 00:31:00,157
( distorted ):<i>
 ♪ I've been waiting ♪</i>

1
00:31:00,190 --> 00:31:04,128
♪ And I keep waiting ♪

1
00:31:04,161 --> 00:31:06,998
( distorted ):<i>
 ♪ And I keep waiting ♪</i>

1
00:31:07,030 --> 00:31:09,432
♪ Only forever ♪

1
00:31:09,465 --> 00:31:12,936
♪ Only forever ♪

1
00:31:12,970 --> 00:31:15,038
♪ Only forever ♪

1
00:31:15,071 --> 00:31:18,942
♪ Only forever ♪

1
00:31:18,976 --> 00:31:21,412
♪ Only forever ♪

1
00:31:21,444 --> 00:31:23,980
<i> I've been really using
 my emotions</i>

1
00:31:24,013 --> 00:31:28,652
<i> and, basically, just
 adding more soul into it.</i>

1
00:31:28,685 --> 00:31:31,521
I think it comes out
in my music today.

1
00:31:31,555 --> 00:31:33,391
- Whoo!
- Ooh!

1
00:31:33,423 --> 00:31:34,625
- That was crazy.
- Fire.

1
00:31:34,657 --> 00:31:36,259
That was a good one.
Two seconds.

1
00:31:36,292 --> 00:31:38,528
<i> Oak is just incredible.</i>

1
00:31:38,561 --> 00:31:40,096
This song's ( bleep )
awesome, man!

1
00:31:40,130 --> 00:31:41,198
It's so good.

1
00:31:41,230 --> 00:31:43,200
( laughs )

1
00:31:43,232 --> 00:31:44,234
We're like...

1
00:31:44,268 --> 00:31:45,670
what, six for six now?

1
00:31:45,702 --> 00:31:47,337
- Oh, my God.
- So exciting.

1
00:31:47,371 --> 00:31:48,673
♪ Only forever... ♪

1
00:31:48,705 --> 00:31:50,540
<i> We have been putting in</i>

1
00:31:50,574 --> 00:31:53,144
<i> endless hours in the studio,</i>

1
00:31:53,176 --> 00:31:55,178
<i> and all of the songs
 that we've done together</i>

1
00:31:55,211 --> 00:31:57,280
I've really been
excited about.

1
00:31:57,314 --> 00:32:00,183
♪ Only forev... ♪

1
00:32:00,217 --> 00:32:03,621
- Let's try it.
-<i> ♪ I'll give you
 one more chance ♪</i>

1
00:32:03,653 --> 00:32:05,455
<i> ♪ But it only lasts ♪</i>

1
00:32:05,489 --> 00:32:08,927
♪ Only forever... ♪

1
00:32:14,064 --> 00:32:15,700
- ( laughs )
- One more.

1
00:32:15,732 --> 00:32:18,068
<i> ♪ Who doesn't leave me
 on the shelf? ♪</i>

1
00:32:18,102 --> 00:32:20,137
She's just gonna nail it
every time.

1
00:32:20,170 --> 00:32:21,372
Man:
I know.

1
00:32:21,404 --> 00:32:24,040
<i> ♪ But it only lasts ♪</i>

1
00:32:24,074 --> 00:32:27,111
♪ Only forever... ♪

1
00:32:33,217 --> 00:32:35,319
<i> ♪ Only forever. ♪</i>

1
00:32:35,352 --> 00:32:38,489
I mean, they're all varying
degrees of perfection.

1
00:32:38,521 --> 00:32:40,323
- ( laughter )
- So...

1
00:32:40,356 --> 00:32:43,293
- Thanks.
- But I like the ending
  of this one more.

1
00:32:43,326 --> 00:32:45,730
I like the beginning
of the one you did
previous to this one more.

1
00:32:45,762 --> 00:32:46,997
Okay, cool.

1
00:32:47,030 --> 00:32:48,732
So, I have a comp in mind, too,

1
00:32:48,766 --> 00:32:51,002
if we need to.
I mean, I-- but we got it.

1
00:32:51,035 --> 00:32:52,470
We definitely got it.

1
00:32:52,502 --> 00:32:54,170
It sounds awesome, homie.

1
00:32:54,203 --> 00:32:57,140
As long as the vibrato
is consistent on that.

1
00:32:57,173 --> 00:32:59,210
I can see your vibrato waves.

1
00:32:59,242 --> 00:33:01,345
You have no idea
how uniform they are.

1
00:33:01,377 --> 00:33:03,013
- Oh, dope.
- Like, look at this ( bleep ),
  you see it?

1
00:33:03,047 --> 00:33:04,781
It looks like a caterpillar,
look at that.

1
00:33:04,815 --> 00:33:06,150
Man:
It is a caterpillar!

1
00:33:06,182 --> 00:33:07,684
( laughter )

1
00:33:07,718 --> 00:33:09,720
Look at how ( bleep ) consistent
these waves are, right?

1
00:33:09,752 --> 00:33:11,554
And you can actually hear it.
Listen, man.

1
00:33:11,587 --> 00:33:13,624
<i> ♪ Ever...♪</i>

1
00:33:13,656 --> 00:33:15,558
Like, you can hear that vibrato.

1
00:33:15,592 --> 00:33:17,128
I think it's important
to have a vision.

1
00:33:17,161 --> 00:33:19,497
<i> And I feel like</i>

1
00:33:19,529 --> 00:33:20,631
he's really helped me
find my sound.

1
00:33:20,663 --> 00:33:22,333
- ( laughs )
- Thank you.

1
00:33:22,365 --> 00:33:23,366
You killed that
( bleep ), homie.

1
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:24,668
- Thanks,
- Good Lord.

1
00:33:24,701 --> 00:33:27,305
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:33:31,842 --> 00:33:33,344
<i> Texas!</i>

1
00:33:40,217 --> 00:33:42,787
I'm so... tired.

1
00:33:46,722 --> 00:33:49,292
( laughter )

1
00:33:49,326 --> 00:33:51,595
So unamused with that comment.

1
00:33:51,627 --> 00:33:53,830
Demi, did you know that
you sleep with one eye open?

1
00:33:53,864 --> 00:33:55,332
- No, I don't.
- Yes, you do.

1
00:33:55,365 --> 00:33:56,700
- No, I don't.
- Yes, you do.

1
00:33:56,732 --> 00:33:58,769
I swear to God.

1
00:33:58,801 --> 00:34:00,670
Wow, that's so weird.

1
00:34:00,703 --> 00:34:03,240
Who did you piss off that you
got to sleep with one eye open? 

1
00:34:03,272 --> 00:34:06,810
( laughter )

1
00:34:06,844 --> 00:34:08,345
It's the first time in awhile

1
00:34:08,378 --> 00:34:11,115
that we've all been
in Texas together.

1
00:34:11,148 --> 00:34:13,150
I think since, like,
the last Christmas,

1
00:34:13,182 --> 00:34:15,385
- that we spent here.
- Dianna: Yeah.

1
00:34:15,418 --> 00:34:17,554
Or, no, a funeral.

1
00:34:17,588 --> 00:34:19,690
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:34:19,722 --> 00:34:21,192
Dianna:
Which funeral was that?

1
00:34:21,224 --> 00:34:23,460
It was my mamaw, my mamaw.

1
00:34:23,494 --> 00:34:27,264
<i> I used to call her "my world"
 because she was just</i>

1
00:34:27,297 --> 00:34:29,632
the sweetest woman,
and she was funny.

1
00:34:29,666 --> 00:34:31,102
and sassy.

1
00:34:31,135 --> 00:34:33,537
I love you.

1
00:34:33,570 --> 00:34:35,206
- Hmm?
- I love you.

1
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:36,507
- I love you, too.
- I love you more.

1
00:34:36,539 --> 00:34:39,110
- No, you don't.
- Yes, I do.

1
00:34:39,143 --> 00:34:40,845
( laughing ):
Yes, I do.

1
00:34:40,878 --> 00:34:42,847
( sniffles )

1
00:34:44,447 --> 00:34:46,216
What are the odds
that we're all back here?

1
00:34:46,250 --> 00:34:48,552
- Yeah.
- On this day.

1
00:34:48,585 --> 00:34:51,856
Almost exactly a year later.

1
00:34:51,889 --> 00:34:54,291
( crying ):
I miss her so much.

1
00:34:54,324 --> 00:34:55,326
( crying ):
Mama!

1
00:34:55,358 --> 00:34:56,494
Sorry.

1
00:34:59,896 --> 00:35:03,867
And then it's also
been a year since...

1
00:35:03,900 --> 00:35:07,437
Wilmer and I broke up.

1
00:35:07,471 --> 00:35:11,641
<i> I've never loved anybody
 like I loved Wilmer.</i>

1
00:35:11,675 --> 00:35:14,711
And, like, I still love Wilmer.

1
00:35:14,744 --> 00:35:18,248
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:35:18,282 --> 00:35:19,383
<i> When I first met Wilmer</i>

1
00:35:19,416 --> 00:35:21,352
he was 29.

1
00:35:21,385 --> 00:35:23,653
<i> I met him on January 11th</i>

1
00:35:23,686 --> 00:35:25,889
of 2010.

1
00:35:27,490 --> 00:35:29,693
<i> And it was at a PSA shoot</i>

1
00:35:29,726 --> 00:35:30,928
<i> at his house</i>

1
00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:32,328
<i> for the 2010</i>

1
00:35:32,362 --> 00:35:33,630
census forms.

1
00:35:33,664 --> 00:35:35,499
Before 1980,

1
00:35:35,532 --> 00:35:38,235
Latinos weren't even considered
a separate ethnic group

1
00:35:38,268 --> 00:35:39,436
on the census form.

1
00:35:39,469 --> 00:35:40,704
This is an opportunity for us

1
00:35:40,737 --> 00:35:41,838
to assert ourselves,

1
00:35:41,871 --> 00:35:43,339
to define ourselves.

1
00:35:43,373 --> 00:35:44,708
<i> To be honest, I only did it</i>

1
00:35:44,740 --> 00:35:46,777
because I heard it
was at his house

1
00:35:46,809 --> 00:35:49,179
and I thought
he was really cute.

1
00:35:49,213 --> 00:35:51,782
I didn't really care about
the census forms.

1
00:35:51,815 --> 00:35:55,385
<i> But when I met him and I laid
eyes on him for the first time,</i>

1
00:35:55,418 --> 00:35:56,586
I was in hair and makeup

1
00:35:56,619 --> 00:35:58,454
and he came and sat down
and I was like,

1
00:35:58,487 --> 00:36:01,491
"I love this man.

1
00:36:01,525 --> 00:36:05,262
And I have to have him."

1
00:36:05,295 --> 00:36:07,764
But I was only 17.

1
00:36:07,797 --> 00:36:10,833
And so he was like,
"Get away from me."

1
00:36:10,867 --> 00:36:13,903
<i> After I had turned 18,</i>

1
00:36:13,936 --> 00:36:15,838
<i> we began dating.</i>

1
00:36:15,871 --> 00:36:18,442
I think it was love
at first sight.

1
00:36:18,474 --> 00:36:20,610
And I don't really
believe in that,

1
00:36:20,643 --> 00:36:23,613
but I believe that it happened.

1
00:36:23,646 --> 00:36:26,250
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:36:28,751 --> 00:36:31,487
<i> We connected on a level that</i>

1
00:36:31,521 --> 00:36:34,825
<i> I've never connected
 with anybody before.</i>

1
00:36:34,858 --> 00:36:38,295
<i> He... was just my rock,</i>

1
00:36:38,327 --> 00:36:40,931
<i> my everything.</i>

1
00:36:40,963 --> 00:36:43,433
Producer:<i>
 Why do you think you broke up?</i>

1
00:36:43,467 --> 00:36:47,905
It had nothing to do with
falling out of love.

1
00:36:47,938 --> 00:36:49,974
<i> We decided together that</i>

1
00:36:50,007 --> 00:36:52,376
<i> we're just probably
 better as friends.</i>

1
00:36:55,978 --> 00:36:58,581
<i> I haven't seen Wilmer
 in over six months.</i>

1
00:36:58,614 --> 00:37:01,818
<i> And when he showed up at
 the Gay Pride party at Mike's</i>

1
00:37:01,851 --> 00:37:03,453
<i> my heart ached.</i>

1
00:37:06,356 --> 00:37:09,893
<i> It's hard enough dealing
 with a breakup...</i>

1
00:37:09,925 --> 00:37:14,364
<i> but, you put it
 in the public eye,</i>

1
00:37:14,398 --> 00:37:15,900
and it feels violating.

1
00:37:18,635 --> 00:37:22,006
<i> I do have moments where...</i>

1
00:37:22,039 --> 00:37:24,041
it's late at night,
and I'm lonely,

1
00:37:24,074 --> 00:37:26,644
and I wonder if...

1
00:37:26,677 --> 00:37:28,879
I made the right decision.

1
00:37:28,911 --> 00:37:30,513
<i> Because love is a gamble.</i>

1
00:37:32,882 --> 00:37:35,885
I don't know if I'll lose him
for the rest of my life.

1
00:37:37,853 --> 00:37:40,056
Wilmer:
Is it this one?

1
00:37:40,090 --> 00:37:42,293
My arm looks so big.

1
00:37:42,326 --> 00:37:43,460
You're flexing.

1
00:37:43,492 --> 00:37:44,795
Hey!

1
00:37:44,827 --> 00:37:46,396
( laughs )
You're so stupid.

1
00:37:46,429 --> 00:37:48,431
I get it.

1
00:37:48,465 --> 00:37:50,601
I get it, that's all I'm saying.

1
00:37:50,634 --> 00:37:52,902
I think my heart's
always with Wilmer.

1
00:37:52,936 --> 00:37:54,672
I think it...

1
00:37:54,704 --> 00:37:57,574
was with Wilmer,
I think that it is with Wilmer,

1
00:37:57,606 --> 00:37:59,509
and I think that it will be.

1
00:37:59,543 --> 00:38:01,010
'Cause you don't share six years
with somebody

1
00:38:01,043 --> 00:38:03,813
and not... give them
a piece of your heart.

1
00:38:03,847 --> 00:38:05,416
<i> And vice versa.</i>

1
00:38:05,449 --> 00:38:06,617
Woman:<i>
 Yeah.</i>

1
00:38:06,650 --> 00:38:08,318
Like, I'm pretty sure

1
00:38:08,351 --> 00:38:10,586
that I'm not gonna meet anybody
that compares to him,

1
00:38:10,619 --> 00:38:12,588
but...

1
00:38:12,621 --> 00:38:14,657
I'm trying to keep an open heart
and an open mind

1
00:38:14,690 --> 00:38:16,359
when it comes to that.

1
00:38:16,393 --> 00:38:19,596
Mike:<i>
 I love Demi and Wilmer
 together.</i>

1
00:38:19,628 --> 00:38:22,965
But I've seen Demi grow a lot

1
00:38:22,998 --> 00:38:26,436
as a person in the last year.

1
00:38:26,469 --> 00:38:29,772
Demi:<i>
 The sparks never faded.</i>

1
00:38:29,806 --> 00:38:32,775
But there are issues that
I haven't conquered yet

1
00:38:32,809 --> 00:38:36,947
<i> that I know I won't conquer
if I'm relying on somebody else</i>

1
00:38:36,980 --> 00:38:39,483
to take care of the loneliness.

1
00:38:39,516 --> 00:38:42,086
Where there is a will,
there's a way, yeah.

1
00:38:42,119 --> 00:38:43,687
No, where there's a...

1
00:38:43,719 --> 00:38:46,789
Both:
Wilmer, there's a way.

1
00:38:46,822 --> 00:38:48,725
<i> I just wasn't ready</i>

1
00:38:48,759 --> 00:38:50,793
and I-- there was so much
of my life

1
00:38:50,827 --> 00:38:52,496
that I hadn't explored yet.

1
00:38:55,599 --> 00:38:56,800
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:38:56,833 --> 00:38:58,869
I wanted a house now

1
00:38:58,902 --> 00:39:01,905
because I'm on my own,

1
00:39:01,938 --> 00:39:04,541
and I'm independent now.

1
00:39:07,010 --> 00:39:10,514
This is the first time Demi's
ever really been on her own

1
00:39:10,547 --> 00:39:12,782
in her life.

1
00:39:12,815 --> 00:39:14,751
<i> It also falls at a time,</i>

1
00:39:14,784 --> 00:39:16,819
<i> as she's turning 25,</i>

1
00:39:16,853 --> 00:39:20,657
<i> where she's trying to
 figure out who she is.</i>

1
00:39:20,690 --> 00:39:22,793
<i> And so I think that
 she's taking the time</i>

1
00:39:22,826 --> 00:39:24,594
<i> to put that into her art</i>

1
00:39:24,628 --> 00:39:27,932
in probably the most meaningful
way she's ever done.

1
00:39:29,733 --> 00:39:31,969
<i> I'm growing up by myself,</i>

1
00:39:32,001 --> 00:39:35,972
and... to have my own place,

1
00:39:36,005 --> 00:39:38,641
designed the way
that I want it to look,

1
00:39:38,675 --> 00:39:39,777
<i> with my dog.</i>

1
00:39:39,809 --> 00:39:41,577
( babbling )

1
00:39:41,610 --> 00:39:44,547
<i> I wanted to know what
 it's like to be on my own.</i>

1
00:39:44,581 --> 00:39:48,852
<i> And this is where I finally
 feel like I can be...</i>

1
00:39:48,885 --> 00:39:50,653
grown up.

1
00:39:50,686 --> 00:39:53,589
♪ Standing on the front lines ♪

1
00:39:53,623 --> 00:39:56,460
♪ Staring at the sunrise ♪

1
00:39:56,492 --> 00:39:59,163
♪ Over the hill ♪

1
00:39:59,195 --> 00:40:01,565
♪ Waiting for the kill ♪

1
00:40:01,597 --> 00:40:04,967
<i> ♪ Sweet anticipation ♪</i>

1
00:40:05,001 --> 00:40:07,871
♪ Every conversation ♪

1
00:40:07,903 --> 00:40:10,541
<i> ♪ Tears in her eyes ♪</i>

1
00:40:10,574 --> 00:40:13,844
♪ From holding too tight ♪

1
00:40:13,876 --> 00:40:16,179
<i> ♪ Wait until the demons come ♪</i>

1
00:40:16,213 --> 00:40:18,582
<i>♪ Wait for us to see them run ♪</i>

1
00:40:18,614 --> 00:40:22,652
♪ In our direction ♪

1
00:40:24,855 --> 00:40:27,858
<i> ♪ Now they're staring at us
 through the trees ♪</i>

1
00:40:27,891 --> 00:40:30,461
<i>♪ Got us falling to our knees ♪</i>

1
00:40:30,494 --> 00:40:32,829
♪ To teach us a lesson ♪

1
00:40:35,699 --> 00:40:39,202
♪ Darling, I have been afraid ♪

1
00:40:39,235 --> 00:40:41,771
♪ I could only call your name ♪

1
00:40:41,804 --> 00:40:45,175
♪ Thank the heavens
that you stayed ♪

1
00:40:46,208 --> 00:40:47,877
<i> ♪ Ooh ♪</i>

1
00:40:47,911 --> 00:40:50,681
<i> ♪ But if I'm telling you
 the truth ♪</i>

1
00:40:50,713 --> 00:40:53,115
♪ When I cut the tether loose ♪

1
00:40:53,148 --> 00:40:55,485
♪ It was me ♪

1
00:40:55,518 --> 00:40:59,088
♪ Saving you... ♪

1
00:41:01,992 --> 00:41:03,060
<i> I haven't relapsed</i>

1
00:41:03,092 --> 00:41:04,927
in drugs and alcohol.

1
00:41:04,960 --> 00:41:07,029
That's something that
I'm very proud of.

1
00:41:07,063 --> 00:41:11,568
<i> I'm coming up on five
 and a half years of sobriety,</i>

1
00:41:11,601 --> 00:41:15,771
<i> and that's something that's
 been difficult at times,</i>

1
00:41:15,804 --> 00:41:17,640
but one thing that
I haven't fully conquered

1
00:41:17,673 --> 00:41:18,809
is my eating disorder.

1
00:41:24,547 --> 00:41:25,582
Phil:
You having trouble right now?

1
00:41:29,152 --> 00:41:31,088
What's going on?

1
00:41:31,121 --> 00:41:35,259
It's so weird to talk
about this on camera.

1
00:41:35,291 --> 00:41:40,898
I... relapsed with...
throwing up.

1
00:41:42,865 --> 00:41:44,735
Binging and purging.

1
00:41:44,768 --> 00:41:46,135
When?

1
00:41:46,168 --> 00:41:47,270
A couple nights ago.

1
00:41:50,306 --> 00:41:53,209
<i> The less I have to
 think about food,</i>

1
00:41:53,242 --> 00:41:55,144
the easier it is
for me to go about

1
00:41:55,177 --> 00:41:57,880
<i> having a normal life.</i>

1
00:41:57,914 --> 00:42:01,051
<i> And I don't want to
 let anybody down.</i>

1
00:42:01,083 --> 00:42:02,719
So when I do have moments
where I slip up...

1
00:42:04,286 --> 00:42:07,323
I feel very ashamed.

1
00:42:07,356 --> 00:42:09,759
<i> What started the relapse</i>

1
00:42:09,793 --> 00:42:11,996
was missing Wilmer.

1
00:42:14,063 --> 00:42:17,333
This is the longest you've gone
without being in a relationship.

1
00:42:17,367 --> 00:42:19,903
You're not the only one
to have been through

1
00:42:19,936 --> 00:42:22,338
a six-year relationship,
and break up, and question it,

1
00:42:22,371 --> 00:42:24,273
and then not know
how to be alone.

1
00:42:24,306 --> 00:42:26,576
Well, like,
that's one of the reasons why

1
00:42:26,610 --> 00:42:28,345
we broke up,

1
00:42:28,378 --> 00:42:31,148
was 'cause I've never
been alone.

1
00:42:31,181 --> 00:42:33,349
<i> When I was in a relationship
 with Wilmer,</i>

1
00:42:33,382 --> 00:42:36,586
I went three years
without purging.

1
00:42:36,619 --> 00:42:38,654
And when we broke up,

1
00:42:38,688 --> 00:42:41,925
that's one of
the first things I did.

1
00:42:41,958 --> 00:42:43,594
And when I...

1
00:42:43,626 --> 00:42:46,195
feel lonely...

1
00:42:46,228 --> 00:42:47,931
like, my heart feels hungry.

1
00:42:47,963 --> 00:42:49,032
Phil:
Right.

1
00:42:49,065 --> 00:42:50,701
And then I end up binging.

1
00:42:52,235 --> 00:42:54,905
And I don't know
how to figure out...

1
00:42:54,938 --> 00:42:56,307
how to be alone.

1
00:43:00,043 --> 00:43:03,814
What do you think came first
for you in terms of chasing
the high?

1
00:43:03,847 --> 00:43:06,083
Was it the drugs and alcohol
or was it the food?

1
00:43:06,115 --> 00:43:08,085
The food came first.

1
00:43:08,117 --> 00:43:09,619
<i> When I was about
 eight years old</i>

1
00:43:09,652 --> 00:43:11,253
<i> and my little sister was born,</i>

1
00:43:11,286 --> 00:43:13,122
<i> a lot of the attention
 was taken off of me</i>

1
00:43:13,155 --> 00:43:14,657
and onto my little sister.

1
00:43:16,726 --> 00:43:19,061
<i> I had started working
 at that time,</i>

1
00:43:19,094 --> 00:43:21,197
<i>so I was under a lot of stress.</i>

1
00:43:21,231 --> 00:43:24,635
So I would bake cookies
for my family

1
00:43:24,668 --> 00:43:28,172
and I would eat all of them, and
nobody would have any to eat.

1
00:43:30,106 --> 00:43:33,810
<i> That was my first memory
 of food</i>

1
00:43:33,842 --> 00:43:37,714
being... that medicine for me.

1
00:43:40,115 --> 00:43:43,420
<i> When I was 12,</i>

1
00:43:43,452 --> 00:43:45,188
<i> I was bullied.</i>

1
00:43:45,221 --> 00:43:50,027
I... developed a social anxiety

1
00:43:50,059 --> 00:43:53,230
where I didn't trust
other girls my age.

1
00:43:53,262 --> 00:43:58,701
<i> Then, one day, this girl
 who was popular</i>

1
00:43:58,735 --> 00:44:01,938
<i> started saying,
 "Demi should kill herself.</i>

1
00:44:01,971 --> 00:44:04,840
She should slit her wrists."

1
00:44:04,873 --> 00:44:09,245
<i> And it resulted in
 a suicide petition</i>

1
00:44:09,278 --> 00:44:12,715
that got passed around.

1
00:44:12,748 --> 00:44:17,053
And she had other
classmates sign it.

1
00:44:17,086 --> 00:44:20,257
I mean, there was this
core group of girls

1
00:44:20,289 --> 00:44:24,094
who were, honestly, in my eyes,
pure ( bleep ) evil.

1
00:44:25,728 --> 00:44:28,297
Demi:<i>
 And, when I asked them why,</i>

1
00:44:28,331 --> 00:44:30,099
<i> nobody could give me
 a specific reason</i>

1
00:44:30,132 --> 00:44:32,201
why they were treating me
the way they were.

1
00:44:33,936 --> 00:44:35,938
<i> I had no friends,</i>

1
00:44:35,972 --> 00:44:38,375
<i> I was alone.</i>

1
00:44:38,407 --> 00:44:40,911
So I went off of
what they were calling me,

1
00:44:40,943 --> 00:44:45,882
which was a whore and being fat.

1
00:44:45,914 --> 00:44:48,217
<i> I called my mom on my cell
 phone and I said, "I'm done,</i>

1
00:44:48,251 --> 00:44:49,987
<i> I can't do this anymore,
 pick me up.</i>

1
00:44:52,222 --> 00:44:54,091
She picked me up from school

1
00:44:54,123 --> 00:44:56,292
and that's when my eating
disorder developed.

1
00:44:58,862 --> 00:45:00,463
<i> One day,</i>

1
00:45:00,496 --> 00:45:04,300
I found a copy of her diary.

1
00:45:04,333 --> 00:45:08,504
<i> Demi had drawn a picture of
 what she perceived herself</i>

1
00:45:08,538 --> 00:45:10,306
to look like.

1
00:45:12,074 --> 00:45:13,843
"Heavy."

1
00:45:13,876 --> 00:45:15,911
And then she drew a picture
on the next page,

1
00:45:15,945 --> 00:45:19,316
and said, "This is what
I need to look like

1
00:45:19,349 --> 00:45:21,284
<i> to be...</i>

1
00:45:21,317 --> 00:45:23,019
a star."

1
00:45:23,052 --> 00:45:26,990
This was, like,
a collage that I made

1
00:45:27,023 --> 00:45:30,026
when I was younger.

1
00:45:30,059 --> 00:45:32,028
And it's actually kind of sad
for me because

1
00:45:32,061 --> 00:45:36,133
a lot of the people in here
are underweight and...

1
00:45:36,166 --> 00:45:38,535
I wanted to be so much...

1
00:45:38,568 --> 00:45:41,338
I wanted to be like them.

1
00:45:41,371 --> 00:45:44,840
<i> That was kind of the chic look
 back then.</i>

1
00:45:44,873 --> 00:45:47,409
Yeah, I've got Amy Winehouse
in there that I looked up to

1
00:45:47,443 --> 00:45:49,413
and I wanted to be so badly.

1
00:45:52,114 --> 00:45:54,850
<i> I wanted to be as thin as her,
 I wanted to sing like her,</i>

1
00:45:54,884 --> 00:45:57,086
I wanted to be just like her.

1
00:45:59,121 --> 00:46:02,158
<i> The collages on her wall,
 and the pictures,</i>

1
00:46:02,192 --> 00:46:03,492
and the models,

1
00:46:03,525 --> 00:46:05,861
<i> this isn't what you need to</i>

1
00:46:05,894 --> 00:46:08,264
<i> aspire to be like,
 this is not healthy.</i>

1
00:46:08,297 --> 00:46:10,399
I never thought to say
those things to her

1
00:46:10,432 --> 00:46:13,135
because I didn't know myself.

1
00:46:13,168 --> 00:46:15,237
<i> My desire for perfection,</i>

1
00:46:15,271 --> 00:46:16,539
I think I've always
been that way.

1
00:46:16,572 --> 00:46:20,342
<i> But I felt I had to be thin</i>

1
00:46:20,376 --> 00:46:22,512
<i> to be beautiful,
 and successful,</i>

1
00:46:22,545 --> 00:46:25,282
<i> and that this is what you
 need to look like</i>

1
00:46:25,315 --> 00:46:28,083
<i> in order to be perfect.</i>

1
00:46:28,117 --> 00:46:31,054
I may have passed that
along to my kids,

1
00:46:31,086 --> 00:46:33,556
<i> that wanting everything
 to be perfect,</i>

1
00:46:33,590 --> 00:46:36,526
<i> and need to be</i>

1
00:46:36,559 --> 00:46:39,863
thin and beautiful
to be successful.

1
00:46:39,896 --> 00:46:42,332
Demi:<i>
 Food is still the biggest
 challenge in my life</i>

1
00:46:42,364 --> 00:46:45,968
and it controls...

1
00:46:46,001 --> 00:46:47,503
I don't want to give it
the power to say that

1
00:46:47,536 --> 00:46:50,039
it controls my every thought,

1
00:46:50,072 --> 00:46:54,476
<i> but... it's something that
 I'm constantly thinking about.</i>

1
00:46:54,510 --> 00:46:58,348
<i> Body image,
 what I'm gonna eat next,</i>

1
00:46:58,380 --> 00:47:00,951
<i> what I wish I could be eating,</i>

1
00:47:00,983 --> 00:47:02,918
what I wish I didn't eat.

1
00:47:02,952 --> 00:47:04,287
You know, it's just constant.

1
00:47:04,320 --> 00:47:06,556
It's exhausting.

1
00:47:06,588 --> 00:47:08,391
<i> Like, I get envious towards</i>

1
00:47:08,423 --> 00:47:13,329
<i> people that don't struggle
 with an eating disorder</i>

1
00:47:13,362 --> 00:47:14,364
<i> just because I feel like</i>

1
00:47:14,396 --> 00:47:18,235
my life would be so much easier.

1
00:47:18,268 --> 00:47:20,336
<i> Everybody has their own path
 in recovery.</i>

1
00:47:20,369 --> 00:47:23,072
<i> For me, it's about going to
 therapy, working my program</i>

1
00:47:23,106 --> 00:47:25,375
<i> and having an honest
 relationship with myself</i>

1
00:47:25,407 --> 00:47:27,143
<i>and the other people around me.</i>

1
00:47:27,175 --> 00:47:31,514
I had come across Jay Glazer
and Unbreakable Gym.

1
00:47:31,547 --> 00:47:35,952
<i> And I felt like it would be
 great for her.</i>

1
00:47:35,985 --> 00:47:39,256
Because Demi had just broken up
with Wilmer

1
00:47:39,289 --> 00:47:41,925
<i> and she didn't have
 a lot of friendships,</i>

1
00:47:41,958 --> 00:47:44,059
<i> she didn't have a community.</i>

1
00:47:44,092 --> 00:47:45,661
The workout before that
was super tough.

1
00:47:45,695 --> 00:47:48,064
- Yeah.
- You hear a girl crying,
  it's me.

1
00:47:48,097 --> 00:47:49,233
( laughs )
Okay.

1
00:47:50,465 --> 00:47:53,168
<i> The gym really helps.</i>

1
00:47:53,202 --> 00:47:56,373
<i> And I know that I...</i>

1
00:47:56,405 --> 00:47:58,375
would be in a very dark place
without it.

1
00:48:01,710 --> 00:48:04,146
When you're getting one,
I'm coming right back.

1
00:48:04,179 --> 00:48:06,181
- Come on. Nice, that's it.
- ( grunting )

1
00:48:06,215 --> 00:48:09,619
Good, good, good.
Where's your kick? There it is.

1
00:48:09,652 --> 00:48:11,454
Demi:<i>
 You know it's Monday when
 you get punched in the face</i>

1
00:48:11,487 --> 00:48:14,190
<i> by Randy Couture.</i>

1
00:48:14,222 --> 00:48:15,659
Randy Couture?

1
00:48:15,692 --> 00:48:19,695
Only, like, MMA legend.

1
00:48:19,728 --> 00:48:22,598
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:48:22,632 --> 00:48:25,501
Mike:<i>
 At the time she loved
 kickboxing.</i>

1
00:48:25,534 --> 00:48:27,503
<i> And I was really hoping
 that she would</i>

1
00:48:27,536 --> 00:48:29,172
fall in love with jiu-jitsu.

1
00:48:33,608 --> 00:48:35,011
Insist.

1
00:48:38,181 --> 00:48:41,117
Mike:<i>
 It would give her some pride
 in having her own thing.</i>

1
00:48:41,150 --> 00:48:42,652
It's empowering.

1
00:48:42,684 --> 00:48:44,922
And I watch her light up.

1
00:48:46,356 --> 00:48:48,291
Mike:<i>
 It's a physical chess game.</i>

1
00:48:48,324 --> 00:48:49,459
It makes her think.

1
00:48:49,492 --> 00:48:51,260
Demi:<i>
 Any time I'm able to</i>

1
00:48:51,293 --> 00:48:52,996
<i> take my mind off of...</i>

1
00:48:53,028 --> 00:48:55,130
any of my addictions, um,

1
00:48:55,164 --> 00:48:57,467
it's very beneficial to me.

1
00:48:57,500 --> 00:49:01,137
<i> Because you're constantly
 thinking about...</i>

1
00:49:01,170 --> 00:49:04,240
<i> what the next move is.</i>

1
00:49:04,273 --> 00:49:06,409
<i> The technique,</i>

1
00:49:06,442 --> 00:49:08,077
<i> the strategy,</i>

1
00:49:08,110 --> 00:49:10,547
And also,
there's a reward system

1
00:49:10,579 --> 00:49:13,717
<i> that takes many, many, many
 years to get through.</i>

1
00:49:13,750 --> 00:49:15,085
Excellent.

1
00:49:15,117 --> 00:49:16,418
Back up.

1
00:49:16,452 --> 00:49:18,054
In jiu-jitsu, we start
with a white belt.

1
00:49:18,086 --> 00:49:20,422
<i>Every time you get a promotion,
 it's a stripe.</i>

1
00:49:20,456 --> 00:49:22,057
We do four stripes on each belt,

1
00:49:22,090 --> 00:49:24,027
and then we move
to the next belt.

1
00:49:24,059 --> 00:49:25,695
<i>One goal that I haven't reached
 is a black belt.</i>

1
00:49:25,728 --> 00:49:27,630
Being able to work towards that

1
00:49:27,663 --> 00:49:31,034
<i> is something that
 I'm passionate about.</i>

1
00:49:31,067 --> 00:49:35,137
And I hope to God to see her
into her 30s and to...

1
00:49:38,673 --> 00:49:40,978
( voice breaking ):
...put a black belt
around her waist one day.

1
00:49:43,079 --> 00:49:44,414
Good job.

1
00:49:44,447 --> 00:49:45,548
( exhales )

1
00:49:45,581 --> 00:49:48,151
- Get a drink.
- Okay.

1
00:49:48,184 --> 00:49:50,487
<i> Working out is a form
 of meditation to me</i>

1
00:49:50,519 --> 00:49:53,690
<i> because I'm not focused on
 anything in my head.</i>

1
00:49:53,722 --> 00:49:55,557
<i> It can transport you to</i>

1
00:49:55,590 --> 00:49:57,594
<i> a totally different place.</i>

1
00:49:57,626 --> 00:50:00,230
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
00:50:10,338 --> 00:50:12,808
<i> I'm on a journey to discover</i>

1
00:50:12,842 --> 00:50:15,612
<i> what it's like to be
 free of all demons.</i>

1
00:50:37,233 --> 00:50:38,635
Man:
Her first stripe on a belt.

1
00:50:40,536 --> 00:50:42,105
Demi, before,
you couldn't talk about weight.

1
00:50:44,440 --> 00:50:48,445
<i> We literally couldn't use
 the term "working out."</i>

1
00:50:48,478 --> 00:50:51,748
<i> And... now...</i>

1
00:50:51,780 --> 00:50:53,049
<i> she loves it.</i>

1
00:50:55,217 --> 00:50:56,752
I, like, don't want to know

1
00:50:56,786 --> 00:50:59,088
what it's like to get really
punched in the face by...

1
00:50:59,121 --> 00:51:02,192
By Randy Couture?
Man, it's like playing
basketball with Michael Jordan.

1
00:51:02,224 --> 00:51:03,492
( static )

1
00:51:03,525 --> 00:51:05,127
All of my bags.

1
00:51:07,295 --> 00:51:08,731
And now my vanity.

1
00:51:11,634 --> 00:51:13,735
Feeling my extensions.

1
00:51:13,768 --> 00:51:16,305
Kelsey Kershner:
Hey, Demitria, can you come here
and approve these TV spots?

1
00:51:16,338 --> 00:51:17,239
Demi:
Yup.

1
00:51:21,309 --> 00:51:24,413
It was an exhausting night
as an assistant.

1
00:51:24,447 --> 00:51:26,782
- It was mid-summer.
- ( woman chuckles )

1
00:51:26,815 --> 00:51:28,518
Producer:
Which night was this, though,
what are we describing here?

1
00:51:28,550 --> 00:51:31,320
Uh, it was Anaheim.
( chuckles )

1
00:51:31,353 --> 00:51:34,756
Um... there were four suitors
in the crowd.

1
00:51:34,789 --> 00:51:37,559
( laughter )

1
00:51:37,592 --> 00:51:40,896
All in separate places
throughout the crowd.

1
00:51:40,929 --> 00:51:43,298
Which I strategically placed.

1
00:51:43,331 --> 00:51:46,235
Again, hard assistant work.
( laughs )

1
00:51:46,268 --> 00:51:48,337
They all wanted to visit her
in the dressing room.

1
00:51:48,371 --> 00:51:50,539
All at different times,
obviously,

1
00:51:50,572 --> 00:51:53,375
so we had to,
you know, coordinate,

1
00:51:53,409 --> 00:51:54,811
make sure some came
before the show,

1
00:51:54,844 --> 00:51:56,612
some came after the show.

1
00:51:56,646 --> 00:51:58,581
( laughing ):
So they didn't
run into each other.

1
00:51:58,614 --> 00:52:01,284
Luckily, all went well.

1
00:52:01,317 --> 00:52:04,219
I feel like it wasn't four,
I feel like it was only two.

1
00:52:04,253 --> 00:52:06,456
It was...

1
00:52:06,489 --> 00:52:11,161
it was N, and then L,
but they had guests,

1
00:52:11,193 --> 00:52:13,496
and then there was...

1
00:52:13,528 --> 00:52:15,565
Was there an O?

1
00:52:15,597 --> 00:52:17,699
- No.
- No, it wasn't that night.

1
00:52:17,733 --> 00:52:20,336
( laughter )

1
00:52:21,836 --> 00:52:23,672
My theory is,

1
00:52:23,706 --> 00:52:25,807
you can't win
if you don't play the game.

1
00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:27,509
( laughter )

1
00:52:27,543 --> 00:52:29,179
( static )

1
00:52:29,211 --> 00:52:31,480
I matched with somebody
on Raya just now.

1
00:52:31,514 --> 00:52:33,583
You did?
Can I see?

1
00:52:33,615 --> 00:52:36,853
I am on the dating app
with both guys and girls.

1
00:52:36,885 --> 00:52:40,523
I am open to human connection.

1
00:52:40,556 --> 00:52:42,858
So whether that's through
a male or a female,

1
00:52:42,891 --> 00:52:44,426
it doesn't matter to me.

1
00:52:44,460 --> 00:52:45,695
Avo Yermagyan:
She is so cute.

1
00:52:45,728 --> 00:52:47,363
Mm-hmm.

1
00:52:47,396 --> 00:52:50,365
Liking somebody and then...

1
00:52:50,398 --> 00:52:54,336
like, them texting you and...

1
00:52:54,369 --> 00:52:57,239
you waiting for their text back,

1
00:52:57,273 --> 00:52:59,909
and them liking your picture
on Instagram,

1
00:52:59,942 --> 00:53:01,344
um, all these, like, feels--

1
00:53:01,376 --> 00:53:04,213
and first dates, oh, my God.

1
00:53:04,246 --> 00:53:05,949
I need looks for this weekend.

1
00:53:05,981 --> 00:53:07,583
You do? Date night?

1
00:53:07,617 --> 00:53:10,486
How many? Is there a story?
Is there a theme?

1
00:53:10,518 --> 00:53:11,954
I'm going to a soccer game.

1
00:53:11,987 --> 00:53:13,889
Jumpsuit, dress...?

1
00:53:13,922 --> 00:53:16,258
Jumpsuit.

1
00:53:16,291 --> 00:53:17,460
Cleavage?

1
00:53:17,492 --> 00:53:18,728
Always.

1
00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:21,898
First dates are...
so nerve-racking.

1
00:53:21,931 --> 00:53:24,867
I didn't have that before.

1
00:53:24,900 --> 00:53:26,668
I mean, not in so long,

1
00:53:26,702 --> 00:53:28,871
and... the butterflies of that,

1
00:53:28,903 --> 00:53:30,873
the sweat on my hands,

1
00:53:30,905 --> 00:53:33,409
the ( bleep ) sweaty palms,

1
00:53:33,442 --> 00:53:37,413
like, all that is fun,
it's so much fun.

1
00:53:37,445 --> 00:53:38,947
This is like
a close-the-deal dress,

1
00:53:38,981 --> 00:53:40,917
do you want to close the deal?

1
00:53:40,949 --> 00:53:42,484
- Hell yeah,
  I want to close the deal.
- Okay.

1
00:53:42,518 --> 00:53:43,885
'Cause you're in
escrow right now.

1
00:53:43,918 --> 00:53:45,887
( laughs )

1
00:53:45,920 --> 00:53:47,322
I thought you said,
"You're an escort."

1
00:53:47,356 --> 00:53:48,458
No.
( laughs )

1
00:53:48,490 --> 00:53:49,492
Don't you think?

1
00:53:49,525 --> 00:53:50,927
Should we try a new deal?

1
00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:53,295
- No, we don't need to do that.
- Yeah, no, okay.

1
00:53:53,329 --> 00:53:55,565
And, I think, don't tape it down

1
00:53:55,597 --> 00:53:57,532
because, like,
feeling that danger,

1
00:53:57,565 --> 00:53:59,268
like, is sexier to do.

1
00:53:59,302 --> 00:54:00,870
Okay, cool. And then...

1
00:54:00,902 --> 00:54:02,971
- Do I let the nipples show?
- Let the nipples show.

1
00:54:03,005 --> 00:54:04,773
- Really?
- Yeah.

1
00:54:04,806 --> 00:54:07,476
Yeah.

1
00:54:07,510 --> 00:54:08,745
It's, like, really see-through.

1
00:54:08,777 --> 00:54:10,045
It's the female bulge.

1
00:54:10,079 --> 00:54:12,015
It's like letting
the guy know who's boss.

1
00:54:12,047 --> 00:54:14,750
- I don't know if I can do that.
- Do it.

1
00:54:14,784 --> 00:54:16,986
When I'm comfortable
in my own skin,

1
00:54:17,018 --> 00:54:18,520
I feel confident.

1
00:54:18,554 --> 00:54:19,922
And when I feel confident,

1
00:54:19,954 --> 00:54:21,391
I feel sexy.

1
00:54:21,423 --> 00:54:23,925
<i> And when I feel sexy...</i>

1
00:54:23,958 --> 00:54:25,060
watch out.

1
00:54:25,094 --> 00:54:27,764
♪ Baby, be my ♪

1
00:54:27,797 --> 00:54:29,865
<i> ♪ New addiction ♪</i>

1
00:54:29,898 --> 00:54:31,733
♪ Intoxicate me gently ♪

1
00:54:31,766 --> 00:54:34,736
♪ With your loving ♪

1
00:54:34,769 --> 00:54:35,938
♪ You ♪

1
00:54:35,971 --> 00:54:38,775
<i> ♪ Got me so hot ♪</i>

1
00:54:38,807 --> 00:54:40,643
<i> ♪ Pull me closer into you ♪</i>

1
00:54:40,675 --> 00:54:43,512
♪ And watch our bodies
intertwine ♪

1
00:54:43,545 --> 00:54:44,513
You don't know this Demi.

1
00:54:44,547 --> 00:54:46,081
Single Demi is fun.

1
00:54:46,114 --> 00:54:48,317
She's a single girl,
if she wants to go out to a club

1
00:54:48,351 --> 00:54:50,353
<i> and dance, so be it.</i>

1
00:54:50,385 --> 00:54:51,721
<i> ♪ Got me dreaming 'bout that ♪</i>

1
00:54:51,753 --> 00:54:54,089
<i> ♪ Sexy, dirty love ♪</i>

1
00:54:54,123 --> 00:54:56,492
( distorted voice ):<i>
 ♪ Sexy, sexy, yeah ♪</i>

1
00:54:56,525 --> 00:54:58,728
<i> ♪ Sexy, dirty love ♪</i>

1
00:54:58,760 --> 00:54:59,929
And we definitely
talk about boys a lot,

1
00:54:59,961 --> 00:55:02,565
we're both single.

1
00:55:02,597 --> 00:55:03,733
Obviously, everyone
wants to date her.

1
00:55:03,766 --> 00:55:05,001
She has a lot of suitors.

1
00:55:06,902 --> 00:55:08,070
It's fun to hear her

1
00:55:08,103 --> 00:55:10,539
when she shares her stories.

1
00:55:10,572 --> 00:55:13,542
He's so ( bleep ) hot.

1
00:55:13,576 --> 00:55:15,010
- Avo: Really?
- Yes.

1
00:55:15,043 --> 00:55:16,511
Have you talked to him since?

1
00:55:16,545 --> 00:55:18,614
No, I was waiting
for him to text me.

1
00:55:18,646 --> 00:55:20,115
If it happens, um,
I'm gonna be your best man.

1
00:55:20,148 --> 00:55:22,451
( laughs )

1
00:55:22,485 --> 00:55:24,086
Did you make it up
to his suite?

1
00:55:24,119 --> 00:55:25,954
Yeah.

1
00:55:25,987 --> 00:55:27,823
( laughs )

1
00:55:27,856 --> 00:55:29,625
No, I did not.

1
00:55:29,657 --> 00:55:33,762
There's like a certain...
stigma around

1
00:55:33,795 --> 00:55:37,132
a woman having casual sex.

1
00:55:37,166 --> 00:55:39,869
And, for me,
I just feel like

1
00:55:39,902 --> 00:55:41,804
it's my body
and it's my choice,

1
00:55:41,836 --> 00:55:45,375
<i> and it's exciting, and it's
 a connection with somebody.</i>

1
00:55:45,407 --> 00:55:46,476
And it's fun.

1
00:55:47,909 --> 00:55:49,045
♪ You ♪

1
00:55:49,077 --> 00:55:51,980
<i> ♪ Got me so hot ♪</i>

1
00:55:52,014 --> 00:55:53,782
<i> ♪ Pull me closer into you ♪</i>

1
00:55:53,815 --> 00:55:56,985
<i> ♪ And watch our bodies
 intertwine ♪</i>

1
00:55:57,018 --> 00:56:01,022
♪ I feel so alive ♪

1
00:56:01,056 --> 00:56:03,393
♪ You're the one
I'm thinking of ♪

1
00:56:03,425 --> 00:56:05,061
♪ Got me dreaming 'bout that ♪

1
00:56:05,094 --> 00:56:07,563
<i> ♪ Sexy, dirty love ♪</i>

1
00:56:07,596 --> 00:56:09,898
Guess there's not really
any common theme

1
00:56:09,931 --> 00:56:11,900
with the people that I've dated.

1
00:56:11,934 --> 00:56:13,636
( distorted voice ):<i>
 ♪ Sexy, sexy, yeah ♪</i>

1
00:56:13,668 --> 00:56:15,937
I do like athletes.

1
00:56:15,971 --> 00:56:18,507
<i> There's something
 really sexy about</i>

1
00:56:18,541 --> 00:56:22,111
somebody putting in all of
their physical strength
into their passion.

1
00:56:22,143 --> 00:56:23,846
( distorted voice ):<i>
 ♪ Sexy, sexy, yeah ♪</i>

1
00:56:23,878 --> 00:56:25,714
( distorted ):<i>
 ♪ Dirty love. ♪</i>

1
00:56:25,748 --> 00:56:27,849
I know, I know, I...
( laughs )

1
00:56:27,882 --> 00:56:29,785
I was like,
"There's no common theme,"

1
00:56:29,818 --> 00:56:32,755
but really
it's totally athletes.

1
00:56:32,788 --> 00:56:34,123
( water running )

1
00:56:34,155 --> 00:56:35,590
So we'll do the ends of my hair,

1
00:56:35,623 --> 00:56:36,925
like, more on
the straighter side.

1
00:56:36,958 --> 00:56:37,993
Hairdresser:
Straight, yeah, yeah, yeah.

1
00:56:38,027 --> 00:56:40,028
Just straighten.
I don't go wavy.

1
00:56:40,061 --> 00:56:42,030
Demi:
Yay, he texted.

1
00:56:42,063 --> 00:56:43,532
- ( chuckles )
- Yay!

1
00:56:43,565 --> 00:56:45,033
Four hours and two minutes.
( laughs )

1
00:56:48,637 --> 00:56:50,106
What'd he say?

1
00:56:50,139 --> 00:56:51,874
Well, I can't check it,
I've got foil on my ( bleep )

1
00:56:51,907 --> 00:56:53,543
Anticipation.

1
00:56:53,576 --> 00:56:55,577
The anticipation is killing me.

1
00:56:55,610 --> 00:56:57,879
Woman:
Was it you who texted
or he had texted?

1
00:56:57,913 --> 00:56:59,481
It was me.

1
00:56:59,514 --> 00:57:01,417
Oh, sounds desperate.

1
00:57:03,251 --> 00:57:05,855
It's good you have foil
on your hands right now.

1
00:57:05,887 --> 00:57:07,923
No, for sure.
I'm still gonna wait.

1
00:57:07,956 --> 00:57:09,192
I'm not gonna text right away.

1
00:57:11,626 --> 00:57:12,762
( laughter )

1
00:57:14,929 --> 00:57:16,065
Well...

1
00:57:18,199 --> 00:57:20,636
( laughs )
I know.

1
00:57:21,971 --> 00:57:24,940
It's a... sticky situation.

1
00:57:24,974 --> 00:57:26,576
If you text right away

1
00:57:26,608 --> 00:57:29,511
and you make yourself seem
available all the time,

1
00:57:29,545 --> 00:57:31,880
then he's not gonna be
interested anymore.

1
00:57:31,914 --> 00:57:33,749
Like, not as interested.

1
00:57:33,782 --> 00:57:36,251
He...
( stammers )

1
00:57:36,284 --> 00:57:37,953
It's a thing.

1
00:57:37,987 --> 00:57:40,056
Phil, you're married, you don't
have to deal with this,

1
00:57:40,088 --> 00:57:41,556
you don't get it.

1
00:57:41,590 --> 00:57:43,759
Producer:
What are some of the turn-offs?

1
00:57:43,791 --> 00:57:45,193
I don't like douchebags.

1
00:57:45,226 --> 00:57:47,128
( robotic voice ):<i>
 ♪ Stop playing games ♪</i>

1
00:57:47,161 --> 00:57:48,730
( distorting ):<i>
 ♪ Games, games, games,
 games, games ♪</i>

1
00:57:48,764 --> 00:57:52,001
And I have dated some
in this single era.

1
00:57:52,034 --> 00:57:54,871
♪ Text on "read" ♪

1
00:57:54,903 --> 00:57:56,873
♪ And it ain't no accident ♪

1
00:57:56,905 --> 00:57:58,574
♪ Boy, I ain't gonna ask again ♪

1
00:57:58,606 --> 00:58:02,143
♪ Now you got me in my head ♪

1
00:58:02,177 --> 00:58:03,778
♪ Waiting by the phone
at night ♪

1
00:58:03,811 --> 00:58:05,514
♪ That... that I don't do ♪

1
00:58:05,547 --> 00:58:09,217
♪ And I just can't explain
what's happening ♪

1
00:58:09,251 --> 00:58:11,120
♪ Sending all these messages ♪

1
00:58:11,152 --> 00:58:13,121
<i> ♪ Alone at night ♪</i>

1
00:58:13,155 --> 00:58:15,291
<i> ♪ On Patron at night, ah ♪</i>

1
00:58:15,324 --> 00:58:17,092
I don't like guys
that play games.

1
00:58:17,126 --> 00:58:19,729
Like, life is too short
for games.

1
00:58:19,762 --> 00:58:21,664
♪ Two can play, yeah,
two can play, yeah ♪

1
00:58:21,697 --> 00:58:22,664
♪ Oh, oh. ♪

1
00:58:22,697 --> 00:58:25,033
Hold on, one more time.

1
00:58:25,067 --> 00:58:27,103
♪ Two can play, yeah,
two can play, yeah ♪

1
00:58:27,135 --> 00:58:30,038
♪ Two can play, yeah, oh, oh ♪

1
00:58:30,072 --> 00:58:32,742
I'm kind of
a confrontational person.

1
00:58:32,775 --> 00:58:34,777
so if there's something up,
I want to be like, 

1
00:58:34,809 --> 00:58:36,978
I want to figure out, like...

1
00:58:37,012 --> 00:58:40,016
are we-- what's going on?
What's happening here?

1
00:58:40,048 --> 00:58:41,784
♪ Two can play, yeah,
two can play, yeah ♪

1
00:58:41,817 --> 00:58:44,686
♪ Two can play, yeah,
play these games ♪

1
00:58:44,719 --> 00:58:46,121
<i> First of all,</i>

1
00:58:46,155 --> 00:58:48,557
he was supposed to come
to my concert in Dallas...

1
00:58:48,590 --> 00:58:49,724
- He bailed.
- ...and he bailed.

1
00:58:49,757 --> 00:58:50,960
Yeah, yeah.

1
00:58:50,992 --> 00:58:52,862
And I was, like,
pissed off about that.

1
00:58:52,894 --> 00:58:54,996
Maybe it was just like,
I didn't text him,

1
00:58:55,030 --> 00:58:56,566
I was waiting for him
to text me,

1
00:58:56,599 --> 00:58:58,067
we were playing games, like,

1
00:58:58,099 --> 00:58:59,802
you know what?

1
00:58:59,835 --> 00:59:02,137
Text the ( bleep ) boy.

1
00:59:02,170 --> 00:59:03,705
I'm giving him the benefit
of the doubt.

1
00:59:03,739 --> 00:59:06,909
♪ Honey, I don't need
no friends ♪

1
00:59:06,942 --> 00:59:08,110
And I was like,
"Okay, well, I'm, you know,

1
00:59:08,143 --> 00:59:09,644
I have a free weekend,

1
00:59:09,677 --> 00:59:12,047
like, I'm thinking of
coming to Dallas.

1
00:59:12,081 --> 00:59:13,716
Like, do you have any
free weekends available?"

1
00:59:13,748 --> 00:59:15,183
He was like, "Yeah,
I'm open that weekend, too."

1
00:59:15,217 --> 00:59:16,686
I was like,
"Dope, let's hang out."

1
00:59:16,719 --> 00:59:18,086
♪ Alone at night ♪

1
00:59:18,119 --> 00:59:19,855
♪ On Patron at night ♪

1
00:59:19,887 --> 00:59:21,824
♪ Ah ♪

1
00:59:21,856 --> 00:59:23,858
We decide to go into the club.

1
00:59:23,891 --> 00:59:25,327
He was like, "Yeah,
come to my table.

1
00:59:25,360 --> 00:59:27,629
And I was like, "Okay,
like, that's pretty cool,"

1
00:59:27,663 --> 00:59:29,898
- 'cause I had my own
  separate table...
- Yeah, so far, so good.

1
00:59:29,931 --> 00:59:31,766
<i> He was like, "Yeah, like,
 have your friends
 come to the table."</i>

1
00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:33,169
<i> And I was like, "Okay, cool."</i>

1
00:59:33,202 --> 00:59:36,305
♪ Careful when you
play these games ♪

1
00:59:36,338 --> 00:59:38,641
Right when we got there,
right as I was standing there,

1
00:59:38,673 --> 00:59:41,110
I was next to him.
He did a line of coke,

1
00:59:41,143 --> 00:59:43,112
- the bottle service
  girl comes up,
- No.

1
00:59:43,144 --> 00:59:45,280
- and he goes...
  like this to her boobs.
- ( gasps )

1
00:59:45,313 --> 00:59:47,148
- Girl.
- Bye.

1
00:59:47,181 --> 00:59:48,149
Are you ( bleep ) kidding me?

1
00:59:48,182 --> 00:59:49,684
And then he starts pouring vodka

1
00:59:49,717 --> 00:59:51,186
down other girl's throats.

1
00:59:51,219 --> 00:59:52,988
♪ You might find out
the hard way ♪

1
00:59:53,021 --> 00:59:55,056
♪ That two can play, yeah,
two can play, yeah ♪

1
00:59:55,090 --> 00:59:56,726
♪ Two can play, yeah,
two can play, yeah ♪

1
00:59:56,759 --> 00:59:58,226
I wanted to tell him
straight to his face

1
00:59:58,260 --> 00:59:59,829
that I'm a ( bleep ) catch,

1
00:59:59,862 --> 01:00:01,697
and that he needed to
treat me like a queen.

1
01:00:01,730 --> 01:00:02,965
<i> ♪ Winning, winning, winning ♪</i>

1
01:00:02,998 --> 01:00:05,001
♪ And I'm tired of
keeping score ♪

1
01:00:05,034 --> 01:00:07,403
I was half-joking, but, like, 

1
01:00:07,436 --> 01:00:09,171
half-serious, like,
"Go ( bleep ) yourself."

1
01:00:09,204 --> 01:00:11,374
He asked why and I said,

1
01:00:11,407 --> 01:00:14,242
"Well, these are
the reasons why,

1
01:00:14,275 --> 01:00:16,678
these are the things
that you did,

1
01:00:16,711 --> 01:00:18,780
right in front of me,

1
01:00:18,813 --> 01:00:21,783
and I'm not going to be
disrespected like that."

1
01:00:21,817 --> 01:00:24,786
And he ended up sending
a bunch of text messages,

1
01:00:24,820 --> 01:00:27,023
apologizing, wanting to talk.

1
01:00:27,056 --> 01:00:30,393
♪ Maybe I can be yours ♪

1
01:00:33,362 --> 01:00:34,864
<i> He texted me, "You good?"</i>

1
01:00:34,896 --> 01:00:37,032
And I texted back,
"New phone, who dis?"

1
01:00:37,065 --> 01:00:38,933
Oh, I saw your--
did you see on Instagram?

1
01:00:38,967 --> 01:00:41,170
That's my ( bleep ) girl.

1
01:00:41,202 --> 01:00:42,771
<i> ♪ Games ♪</i>

1
01:00:42,804 --> 01:00:44,806
<i> ♪ Come on now,
 say what you want ♪</i>

1
01:00:44,840 --> 01:00:46,142
- It's Kelsey I'm pretty sure.
- Oh.

1
01:00:46,175 --> 01:00:47,910
She's...

1
01:00:47,943 --> 01:00:49,979
( laughing )

1
01:00:50,012 --> 01:00:51,747
♪ Might find out the hard way ♪

1
01:00:51,780 --> 01:00:53,816
♪ That two can play, yeah,
two can play, yeah ♪

1
01:00:53,849 --> 01:00:57,353
♪ Two can play, yeah,
whoa, oh... ♪

1
01:01:00,389 --> 01:01:01,691
I think that's the one.

1
01:01:03,092 --> 01:01:04,093
Okay, I love it.

1
01:01:04,126 --> 01:01:05,861
Yeah, that one's really good.

1
01:01:05,893 --> 01:01:08,963
<i> Emo Night is a throwback event
 in L.A. once a month</i>

1
01:01:08,996 --> 01:01:10,965
<i> that brings together fans
 of the emo scene</i>

1
01:01:10,998 --> 01:01:13,001
<i> to relive the past.</i>

1
01:01:13,034 --> 01:01:14,369
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
01:01:14,402 --> 01:01:17,172
<i> I try to go as often as I can.</i>

1
01:01:17,206 --> 01:01:18,874
<i> It's so much fun.</i>

1
01:01:18,907 --> 01:01:20,476
Emo Night, part two, the sequel!

1
01:01:20,509 --> 01:01:21,711
Demi:<i>
 Looking back on my past,</i>

1
01:01:21,744 --> 01:01:23,312
<i> I see just how influential</i>

1
01:01:23,344 --> 01:01:24,913
<i> this music was on my life</i>

1
01:01:24,947 --> 01:01:27,383
<i> and my own musical journey
 early on.</i>

1
01:01:27,416 --> 01:01:29,785
Morgan Freed:
Hey, let's give it up for
( bleep ) Todd from 303.

1
01:01:29,818 --> 01:01:32,188
( cheering and applause )

1
01:01:32,221 --> 01:01:36,958
I want to introduce you guys
to somebody very, very, very,
very, very, special to me,

1
01:01:36,992 --> 01:01:39,361
Demi Lovato.

1
01:01:39,393 --> 01:01:41,763
Tell them what the ( bleep )
Emo Night is about.

1
01:01:41,797 --> 01:01:44,199
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
01:01:47,802 --> 01:01:51,239
( all singing along ):
♪ Whoa, I never meant to brag ♪

1
01:01:51,273 --> 01:01:53,309
♪ But I got him
where I want him now ♪

1
01:01:53,342 --> 01:01:56,945
♪ Whoa, it was never
my intention to brag ♪

1
01:01:56,978 --> 01:01:59,914
♪ To steal it all away
from you now ♪

1
01:01:59,947 --> 01:02:02,317
♪ But, God,
does it feel so good ♪

1
01:02:02,351 --> 01:02:05,019
♪ 'Cause I got him
where I want him now ♪

1
01:02:05,052 --> 01:02:08,190
♪ And if you could,
then you know you would ♪

1
01:02:08,222 --> 01:02:11,126
♪ 'Cause, God,
it just feels so ♪

1
01:02:11,159 --> 01:02:15,330
♪ It just feels so good ♪

1
01:02:15,364 --> 01:02:18,134
♪ Second chances they don't ever
matter, people never change ♪

1
01:02:18,166 --> 01:02:19,902
- ( music stops )
- ♪ Once a whore, you're nothing
  more, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:02:19,934 --> 01:02:21,137
♪ That'll never change. ♪

1
01:02:21,170 --> 01:02:23,038
Oh, ( bleep ).

1
01:02:23,070 --> 01:02:24,940
<i>I went to, like, slide it down,
 and then slide it back up</i>

1
01:02:24,972 --> 01:02:26,442
<i> so everyone would sing it,</i>

1
01:02:26,474 --> 01:02:28,076
- and then it stopped.
- Oh, is that what happened?

1
01:02:28,110 --> 01:02:31,113
Yes, and I was like...
"Oh, ( bleep )."

1
01:02:31,146 --> 01:02:33,315
♪ And about forgiveness,
we're both supposed
to have exchanged ♪

1
01:02:33,347 --> 01:02:36,284
♪ I'm sorry honey, but I passed
out, now look this way ♪

1
01:02:36,318 --> 01:02:38,454
Matthew:
I thought someone hit, like,
the power cord

1
01:02:38,487 --> 01:02:40,021
or, like, the audience
or whatever.

1
01:02:40,054 --> 01:02:41,289
We're gonna go with that.

1
01:02:41,322 --> 01:02:42,824
Matthew:
Yeah.
( laughs )

1
01:02:42,858 --> 01:02:44,226
I don't want to be on record.

1
01:02:44,259 --> 01:02:45,860
Wait!

1
01:02:45,893 --> 01:02:47,962
We're gonna ( bleep )
rock this ( bleep )!

1
01:02:47,996 --> 01:02:51,834
♪ Whoa, well, I never
meant to brag ♪

1
01:02:51,867 --> 01:02:53,936
♪ But I got him
where I want him now ♪

1
01:02:53,969 --> 01:02:57,472
♪ Whoa, it was never
my intention to brag ♪

1
01:02:57,505 --> 01:03:00,375
♪ To steal it all away
from you now ♪

1
01:03:00,409 --> 01:03:03,211
♪ But, God,
does it feel so good ♪

1
01:03:03,244 --> 01:03:06,147
♪ 'Cause I've gotten
what I wanted now ♪

1
01:03:06,181 --> 01:03:09,083
♪ And if you could,
then you know you would ♪

1
01:03:09,117 --> 01:03:11,487
♪ 'Cause, God,
it just feels so... ♪

1
01:03:13,956 --> 01:03:15,457
Woman:
Yes, queen!

1
01:03:15,489 --> 01:03:20,362
♪ It just feels so good. ♪

1
01:03:22,030 --> 01:03:24,432
( music playing over speakers )

1
01:03:26,201 --> 01:03:27,836
( bleep ) yeah!

1
01:03:27,869 --> 01:03:29,538
( clapping )

1
01:03:29,570 --> 01:03:31,239
Yay!

1
01:03:31,273 --> 01:03:32,408
I'm glad we just recorded that.

1
01:03:32,440 --> 01:03:34,242
- I know, me, too.
- ( laughs )

1
01:03:34,275 --> 01:03:36,377
- Man: Yeah, check it out
  for us.
- Yeah, right?

1
01:03:36,411 --> 01:03:38,012
So I can stay until--
for another hour and a half,

1
01:03:38,045 --> 01:03:39,480
what do you want to do?

1
01:03:39,514 --> 01:03:41,483
Let's definitely get that
clean out of the way.

1
01:03:41,516 --> 01:03:43,351
- Yeah.
- Let me pull it up.

1
01:03:43,385 --> 01:03:45,020
Man:
Sometimes you would take, like,

1
01:03:45,052 --> 01:03:47,355
about a day or so
to work on vocals.

1
01:03:47,389 --> 01:03:48,423
Yeah.

1
01:03:48,456 --> 01:03:50,326
Like, it's crazy that--

1
01:03:50,358 --> 01:03:52,527
- what was that, like,
  an hour or so?
- I know, right?

1
01:03:52,561 --> 01:03:55,097
- Well, you're so fast.
- ( laughs )

1
01:03:55,130 --> 01:03:56,898
I was being so "meticulate..."

1
01:03:56,931 --> 01:04:00,001
- "Meticulous"?
- "Meticulous"?

1
01:04:00,034 --> 01:04:01,302
Home-schooled.

1
01:04:01,335 --> 01:04:03,538
- ( laughter )
- Oh, ( bleep ).

1
01:04:03,572 --> 01:04:06,208
She's very witty,
which people might not notice

1
01:04:06,240 --> 01:04:08,443
<i> because I feel like
 you can't fully show
 your personality</i>

1
01:04:08,476 --> 01:04:11,547
<i> when you have to do
 a press tour or
 something like that.</i>

1
01:04:11,579 --> 01:04:13,315
Look at me on the toilet.

1
01:04:13,347 --> 01:04:15,284
That's the cutest ( bleep )
I've ever seen...

1
01:04:15,317 --> 01:04:16,452
literally.

1
01:04:16,485 --> 01:04:18,019
So, she's pretty hilarious,

1
01:04:18,052 --> 01:04:20,021
and she cracks ridiculous jokes.

1
01:04:20,054 --> 01:04:21,056
Want to see my jab?

1
01:04:24,358 --> 01:04:25,927
( laughing )

1
01:04:25,960 --> 01:04:28,096
Let's see the whale call.

1
01:04:28,130 --> 01:04:29,465
( imitates whale call )

1
01:04:29,498 --> 01:04:30,432
( laughter )

1
01:04:32,434 --> 01:04:35,604
<i> She has a very interesting
 sense of humor.</i>

1
01:04:35,637 --> 01:04:37,072
<i> I'm always on my toes.</i>

1
01:04:37,105 --> 01:04:38,606
- Ya!
- Oh, my God!

1
01:04:38,639 --> 01:04:41,009
See? She gets me every...

1
01:04:41,043 --> 01:04:44,012
Just trying to drive, but...

1
01:04:44,045 --> 01:04:46,547
Oh, well.

1
01:04:46,581 --> 01:04:48,617
It's a dam.

1
01:04:48,650 --> 01:04:50,019
Dam.

1
01:04:50,052 --> 01:04:52,421
( chuckles )
Dam!

1
01:04:52,454 --> 01:04:54,423
- Dam!
- Dam, son!

1
01:04:54,456 --> 01:04:56,557
( laughs )
I just got it!

1
01:04:56,590 --> 01:04:58,326
She's lovable.

1
01:04:58,360 --> 01:05:00,028
( lip syncing
to child's voice ):
I'll take a nap!

1
01:05:00,061 --> 01:05:01,563
( lip syncing to man's voice):
 You want to take a nap?

1
01:05:01,596 --> 01:05:03,032
I'll take a nap here.

1
01:05:03,065 --> 01:05:04,333
Okay, take a nap
right there then.

1
01:05:04,365 --> 01:05:05,701
Good night!

1
01:05:05,733 --> 01:05:07,268
Or super inappropriate.

1
01:05:07,302 --> 01:05:09,005
Marissa said ( bleep ).

1
01:05:13,175 --> 01:05:16,077
<i> She's always been
 witty and funny.</i>

1
01:05:16,110 --> 01:05:18,246
Sometimes I'm like,
"What did you just say?"

1
01:05:18,280 --> 01:05:21,483
Somebody commented at me.

1
01:05:21,516 --> 01:05:24,086
And I-- calling me,
like, a coke head,

1
01:05:24,119 --> 01:05:26,622
and I go, "I prefer the term
'former crack whore.'"

1
01:05:26,655 --> 01:05:29,124
( laughter )

1
01:05:29,157 --> 01:05:30,459
Yeah, just little
moments like that,

1
01:05:30,492 --> 01:05:32,127
she doesn't give a ( bleep ).

1
01:05:32,159 --> 01:05:34,562
Like, she will say anything
that's on her mind.

1
01:05:34,596 --> 01:05:35,731
You are very annoying.

1
01:05:35,764 --> 01:05:37,231
Because a lot of people
hold back.

1
01:05:37,264 --> 01:05:38,467
How's that?

1
01:05:38,500 --> 01:05:40,235
- How's that?
- Well, you are.

1
01:05:40,268 --> 01:05:42,036
- You can be a bit
  of an ( bleep ).
- I know.

1
01:05:42,070 --> 01:05:43,105
- How's that?
- I'm used to it.

1
01:05:43,137 --> 01:05:44,672
( cheers and applause )

1
01:05:44,706 --> 01:05:46,208
Can you deal with that?

1
01:05:46,240 --> 01:05:49,545
She definitely has...

1
01:05:49,577 --> 01:05:52,047
a unique personality.

1
01:05:52,079 --> 01:05:54,549
<i> I know that you all...</i>

1
01:05:54,583 --> 01:05:56,385
love Nick Jonas.

1
01:05:56,418 --> 01:05:57,987
( audience laughing )

1
01:06:00,155 --> 01:06:02,091
But I actually have

1
01:06:02,123 --> 01:06:03,558
a bigger ( bleep ) than he does.

1
01:06:03,592 --> 01:06:05,260
( cheering )

1
01:06:09,030 --> 01:06:10,398
Don't ( bleep ) with me.

1
01:06:14,036 --> 01:06:16,238
Cue the sunglasses
and the joint.

1
01:06:16,271 --> 01:06:18,507
( man laughs )

1
01:06:18,539 --> 01:06:22,411
( traffic noises )

1
01:06:22,443 --> 01:06:24,413
Phil:
So fill us in.

1
01:06:24,445 --> 01:06:26,248
Open up your mind, like,
what are your thoughts?

1
01:06:26,280 --> 01:06:27,315
Where's your head at?

1
01:06:27,349 --> 01:06:29,418
My thoughts are

1
01:06:29,451 --> 01:06:32,153
it's always been
about heartbreak

1
01:06:32,186 --> 01:06:34,422
or struggles.

1
01:06:34,456 --> 01:06:36,358
And, when they think of
my music,

1
01:06:36,391 --> 01:06:38,159
they think it's heavy.

1
01:06:38,193 --> 01:06:41,163
And I just want to,
like, break that mold.

1
01:06:41,195 --> 01:06:43,297
"Sorry, Not Sorry" is lighter,

1
01:06:43,331 --> 01:06:46,168
and I think that's a part of me
nobody's seen before.

1
01:06:46,201 --> 01:06:47,702
I just want you
to feel supported

1
01:06:47,735 --> 01:06:50,538
to make the decision
that you feel best about.

1
01:06:50,572 --> 01:06:53,075
I feel like coming out
with a song that's fun

1
01:06:53,108 --> 01:06:54,710
that I'm passionate about.

1
01:06:54,742 --> 01:06:56,744
It just feels right to me.

1
01:06:56,777 --> 01:07:00,415
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
01:07:00,449 --> 01:07:03,585
<i> I follow my gut.</i>

1
01:07:03,617 --> 01:07:05,420
<i> My gut told me to choose
 "Sorry, Not Sorry"</i>

1
01:07:05,454 --> 01:07:08,123
<i> as my first single, and I did.</i>

1
01:07:08,155 --> 01:07:10,224
<i> And I believed in it
 from day one</i>

1
01:07:10,257 --> 01:07:13,261
<i> when other people thought
 that it shouldn't be</i>

1
01:07:13,295 --> 01:07:15,197
<i> the first single.</i>

1
01:07:15,230 --> 01:07:16,731
<i> But I knew that it should.</i>

1
01:07:23,771 --> 01:07:26,141
Ah! It is go time.

1
01:07:26,173 --> 01:07:30,612
Gonna perform "Sorry, Not Sorry"
live for the first time ever.

1
01:07:30,644 --> 01:07:31,847
And I'm so excited.

1
01:07:31,880 --> 01:07:33,315
( audience cheering )

1
01:07:33,347 --> 01:07:35,817
Tonight is a very
big night for me.

1
01:07:35,851 --> 01:07:40,355
( cheering )

1
01:07:40,387 --> 01:07:42,423
Because I released
a song called...

1
01:07:42,456 --> 01:07:45,460
Audience:
"Sorry, Not Sorry"!

1
01:07:45,494 --> 01:07:47,696
What if we do another tour
'cause it was so much fun?

1
01:07:50,164 --> 01:07:52,367
<i> How we did on
the "Cool for the Summer" Tour,</i>

1
01:07:52,400 --> 01:07:55,704
<i>we went to, like, pool parties.</i>

1
01:07:55,737 --> 01:07:58,373
<i> And we get massive houses
 in different cities.</i>

1
01:07:58,405 --> 01:07:59,608
Phil:<i>
 Do the House Party Tour.
 I love it.</i>

1
01:07:59,641 --> 01:08:01,343
Demi:<i>
 Do the House Party Tour.</i>

1
01:08:03,411 --> 01:08:05,414
♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:08:05,447 --> 01:08:06,849
♪ I'm not sorry ♪

1
01:08:06,882 --> 01:08:08,817
♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:08:08,849 --> 01:08:10,585
♪ I'm not sorry ♪

1
01:08:10,619 --> 01:08:12,754
We woke up in, in Boston,

1
01:08:12,786 --> 01:08:14,122
<i> and then we went to Alabama</i>

1
01:08:14,155 --> 01:08:15,657
for, like, an hour and a half.

1
01:08:15,690 --> 01:08:17,426
Hey, Birmingham,
what up, girl?

1
01:08:17,458 --> 01:08:19,193
Here in Nashville, um,

1
01:08:19,226 --> 01:08:20,662
<i> kind of, like, flying by
 the seat of our pants,</i>

1
01:08:20,694 --> 01:08:21,829
<i> but it's been amazing.</i>

1
01:08:21,863 --> 01:08:23,365
I said to them,

1
01:08:23,398 --> 01:08:25,367
"Gosh, she sounds
like Aretha Franklin."

1
01:08:25,399 --> 01:08:26,835
Oh, my God, thank you!

1
01:08:26,868 --> 01:08:28,704
Matthew:<i>
 Billy Ray Cyrus
 is here tonight,</i>

1
01:08:28,737 --> 01:08:30,739
<i> like, you don't even know
 who's gonna be there tomorrow.</i>

1
01:08:30,771 --> 01:08:31,873
Yo!

1
01:08:31,907 --> 01:08:33,375
( doorbell rings )

1
01:08:33,408 --> 01:08:34,810
Ludacris:<i>
 Gives me great pleasure</i>

1
01:08:34,842 --> 01:08:36,677
to be sorry that I'm not sorry

1
01:08:36,711 --> 01:08:39,148
- ( cheering )
- to introduce my great friend.

1
01:08:39,180 --> 01:08:42,550
My friend, your friend,
Miss Demi Lovato!

1
01:08:42,583 --> 01:08:45,653
Audience:
Demi! Demi! Demi!

1
01:08:45,686 --> 01:08:49,657
Demi! Demi! Demi! Demi!

1
01:08:49,690 --> 01:08:51,559
Demi! Demi!

1
01:08:51,592 --> 01:08:52,927
You guys ready to party?

1
01:08:52,961 --> 01:08:54,762
( cheering )

1
01:08:54,796 --> 01:08:57,298
If you know the words,
please help me sing along!

1
01:08:57,332 --> 01:08:58,800
( music playing )

1
01:08:58,832 --> 01:09:01,502
♪ Now I'm out here
looking like revenge ♪

1
01:09:01,536 --> 01:09:02,938
♪ Feelin' like a ten ♪

1
01:09:02,970 --> 01:09:04,672
♪ The best I ever been ♪

1
01:09:04,706 --> 01:09:07,708
<i> ♪ And, yeah, I know
 how bad it must hurt ♪</i>

1
01:09:07,742 --> 01:09:09,411
♪ To see me like this ♪

1
01:09:09,444 --> 01:09:10,846
♪ But it gets worse ♪

1
01:09:10,878 --> 01:09:12,180
( distorted ):<i>
 ♪ Wait a minute ♪</i>

1
01:09:12,213 --> 01:09:13,681
♪ Now payback is a bad bitch ♪

1
01:09:13,715 --> 01:09:15,384
♪ And, baby, I'm the baddest ♪

1
01:09:15,417 --> 01:09:17,219
<i> ♪ I'm playing with a savage ♪</i>

1
01:09:17,252 --> 01:09:18,820
♪ Can't have this,
can't have this ♪

1
01:09:18,853 --> 01:09:19,954
<i> ♪ Ah ♪</i>

1
01:09:19,988 --> 01:09:21,289
<i> ♪ And it'd be nice of me ♪</i>

1
01:09:21,323 --> 01:09:23,325
♪ To take it easy on ya ♪

1
01:09:23,358 --> 01:09:24,760
♪ But nah ♪

1
01:09:24,792 --> 01:09:26,694
♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:09:26,728 --> 01:09:27,895
♪ I'm not sorry ♪

1
01:09:27,929 --> 01:09:29,797
♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:09:29,831 --> 01:09:31,500
♪ I'm not sorry ♪

1
01:09:31,533 --> 01:09:34,636
<i> ♪ Being so bad
 got me feelin' so good ♪</i>

1
01:09:34,668 --> 01:09:35,871
Bad bitch.

1
01:09:35,904 --> 01:09:37,940
<i> Baby, I'm...</i>

1
01:09:37,972 --> 01:09:39,774
<i> ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪</i>

1
01:09:39,807 --> 01:09:40,775
<i> ♪ I'm not sorry ♪</i>

1
01:09:40,809 --> 01:09:42,277
Wait, what's ( bleep ) dope

1
01:09:42,310 --> 01:09:44,479
is getting police escorted
in my hometown.

1
01:09:44,511 --> 01:09:46,280
Woman:
Yeah.

1
01:09:46,314 --> 01:09:48,584
Should I go for the high note
or play it safe?

1
01:09:48,617 --> 01:09:50,985
I think you go
for the win tonight.

1
01:09:51,019 --> 01:09:54,523
♪ Better walk,
better walk that walk, baby ♪

1
01:09:54,555 --> 01:09:57,792
♪ If you talk,
if you talk that talk, baby ♪

1
01:09:57,826 --> 01:10:00,828
♪ Better walk,
better walk that walk, baby ♪

1
01:10:00,862 --> 01:10:01,930
♪ Oh! ♪

1
01:10:01,962 --> 01:10:03,465
♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:10:03,497 --> 01:10:04,865
♪ I'm not sorry ♪

1
01:10:04,899 --> 01:10:06,702
♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:10:06,734 --> 01:10:08,269
♪ I'm not sorry ♪

1
01:10:08,302 --> 01:10:11,506
♪ Being so bad
got me feelin' so good ♪

1
01:10:11,538 --> 01:10:14,842
♪ Showing you up
like I knew that I would ♪

1
01:10:14,876 --> 01:10:17,346
The benefit that I have
over some artists

1
01:10:17,378 --> 01:10:18,980
<i> is my connection with my fans.</i>

1
01:10:19,014 --> 01:10:21,682
<i>And I thought, "What better way
 to get my fans involved</i>

1
01:10:21,716 --> 01:10:24,353
<i> and to have
 intimate performances</i>

1
01:10:24,386 --> 01:10:26,655
<i> than to throw
 the House Party Tour?"</i>

1
01:10:26,688 --> 01:10:28,623
<i> Things like that</i>

1
01:10:28,657 --> 01:10:30,958
can turn into awesome memories.

1
01:10:30,992 --> 01:10:32,027
( audience cheering )

1
01:10:32,060 --> 01:10:33,562
<i>And that's what it's all about.</i>

1
01:10:33,595 --> 01:10:35,364
<i> Like, I wouldn't have
 the career</i>

1
01:10:35,396 --> 01:10:37,265
that I have today,
I wouldn't be alive today

1
01:10:37,298 --> 01:10:38,300
without my fans.

1
01:10:38,332 --> 01:10:40,735
<i> And I want them to be involved</i>

1
01:10:40,769 --> 01:10:42,003
<i> in any way they can</i>

1
01:10:42,037 --> 01:10:44,240
because it just means
so much to me.

1
01:10:46,440 --> 01:10:48,844
<i> ( music playing )</i>

1
01:10:58,019 --> 01:11:00,989
♪ Oh, no, here we go again ♪

1
01:11:01,021 --> 01:11:03,492
♪ Fighting over what I said ♪

1
01:11:03,524 --> 01:11:05,993
♪ I'm sorry ♪

1
01:11:06,027 --> 01:11:09,030
♪ Yeah, I'm sorry ♪

1
01:11:09,064 --> 01:11:12,634
♪ Bad at love, no,
I'm not good at this ♪

1
01:11:12,667 --> 01:11:15,003
♪ But I can't say I'm innocent ♪

1
01:11:15,036 --> 01:11:17,806
♪ Not hardly ♪

1
01:11:17,838 --> 01:11:20,641
♪ But I'm sorry ♪

1
01:11:20,675 --> 01:11:23,612
♪ And all my friends,
they know and it's true ♪

1
01:11:23,645 --> 01:11:26,615
♪ I don't know who I am
without you ♪

1
01:11:26,648 --> 01:11:29,583
♪ I got it bad, baby ♪

1
01:11:29,617 --> 01:11:31,420
♪ Got it bad ♪

1
01:11:31,453 --> 01:11:35,423
♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪

1
01:11:35,457 --> 01:11:37,993
♪ I need someone ♪

1
01:11:38,025 --> 01:11:40,394
♪ On days like this, I do ♪

1
01:11:40,427 --> 01:11:42,997
♪ On days like this ♪

1
01:11:43,030 --> 01:11:46,967
♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪

1
01:11:47,001 --> 01:11:49,738
♪ I need someone ♪

1
01:11:49,770 --> 01:11:52,573
♪ On days like this, I do ♪

1
01:11:52,606 --> 01:11:54,710
♪ On days like this ♪

1
01:11:54,743 --> 01:11:56,678
♪ Oh, can you hear
my heart say ♪

1
01:11:56,711 --> 01:11:59,315
( singers vocalizing )

1
01:12:01,750 --> 01:12:04,685
♪ No, you ain't nobody
'til you got somebody ♪

1
01:12:04,719 --> 01:12:07,456
♪ You ain't nobody
'til you got somebody ♪

1
01:12:07,488 --> 01:12:08,456
♪ My heart's like ♪

1
01:12:08,489 --> 01:12:10,893
( singers vocalizing )

1
01:12:13,395 --> 01:12:16,131
♪ No, you ain't nobody
'til you got somebody ♪

1
01:12:16,163 --> 01:12:20,101
♪ You ain't nobody
'til you got somebody ♪

1
01:12:20,135 --> 01:12:22,070
♪ Everything I need ♪

1
01:12:22,103 --> 01:12:23,404
♪ Oh ♪

1
01:12:23,438 --> 01:12:24,706
♪ Is standing in front of me ♪

1
01:12:24,738 --> 01:12:26,073
♪ Oh ♪

1
01:12:26,106 --> 01:12:29,411
♪ I know that
we will be all right ♪

1
01:12:29,444 --> 01:12:31,980
♪ All right, yeah ♪

1
01:12:32,012 --> 01:12:33,814
♪ Through the ups and downs ♪

1
01:12:33,847 --> 01:12:34,983
♪ Oh ♪

1
01:12:35,015 --> 01:12:36,484
♪ Baby, I'ma stick around ♪

1
01:12:36,518 --> 01:12:37,819
♪ Oh ♪

1
01:12:37,851 --> 01:12:41,622
♪ I promise we will be
all right ♪

1
01:12:41,655 --> 01:12:45,594
♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪

1
01:12:45,627 --> 01:12:47,929
♪ I need someone ♪

1
01:12:47,962 --> 01:12:50,966
♪ On days like this, I do ♪

1
01:12:50,998 --> 01:12:53,434
♪ On days like this ♪

1
01:12:53,467 --> 01:12:57,471
♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪

1
01:12:57,505 --> 01:13:00,108
<i> ♪ I need someone ♪</i>

1
01:13:00,140 --> 01:13:02,877
<i> ♪ On days like this, I do ♪</i>

1
01:13:02,911 --> 01:13:05,046
<i> ♪ On days like this ♪</i>

1
01:13:05,078 --> 01:13:06,847
♪ Oh, can you hear
my heart say ♪

1
01:13:06,881 --> 01:13:07,949
( singers vocalizing )

1
01:13:07,981 --> 01:13:09,083
♪ Hear my heart say ♪

1
01:13:10,551 --> 01:13:11,920
♪ Hear my heart say ♪

1
01:13:11,953 --> 01:13:14,856
♪ You ain't nobody
'til you got somebody ♪

1
01:13:14,889 --> 01:13:18,460
♪ You ain't nobody
'til you got somebody... ♪

1
01:13:18,493 --> 01:13:19,928
<i> When I look back at my life,</i>

1
01:13:19,961 --> 01:13:23,431
I feel like,
if I didn't have music,

1
01:13:23,465 --> 01:13:25,534
I don't know what I would have.

1
01:13:25,567 --> 01:13:28,170
<i> I have my friends
 and my family,</i>

1
01:13:28,203 --> 01:13:31,673
but music gave me a purpose
when I was bullied in school,

1
01:13:31,706 --> 01:13:34,074
<i> it gave me the motivation
 to keep going,</i>

1
01:13:34,108 --> 01:13:38,212
<i> and proved to everyone
 that didn't believe in me</i>

1
01:13:38,246 --> 01:13:40,481
<i> that I was gonna be
 something someday.</i>

1
01:13:40,515 --> 01:13:42,050
I look back
and I look at someone

1
01:13:42,082 --> 01:13:44,952
who slept 18 hours a day,

1
01:13:44,985 --> 01:13:46,988
<i> used drugs every day.</i>

1
01:13:47,020 --> 01:13:49,590
<i> And then you see someone
 today who's</i>

1
01:13:49,623 --> 01:13:52,193
inspired to make better music,

1
01:13:52,226 --> 01:13:54,528
<i> to talk about her own story,</i>

1
01:13:54,561 --> 01:13:56,730
<i> to help other people,</i>

1
01:13:56,764 --> 01:14:01,136
<i> and to make the world
 a better place.</i>

1
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And that's a miracle.

1
01:14:02,636 --> 01:14:05,606
She has lived
through a lot of stuff,

1
01:14:05,640 --> 01:14:08,643
<i> and she tries to put
 that stuff into her art</i>

1
01:14:08,676 --> 01:14:11,246
<i> because she's so authentic,
and that's why people love her.</i>

1
01:14:11,279 --> 01:14:13,482
She doesn't come in and go,
"Well, I need a hit."

1
01:14:13,515 --> 01:14:15,115
<i> She comes in with
 a passion for,</i>

1
01:14:15,149 --> 01:14:16,685
<i> "This is how
 I'm feeling right now</i>

1
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and this is how the people that

1
01:14:18,252 --> 01:14:19,854
I know listen to my music
are feeling."

1
01:14:19,887 --> 01:14:21,689
<i> There's other great singers
 out there,</i>

1
01:14:21,722 --> 01:14:24,059
<i> but, like, Demi's voice
 is Demi's voice,</i>

1
01:14:24,091 --> 01:14:26,527
and Demi's attitude
is Demi's attitude.

1
01:14:26,560 --> 01:14:28,028
♪ Everything I need ♪

1
01:14:28,061 --> 01:14:29,530
♪ Oh ♪

1
01:14:29,564 --> 01:14:30,899
♪ Is standing right
in front of me ♪

1
01:14:30,931 --> 01:14:32,266
♪ Oh ♪

1
01:14:32,300 --> 01:14:35,837
♪ I know that
we will be all right ♪

1
01:14:35,869 --> 01:14:38,105
♪ All right, yeah. ♪

1
01:14:38,139 --> 01:14:40,742
( cheering and applause )

1
01:14:42,543 --> 01:14:43,545
Thank you.

1
01:14:46,146 --> 01:14:48,015
<i> I know what music
 can get you through.</i>

1
01:14:48,048 --> 01:14:50,752
I know what music can...

1
01:14:50,784 --> 01:14:52,753
do emotionally for somebody

1
01:14:52,787 --> 01:14:54,588
because I've experienced
it myself.

1
01:14:54,622 --> 01:14:56,525
<i> And I wanted to create that
 for other people.</i>

1
01:14:56,557 --> 01:14:58,592
<i> There's nothing more beautiful
 than being able to</i>

1
01:14:58,626 --> 01:14:59,761
<i> connect with people
 through music,</i>

1
01:14:59,793 --> 01:15:01,061
in my eyes.

1
01:15:01,095 --> 01:15:06,167
♪ Stone cold, stone cold ♪

1
01:15:06,199 --> 01:15:08,537
♪ You see me standing ♪

1
01:15:08,569 --> 01:15:11,572
♪ But I'm dying on the floor ♪

1
01:15:11,605 --> 01:15:14,141
♪ Stone cold ♪

1
01:15:14,175 --> 01:15:16,778
♪ Stone cold ♪

1
01:15:16,810 --> 01:15:19,213
♪ Maybe if I don't cry ♪

1
01:15:19,247 --> 01:15:21,917
♪ I won't feel anymore ♪

1
01:15:21,949 --> 01:15:24,618
♪ Stone cold ♪

1
01:15:24,652 --> 01:15:26,988
♪ Baby ♪

1
01:15:27,020 --> 01:15:28,322
♪ God knows I ♪

1
01:15:28,355 --> 01:15:30,992
♪ Tried to feel ♪

1
01:15:31,024 --> 01:15:33,761
♪ Happy for you ♪

1
01:15:33,795 --> 01:15:34,762
♪ Know that ♪

1
01:15:34,796 --> 01:15:36,264
♪ I am ♪

1
01:15:36,296 --> 01:15:37,298
♪ Even if ♪

1
01:15:37,332 --> 01:15:41,336
♪ I can't understand ♪

1
01:15:41,368 --> 01:15:43,871
♪ I'll take the pain ♪

1
01:15:43,904 --> 01:15:46,608
( harmonizing with track ):
♪ Give me the truth ♪

1
01:15:46,640 --> 01:15:47,775
♪ Me and my ♪

1
01:15:47,809 --> 01:15:49,010
♪ Heart ♪

1
01:15:49,042 --> 01:15:50,344
♪ We'll make it ♪

1
01:15:50,377 --> 01:15:52,980
♪ Through ♪

1
01:15:53,014 --> 01:15:54,248
♪ If ♪

1
01:15:54,282 --> 01:15:59,186
♪ Happy is her... ♪

1
01:15:59,220 --> 01:16:00,188
♪ I'm happy for you ♪

1
01:16:00,220 --> 01:16:02,089
( girls laughing )

1
01:16:05,859 --> 01:16:08,630
♪ Stone cold ♪

1
01:16:08,662 --> 01:16:10,864
♪ Baby ♪

1
01:16:10,898 --> 01:16:14,868
♪ God knows I tried to feel ♪

1
01:16:14,902 --> 01:16:17,238
♪ Happy for you ♪

1
01:16:17,270 --> 01:16:19,873
♪ Know that I am ♪

1
01:16:19,907 --> 01:16:21,141
♪ Even if ♪

1
01:16:21,175 --> 01:16:22,644
♪ I ♪

1
01:16:22,676 --> 01:16:25,112
♪ Can't understand ♪

1
01:16:25,145 --> 01:16:27,782
♪ I'll take the pain ♪

1
01:16:27,814 --> 01:16:30,184
♪ Give me the truth ♪

1
01:16:30,217 --> 01:16:32,753
♪ Me and my heart ♪

1
01:16:32,787 --> 01:16:36,757
♪ We'll make it through ♪

1
01:16:36,791 --> 01:16:40,596
♪ ( intercut ):
If happy is her ♪

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01:16:42,863 --> 01:16:44,164
♪ I'm happy ♪

1
01:16:44,198 --> 01:16:47,902
♪ For you ♪

1
01:16:47,935 --> 01:16:51,940
Demi:<i>
 ♪ Don't wanna be stone cold ♪</i>

1
01:16:51,972 --> 01:16:54,175
<i> ♪ Stone ♪</i>

1
01:16:54,207 --> 01:16:56,877
<i> ♪ I wish I could mean this ♪</i>

1
01:16:56,911 --> 01:17:02,216
<i> ♪ But here's my good-bye ♪</i>

1
01:17:02,250 --> 01:17:06,186
<i> ♪ Oh, I'm happy for you ♪</i>

1
01:17:06,220 --> 01:17:08,957
<i> ♪ Know that I am ♪</i>

1
01:17:08,989 --> 01:17:11,291
<i> ♪ Even if I ♪</i>

1
01:17:11,324 --> 01:17:15,195
<i> ♪ Can't understand ♪</i>

1
01:17:15,229 --> 01:17:20,335
<i> ♪ If happy is her ♪</i>

1
01:17:20,368 --> 01:17:23,672
<i> ♪ If happy is ♪</i>

1
01:17:23,704 --> 01:17:25,407
<i> ♪ Her... ♪</i>

1
01:17:29,210 --> 01:17:32,346
<i> ♪ I'm happy for you. ♪</i>

1
01:17:57,471 --> 01:18:00,074
( song ends )

